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The Ghosts of Christmas, Present
[Casey679] At 4:36 am, Sam is just now pouring his aching body into bed. He's achy and sleep-deprived, and if he had the energy he'd be panicking a little because two of his three managers have asked if he can work overtime tomorrow. If he skips the downtime between each job, he should just be able to juggle it. But Lizzie at the bar tonight was sneezing through her wait shift and even though he's got his flu shot, the last thing he wants is to spend Christmas alone, miserable and feverish in an empty dorm room. Alone and miserable is more than enough, thank you. Just as he clicks the light off and the room goes dark, something at the foot of his roommate Steve's bed catches his eye. Just for a moment, he sees Dean standing there, leaning against the wall and looking at him. He flips the light back on frantically, but Dean's gone.
AU:Stanford-Era  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  holiday:Xmas  hurt!Dean  protective!Dean  romantic  student!Sam  trope:magic-bond  fandom:Supernatural  length:10K-15K 
7 weeks ago by casey679
I Guess We Did
[brothercrush] Jensen whispers into his neck and Dean is sick, so sick for starting to harden against Sam’s hip. How he thinks his little brother is still attractive with tears soaking his face and making those eyes glitter. How rude he is for wanting to tell Sam they can make him forget Jessica if he spreads his legs to accommodate them. (Team Work XX)
AU:Stanford-Era  AU:Twincesters  pairing:Dean/Jensen/Sam  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  dom!Dean  dom!Jensen  kink:twincest  kink:voyeurism  sub!Sam  twin!Dean  twin!Jensen  verse:Team-Work  fandom:Supernatural  length:1K-5K 
10 weeks ago by casey679
Everything Dies Given Time
[Minviendha (Lise)] AU from 5.03. Sam discovers something wrong with himself, and learns to live with it. Only a lot less functional.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:gen  angst  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  suicidal!Sam  temporary-character-death  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:1K-5K 
10 weeks ago by casey679
A Fever Dream
[brokenlittleboy] Sam should have known it was too good to be true. (Sam gets trapped in a djinn's fantasy in 02x20)
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  case!fic  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  protective!Bobby  suicidal!Sam  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:25K-50K 
12 weeks ago by casey679
Run Run Riot
[interflora] Turns out that Amelia isn't real - she was Sam's way of coping with Dean's "death". On Christmas, he and Dean stop by her to see her (and Riot), only to discover the truth. Sam goes into meltdown mode, and Dean has to calm him down. He also tries to figure out what really went down in the year he was gone.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  broken!Sam  depressed!Sam  mental-illness!Sam  protective!Dean  protective!Jody  fandom:Supernatural  length:1K-5K 
may 2019 by casey679
No Exit
[interflora] They keep driving until they can’t anymore, and then somehow they come back and do it again. Together. It’s not natural. Not right. Nothing about them is—but they keep going. Them’s the rules as far as Dean’s concerned. It’s not fair and it sure as hell ain’t easy but it’s what they do. If Sam stops, Dean stops. All there is to it. And he can’t stop now.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  kink:frottage  suicidal!Sam  tw:self-harm  tw:suicide  fandom:Supernatural  length:5K-10K 
may 2019 by casey679
The Father, the Son, and the Zombie Spirit
[kerfuffling] There are three things you should know about Sam right now: he's still crazy, he's one of the only survivors in a Leviathan-led zombie apocalypse, and, oh yeah, he's pregnant with an incest parasite-baby-thing. And no, this isn't a guess-which-part-is-a-lie game. When you spend your days being chased by the brain-hungry undead and your nights fighting with your stubborn brother about your new-found condition, you're forced to learn things about yourself. And maybe, with a pinch of luck, you might be led to a happy ending. But considering Sam's a Winchester, that road seems like a fat chance. (In Good Time, All Things Come 1)
AU:Curtain-fic  AU:Dystopia-&-Post-Apocalypse  AU:Military  pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  daddy/guardian!Dean  daddy/guardian!Sam  depressed!Sam  goddamn-fucking-leviathans  hurt!Dean  kink:rough-sex  mpreg!Sam  post-Cage!Sam  protective!Chuck  protective!Dean  sick!Dean  tw:prejudice/discrimination  zombies  verse:In-Good-Time  fandom:Supernatural  length:25K-50K 
may 2019 by casey679
Tangled Up In Blue
"Dean's good with these kind of things. Ignoring feelings, pushing things away."
A depressed Sam finds comfort in Cas, who's more than happy to be needed.
As their friendship deepens and things start to change, Dean is forced to confront his own feelings or lose everything.
fandom:supernatural  sastiel  destiel  depressed!sam  suicidal-thoughts  sam/cas  cas/dean  sam  dean  castiel 
september 2018 by Kleoparda
Written in the Scars on Our Hearts
[SPNkink-meme] Dean never forgives his dad for sending Sam away. He knows that he probably thought Dean would understand or even forget Sam and just move on. But Dean never does. How can he? From the moment that Sammy was born, he was the center of Dean’s world. Then after the fire, Sam became his. Dad put baby Sammy into his arms that night, entrusting Dean with his safety, and Dean took that very seriously. When Dean presented at eight as a Dom, his protective instincts got even stronger and he knew that he’d spend his life taking care of his little brother. Especially when Sammy presented as a sub four years later.
AU:BDSM-&-Alt-Lifestyles  AU:Raised-Apart  A+parenting:Winchester  abused!Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  dom!Dean  foster-care!Sam  hurt!Sam  kink:D/s  protective!Bobby  protective!Dean  sub!Sam  suicidal!Sam  touch-starved!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:10K-15K 
april 2017 by casey679
Victim Blaming
[Katlover98] Dean wasn't the first one to rape Sam. Dean also wasn't the one to blame, neither was Cas..The ones who raped Sam before them definitely weren't in control of themselves either...
pairing:Dean/Sam  pairing:Castiel/Sam  pairing:Sam/OMC(s)  angst  bottom!Sam  cursed!Castiel  demon!Dean  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  post-Cage!Sam  PTSD!Sam  shy/insecure!Sam  tw:dub/non-con  fandom:Supernatural  length:1K-5K 
april 2017 by casey679
Pick Myself Up Off The Ground
[WetSammyWinchester] When hellhounds came for his brother, Sam was overwhelmed by grief and guilt, and willing to do anything to bring Dean back - even sell his soul or trust a demon. Then a man who looks just like him shows up from the future with a story of angels and Armageddon. This other Sam is dealing with his own guilt and loss, but he has a plan to stop the apocalypse before it begins and to rescue Dean. Now, the two of them must work together - two Sams to bring back one Dean.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:Dean/Sam  Pairing:Sam/Sam  angst  depressed!Sam  hurt!Sam  protective!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  length:10K-15K 
march 2017 by casey679
Choices Seal our Fate
[Enmuse (Scifiroots)] Dean and Sam Winchester split ways in the wake of Lucifer's rising. When his last conversation with Dean leaves Sam convinced there's no hope of reconciliation, Sam sets out to find his redemption in stopping Lucifer on his own. Little did he know that he would find companionship with an old friend, Jo Harvelle, and the King of the Crossroads during his pursuit.
AU:Canon/Timeline-Change  pairing:gen  angst  awesome!Jo  depressed!Sam  hurt!Castiel  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  protective!Crowley  protective!Jo  fandom:Supernatural  length:75K-100K 
march 2017 by casey679
My Only Home
[non_tiembo_mala] Dean's been gone a while, running wild with a twisted soul and black eyes. When Sam finally brings him back, Dean realizes his little brother hasn't been doing well in his absence, and he has more important things to worry about than what he did as a demon.
pairing:Dean/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Dean  depressed!Sam  tw:eating-disorder  tw:self-harm  fandom:Supernatural  length:10K-15K 
january 2017 by casey679
Riot Gear; onlythisfic
Shortly before they ganked Dick Roman Sam became pregnant. He either knew and didn't tell Dean because he didn't want to give Dean any more pressure or he had no idea at all. The stress and trauma of seeing Dean and Cas disappear along with Crowley taking off with Kevin sends Sam into a downward spiral. The added stress from hitting Riot causes Sam to have a miscarriage. Sam spends time recovering physically, but not emotionally, with Amelia who knows not to ask about the baby. When Dean gets back and reams Sam out for not looking for him, Sam can't bring himself to tell Dean what happened. He thinks Dean will blame him for losing their kid and that it'll be the final straw. Maybe Sam sneaks out to visit the grave and Dean follows, but up to the author how Dean finds out. Cue guilty!Dean and hurt!Sam who has to relive the painful memories from the last year
sam_dean  s8  Hurt!Sam  depressed!sam  suicidal!sam  sick!sam  mpreg!sam  miscarrying!sam  clueless!dean  angry!dean  psychoticbreak!sam  havepdf  guilty!dean  author:onlythisfic  rating:nc-17  ~  fandom:supernatural 
january 2017 by Itsokaydean
Equinox by sendintheclowns
John decides the best way for Sam to overcome his fears is to leave him home alone for the night while he and Dean go on a hunt. Dean thinks it’s a bad idea. Who is right? Pre series. Part 3 of 3. Rated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Angst - Sam W., Dean W. - Chapters: 3 - Words: 8,289
fanfiction-net  sam!centric  worried!sam  character:john-winchester  dean-hunts-with-dad  angst  pre-series  teen!chesters  kidnapped!sam  hurt!sam  sam-and-food  eating-disorder  depressed!sam  broken!sam  scared!sam  teen!sam  mystery  ghosts  place:hospital  hospital!sam 
november 2016 by mountainstomove
Run So Far (That I Am Standing Still)
Sam Winchester's been in love with his big brother Dean for as long as he can remember, and he's never told anyone but Dr. Cas Novak. From their first session together, Cas finds himself fully entrenched in Sam's sad story with a fervor that's not entirely professional. Under his overly intimate and fairly unorthodox methods, even Dean notices the change in his usually gloomy brother and decides maybe therapy's not so bad. Sam definitely shouldn't refer his brother to Cas. Cas definitely shouldn't take him on but his curiosity wins out, and he soon finds himself trying to wave the white flag in the middle of a very fucked up battleground.
AU  pairing:Castiel/Sam  pairing:Dean/Castiel  pairing:Dean/Castiel/Sam  pairing:Dean/OFC(s)  pairing:Dean/OMC(s)  pairing:Dean/Sam/OMC(s)  angst  bottom!Sam  bottom!Dean  bottom!Castiel  depressed!Sam  lawyer!Sam  mechanic!Dean  therapist!Castiel  polyamory  shy/insecure!Sam  suicidal!Sam  fandom:Supernatural  kink:dirty-talk  kink:exhibitionism  kink:face-fucking  kink:voyeurism  kink:role-play  kink:incest  kink:phone-sex  kink:drug-use  tw:dub/non-con 
november 2016 by casey679
Coffee For Broken Hearts
[gentlezombie] Dean's in hell, and Sam's on a downward slide. Sam walks into a sandwich shop with three dollars and twenty-five cents. The guy behind the counter is really nice though, even when Sam falls asleep in the corner booth because he's been grinding himself into the dirt.
AU:Crossover-Ten-Inch-Hero  pairing:Priestly/Sam  angst  bottom!Sam  depressed!Sam  protective!Priestly  length:1K-5K 
october 2016 by casey679

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