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Begin to Begin Again
[Dugindeep] Years after Supernatural ends, Jensen realizes that his job isn’t the only thing missing. He’s divorced, a lame-duck father, and living alone. He wakes often from long-ago memories of the boots and leather jacket he filled out back when he had purpose, dreams of the connection he had with the one who stood beside him through it all. When Jensen finds a spark of himself while reconnecting with his daughter, he is determined to make this new feeling stick with a cross-country trek in the driver's seat of the Impala. Even as he’s weighted down by his own growing pains post-Supernatural, Jared meets Jensen in middle of Michigan, and they both dive into the same luxurious dream of seeing the country with nothing but time and pavement ahead of them. As Jensen and Jared rediscover themselves and their friendship, they uncover more between them that awakens buried feelings and lights a fire between them.
AU:Non-AU  pairing:Jensen/Jared  angst  bottom!Jensen  daddy/guardian!Jared  daddy/guardian!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  divorced!Jared  divorced!Jensen  trope:road-trip  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:25K-50K 
january 2017 by casey679
The King of Pain and Hurt
Jared says he needs to let go, let loose his wolf. Embrace him, accept him – he talks about Jensen's beast as if it was a person, and Jensen can feel the need to change when it talks to him, begging him with feelings and emotions, howling lonely and sad in his mind. But Jensen remembers vividly what he did when the beast took charge just once. He remembers the taste of blood and guts, the noise of bones crunched between his teeth. It felt so good. (Four Paws 2)
AU:Weres-&-Shifters  pairing:Jensen/Jared  alpha!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jared  kidnapped!Jared  protective!Jensen  werewolf!Jared  werewolf!Jensen  verse:Four-Paws  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:5K-10K 
december 2016 by casey679
A Mile in My Shoes, a Lifetime in My Head
One morning Jared and Jensen wake up and find they've been body-swapped. At first, it's pretty funny as they deal with being in each other's body! But things quickly get serious when Jared falls ill and Jensen can't seem to help him. Secrets can't be hidden when you're in your partner's head...
AU  angst  bottom!Jensen  depressed!Jared  depressed!Jensen  protective!Jared  suicidal!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
december 2015 by casey679
Fairytales Don’t Always Have a Happy Ending...
[envious_ema] Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles were America's sweethearts, the golden couple of Hollywood! Their love story was like something out of a Disney fairy tale, and every fairy tale always had a happy ending, right? WRONG! Now their career was in a slump, their relationship is torn apart by mistrust and jealousy and they are weeks away from signing their divorce papers when a surprise lands on their doorstep... literally.
AU:Hollywood  AU:Kid-fic  pairing:Jensen/Jared  actor!Jared  actor!Jensen  alcoholic!Jared  angst  asshole!JDM  bottom!Jared  cockslut!Jared  daddy/guardian!Jared  daddy/guardian!Jensen  depressed!Jared  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jared  possessive!Jensen  protective!Jared  protective!Jensen  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:20K-25K 
october 2015 by casey679
Jensen lives a reclusive life and acts like a jerk for a reason. Jared sees his chance in uncovering it when tutor sessions born of desperation give him the opportunity to talk to Jensen in private. When he falls for Jensen, though, secrets of the past don't seem all that important anymore. That is until life-altering news have Jared wondering if there's more to the proverbial skeleton in Jensen's closet than he ever thought. (Monster 1)
AU  abused!Jensen  angst  bottom!Jared  bottom!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  ex-con!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  mpreg!Jared  student!Jared  tutor!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Jensen/Chris  verse:Monster  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  tw:prejudice/discrimination  tw:dub/non-con 
july 2015 by casey679
Forty-Three Days (and timestamps)
The stress of filming the last four episodes of season 3 have caught up with Jensen, who blames his hallucinations on Dean's emotional roller coaster and his own lack of sleep. But a short break between the season finale and the shooting of his new movie fails to improve his mental state. He abandons the movie and becomes a recluse in Vancouver, fearing for his own sanity. Once he realizes that the hallucinations are real, and there's more than just his sanity at stake, Jensen contacts Jared, who may be the only person able to understand what Jensen's going through. Jared arrives in Vancouver just in time to save Jensen's life, but the danger threatening Jensen remains. Their lives become a race against time, and the show has brought them more than they'd bargained for. Jared has to keep Jensen alive for 43 days. Can they make it?
angst  bottom!Jared  bottom!Jensen  cursed!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  protective!Jared  suicidal!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  AU:Magic  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
june 2015 by casey679
If You're Out There
[soclosetonight] How do you fight back when you can't seem to find your voice? Jensen is doing his best to get by in an abusive household while protecting his younger sister, but as the bruises continue to grow deeper, he doesn’t know how much more he can take. Jared is doing his best to hold them all together, until Jensen takes matters into his own hands. Suddenly thrust upon unexpected journeys, Jared and Jensen will both have to walk alone in order to discover themselves and a way back to one another. (Also archived at
AU:High-School  pairing:Jensen/Jared  A+parenting:Ackles  angst  deaf!Jensen  depressed!Jared  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  kink:drug-use  protective!Jared  protective!Jensen  student!Jared  student!Jensen  tw:dub/non-con  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:25K-50K 
may 2015 by casey679
Choosing Happiness
Jared worked through his years as an awkward gay teen by always having a sketchbook with him, turning his love of drawing and story telling into a successful career as a graphic novelist. His love/hate relationship with Jensen Ackles, his brother's best friend, insinuates itself into every area of his life, even after years of not seeing each other. When Jared is asked to guest judge during San Antonio's Food and Wine festival, an event Jensen is hosting, their tumultuous relationship comes to a head. Between great food and wine, they are thrust out of the frying pan and into the fire, with emotions and feelings coming to a rolling boil. Question is, will either of them make it through to enjoy dessert?
AU  angst  artist!Jared  bottom!Jared  chef/baker!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  disabled!Jensen  golfer!Jensen  shy/insecure!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
april 2015 by casey679
Open Mike Night at the Fremont
[audrarose] Jensen's world has gotten very small since the accident that crippled him and killed his best friend a year ago. When hometown-kid-made-good sculptor Jared comes home for an exhibit, their lives collide in sparks. Can Jensen's world grow big enough to include Jared? [Note: Links are dead. Part 2/4 is: Part 3/4 is: Part 4/4 is:]
AU:Bookstore  pairing:Jensen/Jared  angst  artist!Jared  bookstore!Jensen  bottom!Jared  bottom!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  disabled!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  romantic  shy/insecure!Jensen  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:25K-50K 
march 2015 by casey679

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