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Love the Sinner: Embrace the Sin
[PaperAnn] While Sam and Dean were raised as hunters, it was their choice to continue the fight against evil—their duty to protect those who couldn’t protect themselves. Time and time again, they’d save the world, fight the monsters, but in truth: Destiny doomed the Winchesters from the start. Why else was Sam born as Lucifer’s true vessel, spiraling into a demon blood addiction so easily and spectacularly—unless an inherent darkness resided inside him all along? How could Dean wield the Mark of Cain, only passed down through biblical blood and honed by those few deemed 'worthy'—unless he wasn’t a natural-born sadistic killer? In a sad twist of irony, the Winchesters were always fated to be monsters, no matter how they tried to even the scales. Aboard a sinking ship, they chose insanity—Dean scraping together broken parts to stay afloat while Sam kept thinking love conquers all—maybe it was time to let go, to drown. Giving in didn’t necessarily mean giving up. Even if it hurt, there could be another life waiting for them. Together. Anything was better than being trapped in this cycle—whether it was cowardice or courage it didn’t matter—someone had to break it, before it broke them.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  dark!Dean  dark!Sam  demon!Dean  hurt!Sam  kink:demon-blood  kink:rough-sex  mark-of-cain!Dean  possessive!Dean  possessive!Sam  protective!Castiel  protective!Charlie  protective!Sam  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:25K-50K 
december 2019 by casey679
Everything Dies Given Time
[Minviendha (Lise)] AU from 5.03. Sam discovers something wrong with himself, and learns to live with it. Only a lot less functional.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:gen  angst  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  suicidal!Sam  temporary-character-death  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:1K-5K 
december 2019 by casey679
A Fever Dream
[brokenlittleboy] Sam should have known it was too good to be true. (Sam gets trapped in a djinn's fantasy in 02x20)
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  case!fic  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  protective!Bobby  suicidal!Sam  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:25K-50K 
november 2019 by casey679
The Breath Of All Things
[KismetJeska] Dean Winchester was twenty-six years old when a car accident killed his father and left him paralysed from the waist down. A year and a half later, Dean is in a wheelchair and lives in a care home in Kansas, where he spends his days waiting to die. It's only when Castiel Novak starts volunteering at the care home that Dean starts to wonder if a changed life always equals a ruined one.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Castiel  pairing:Sam/Jess  agent!Dean  angst  caregiver!Castiel  caregiver!Ellen  caregiver!Jody  depressed!Dean  disabled!Ava  disabled!Charlie  disabled!Dean  disabled!Jo  doctor!Bobby  hurt!Dean  mechanic!Dean  nurse!Lilith  nurse!Meg  nurse!Ruby  protective!Castiel  protective!Jess  protective!Sam  sick!Dean  sick!Jo  suicidal!Dean  therapist!Benny  therapist!Tessa  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  writer!Dean  fandom:Supernatural  length:50K-75K 
june 2019 by casey679
No Exit
[interflora] They keep driving until they can’t anymore, and then somehow they come back and do it again. Together. It’s not natural. Not right. Nothing about them is—but they keep going. Them’s the rules as far as Dean’s concerned. It’s not fair and it sure as hell ain’t easy but it’s what they do. If Sam stops, Dean stops. All there is to it. And he can’t stop now.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  kink:frottage  suicidal!Sam  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:5K-10K 
may 2019 by casey679
Seeing Wolves (Where There Are No Wolves)
[MellytheHun] Or otherwise known as "Derek Goes to the Doctor," wherein Derek gets the therapy he so desperately needs and gets healthy. The clearer his head gets, the more room it seems to have for Stiles.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  AU:Therapy-&-Recovery  pairing:Derek/Stiles  angst  bottom!Stiles  depressed!Derek  hurt!Derek  hurt!Stiles  protective!Derek  protective!Stiles  PTSD!Derek  PTSD!Stiles  recovery!fic  romantic  suicidal!Derek  trope:friends-to-lovers  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Teen-Wolf  length:50K-75K 
march 2017 by casey679
Five Weeks
[rei_c] It's seven pm, January twenty-fourth, and Jessica Moore is sitting on her couch with a crying omega in her lap. (aka, the one where Jess has to keep Sam alive until Dean comes to claim him.) (Five Weeks 1)
AU:ABO-Dynamics  AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:Jess/OFC(s)  alpha!Dean  alpha!Jess  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  kink:knotting  omega!Sam  protective!Jess  sick!Sam  student!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:suicide  verse:Five-Weeks  fandom:Supernatural  length:5K-10K 
march 2016 by casey679
Disintegration (series)
[Safiyabat] This series explores the deterioration of the family ties within the Winchester family between Sam's departure for Stanford and the series pilot. An attempt is made to explore the lives of all three Winchesters, exploring the reasons for the changes that take place in familial relationships over this three and a half year period. (Master Post)
AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:Brady/Sam  pairing:Sam/OFC(s)  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  A+parenting:Winchester  abused!Sam  angst  asshole!Dean  asshole!John  BAMF!Sam  depressed!Sam  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  powers!Sam  protective!Pastor-Jim  protective!Sam  psychic!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:child-abuse  tw:prejudice/discrimination  tw:suicide  verse:Disintegration  fandom:Supernatural  length:200K+ 
december 2015 by casey679
The Instant Message
[Dean's Fetish (Fetish)] A mis-sent Instant Message begins a flirtation that soon could turn into something more. That is, if Jared will come out from behind the computer and let Jensen see the real him.
AU  angst  asshole!Danneel  blind!Jared  bottom!Jared  depressed!Jared  hurt!Jared  hurt!Jensen  IT-tech!Jared  possessive!Jensen  priest!Misha  protective!Jensen  romantic  suicidal!Jared  writer!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  kink:bondage  A+parenting:Ackles  tw:suicide  tw:prejudice/discrimination  length:200K+ 
november 2015 by casey679
The Incremental Breakage of the Last Tenuous Strands
[smash86] Sometimes there is friendship and sometimes there is love… and sometimes you have no clue that you have fallen heart deep into someone’s soul. It’s only when you break apart that you realize you are trying to hold onto something that does not belong to you. Jared loses his girl, his family and then himself when he realizes the only thing he wants… the only thing he will never truly have is Jensen. He spirals into despair and drugs and Jensen, deep in his own denial of this thing between them, does not see the intensity of Jared’s destruction until it is nearly complete.
AU:Non-AU  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Jared/Genevieve  pairing:Jensen/Danneel  A+parenting:Padalecki  abused!Jared  angst  asshole!Genevieve  bottom!Jared  depressed!Jared  hurt!Jared  kink:drug-use  kink:rough-sex  oblivious!Jensen  protective!Jensen  suicidal!Jared  tw:drug-addiction  tw:dub/non-con  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:50K-75K 
october 2015 by casey679
On the Inverted Undoing of a Boy King
[sarahjeanne21] In which Sam snaps while Dean is busy not having fun at a crappy dive bar. Dean listens to Sam's breakdown with a stomach full of rotten whisky and 1600 miles in between them. Set in Season 5, after Dean tells Sam to pick a hemisphere. AU where the angels find Sam instead of Dean, and show him the universe they think will push him just the wrong way. Sam breaks.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:gen  angst  broken!Sam  depressed!Sam  goddamn-fucking-angels  hurt!Sam  protective!Dean  suicidal!Sam  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:1K-5K 
october 2015 by casey679
Soul Survivors
[tcs1121] "We were ordinary people until we became part of a tragedy. We feel guilty for living when others have died. We come together because unless you've been through what we've been through, you can't understand what it's like to be us. We are the survivors." Ten months ago, Jared made a choice that kept him from dying in a plane crash. Now he searches for meaning and a way to get through the guilt of being alive when someone else was dead.
AU:Therapy-&-Recovery  pairing:Jensen/Jared  angst  awesome!Chad  bottom!Jared  counselor!Jensen  depressed!Jared  disabled!Jensen  editor!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  protective!Chad  protective!Jensen  recovery!fic  religious!Jared  religious!Jensen  scientist!Jared  student!Jared  suicidal!Jared  survivor's-guilt!Jared  survivor's-guilt!Jensen  therapist!JDM  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:25K-50K 
august 2015 by casey679
[Safiyabat] AU after "Free to Be You and Me" (5.03) After the events of "Free to Be You and Me," Gabriel tracks Sam down to his motel room to and tries to convince him to get things over with and give himself over to Lucifer. His pitch is interrupted when Sam's coworker Lindsey arrives on the scene and refuses to leave Sam when he clearly needs help. Unwilling to draw the innocent Lindsey into his attempt to force Sam to give in, Gabriel finds himself drawn into Sam's attempts to fight Lucifer. Meanwhile, Dean returns from Zachariah's projected future to find that Sam's phone has been turned off. Can Gabriel do anything to turn the tide of the Apocalypse?
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Gabriel/Sam  pairing:Gabriel/Sam/Lindsey  pairing:Dean/Anna  angst  asshole!Castiel  asshole!Dean  asshole!Gabriel  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  powers!Sam  protective!Gabriel  protective!Lindsey  suicidal!Sam  temporary-character-death  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:75K-100K 
may 2015 by casey679
Burn Your Name
[smash86] A demon kidnaps Sam and tortures him when he's at his lowest. Sam, being Sam, thinks he deserves it after all he's done.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  abused!Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  kidnapped!Sam  kink:bondage  kink:rough-sex  suicidal!Sam  tw:dub/non-con  tw:suicide  tw:torture  fandom:Supernatural  length:10K-15K 
april 2015 by casey679
On Knife Edge
[dont_hate_me01] A Dom from the past sends Jared on a down spiral from which he can only recover with the help of his new Dom. Jensen’s got his task cut out for him; two years of hard work nearly flushed down the drain because of one chance meeting.
AU:BDSM-&-Alt-Lifestyles  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Mike/Jared  abused!Jared  angst  bottom!Jared  dark!Jensen  dom!Jensen  hitman!Misha  hurt!Jared  kink:BDSM  kink:blood-play  kink:bondage  kink:catheter/sounding  kink:cock-cage  kink:D/s  kink:face-fucking  kink:knife-play  kink:orgasm-denial/delay  kink:overstimulation  kink:pain-play  kink:sex-toys  protective!Jensen  shy/insecure!Jared  sub!Jared  suicidal!Jared  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:10K-15K 
april 2015 by casey679
Suspended Harmonies
[costsofregret] Trying to complete his final year of college, Jared is forced to take an 18th century British literature course taught by Professor Morgan and with one Jensen Ackles as the teaching assistant. Things heat up between Jared and his TA but revelations about Jensen's sexual preferences and Jared's traumatic romantic past throw them for a loop. Can Jared accept Jensen's kind of love? Can Jensen give Jared what he needs?
AU:College  pairing:Jared/Matt  pairing:Jensen/Jared  angst  engineer!Jared  genderqueer!Jensen  protective!Danneel  romantic  shy/insecure!Jared  student!Jared  student!Jensen  TA!Jensen  teacher!JDM  teacher!Misha  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:20K-25K 
january 2015 by casey679
[dragonflybeach] Sam didn't look for Dean when he and Cas vanished from Sucrocorp. He couldn't even look after himself. Jody picks up the pieces... and then Dean returns and they shatter all over again.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  AU:Curtain-fic  pairing:Jody/Sam  angst  broken!Sam  daddy/guardian!Sam  depressed!Sam  protective!Jody  suicidal!Sam  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:5K-10K 
january 2015 by casey679
[noobieninja] Dean is the eldest, Adam is the beloved little brother, and Sam is left to pick up the pieces of himself every time his family shatters him.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:gen  A+parenting:Winchester  angst  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  little-brother!Adam  protective!Adam  protective!Dean  shy/insecure!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:10K-15K 
november 2014 by casey679

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