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To the Victor, The Spoil - by Annakovsky - fandom Hunger Games Trilogy - Suzanne Collins [Archive of Our Own]
He drinks his way through the year, like every other year, but the difference is that this time he has to go on the fucking Victory Tour. Watch Katniss look older every day, the circles under her eyes getting darker. He thought watching his tributes die every year was bad -- he didn't think watching them survive would be worse. Well, live and learn.

[...] The afternoon sun is falling on her face, making her look as bright and shining as the city outside the window. "Stop acting like I'm some innocent little girl," she says, desperate and furious both, that flash back in her gray eyes. "I'm not. I'm a murderer. You can't corrupt me, because they already did. It wasn't even hard."

[Mind the warnings.]
hunger_games  fanfic  nsfw  het  katniss/haymitch  author.Annakovsky  angst  alternate_universe  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
march 2012 by lorem_ipsum
Grace - Chapter 1 - by Yahtzee - fandom X-Men: First Class (2011), X-Men - All Media Types [Archive of Our Own]
[A few years after Charles leaves the priesthood to be with Erik, their relationship faces a crisis.

Uh, you know how in comics canon Magneto had a small daughter who died in a fire? This story is related to that painful history in a way that... well, there was some uncontrollable sobbing on my part.

This story is devastating and lovely and bittersweet, a perfect followup to Yahtzee's "Sacrament", and like "Sacrament" it concludes with a sense of love and tenderness and hope glowing through the whole world.

But it goes beyond "Sacrament", achieving a combination of suffering and hope that reminds me of synecdochic's "Freedom's Just Another Word For Nothing Left To Lose".

x-men  fanfic  slash  nsfw  charles/erik  angst  author.Yahtzee  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
february 2012 by lorem_ipsum
tawabids: The Dynamo in Winter
If they didn't have the plant - and the four others like it, plus seven more in construction, each drastically different designs to take advantage of a different mutant's powers - they would probably be back in the dark ages by now. As it is, electricity rations and skyrocketing private prices are already making life hell for most people – but not the mutants still fighting against Shaw's futurists. They are provided with everything they could desire, in return for everything they can give.

[Oh, god, my heart, please stop breaking. -L]
x-men  fanfic  slash  nsfw  charles/erik  alternate_universe  angst  author.tawabids  rec.all_fanfic 
february 2012 by lorem_ipsum
more first than sun, more last than star - by Etirabys - fandom X-Men: First Class (2011) [Archive of Our Own]
[Author's Summary: A war ends, and Queen Raven calls her best knight for one final request. She wants him to bring back her brother, who the Snow Queen took as tribute so many years ago. Getting him back is just half the battle, Erik will find.]

"By one reckoning, I've kept him eleventy years," the Snow Queen says. "And by another I've kept him for three. And by another, a thousand. Isn't that what you say, you humans- that your heart keeps the time. But we have no hearts, Knight."

"Charles did," Erik says steadily. A hush falls in the hall, as if he's said something unimaginably filthy. "Where did you put it?"

The Snow Queen looks at Charles, who rises to his feet as if he'd been prompted. Steady. Graceful. Inhuman.

There is nothing at all in his eyes when he looks at Erik, and replies:

"I tore it out myself."

[An uncomfortable and haunting fairy tale. Mind the warnings. -L]
x-men  fanfic  nsfw  charles/erik  alternate_universe  angst  author.Etirabys  rec.all_fanfic 
january 2012 by lorem_ipsum
paperclipbitch: "Snakes and Ladders Are Banned In Here", X-Men: First Class, Charles/Erik
Author's Summary: Set post movie. They never meet in public; not for fear of getting caught, but because they’re too aware of innocent bystanders.

Excerpt: If no one draws first blood then maybe no one ever has to bleed.
x-men  fanfic  slash  sfw  charles/erik  angst  author.paperclipbitch  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
november 2011 by lorem_ipsum
Golden - Andraste - X-Men (Movieverse) [Archive of Our Own]
The hours weigh heavy on Xavier tonight, but the years seem as ephemeral as a half-remembered dream. [...]

If fifty years with and without Erik have taught him anything, it's to accept what you're given.
x-men  fanfic  charles/erik  angst  author.Andraste  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
october 2011 by lorem_ipsum
Lion's Cub Series - hedda62 - Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold [Archive of Our Own]
"All I am saying," said Gregor patiently, "is that if he'd murdered my father, I would love him no less. Perhaps I'd love him more. And I did love him. Like... a father."

"Oh," said Miles, the utter and complete realization of his stupidity crashing down on him, like a waterfall, like a volcano. "Shit."

[Aral meets Cavilo. Gregor visits Ekaterin. Miles, Gregor, and Simon discuss Escobar.]
vorkosigan  fanfic  gen  sfw  angst  author.hedda62  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
october 2011 by lorem_ipsum
subtilior: Five times you didn't get it (and the one time you did)
Prompt: "I'm quite intrigued by the idea of the younger mutants not knowing about Charles and Erik back when they were friends. I imagine they'd be really shocked to see their enemy, magneto, jetting off to rescue their professor."

[MY HEART. Excellent use of outsider pov. -L]
x-men  fanfic  charles/erik  angst  pov.2nd  author.subtilior  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
october 2011 by lorem_ipsum
The Morning Coffee - Glishara - Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold [Archive of Our Own]
Simon Illyan was carrying a tray with coffee. His face was neutral, as it usually was, but the grayness was bone deep, unconcealable. There was an emptiness behind his eyes. Gregor felt the tightness of his role snap back around him, straightening his spine, constricting and bolstering him. "What's happened?" he asked.

Illyan took the time to lay the coffee on the table before answering, pouring with precise motions.

[Set during Memory.]
vorkosigan  fanfic  gen  angst  author.glishara  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
september 2011 by lorem_ipsum
littledust_fic: (X-Men, Charles/Erik) How Deep the Bullet Lies
Erik has stopped the car on the edge of a field and is setting out blankets with neat, efficient movements. Charles opens his mouth to ask why he didn't stop earlier, because surely they must have passed a town or even a farm house, but the question dies as he realizes with dull horror that it simply never occurred to Erik to seek shelter. He is not surprised when Erik removes a few packets of crackers from the inside of his jacket, but he does ache for the boy who knew hunger, and for the man who does not know satiation.
x-men  fanfic  slash  nsfw  charles/erik  angst  author.littledust  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
september 2011 by lorem_ipsum
zombieboyband: Untitled
It isn't the first time he's been in this position, and it isn't even his first time with Erik. It's never been the other way around, but here's the thing about Charles: he's willing to take one for the team.
x-men  fanfic  slash  nsfw  charles/erik  angst  author.zombieboyband  rec.all_fanfic 
august 2011 by lorem_ipsum
arefadedaway: Vid: Rolling in the Deep (X-Men Movie Series, Charles/Erik)
[Spoilers for all the movies except Wolverine.

I AM SLAIN. To start with, I thought the song choice was totally wrong, but by the end of the first minute I'm coming unglued, and by the end, I'm almost crying.

x-men  fanvid  charles/erik  angst  author.arefadedaway  rec.all_vids  rec.flawless 
august 2011 by lorem_ipsum
And the Beast - kindkit - Torchwood [Archive of Our Own]
When they're finally alone together, Jack sits beside Ianto and strokes his hair. It feels like he imagined it would, springy and crisp, as precise as Ianto's well-cut jackets and perfectly composed sentences. No one, Jack should have known, is that controlled without chaos underneath.
fanfic  torchwood  angst  ep.cyberwoman  auth.kindkit  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
june 2011 by lorem_ipsum
These Are the Stories - NancyBrown - Torchwood [Archive of Our Own]
He tells himself stories. He tells himself things were different. He creates histories that cannot all be true, but are true in the sense that they should have been true.

These are the stories he tells himself:...
torchwood  fanfic  gen  jack_harkness  angst  author:nancybrown  rec.all_fanfic 
april 2011 by lorem_ipsum
garnettrees: In Amnion
The world itself wasn't real, because Hua She Street was the world. [...]

When he confided in Ianto, it was small things-- broken, blunt-edged moments. His lover kept secrets like priests kept confession. [...] Then he could get up in the morning and be Jack Harkness, who began with Alice Guppy's Victorian script and now ended with the documents transferring Torchwood authority to Gwen.
'I couldn't let you go, Ianto',

[Needs moar beta, but the narrative makes me want to roll around in it; good use of flashbacks. This COE fixit is both romance and horror story. Blood drinking, bad magic, psychic powers, and soul-bonding that doesn't feel cliched. WIP - wilo:ch13]
torchwood  slash  fanfic  jack_harkness.ianto_jones  angst  author:garnettrees  rec.all_fanfic  rec.style 
september 2010 by lorem_ipsum
black_eyedgirl - Torchwood FF: Time doesn't stop for the world's ending (Team, R)
Jack had lost the ability to inspire fear in Owen, though it was unclear whether the reason was their new situation – reality worse than any bare threats – or whether Owen had finally chosen a cause.

And that was not quite right, he thought, watching Owen patch up their seventeenth refugee. Owen had always been a doctor, and Jack had made him a soldier too. You do not close your ears to a voice in pain; you do not leave a man behind; you do not sit and watch.
torchwood  gen  fanfic  angst  author:black_eyedgirl  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
september 2010 by lorem_ipsum
hauldyourwhist: Fic: Innumerable, Intimate [One-Shot]
Harkness just looks at him with his eyebrows raised, smiling placidly like he’s enjoying watching Rex squirm. Well, if he wanted to make Rex uncomfortable, eulogizing his dead coworker with a big gay poetry recitation is a step in the right direction.
torchwood  fanfic  slash  childrenofearth  angst  jack_harkness.rex_matheson  jack_harkness.ianto_jones  author:heddychaa  rec.all_fanfic 
september 2010 by lorem_ipsum
jackxianto: Title: A thousand years of loneliness
Premise is a bit soppy for my taste, but this constructed reality vid sneaks up on you and starts doing unexpectedly cool stuff about forty seconds in.
torchwood  rec.vids  author:baiba69  jack_harkness.ianto_jones  angst  romance 
august 2010 by lorem_ipsum
roachpatrol: well, you know
It is July in New New York, 099: the dawning of the latest and greatest era of beauty, freedom, truth and love, but mostly love. And when it comes to Rose Tyler and Jack Harkness, a lot of beauty. John Smith is so hopelessly in love with his two best friends that sometimes he thinks he could just about explode. But he's no one special. Not really.

[Not as AU as you think it is.]
fanfic  doctor_who  rose_tyler.doctor.jack_harkness  threesome  angst  slash  het  romance  au  rec.all_fanfic 
august 2010 by lorem_ipsum
equus_vodka: Torchwood - Death Note
It had been three days. Three days like this, where for very thought Ianto half-articulated, there was another thought on the edge of it – what would Tosh think of this, what would Owen say to that? What would they be doing, what would they be thinking? It was like some awful parody of being in love.
fanfic  angst  slash  torchwood  author:equus_vodka  episode:exitwounds  rec.all_fanfic  jack_harkness.ianto_jones  theme:mortality  post-exitwounds 
may 2010 by lorem_ipsum
rm: TW fic: A Holiday of Bright Mornings (Jack/OFC, Jack/various)
"You've known everything about me all along, haven't you?" he asked, trying not to let his voice crack... || Jack's marriage. Story made me cry twice, and it's not that long, folks.
torchwood  fanfic  het  sfw  auth.rm  jack_harkness.ofc  ep.something_borrowed  angst  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless  rec.insightful  rec.sweet 
june 2008 by lorem_ipsum
paperclipbitch: "Video Killed The Radio Star", Torchwood, Gen
Pretending it never happened is no longer an option. || Mmmm, angst. A bit wallow-y, but it takes a perfect vicious bite out of you at the end.
torchwood  fanfic  gen  sfw  auth.paperclipbitch  ep.reset  alternate_universe  angst  rec.all_fanfic 
june 2008 by lorem_ipsum
sam_storyteller: Sleeping My Way To The Top; Torchwood, PG
"I'm faking it," Jack said, after a few minutes.

Ianto lifted an eyebrow. "All the magazines say you should never do that. Gives your partner the wrong impression." || HOW does this person write such perfect dialogue, I ask you?
torchwood  fanfic  slash  sfw  auth.sam_storyteller  jack_harkness.ianto_jones  ep.exit_wounds  angst  rec.all_fanfic 
june 2008 by lorem_ipsum
ukcalico: new story: Moving In
Ianto nodded shortly, his smile turning pained. That stuff he was carrying must be heavy. || Shrift comments, "This story is WRONG LIKE AWESOME." I can't put it better than that.

Alternate URL: http://archiveofourown.org/works/69124
torchwood  fanfic  slash  nsfw  auth.ukcalico  ep.cyberwoman  ep.fragments  jack_harkness.ianto_jones  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless  rec.could_be_canon  rec.hot  angst  dubious_consent 
may 2008 by lorem_ipsum
monimala: Fic: "Though Lovers Be Lost Love Shall Not," PG-13
In that instant, her deception was a mercy to them both. || Gaaaah, I am utterly flaily now. Spoilers.
torchwood  fanfic  gen  auth.monimala  toshiko_sato  owen_harper  jack_harkness  ep.exit_wounds  rec.all_fanfic  angst 
april 2008 by lorem_ipsum
gersteakknife: Torchwood Fanfic - The Sometimes Effects Of The 21st Century On Views On Fidelity...
“Oh, well done,” he said sardonically, staring at the unconscious victim of Jack’s flailing. [...] “Couldn’t get out the stain,” he lies. || Breathtaking.
torchwood  fanfic  slash  auth.gersteakknife  jack_harkness.ianto_jones  ep.from_out_of_the_rain  angst  rec.all_fanfic 
april 2008 by lorem_ipsum
feather_qwill: Unwritten Obligations
This wasn’t in his contract. || I have to keep reminding myself that this fic trope isn't entirely fanon.
torchwood  fanfic  gen  auth.feather_qwill  angst  ianto_jones  jack_harkness 
december 2007 by lorem_ipsum
troyswann: Vesalius
"The problem with the theatre," Charles observed acidly, "is that there's too much fucking drama!"
slings_and_arrows  fanfic  gen  auth.troyswann  alternate_universe  angst  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
october 2007 by lorem_ipsum
ds_flashfiction: "The Small Indian Mongoose Is Not Immune to the Cobra's Venom"
Ray realizes in one of those lightning strikes to the brain that what Warfield wants here isn't so much to kill Ray, as it is for Fraser to watch Ray die.
due_south  fanfic  slash  nsfw  benton_fraser.ray_kowalski  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless  angst 
october 2007 by lorem_ipsum
badwolf36: Lullaby
She's in a cradle and he's singing her lullabies. She'd laugh if it didn't hurt so much.
torchwood  fanfic  auth.badwolf36  ianto_jones.lisa_hallet  ep.cyberwoman  rec.all_fanfic  angst 
september 2007 by lorem_ipsum
brigantine1: Out from Under
As for Mamet, dot him, file him, stick him in a drawer marked eternal rest. || Mesmerizing, just like Mamet.
due_south  men_with_guns  slash  fanfic  auth.brigantine1  benton_fraser.ray_kowalski  crossover  alternate_universe  ep.mountie_on_the_bounty  angst  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless  rec.insightful 
august 2007 by lorem_ipsum
lookninjas: The Keeper of Memories (5/5)
When Gwen took the folder, she filled out one of the little cardboard place holders that he uses when someone checks out a file. No one else ever does that, not even Tosh, and the sight shatters him a little. || Part 2 in particular is going to haunt me.
torchwood  doctor_who  fanfic  gen  auth.lookninjas  rec.all_fanfic  angst  ianto_jones 
august 2007 by lorem_ipsum
crushedmidnight: Proximity, Unwanted and Otherwise
There was a moment, a lull in time during which Ianto seemed to lift away from his body: away from the arousal itself, but also away from every other sensation- breathing, sweating, being. || 500 words, exactly as long as it needs to be.
torchwood  slash  fanfic  auth.crushmidnight  jack_harkness.ianto_jones  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless  angst 
august 2007 by lorem_ipsum
sister_luke: Myfanwy's Song
The pteranodon and the year that never was. Warning: Animal harm. Srsly, I almost cried.
doctor_who  torchwood  ep.the_last_of_the_time_lords  fanfic  gen  auth.sister_luke  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless  angst 
august 2007 by lorem_ipsum
wired_lizard: Need (Illegitimate)
She squints up at Ianto, remembers that kiss, looks down, then up again. She's flanked by Jack's lovers. || 2nd sex scene = a bit distressing / dubious consent-y, but it and the other sex scenes are all part of the insightful characterization.
torchwood  fanfic  het  nsfw  auth.wired_lizard  gwen_cooper.rhys_williams  gwen_cooper.owen_harper  gwen_cooper.ianto_jones  ep.end_of_days  ep.countrycide  pov.3rd  angst  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless 
july 2007 by lorem_ipsum
icebluenothing: "From This Day to the Ending of the World"
The Doctor leaned in close. "I happened. It's not even something I did. Just something that happened to them because I happened to get too close. That's all."
doctor_who  fanfic  gen  ninth_doctor  auth.icebluenothing  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless  angst 
may 2007 by lorem_ipsum
omphale23: Spring Cleaning
Fraser had that saintly look on his face that meant he was about to say something annoying.
due_south  benton_fraser.ray_kowalski  slash  chall.inuvikdotcom  post-CotW  auth.omphale23  rec.all_fanfic  rec.flawless  angst  fanfic 
november 2006 by lorem_ipsum
waxjism: When She Walks In The Room
He couldn't say what it was - maybe Fraser's stance was a little too studied, too stiff. Something like that.
due_south  benton_fraser.ray_kowalski  benton_fraser.victoria_metcalfe  slash  het  fanfic  rec.all_fanfic  angst  rec.flawless  auth.waxjism 
october 2006 by lorem_ipsum
pearl-o: You & I Are ____
It was Fraser who was going and not Ray, and it was O'Hare and not some tiny airport in the middle of Canada, but otherwise it felt weirdly exactly the same as last time.
slash  fanfic  nsfw  due_south  angst  auth.pearl-o  benton_fraser.ray_kowalski  post-canon  pov.ray_kowalski 
december 2005 by lorem_ipsum
Time in a Bottle by Astolat
Ten thousand years on a deserted island with Rodney McKay. It was enough to make John feel a little sick and desperate.
slash  fanfic  mcshep  angst  nsfw  stargate_atlantis  old_fanfic_recs+  rec.all_fanfic  auth.astolat  john_sheppard.rodney_mckay 
november 2005 by lorem_ipsum
Advantage by Resonant
"McKay, I have an almost irresistible desire to come put lotion on your elbows. Please give me something to do."
fanfic  slash  fic  nsfw  angst  slave  stargate  old_fanfic_recs  rec.all_fanfic  stargate_atlantis  auth.resonant  john_sheppard.rodney_mckay 
november 2005 by lorem_ipsum
"Your list, those problems, that stuff is all about you," she said slowly.
smut  het  angst  nsfw  auth.cesperanza  josh.donna  west_wing 
november 2005 by lorem_ipsum
Adorned by Resonant
Not that Fraser's totally unmarked by life. But in some fanciful moments Ray thinks that his body just absorbs the marks. Like even the bullet hole would disappear, if the wound inside ever healed.
nsfw  slash  angst  fanfic  due_south  auth.resonant  benton_fraser.ray_kowalski  ray_kowalski.stella_kowalski  rec.flawless  rec.all_fanfic 
november 2005 by lorem_ipsum
china_shop: The Art of Losing
When Fraser pressed soft sweet kisses against Ray’s chest, Ray thought Yes! We’re here now! For the first time since Vegas, he felt he was one of the good guys again.
due_south  slash  angst  nsfw  fanfic  benton_fraser.ray_kowalski  benton_fraser.ray_vecchio  post-canon  ray_kowalski.ray_vecchio  rec.flawless  rec.all_fanfic 
july 2005 by lorem_ipsum

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