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A Hole Straight up to the Sky
[Phoenix1966] Captured by scientists determined to save the human race from impending extinction, two weres - seemingly strangers - are caged together in the hopes that they'll mate. What happens between them is unprecedented and changes the course of both their races forever. (The Gaia Hypothesis 1)
AU:ABO-Dynamics  AU:Doctors-&-Hospitals  AU:Military  AU:Weres-&-Shifters  adopted!Jared  angst  alpha!JDM  alpha!Jensen  BAMF!Jensen  bottom!Jared  hurt!Jared  hurt!Jensen  kidnapped!Jared  kidnapped!Jensen  kink:knotting  kink:lactation  mpreg!Jared  omega!Jared  possessive!Mark  possessive!Mitch  protective!JDM  protective!Jensen  suicidal!Jared  trope:forced-relationship  tw:dub/non-con  tw:non-consensual-drug-use  tw:torture  verse:The-Gaia-Hypothesis  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:50K-75K 
may 2019 by casey679
The Golden Cage
[Phoenix1966] Jared Padalecki was on the adventure of a lifetime before settling into the drudgery of life as a clerk in his father's company. But as he traverses the Arabian Peninsula, his caravan is attacked and he ends up the property of Sheikh Ankour, forced to bend to the man's every whim. More terrible is the fact that Jared knew the sheikh as Jensen Ackles when they met in England two years prior and had fallen in love. However, because of the Padalecki patriarch's racism and a tragic twist of fate, Jensen left, quite certain that Jared was as hateful as his sire. Jensen can't believe his luck when the very boy who broke his heart ends up at his feet, completely at his mercy. Too bad for Jared that Jensen has none to spare...
AU:Historical  AU:Slavery  pairing:Jensen/Jared  angst  bottom!Jared  depressed!Jared  hurt!Jared  kidnapped!Jared  kink:BDSM  kink:body-modification  kink:bondage  kink:cock-cage  kink:come-marking  kink:D/s  kink:mpreg  kink:orgasm-denial/delay  kink:piercings  noble!Jensen  possessive!Jensen  rich!Jared  rich!Jensen  sheikh!Jensen  sick!Jared  slave!Jared  suicidal!Jared  tattooed!Jared  trope:forced-relationship  tw:dub/non-con  tw:non-consensual-drug-use  tw:prejudice/discrimination  tw:self-harm  virgin!Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:200K+ 
may 2019 by casey679
Splintering in Slow Motion
[Cyndrarae] Jared has been fighting the ‘darkness’ for as long as he can remember, until he can’t, or doesn’t want to anymore. He decides to treat himself to one final weekend of fun at the hotel where he and his ex used to love to go skiing before laying down his arms, so to speak. The last thing he expects is a gatecrasher, someone who might derail his best-laid plans for good.
AU:Hotel  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:JDM/Jared  angst  asshole!JDM  bottom!Jared  depressed!Jared  divorced!Jared  divorced!Jensen  protective!Jensen  suicidal!Jared  tw:dub/non-con  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:25K-50K 
december 2016 by casey679
Fur-ociously in Love
When Jared, an 18-year-old were who made headlines by not being able to shift, moved onto Jensen’s floor, he knew there was going to be trouble. Not from Jared of course- the kid doesn’t look like he could hurt a fly- but from other wannabe-Alpha weres who don’t know when to leave well enough alone. What he didn’t expect, though, was to find out just how much of a mess Jared was and what sort of baggage he carries from 18 years of mistreatment and abuse. So as Jensen’s pack seems more than happy to point out, falling in love with the kid would just be a disaster waiting to happen. (Links to PDF)
abused!Jared  bottom!Jared  shy/insecure!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Tom/Mike  pairing:Steve/Danneel  AU:College  AU:Weres-&-Shifters  shapeshifter!Jared  werecat!Jensen  wereweasel!Misha  protective!Jensen  suicidal!Jared  hurt!Jared  protective!Misha  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  tw:prejudice/discrimination 
october 2016 by casey679
The Instant Message
[Dean's Fetish (Fetish)] A mis-sent Instant Message begins a flirtation that soon could turn into something more. That is, if Jared will come out from behind the computer and let Jensen see the real him.
AU  angst  asshole!Danneel  blind!Jared  bottom!Jared  depressed!Jared  hurt!Jared  hurt!Jensen  IT-tech!Jared  possessive!Jensen  priest!Misha  protective!Jensen  romantic  suicidal!Jared  writer!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  kink:bondage  A+parenting:Ackles  tw:suicide  tw:prejudice/discrimination  length:200K+ 
november 2015 by casey679
Love Hurts
Supernatural ended after five years and without any explanation Jensen cut Jared out of his life. So Jared disappeared without leaving a trace. One year later the boys run into each other again. Will love conquer all?
AU  angst  asshole!Jensen  asshole!Sandy  bottom!Jared  depressed!Jared  hurt!Jared  protective!Jensen  protective!Tom  suicidal!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
october 2015 by casey679
The Incremental Breakage of the Last Tenuous Strands
Sometimes there is friendship and sometimes there is love… and sometimes you have no clue that you have fallen heart deep into someone’s soul. It’s only when you break apart that you realize you are trying to hold onto something that does not belong to you. Jared loses his girl, his family and then himself when he realizes the only thing he wants… the only thing he will never truly have is Jensen. He spirals into despair and drugs and Jensen, deep in his own denial of this thing between them, does not see the intensity of Jared’s destruction until it is nearly complete.
abused!Jared  angst  asshole!Genevieve  bottom!Jared  depressed!Jared  hurt!Jared  oblivious!Jensen  protective!Jensen  suicidal!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  A+parenting:Padalecki  pairing:Jared/Genevieve  pairing:Jensen/Danneel  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  kink:rough-sex  kink:drug-use  tw:dub/non-con 
october 2015 by casey679
Grave (So Very Like a Grave and timestamps)
Jared is pretty sure he was insane even before he was abducted. Not many people can survive a global pandemic with their minds intact. For a long time, it’s just Jared alone in the room, tended and manipulated by an unseen force. And then Jensen comes.
alien!Jensen  angst  bottom!Jared  broken!Jared  dark!Jensen  hurt!Jared  kidnapped!Jared  pet!Jared  possessive!Jensen  sick!Jared  suicidal!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  AU:Sci-Fi  AU:Horror  pairing:Jared/Adrianne  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  kink:exhibitionism  kink:brainwashing/mindfuckery  kink:drug-use  tw:dub/non-con  AU:Human-Pets 
august 2015 by casey679
Broken Wings
“To me, it will always remind myself of the fact that I control what happens to my body, that I can control my body. It also means that even though people will always see what they want to see, like a crow instead of a raven, I will always know what it is, so I will know that while people always see some guy in a wheelchair, I will remember that I am Jared. And also... see how the wing is kind of stretched out? It’s ‘cause even though my wings may be broken... I know I’m still free...”
AU:Ranch-&-Farm  AU:Tattoo-Parlor  pairing:Chad/Sandy  pairing:Chris/Jared  pairing:Tom/Mike  angst  bottom!Chris  depressed!Jared  disabled!Jared  hurt!Jared  protective!Jensen  suicidal!Jared  tattoo-artist!Chad  tattoo-artist!Jared  tattoo-artist!Mike  tattooed!Chris  tattooed!Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:25K-50K 
august 2015 by casey679
By a Single Thread
Dr. Jensen Ackles is a renowned neuro-psychologist and pioneer surgeon in the field known as Mind Mapping, a procedure that involves entering a coma patient's mindscape and sifting through their memories and trauma to help the patient wake up from the coma. It’s a complex procedure that requires strict rules and no lingering remnants of the visit. But while working with his current patient—Jared Padalecki, male, 24, attempted suicide--Jensen discovers he’s in too deep. He’s formed a dangerous emotional attachment to Jared that could have devastating consequences. He finds himself in the difficult situation of risking his own mind and sense of self by losing himself in Jared. But the more memories he visits, and the more he gets to know Jared, the more Jensen realizes how important it is that he save Jared’s life, whether it costs Jensen his identity or not.
angst  bottom!Jared  coma!Jared  coma!Jensen  depressed!Jared  disabled!Jensen  doctor!Jensen  hurt!Jared  hurt!Jensen  photographer!Jared  protective!Chad  protective!Genevieve  suicidal!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  AU:Doctors-&-Hospitals  AU:Sci-Fi  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
august 2015 by casey679
Soul Survivors
"We were ordinary people until we became part of a tragedy. We feel guilty for living when others have died. We come together because unless you've been through what we've been through, you can't understand what it's like to be us. We are the survivors." Ten months ago, Jared made a choice that kept him from dying in a plane crash. Now he searches for meaning and a way to get through the guilt of being alive when someone else was dead.
AU  angst  awesome!Chad  counselor!Jensen  depressed!Jared  disabled!Jensen  editor!Jensen  protective!Chad  protective!Jensen  religious!Jared  religious!Jensen  scientist!Jared  student!Jared  suicidal!Jared  survivor's-guilt!Jared  therapist!JDM  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
august 2015 by casey679
A Lavish Prison
Jared’s life is hell; he has one friend, a horrible boyfriend, and his future being decided for him. But that all starts to change when a gorgeous green eyed photographer moves into the next door apartment.
AU  pairing:Jared/OMC(s)  pairing:Jensen/Jared  A+parenting:Padalecki  abused!Jared  angst  awesome!Chad  barista!Chad  barista!Jared  bottom!Jared  broken!Jared  hurt!Jared  hurt!Jensen  kidnapped!Jared  kink:drug-use  kink:rough-sex  photographer!Jensen  protective!Chad  protective!Chris  protective!Jensen  protective!Steve  suicidal!Jared  trope:arranged-marriage  tw:domestic-abuse  tw:dub/non-con  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
june 2015 by casey679
Song of the Reaper
Private detective Jensen Ackles is a cynic and believes he’s seen the worst humanity has to offer until one night a dark haired beauty by the name of Genevieve walks into his office. The job, discover the truth behind the death of her fiance Jared Padalecki, a local artist. The cops have labeled it a suicide, case closed, but she refuses to believe it. As Jensen digs into her fiance's mysterious past, he finds himself drawn into a world darker than he imagined, a world leading to a path of emotional self-destruction. After all—how can you fall in love with a dead man? (Also archived at
angst  artist!Jared  blackmailed!Jared  bottom!Jared  detective!Jensen  hooker!jared  hurt!Jared  ghost!Jared  police!Misha  protective!Sandy  suicidal!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Jared/OMC(s)  pairing:Jared/Genevieve  AU:Crime-&-Police-Drama  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  tw:dub/non-con  trope:magic-bond 
june 2015 by casey679
Live To This
When they first meet they’re just two screwed up people looking for something. It’s only supposed to be a one night stand, but they just can’t shake what they found in the dark. But everything between them blew up in their short time together, all culminating when Jared, drugged to the gills, sleeps with Jensen's sister mistaking her for him. Years later, they’re even more screwed up and they’ve stopped looking for anything. But what was once there is still there, and maybe it's worth fighting for.
AU  accountant!Jensen  angst  asshole!Jared  awesome!Chad  chef/baker!Jensen  bartender!Jensen  bottom!Jensen  daddy/guardian!Jensen  hurt!Jared  restauranteur!Jensen  rich!Jared  suicidal!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  A+parenting:Padalecki  A+parenting:Ackles  pairing:Chad/Sophia  pairing:Jared/OFC(s)  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  kink:drug-use 
may 2015 by casey679
Folie à Deux
A neurotic, self-absorbed painter unable to resist the lure of a certain pair of magnetic eyes, and an accidental muse with a dark, mysterious past that just wouldn’t leave him alone. Who is Tristan Winslow really? And why is Jensen Ackles so hell-bent on repeating the mistake that once nearly cost him his life?
abused!Jared  angst  artist!Jensen  bottom!Jared  criminal!Jared  homeless!Jared  hurt!Jensen  model!Jared  PTSD!Jared  suicidal!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Jensen/OMC(s)  AU:Street-Rats-&-Runaways  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
april 2015 by casey679
On Knife Edge
[dont_hate_me01] A Dom from the past sends Jared on a down spiral from which he can only recover with the help of his new Dom. Jensen’s got his task cut out for him; two years of hard work nearly flushed down the drain because of one chance meeting.
AU:BDSM-&-Alt-Lifestyles  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Mike/Jared  abused!Jared  angst  bottom!Jared  dark!Jensen  dom!Jensen  hitman!Misha  hurt!Jared  kink:BDSM  kink:blood-play  kink:bondage  kink:catheter/sounding  kink:cock-cage  kink:D/s  kink:face-fucking  kink:knife-play  kink:orgasm-denial/delay  kink:overstimulation  kink:pain-play  kink:sex-toys  protective!Jensen  shy/insecure!Jared  sub!Jared  suicidal!Jared  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:10K-15K 
april 2015 by casey679
Captive Audience
[choccyprofit] On a rare trip to the city, billionaire recluse Jensen Ackles falls in love with Jared, a sad and innocent young bartender. Unfortunately for Jared, Jensen’s social skills are somewhat lacking, and therefore a simple ‘will you spend the night, and the rest of your life, with me?’ doesn’t enter into the equation. But kidnapping, an Ackles family tradition… oh yeah. That’s definitely a winner every time. Or is it more of a rescue?
AU:Wealth-&-Power  pairing:Jensen/Jared  A+parenting:Ackles  bartender!Jared  bottom!Jared  depressed!Jared  hurt!Jared  kidnapped!Jared  kink:bondage  rich!Jensen  suicidal!Jared  tw:dub/non-con  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:25K-50K 
march 2015 by casey679
Jared has a secret that he hides from everyone. The only family he has left, his manager, has been manipulating him, forcing him to audition the old-fashioned way: on his knees. When he meets Jensen, he knows his secret is in jeopardy. When Jensen finds out, will he listen or will he break Jared’s heart?
AU  abused!Jared  angst  blackmailed!Jared  bottom!Jared  hurt!Jared  protective!Chris  shy/insecure!Jared  suicidal!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Jared/OMC(s)  pairing:Jared/OFC(s)  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  kink:rough-sex  tw:dub/non-con 
march 2015 by casey679
Fight or Flight
L.A.P.D. Narcotics Sergeant Jared Padalecki is volatile and suicidal following the recent death of his best friend in a traffic accident whereas L.A.P.D. Homicide Sergeant Jensen Ackles, having recently celebrated his 40th birthday, is just starting to think about next stage of his career. After a drug bust in which Padalecki nearly kills a suspect and his new partner, his superiors become worried about his behavior and transfer him to Homicide at West Hollywood, hoping that pairing him with Ackles will help settle his erratic behavior. Tensions rise when Jensen resents being put on babysitting duty and Jared does his best to prove that reckless is his middle name. [Based on Lethal Weapon.]
angst  case!fic  police!Jared  police!Jensen  suicidal!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  AU:Crime-&-Police-Drama  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
march 2015 by casey679

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