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No Exit
[interflora] They keep driving until they can’t anymore, and then somehow they come back and do it again. Together. It’s not natural. Not right. Nothing about them is—but they keep going. Them’s the rules as far as Dean’s concerned. It’s not fair and it sure as hell ain’t easy but it’s what they do. If Sam stops, Dean stops. All there is to it. And he can’t stop now.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  kink:frottage  suicidal!Sam  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:5K-10K 
may 2019 by casey679
Written in the Scars on Our Hearts
[SPNkink-meme] Dean never forgives his dad for sending Sam away. He knows that he probably thought Dean would understand or even forget Sam and just move on. But Dean never does. How can he? From the moment that Sammy was born, he was the center of Dean’s world. Then after the fire, Sam became his. Dad put baby Sammy into his arms that night, entrusting Dean with his safety, and Dean took that very seriously. When Dean presented at eight as a Dom, his protective instincts got even stronger and he knew that he’d spend his life taking care of his little brother. Especially when Sammy presented as a sub four years later.
AU:BDSM-&-Alt-Lifestyles  AU:Raised-Apart  A+parenting:Winchester  abused!Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  dom!Dean  foster-care!Sam  hurt!Sam  kink:D/s  protective!Bobby  protective!Dean  sub!Sam  suicidal!Sam  touch-starved!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:10K-15K 
april 2017 by casey679
Of Hands and Truths
[PuppiesRainbowsSadism] Sam and Castiel finally come clean about what happened to them during the four years they were apart. (Mandrake and Moonstone 2)
AU:Magic  pairing:Castiel/Sam  angst  animal-shelter!Benny  creature!Castiel  familiar!Castiel  hurt!Castiel  hurt!Sam  magic!Sam  powers!Sam  protective!Benny  protective!Dean  PTSD!Castiel  PTSD!Sam  suicidal!Sam  verse:Mandrake-and-Moonstone  fandom:Supernatural  length:1K-5K 
december 2016 by casey679
The Good Ole Boys
[PosingAsMe] Sam and Dean haven't done much with their lives. They spend their days looking for work, and their evenings are spent with their motorcycles and beer. At home, they care for their father, broken from before they can remember. Then comes the stranger who claims to be family, and the men trying to catch him.
AU:Bikers  AU:Ranch-&-Farm  pairing:Castiel/Sam  pairing:Dean/Jo  abused!Adam  addict!Sam  angst  asshole!Michael  big-brother!Sam  biker!Dean  biker!Sam  bottom!Castiel  closeted!Sam  daddy/guardian!Castiel  dancer!Castiel  disabled!John  farmer!Dean  farmer!Sam  little-brother!Adam  protective!Dean  protective!Sam  PTSD!John  shy/insecure!Sam  social-worker!Castiel  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:25K-50K 
december 2016 by casey679
Run So Far (That I Am Standing Still)
Sam Winchester's been in love with his big brother Dean for as long as he can remember, and he's never told anyone but Dr. Cas Novak. From their first session together, Cas finds himself fully entrenched in Sam's sad story with a fervor that's not entirely professional. Under his overly intimate and fairly unorthodox methods, even Dean notices the change in his usually gloomy brother and decides maybe therapy's not so bad. Sam definitely shouldn't refer his brother to Cas. Cas definitely shouldn't take him on but his curiosity wins out, and he soon finds himself trying to wave the white flag in the middle of a very fucked up battleground.
AU  pairing:Castiel/Sam  pairing:Dean/Castiel  pairing:Dean/Castiel/Sam  pairing:Dean/OFC(s)  pairing:Dean/OMC(s)  pairing:Dean/Sam/OMC(s)  angst  bottom!Sam  bottom!Dean  bottom!Castiel  depressed!Sam  lawyer!Sam  mechanic!Dean  therapist!Castiel  polyamory  shy/insecure!Sam  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  kink:dirty-talk  kink:exhibitionism  kink:face-fucking  kink:voyeurism  kink:role-play  kink:incest  kink:phone-sex  kink:drug-use  tw:dub/non-con 
november 2016 by casey679
Five Weeks
[rei_c] It's seven pm, January twenty-fourth, and Jessica Moore is sitting on her couch with a crying omega in her lap. (aka, the one where Jess has to keep Sam alive until Dean comes to claim him.) (Five Weeks 1)
AU:ABO-Dynamics  AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:Jess/OFC(s)  alpha!Dean  alpha!Jess  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  kink:knotting  omega!Sam  protective!Jess  student!Sam  suicidal!Sam  verse:Five-Weeks  fandom:Supernatural  length:5K-10K 
march 2016 by casey679
Broken (Masterpost)
[Phantisma] Dean is kidnapped, broken and brainwashed. Months later, Sam buys Dean back from a man who specializes in selling slaves... and that is just the beginning of a journey that will lead all of them into a dark hell, from which no one emerges unscathed. As Sam tries to cure Dean, he is drawn deeper into a web that could leave him as broken as his brother... if he can even live with the things he had to do to get Dean back in the first place. (Broken Masterpost)
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:Dean/OMC(s)  pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:John/Ellen  pairing:Sam/Jess  pairing:Sam/OFC(s)  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  A+parenting:Winchester  abused!Dean  abused!Sam  angst  asshole!Jo  bottom!Dean  bottom!Sam  brainwashed!Dean  brainwashed!Sam  broken!Dean  broken!Sam  dark!Sam  disabled!Sam  hurt!Dean  hurt!John  hurt!Sam  kidnapped!Dean  kidnapped!Sam  kink:BDSM  kink:body-modification  kink:bondage  kink:brainwashing/mindfuckery  kink:cock-cage  kink:D/s  kink:dehumanization  kink:drug-use  kink:enemas  kink:exhibitionism  kink:face-fucking  kink:gangbang  kink:humiliation  kink:mindbreak  kink:orgasm-denial/delay  kink:overstimulation  kink:rough-sex  kink:scarification  kink:sensory-deprivation  kink:sex-toys  kink:training/conditioning  kink:voyeurism  possessed!Sam  possessive!Dean  possessive!Sam  protective!Bobby  protective!Caleb  protective!Dean  protective!John  protective!Sam  slave!Dean  slave!Sam  sub!Dean  sub!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:dub/non-con  tw:torture  verse:Broken  fandom:Supernatural  length:200K+ 
january 2016 by casey679
Touch and Go
Tag to 9.19 (Alex Annie Alexis Ann) in which Dean realises why, exactly, Sam is so angry about what happened with Gadreel.
gen  angst  hurt!Sam  protective!Dean  suicidal!Sam  tattooed!Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
january 2016 by casey679
Mandrake and Moonstone
[PuppiesRainbowsSadism] Four years (one month, and eight days) ago, Sam was one of the most impressive witches in the world, having worked his way into the prestigious international Order of witches, warlocks, and other magical folk with nothing but determination, talent, and his familiar by his side. In fact, Sam couldn't have been happier, because despite the taboos surrounding it, despite their fear, Sam and his familiar, Castiel, had fallen hard for each other. But four years (one month, and seven days) ago, a horrible fire brought everything tumbling down around Sam's ears: His books, supplies, mentor, and familiar all burnt to a crisp, and Sam was suspended from The Order pending investigation. Imagine his surprise when Castiel appears on his doorstep, very much alive and carrying the message that The Order wants him back. (Mandrake and Moonstone 1)
AU:Magic  pairing:Castiel/Sam  angst  animal-shelter!Benny  creature!Castiel  familiar!Castiel  hurt!Castiel  hurt!Sam  magic!Sam  powers!Sam  protective!Benny  protective!Dean  PTSD!Castiel  PTSD!Sam  suicidal!Sam  verse:Mandrake-and-Moonstone  fandom:Supernatural  length:15K-20K 
december 2015 by casey679
All The King's Horses
[Safiyabat] When Sam is unable to restrain Demon!Dean to cure him on his own, he tracks down Gabriel and makes him an offer that makes even an archangel blanch. Instead of giving Sam what he wants, the Trickster enlists the help of Castiel and Flagstaff to help both brothers remember that it was their love story that saved the world once... by sending them on a quest through Sam's mind.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  gen  angst  asshole!Castiel  demon!Dean  depressed!Sam  protective!Castiel  protective!Gabriel  suicidal!Sam  trickstervention  fandom:Supernatural  length:15K-20K 
december 2015 by casey679
This Kid's Not Alright
[Safiyabat] What exactly did Sam get up to at Bobby's while Dean was at Sonny's? When John makes a very odd request of the older hunter, Bobby takes the boy into his home for a few months. It isn't an easy time for either of them.
gen  A+parenting:Winchester  abused!Sam  angst  asshole!John  case!fic  hurt!Sam  protective!Bobby  suicidal!Sam  tw:eating-disorder  fandom:Supernatural  length:20K-25K 
december 2015 by casey679
Disintegration (series)
[Safiyabat] This series explores the deterioration of the family ties within the Winchester family between Sam's departure for Stanford and the series pilot. An attempt is made to explore the lives of all three Winchesters, exploring the reasons for the changes that take place in familial relationships over this three and a half year period.
abused!Sam  angst  asshole!Dean  asshole!John  BAMF!Sam  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  powers!Sam  protective!Jim  protective!Sam  psychic!Sam  suicidal!Sam  AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  A+parenting:Winchester  pairing:Sam/OFC(s)  pairing:Brady/Sam  fandom:Supernatural  tw:prejudice/discrimination 
december 2015 by casey679
The Darkest Hours
[AlElizabeth] AU set Season One. When John fails to return after a hunt, Dean drives to Stanford to enlist his brother's help in finding their father. There is one problem though: Sam isn't in California. Sam has disappeared.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  AU:Stanford-Era  gen  A+parenting:Winchester  abused!Sam  angst  asshole!Gordon  disabled!Sam  hurt!Sam  kidnapped!Sam  protective!Bobby  protective!Dean  sick!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:torture  vampire!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:50K-75K 
november 2015 by casey679
This Bewildering House
When the Devil first started talking to him, Sam had thought it was strange that he had to ask Sam questions and didn’t just pluck the answers from his mind. But after a while he’d figured out that for some reason, it didn’t seem to work like that. Satan could set up housekeeping all he wanted, but it looked like the doors to all of the closets where Sam kept his precious secrets had locks on them. Thank God—or whoever—for small mercies.
angst  bottom!Dean  hurt!Sam  possessed!Sam  protective!Dean  romantic  suicidal!Sam  pairing:Dean/Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/OMC(s)  fandom:Supernatural 
october 2015 by casey679
Mosh Up
[PosingAsMe] Soulless Sam, Demon Dean, Cain and Benny the Fang are the stage names for members of Croatoan, the popular punk metal band. While playing at Crowley's club Contagion, a punk goth with dragon wing tattoos catches his eye, and he determines that he will have him. Emmanuel, who goes by Castiel, is far more than the pretty toy Sam was looking for. Dean and Pamela are sitting on a secret between them that threatens to change everyone's lives forever, and it's time to tell Sam.
AU:Rockstars-&-Roadies  pairing:Castiel/Sam  pairing:Dean/Pamela  addict!Benny  addict!Cain  angst  asshole!Brady  blasphemy  bottom!Castiel  dark!Sam  depressed!Sam  god!Castiel  hurt!Dean  kink:blood-play  kink:D/s  kink:drug-use  kink:knife-play  kink:piercings  kink:rough-sex  kink:tattoos  kink:topping-from-the-bottom  manager!Pamela  musician!Benny  musician!Cain  musician!Dean  musician!Sam  powers!Castiel  priest!Castiel  protective!Gabriel  protective!Sam  punk!Castiel  punk!Dean  punk!Sam  roadie!Andy  romantic  sick!Dean  soulless!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tattooed!Castiel  tattooed!Dean  tattooed!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:25K-50K 
october 2015 by casey679
The Deepest Conviction
It takes a long time for Sam to say ‘yes.’ Spoilers for 5.04.
gen  AU:Endverse  abused!Sam  angst  hurt!Sam  slave!Sam  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
october 2015 by casey679
On the Inverted Undoing of a Boy King
[sarahjeanne21] In which Sam snaps while Dean is busy not having fun at a crappy dive bar. Dean listens to Sam's breakdown with a stomach full of rotten whisky and 1600 miles in between them. Set in Season 5, after Dean tells Sam to pick a hemisphere. AU where the angels find Sam instead of Dean, and show him the universe they think will push him just the wrong way. Sam breaks.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  gen  angst  broken!Sam  depressed!Sam  goddamn-fucking-angels  hurt!Sam  protective!Dean  suicidal!Sam  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:1K-5K 
october 2015 by casey679
Songs For A Winters Night
Set directly after Captives(9.14). Sam isn’t ready to forgive Dean for allowing an angel, a psycho angel, to possess him even if it was to save his life. Being at odds with Dean on top of everything else that’s happened is just too much, so Sam makes a wish never thinking it will be granted. The results could give the Winchesters what they’ve always wanted: a happy, loving relationship with one another. Will the Winchesters get their happy ending or will the past come back to haunt them and take from Dean the one thing he can’t bear to lose? His brother.
abused!Sam  amnesia!Sam  angst  bottom!Dean  bottom!Sam  cursed!Sam  faeries  post-Cage!Sam  protective!Dean  suicidal!Sam  pairing:Dean/Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  fandom:Supernatural  tw:torture  trope:magic-bond 
september 2015 by casey679
Hey Jude
[atlas (cissysullivan)] Mary died in a car crash. John spends what little money he makes on drink. Sam can only seem to make enemies at school rather than friends. Dean fights in back alleys and underground clubs to keep his little brother’s belly full and a roof over his head. The Winchesters are a normal family. (Fic was deleted; I have PDF) (Also archived at https://stigmatasam.livejournal.com/20675.html)
AU:High-School  pairing:Dean/Lisa  pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:Sam/Jess  A+parenting:Winchester  abused!Dean  abused!Jess  abused!Sam  angst  awesome!Lisa  bottom!Sam  bullied!Sam  fighter!Dean  foster-care!Dean  foster-care!Sam  hurt!Dean  hurt!Jess  hurt!Sam  student!Dean  student!Jess  student!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:dub/non-con  fandom:Supernatural  length:25K-50K 
september 2015 by casey679
Learning to Live Again
[MonPetitTresor] Set after the boys went their separate ways. Sam called Dean to tell him that he was Lucifer’s vessel, only to have his brother tell him how much better they were apart. Hurt, and afraid, Sam did the only thing that he thought might work to keep Lucifer from claiming his vessel. Unfortunately, he woke up anyways. Only, when he woke, it was to find the Trickster of all people sitting on the bed across from him. He hadn’t expected to see him of all people there, and he certainly hadn’t expected to find him in his car the next morning, announcing that he was going to be traveling with him. Together, they set out, one to try and stop this whole thing, and the other for reasons that he keeps to himself. Loki’s open about his opinion that Sam is going to eventually say ‘yes’. To him, it’s not even a question To Sam, it’s the one thing he’s determined to keep from happening.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Gabriel/Sam  pairing:Dean/Castiel  pairing:Bobby/Ellen  angst  asshole!Dean  bottom!Sam  hurt!Sam  protective!Gabriel  suicidal!Sam  trickstervention  tw:self-harm  fandom:Supernatural  length:100K+ 
september 2015 by casey679
Stuck
Things go from bad to worse in a small Wyoming town until Sam and Dean are stranded in the middle of nowhere in a blizzard, where there's nothing to do but talk about all the things they've never been able to before--things that may be better left unsaid. At least maybe now Dean can try to fix whatever's going so wrong inside Sam that's made him so cold and hostile all these past months, but talking about feelings has never been Dean's forte.
gen  angst  hurt!Sam  suicidal!Sam  A+parenting:Winchester  fandom:Supernatural 
september 2015 by casey679
Gifts
Dean discovers sometimes the greatest sacrifices aren't that big after all, and the smallest gifts can make all the difference.
gen  case!fic  cursed!Sam  disabled!Sam  hurt!Sam  mechanic!Dean  protective!Dean  PTSD!Dean  PTSD!Sam  sick!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tutor!Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
august 2015 by casey679
The Alpha's Home
A society where all siblings present the same. After Dean presents as an omega, John sells him and Sam to a blue-eyed alpha. Dean's more worried about Sam getting abused than himself.
abused!Dean  abused!Sam  alpha!Castiel  alpha!Gabriel  alpha!Sam  asshole!Castiel  bottom!Dean  bottom!Sam  depressed!Dean  depressed!Sam  mpreg!Dean  polyamory  protective!Gabriel  suicidal!Sam  AU:ABO-Dynamics  AU:Dystopia-&-Post-Apocalypse  pairing:Dean/Castiel/Sam  fandom:Supernatural  kink:panties  kink:spanking  kink:D/s  tw:dub/non-con 
august 2015 by casey679
The Power of Distraction
A hunt leaves Sam unexpectedly shaken up, but there is something more to this emotional trauma than meets the eye. When Sam is in trouble, Dean has to find a way to distract him.
angst  hurt!Sam  post-Cage!Sam  protective!Dean  suicidal!Sam  pairing:Dean/Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Lucifer/Sam  fandom:Supernatural  tw:dub/non-con 
august 2015 by casey679
Come Undone
Sam's head tilts in puzzlement, them blinks as though looking inward for answers. After a moment a smirk appears that makes Dean queasy. "You don't know do you?" Sam's fox sharp eyes, map his brother’s bare torso, blade ghosting over his abs, just this side of a caress. "Fuck off." Sam's fingers tap lightly on his forehead. "Oh Dean, the secrets your little brother keeps from you…" Soft tutting sound, as the caressing blade goes deeper, drawing blood. "The secrets you've kept from each other - I see them all in his head. Lies, denial and whiskey. Winchester way of life."
abused!Dean  angst  bottom!Dean  case!fic  faeries  hurt!Dean  possessed!Sam  suicidal!Sam  pairing:Dean/Sam  A+parenting:Winchester  fandom:Supernatural  tw:dub/non-con 
august 2015 by casey679
Punching in a Dream
After being told he can't go to Stanford, Sam is found with his wrists slit in an apparent suicide attempt. Only thing is, he doesn't remember doing it.
gen  angst  hurt!Sam  oblivious!Dean  suicidal!Sam  A+parenting:Winchester  fandom:Supernatural  kink:drug-use 
july 2015 by casey679
Invisible Boy (Masterpost)
Sam and Dean didn’t fall in love. They never had to. It was always there, this desperation between them, like a real, breathing thing. When they came together, it was inevitable. As sure as continents colliding, as the phases of the moon and the life and death of stars. This isn’t a love story, but it’s a story of love.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:Dean/Cassie  pairing:Dean/OFC(s)  pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:Sam/Jess  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  angst  bottom!Dean  bottom!Sam  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  kink:drug-use  kink:exhibitionism  kink:knife-play  kink:pegging  kink:rough-sex  kink:somnophilia  possessive!Dean  possessive!Sam  protective!Dean  sick!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:dub/non-con  tw:eating-disorder  tw:underage  verse:Invisible-Boy  fandom:Supernatural  length:200K+ 
july 2015 by casey679
Escaping Destiny
Set after Dean told Sam to pick a hemisphere and hung up on him in S5. Sam realizes that he has to stop Lucifer from taking him for a vessel. At all costs.
gen  hurt!Sam  suicidal!Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  fandom:Supernatural 
july 2015 by casey679
Something To Share
Sam brought the cigarette to his lips. He didn’t lick it like he wanted to. Last time it had taken five full minutes of scrubbing his tongue to get rid of the taste. Lips where Dean’s had been had to be enough. He tilted his head to keep his bangs from being singed, the tip of his nose from getting too close to the fire. A quick suck between pursed lips and the tobacco caught and lighted. He plucked it quickly from his mouth. He’d been practicing, but he didn’t feel like smoking tonight. He was already a little queasy. Hungry- Sammy, get something to eat. Lonely- two sets of tail lights speeding away from him. Excited.
pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  kink:pain-play  suicidal!Sam  tw:eating-disorder  tw:self-harm  tw:underage  fandom:Supernatural  length:20K-25K 
july 2015 by casey679
Leaving Home
[storyspinner70] Sam loves Dean, of course, but not at all like he's supposed to. Ashamed of how he feels, Sam heads to Stanford to try and get over it. What he finds instead is that absence really does make the heart grow fonder and that true monsters don't always come from Hell.
AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  pairing:Dean/Sam  abused!Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  kink:BDSM  kink:bondage  kink:breath-play  kink:D/s  kink:face-fucking  kink:rough-sex  protective!Dean  slave!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:domestic-abuse  tw:dub/non-con  tw:torture  fandom:Supernatural  length:5K-10K 
july 2015 by casey679
Tired and Emotional
[Kroki-Refur] Fremont may be a distant memory, but it seems Sam might not be out of the woods yet... (Sensory Deprivation 2)
gen  angst  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  powers!Sam  psychic!Sam  suicidal!Sam  verse:Sensory-Deprivation  fandom:Supernatural  length:20K-25K 
july 2015 by casey679
Long Shadows
Six years after the Winchesters spent a few weeks in the small town of Campbell Pass, Sam and Dean are back in town on a case. They'll find that not all evil is supernatural, and this job will lead to the revelation of secrets Sam hoped to keep hidden. Set in Season 1.
gen  angst  case!fic  hurt!Sam  kidnapped!Sam  protective!Dean  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
july 2015 by casey679
Fell on Black Days
You can only take so much before you break. Since Dean returned from purgatory, Sam has been taking hits. This is one hit too many.
gen  angst  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  suicidal!Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  fandom:Supernatural 
june 2015 by casey679
The New Chapter
Season 2 AU. After discovering a secret that Sam's been keeping, Dean convinces his brother that it would be beneficial if he were admitted to a mental health center. Sam's roommate, a man with messy black hair and sharp blue eyes and the unique name of Castiel, shows him the ropes and they soon become attached to one another. When Castiel discovers Sam's true identity, it's up to them to help them to start a new chapter in their lives.
angst  depressed!Sam  hurt!Castiel  protective!Dean  suicidal!Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Castiel/Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
may 2015 by casey679
Here We Still Remain
With Lucifer tormenting his dreams, Sam fears sleep so much he sees only one way to get any rest at all. It's not pretty, but it does the job, and Sam is nothing if not pragmatic. Dean doesn't need to know, but then, he doesn't seem to care anyway. As Sam slowly crumbles under the weight of exhaustion, guilt, and his brother's mistrust, it's Castiel who unexpectedly reaches out to him - but the solution the angel offers might well be worse than the problem.
angst  hurt!Sam  suicidal!Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Castiel/Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
may 2015 by casey679
Babel
[Safiyabat] AU after "Free to Be You and Me" (5.03) After the events of "Free to Be You and Me," Gabriel tracks Sam down to his motel room to and tries to convince him to get things over with and give himself over to Lucifer. His pitch is interrupted when Sam's coworker Lindsey arrives on the scene and refuses to leave Sam when he clearly needs help. Unwilling to draw the innocent Lindsey into his attempt to force Sam to give in, Gabriel finds himself drawn into Sam's attempts to fight Lucifer. Meanwhile, Dean returns from Zachariah's projected future to find that Sam's phone has been turned off. Can Gabriel do anything to turn the tide of the Apocalypse?
angst  asshole!Dean  bottom!Sam  powers!Sam  suicidal!Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Gabriel/Sam  pairing:Gabriel/Lindsey  pairing:Gabriel/Sam/Lindsey  pairing:Dean/Anna  fandom:Supernatural 
may 2015 by casey679
Someone Else's Story
AU - John gives the boys up for adoption, and at an early age Dean and Sam are separated then later adopted into two different families, in two different states. By a chance of Fate (whose name is Castiel) the two brothers find each other - Sam’s in 10th grade, the youngest in his class having skipped several grades, and Dean, also in 10th grade, is his ‘penpal’. Dean thinks the whole thing is dumb, Sam’s just glad to have a friend.
angst  artist!Sam  bottom!Dean  bottom!Sam  closeted!Dean  goddamn-fucking-angels  musician!Dean  student!Dean  student!Sam  suicidal!Sam  supergenius!Sam  pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  AU:Raised-Apart  pairing:Dean/OFC(s)  AU:College  AU:High-School  pairing:Crowley/Dean  pairing:Alastair/Dean  pairing:Sam/Ansem/Andy  fandom:Supernatural 
may 2015 by casey679
Nothing Matters But the Part with the Numbers
It would be almost frighteningly easy to step away from a time loop and simply...forget about it for a bit. Not on purpose, of course, but you know how things come up. And while it may only be a little while for the demigod creator, that could be forever in the mind of the only human who doesn't reset.
gen  angst  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  mystery-spot!Sam  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  tw:torture 
may 2015 by casey679
For Him
[deadlynight27] The shower’s barely turned on before I start crying again. It’s like I can’t control the shaky sobs that escape my throat. I stare at my reflection in the mirror, slowly fogging up and distorting my appearance. I look different, dirtied. Before even realizing it, my hands are tugging and pulling desperately at my hoodie. I rip it off and throw it to the floor like it had scalded me. I peel off my t-shirt next and follow it up with my shoes, socks, jeans and underwear. I look at the pile of offending clothing wanting to burn it. I can never wear it again. Not without… I glare at my reflection. “Why the fuck didn’t you stop him?” I whisper.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  A+parenting:Winchester  addict!Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  hooker!Sam  hurt!Sam  kink:drug-use  mute!Sam  protective!Dean  PTSD!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:dub/non-con  tw:eating-disorder  tw:prejudice/discrimination  tw:self-harm  fandom:Supernatural  length:5K-10K 
may 2015 by casey679
Riot Gear
Sam's first thought after Dean and Cas, after Kevin and Crowley and a room full of slime had become a memory embedded in his mind like shrapnel, didn't come until he was three states away staring out of the Impala's cracked windshield. 'This is all I have left then.' (Also archived at http://spnkink-meme.livejournal.com/66638.html?thread=21109326#t21109326)
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  broken!Sam  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  mentally-impaired!Sam  miscarriage  mpreg!Sam  post-Cage!Sam  post-Purgatory!Dean  sick!Sam  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:20K-25K 
april 2015 by casey679
Burn Your Name
A demon kidnaps Sam and tortures him when he's at his lowest. Sam, being Sam, thinks he deserves it after all he's done.
abused!Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  hurt!Sam  suicidal!Sam  pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  fandom:Supernatural  kink:rough-sex  kink:bondage  tw:torture  tw:dub/non-con 
april 2015 by casey679
The Start Of Something
When Dean's soul doesn't ascend to Heaven, Castiel realizes that the Mark had more of an effect on Dean than he'd hoped. He seeks out Sam, only to find him less than open to angelic assistance. Together they must work to find Dean and save his humanity. In doing so, Castiel finds that he's been overlooking something that's been right under (okay, over) his nose the whole time. Even realizing his affections for Sam, however, might not be enough to bring the pair together.
angst  asshole!Castiel  asshole!Dean  BAMF!Sam  demon!Dean  hurt!Sam  mark-of-cain!Dean  shy/insecure!Sam  sick!Sam  suicidal!Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Castiel/Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
april 2015 by casey679
You Better Start Swimming
Sam is abducted - kidnapped - for a month by a teacher who knows about the demon blood inside Sam. Sam and Dean struggle to stay afloat - and stick together- after the trauma.
gen  abused!Sam  broken!Sam  hurt!Sam  kidnapped!Sam  protective!Dean  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
march 2015 by casey679
When Our Minds Betray Us
It's been eight months since Jessica died, and Sam is back at Stanford. His friends say he suffered a nervous breakdown. How will Sam react when he learns the truth?
amnesia!Sam  angst  case!fic  cursed!Sam  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  suicidal!Sam  pairing:Sam/Jess  pairing:Dean/Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  fandom:Supernatural 
march 2015 by casey679
Three Rings and a Hang Up
Dean scrambles for the phone when it falls silent after the third ring, because three rings and a hang-up has always been his and Sam's code for an emergency, ever since the first time Sam tried to kill himself.
gen  angst  suicidal!Sam  AU:Stanford-Era  fandom:Supernatural 
march 2015 by casey679
The Ghost of Somebody At His Side
The night before Sam Winchester meets with his 12th grade guidance counselor for the second time, something very bad happens. Sam lets his best-kept secret out of the bag, sending Dean fleeing form the house in apparent disgust. It's one of those somethings that takes only a ridiculously short amount of time – in this case, about three minutes – yet manages to change the course of two lives forever. Or: Sam goes to Stanford, and takes most of Dean's heart with him.
angst  bottom!Dean  suicidal!Sam  AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:Dean/Sam  AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  fandom:Supernatural 
february 2015 by casey679
Oh Brother, Where Art Thou?
Sam has a plan to keep Lucifer from using him. Dean has a better idea.
gen  angst  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
february 2015 by casey679
Baba O'Riley and Eleanor Rigby Walk Into a Bar
“Why now?” he rasps after a few tense moments. “After four years, why come to me now?” She glances down at her lap, dark cheeks flushing darker bashfully as she picks at the grip of her pen with clean fingernails. “Honestly?” The ‘est’ syllable is tacky on the back of her tongue. “He goes to college soon. For four year I have been trying to treat Sam as if he were…” She pauses for a moment, a lost expression clouding her eyes as she hunts her secondary language for the appropriate vocabulary. “I have treated him as an individual soul. I underestimated your relationship. You both are so tangled within one another; I have never seen anything like it before in my life. I cannot know you without knowing Sam, just as I cannot know Sam without knowing you. In a few months he is gone from me. This is my last opportunity. Perhaps a bit unorthodox, but I hope for positive results. Do you understand?”
AU  angst  suicidal!Sam  pairing:Dean/Sam  A+parenting:Winchester  fandom:Supernatural 
february 2015 by casey679
Lost Time (verse)
Sam Burton has an average life, a foul-mouthed tattoo-artist sister named Ophelia (call me "Ope"), and a dream of putting his terrible, abusive past behind him. All of that changes when injured hunter Dean Winchester comes to stay. So what if Sam's "average life" includes coding as a hacker, having a sister with a genetic illness that prevents her from feeling pain, and surviving an abusive past that includes being forced to drink blood and kill people? That just means there can't be any worse secrets still lurking in store... right?
angst  abused!Sam  broken!Sam  bottom!Sam  cursed!Dean  foster-care!Sam  goddamn-fucking-angels  hacker!Gabriel  hacker!Sam  hunter!Dean  hurt!Dean  hurt!OFC  hurt!Sam  programmer!Sam  psychic!Sam  PTSD!Sam  shy/insecure!Sam  student!Sam  suicidal!Sam  pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:Gabriel/OFC(s)  AU:Raised-Apart  fandom:Supernatural  kink:D/s  tw:torture  tw:dub/non-con 
february 2015 by casey679
The Lucifer Problem (and timestamps)
Dean and Sam try to make it work, but after Heaven, it becomes clear to Dean that it would be best to separate. Sam decides to let Dean stop the apocalypse, while Sam takes on the Lucifer problem. After all, if Lucifer doesn't have a true vessel to take, he'll be that much easier to defeat. Sam goes off the grid, and not even Castiel can find him.
AU  angst  asshole!Lucifer  hurt!Sam  protective!Castiel  protective!Dean  psychic!Sam  shy/insecure!Sam  suicidal!Sam  pairing:Castiel/Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
february 2015 by casey679
Hell on Earth
[ShadowBiscuit] After Dean became a demon, all of his morals walked right out the door. Sam is now Dean's pet, even though being used by his older brother was the last thing he ever wanted. This series describes their life together, which is sometimes happy, sometimes sad, but mostly full of kinky sex and often, torture. (Master Post)
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  abused!Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  broken!Sam  dark!Dean  demon!Dean  fucktoy!Sam  hurt!Sam  kink:BDSM  kink:blood-play  kink:bondage  kink:brainwashing/mindfuckery  kink:coming-untouched  kink:D/s  kink:demon-blood  kink:knife-play  kink:mindbreak  kink:orgasm-denial/delay  kink:pain-play  kink:rough-sex  kink:sex-toys  kink:training/conditioning  master!Dean  pet!Sam  possessive!Dean  slave!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tw:dub/non-con  tw:torture  tw:unhappy-ending  verse:Hell-on-Earth  fandom:Supernatural  length:25K-50K 
february 2015 by casey679
Between the Lines of Fear and Blame
In the hunt for Lucifer, Sam is badly hurt, and to save him, Dean has to embark on a quest to find his brother in more ways than one. But to do so, he has to answer Sam's two questions: "Who am I?" and "What it is worth?"
gen  angst  hurt!Sam  mystery-spot!Sam  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural 
january 2015 by casey679
Broken
[skag trendy] Dean and Sam split up after Azazel's death with harsh words and anger. When Dean runs into Sam again, he blames Sam for not having his back... only to find out that in the time he's been gone, Sam's suffered a life-and-mobility-threatening injury.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  gen  angst  asshole!Dean  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  disabled!Sam  protective!Bobby  shapeshifter!Dean  shy/insecure!Sam  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:25K-50K 
january 2015 by casey679
Touch and Go
When Sam is severely drained by the vampires, Dean takes him back to the bunker and discovers Sam has taken some serious steps to preserve his bodily autonomy.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  gen  angst  hurt!Sam  suicidal!Sam  tattooed!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:1K-5K 
january 2015 by casey679
Needed
[noobieninja] Dean is the eldest, Adam is the beloved little brother, and Sam is left to pick up the pieces of himself every time his family shatters him.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  AU:Stanford-Era  gen  A+parenting:Winchester  angst  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  little-brother!Adam  protective!Adam  protective!Dean  shy/insecure!Sam  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:10K-15K 
november 2014 by casey679

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