floatondown + ptsd!   50

Deep in the Heart of Me - Finely Honed (jaqen_hgar)
There were days when the realization that he was someone’s father made Steve's head hurt. Mostly he was grateful that he could trust his instincts, because Peter was what had been missing from his life. Yes, he still had lingering, unresolved issues from his time in the Army, and sure, he had what Bucky annoyingly referred to as a criminally untapped ass and no life outside of work and Peter, but Steve was okay with how his life had turned out because of trusting his instincts.

Unfortunately, those same instincts had straight up betrayed him by going absolutely haywire upon being exposed to Tony Stark.
dating!  tony+rhodey  trauma:childabuse  c:200-400k  otpfight!  panicattacks!  ptsd!  trauma:emotional  tony+peter  a+parenting!  natasha+bruce  developingrelationship  sexy  bucky/clint  angsty  firstsexexperience  kink:bare  sobriety!  singleparent!  steve+peter  tattooartist!  adopt!/takecareof!  ohana!  family!  firsttime  kink:needy/overwrought  loves  veteran!  tearjerker  trauma:mental  commitment/intimacyissues!  slowbuild  therapy!  tony+bruce  kink:bottoming  tony+pepper  drug/alcoholabuse!  angst+happyending  steve/tony  mentalhealthissues!  tattoos!  lackofcommunication!  romance  depression!  avengers  au:human  job:businessman! 
7 weeks ago by floatondown
Who You Are To Me - CognizantCatastrophe
Bucky started a YouTube channel to give himself something to do after he lost his arm in combat, and quickly became popular. Bucky is invited to a charity event, where he runs into a gorgeous man named Tony. Little does he know Tony is none other than Tony Stark, the richest man in the world.

They manage to keep their relationship private from fans and media for a whole year before Tony blows it by interrupting Bucky in the middle of a live broadcast. Yeah, Bucky warned him, but… Tony missed that part.
loves  disabledvet!  sweet  oblivious!  ptsd!  romance  secretdating!  socialmedia!/online!  avengers  c:15-50k  meetcute!  tony/bucky  mistakenidentity!  au:human  job:businessman! 
9 weeks ago by floatondown
Stars Can't Shine (Without Darkness) - rinnwrites
Bucky Barnes is recovering from his war injury quite nicely, thanks, when his best friends Steve and Peggy pass in a tragic accident, leaving behind their only daughter, Jamie. Bucky is thrown into the new challenge of trying to raise his goddaughter as she mourns her parents and he, his friends. It's a rough road to recovery for them both, until Jamie's science teacher, Mr. Stark, steps in, with a little more to teach them than just facts about the stars.
loves  angst+happyending  avengers  family!  firsttime  bucky+sam  developingrelationship  characterdeath:major  singleparent!  sciencethemes!  kidfic!  steve/peggy  c:15-50k  ptsd!  emotionalhurt/comfort  sweet  romance  adopt!/takecareof!  disabledvet!  tony/bucky  au:human  job:teacher!/professor!  job:writer! 
10 weeks ago by floatondown
All The Time In The World - NotEvenCloseToStraight
The Battle of New York: Tony flies himself and the nuke through the wormhole and when his suit shuts down and he starts to fall, he knows he's going to die.
But then he wakes up in an alley in Brooklyn, two strangers staring down at him in confusion and Tony is sure he is dreaming when he shakes hands first with pre-serum Steve Rogers, and then Bucky Barnes.
Trapped in 1942, Tony befriends Steve, and falls in love with Bucky but America is at war, and Bucky and Steve ship out to join the cause.
Tony knows all the stories about the Howling Commandos and knows what’s coming for the soldiers, and has to live through history as first Bucky falls, and then Steve disappears.
Tony is left alone in the 40's, crying himself to sleep in the house he had shared with his best friend and his lover.
But then he wakes up on the pavement in New York, the Hulk roaring in his face, Steve staring down at him, and he has to wonder if it was all a hallucination.
When Tony fell through the sky, did he fall through time as well? Why does Steve act so cold towards him? Were he and Bucky really that happy together?

Did it all really happen, or is Tony in love with a life he can only have in his dreams?
ptsd!  angsty  time:1900wars  tony+peggy  avengers  developingrelationship  angst+happyending  romance  wintersoldier!  trauma:physical  europe/uk!  alternatecanon  drama  tearjerker  1940sboyfriends!  roommates!  away!  lgbtq:homophobia!  polyamory!  sweet  loves  soldier!/seal!  gettingbetter!  characterdeath:major  timewarp!  sexualtension!  c:200-400k  *EPUB*  trauma:mental  steve+bucky  firsttime  fallinginlove!  intimacy!  steve/peggy  depression!  canondivergence  tony/bucky  lgbtq:asexual!  steve/tony 
10 weeks ago by floatondown
Storm Over Still Waters - LeisurelyPanda
“Shh, shh, it’s okay, you’re safe,” he said. He had a deep, smooth voice like a breeze blowing through grass. Steve looked up as he paused. The man was big, taller than Steve was with a wide, gentle smile against a square jaw covered in a blond beard. “My name is Thor Odinson, captain of the NYPD. You’re safe, now."

Steve stared up into Thor’s face while the words registered. Safe. NYPD. Captain. Thor. The adrenaline that was coursing through his veins dissipated as relief flooded his body.

“Oh, thank God,” he sobbed. He crumpled to the floor. Thor caught him before he could fall the whole way. Steve sobbed with relief into Thor’s shoulder. “Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you.”

“It’s okay,” Thor murmured. “We’ll take care of you. They won’t hurt you again.”
therapy!  singleparent!  trauma:abuse  avengers  hospital!  developingrelationship  kink:heat  babysitting!  steve/thor  bonding!  abducted!  gettingbetter!  c:50-100k  slowbuild  they'rekids!  firstsexexperience  illness!  slavery!  kidfic!  trauma:sexual  rescue!  ptsd!  alpha/beta/omega!  trauma:aftermath!  au:human  job:cop!/deputy! 
11 weeks ago by floatondown
ripped at every edge (but you're a masterpiece) - Lissy
When Pepper leaves Tony, he reverts to his old habits. He's not expecting much when he picks up Hari, but is pleasantly surprised when their hook-up turns into something more.
hookup!  alternatereality  harry/tony  kink:oral  masterofdeath!  rich!  anxiety!  harry+draco  avengers  wip  villain:thanos  magic!  kink:dominant  bamf!  loves  developingrelationship  hp  ptsd!  drama  sexy  canondivergence  firsttime  c:100-200k  romance  sweet  char:death  parents!  tonystarkbots!  job:auror!  job:businessman!  cisswap!always  job:cop!/deputy! 
12 weeks ago by floatondown
Stranger in a Familiar Land - MerrickBelle
Tony Stark is a complicated guy with secrets. Despite riches and fame, he has few true friends and little life outside of Iron Man. Which is what everyone seems to want, except Pepper. Pepper hates Iron Man, but he can't change what he is.
Harry Potter has no idea what life after death holds, but he can't go back, can't undo what has been done. A new life, new people, and a new world. The only direction is forward, for both of them.
canondivergence  loves  drama  wingfic!  lgbtq:intersex!  kink:bp!  bestfriends!  brokenheart!  tony/pepper  hp  worldbuild  reunion!  memoryissues!  brokenup!/divorced!  abandoned  kink:breeding  masterofdeath!  longtimespan  avengers  college!  friendstolovers  politics!  angst+happyending  unhealthyrelationships  royalty!  kink:dominant  char:death  non-human:alien  harry/tony  alternatecanon  sexy  trauma:mental  kink:subspace/drop  space!  romance  kink:needy/overwrought  ptsd!  kink:bdsm  slowbuild  reincarnation/pastlives! 
12 weeks ago by floatondown
Forms of Love - bear_bell
Months after the Avengers' dispute in Germany, the team returns to the US and moves back into the tower. As always, everyone pretends that nothing happened. Tony is just fine with this. He's used to pretending, and he'll be damned if he lets any of them see him flinch.

Tony's the bad guy, after all. He's used to it. He's fine with it. He's good at it.

Only now, there's something far worse loitering around the tower - The Winter Soldier. No one notices the guy at first, but when they do, Tony figures that he should have the soldier's back.

Birds of a feather should flock together, and the bad guys should start a book club.
c:15-50k  pushedaway!  ptsd!  kink:restraints  canondivergence  funny  firsttime  wintersoldier!  canon:civilwar  angst+happyending  splitpersonality!  slowbuild  avengers  tony/bucky 
june 2019 by floatondown
(I Fought The War) The War Won - RayShippouUchiha
“Finish it,” Tony tells him, face bruised, chest broken, and heart just … gone.

It has been ripped out by the roots again, like it had been once before not so long ago, on a couch in Malibu, with a familiar buzzing in Tony’s ears and betrayal high and sick in his throat.

And Tony doesn’t want to feel like this again, didn’t want any of the things that led to this.

Hadn’t wanted them right from the start.

All Tony had wanted was to keep their family safe.

Just like all he really wants Steve to do right now is stop.
wip  extremis!  ptsd!  canon:civilwar  trauma:emotional  c:15-50k  depression!  hurt/comfort  avengers  angsty  pastrelationships!  canondivergence  emotionalhurt/comfort  brokenup!/divorced!  tony/bucky  char:tonystark  steve/tony  tonystarkneedsahug! 
june 2019 by floatondown
This Might Just Work - Odsbodkins
Bucky Barnes is unwillingly dragged along when Nick Fury goes to talk to Tony Stark about the Avenger Initiative, as a little demonstration of the bigger universe Tony's just joined.
livingtogether!  friendswithbenefits  ot3  firsttime  ptsd!  avengers  romance  developingrelationship  fbi!/cia!  sexualityrealization!  c:15-50k  feelings!  assassin!  loves  firstsexexperience  sweet  alternatereality  commitment/intimacyissues!  flirting!  hookup!  tony/bucky  steve/tony/bucky 
june 2019 by floatondown
Changing Fate - Wix
Tony dies in Siberia under the hands of Captain America, but fate doesn't leave it there. He opens his eyes several years earlier amidst the threat of Loki's invasion and the first assembling of the 'Avengers'. Tony may not understand why he got this second chance, but he's going to do better with it - and he's decided that he's going to share it. With a Winter Soldier who could really use a different hand than he was dealt.

Never let it be said that fate doesn't have a sense of humor.
breakup!  pre-slash  gettingbetter!  tony/bucky  avengers  canon:civilwar  buckybarnesrecovery!  ptsd!  timewarp!  characterdeath:major  resurrection!  trauma:emotional  hurt/comfort  c:15-50k  canondivergence  char:tonystark 
june 2019 by floatondown
we miss being ruffians - napricot
“Hey Steve, this is Jack Murphy, our other neighbor. Jack, this is Steve.” Steve looked at Sam a little wildly, expecting to see—he didn’t even know, but some reaction other than Sam’s usual easy friendliness. And there was something there, but it was just the twitch of Sam’s mouth that said he found something hilarious and he was trying not to show it. Was this Sam’s idea of a joke, or a prank? Because this guy—behind the glasses and mustache, Steve could have sworn—well, he looked like Bucky.
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canondivergence  domestic!  c:50-100k  trauma:mental  firsttime  slowbuild  romance  midwest!  undercover!  avengers  trauma:abuse  ptsd!  neighbors!  developingrelationship  funny  steve+sam  disguise!  away!  sweet  pining  gettingbetter!  mistakenidentity!  steve/bucky  buckybarnesrecovery!  job:teacher!/professor!  job:artist! 
june 2019 by floatondown
Brooklyn Baby - sprinkle_of_cinnamon
In which Bucky is just trying to live life and enjoy his unofficial official table at the obnoxiously hipster coffee shop but some guy named Steve stole his spot.

Or, the time that Bucky unintentionally befriended the Avengers and had no idea.
friendstolovers  firsttime  oblivious!  ptsd!  natasha/clint  secretidentity!  bucky+clint  funny  veteran!  stucky:cap!steve+modernseargent!bucky  modern  avengers  c:15-50k  coffeeshop!  disabledvet!  meetcute!  howlingcommandoes!  soldier!/seal!  pining  alternatereality  steve/bucky 
june 2019 by floatondown
Into the Woods - AustinB
All Bucky wants is 8 days of wilderness solitude with his friends.

What he gets is way better.
camping!  c:15-50k  disabledvet!  firsttime  disability:physical!  ptsd!  romance  flirting!  avengers  stucky:big!steve+seargent!bucky  meetcute!  fluff  funny  drinking!  steve/bucky  au:human 
june 2019 by floatondown
Roots Have Grown - AustinB
Bucky is a mildly agoraphobic veteran with funds to spare, who becomes enamored with the cute blonde guy in his building.

So when Steve mentions needing a roommate to cut down on rent costs, Bucky decides it would be a good idea to volunteer.
recluse!  roommates!  romance  pining  stucky:little!steve+modern!bucky  friendstolovers  avengers  giftgiving!  pet-owners!  sweet  protective!  firsttime  c:15-50k  hermit!  ptsd!  disabledvet!  fluff  gettingbetter!  steve/bucky  au:human 
june 2019 by floatondown
Easy Work For Easy Pay - AustinB
Bucky's working his way back up through the ranks at S.H.I.E.L.D. after a mission took his left arm and Stark gave him a new metal one.

So when Fury tasks him with integrating the newly defrosted Captain Rogers into the 21st century, he jumps at the promotion.
alternatereality  developingrelationship  drama  workplaceromance!  disability:physical!  firsttime  amnesia!  stucky:cap!steve+modern!bucky  avengers  loves  angst+happyending  romance  ptsd!  friendstolovers  teamfic  pining  soldier!/seal!  c:15-50k  sweet  fbi!/cia!  slowbuild  engaged!  fluff  gettingbetter!  steve/bucky 
june 2019 by floatondown
Wrong Number - Finely Honed (jaqen_hgar)
Bucky ripped open the packaging of his new phone, spent twenty incredibly frustrating minutes getting it activated, then plugged the stupid thing in to charge while he paced around his kitchen table. He looked at the clock, did some mental arithmetic, and decided there was no way he could wait until Steve was home. If he didn’t vent, he’d punch a hole in the fucking wall, or maybe even set the building on fire.

Hands shaking, he hurriedly dialed the number from memory, and slouched down against the wall the phone was plugged into. As soon as he heard the line pick up, he started talking.
slowbuild  developingrelationship  loves  sweet  phonecalls!  emotionalhurt/comfort  firsttime  disability:physical!  avengers  ptsd!  disabledvet!  pining  c:-15k  romance  steve+bucky  tony/bucky  au:human  job:businessman! 
june 2019 by floatondown
might never be normal again (but who cares) - napricot
The beginnings of a plan took shape in Steve’s mind, as clear and simple as a tactical frontal assault. He’d prove to Bucky that this was it, he was staying: Steve was retired from the fighting game, Steve wasn’t going to let anything keep pulling them apart. Maybe then when Steve finally told him he loved him, Bucky would believe him.

All things considered, Steve thought he’d handled the whole Thanos killing half the universe thing and the ensuing bitter, desperate quest to defeat him pretty well. Sacrificing his super soldier serum to use one of the Infinity Stones wasn't a problem either, not when it meant getting back the half of the universe they'd lost, and especially not when it meant getting Bucky back. But retirement and finally confessing his feelings for Bucky? Those were proving to be more challenging.
sweet  c:50-100k  fix-it  therapy!  wakanda!  romance  avengers  smalltown!  ptsd!  farm!  midlifecrisis!  slowbuild  retired!  stucky:little!steve+winter!bucky  lovely  livingtogether!  pining  canondivergence  gettingbetter!  mentalhealthissues!  steve/bucky  trauma:aftermath! 
may 2019 by floatondown
What I Used To Be - thepinupchemist
When the police uncover a hidden sub-basement in the home of criminal Alexander Pierce and find a tortured omega and his three pups, they bring them to the Stark Omega Clinic, a non-profit dedicated to rehabilitating traumatized omegas.

After dark in September 2005, fourteen year old Bucky Barnes vanished. Eleven years and three pups later, he is far from the boy that went missing from a suburban neighborhood outside of Denver.

Steve Rogers is an alpha of some means. When he came into money, he decided to use what he had for good and sign up as a candidate to be a support alpha for his close friend Tony's charitable clinic. When he takes on the task of helping reintegrate Bucky and his pups into the world, he doesn't expect to fall so hard.
livingtogether!  abducted!  kissing!  family!  parents!  kink:heat  feelings!  trauma:emotional  trauma:mental  adopt!/takecareof!  trauma:abuse  emotionalhurt/comfort  drama  consentissues  slowbuild  trauma:sexual  rescue!  c:100-200k  avengers  romance  hurt/comfort  incarcerated!  ptsd!  depression!  dub/non-con  angst+happyending  anxiety!  tearjerker  gettingbetter!  mentalhealthissues!  steve/bucky  alpha/beta/omega!  trauma:aftermath!  au:human 
may 2019 by floatondown
perfectly right wrong number - melonbutterfly
It all starts because Steve is too dumb to handle his smartphone.

A wrong number AU in which Bucky Barnes doesn't enter Steve's life (meaning: Bucky wasn't born until the eighties, but Steve is still Captain America) until Steve accidentally dials the wrong number. Wherein there is a lot of texting, some advice via Natasha and Darcy, a bit of pining, and a first date in an amusement park. Oh, and on top of being a disabled veteran, Bucky is a professional catwalker. Literally.
texting!  lovely  ptsd!  c:15-50k  slowbuild  secretdating!  alternatereality  avengers  meetcute!  stucky:cap!steve+seargent!bucky  secretidentity!  sweet  socialmedia!/online!  romance  fluff  disabledvet!  disability:physical!  pining  gettingbetter!  steve/bucky  job:baker! 
may 2019 by floatondown
The Best Way to Wake - LeeHan
James Buchanan Barnes lay in a glass pod in the middle of the table, frozen since he fell. Steve’s hands were on the glass before he realized he’d moved.
“Wait, Captain!”
“Get him out,” Steve whispered, his hands searching for a clasp, a keypad, something.
“Captain, we need to keep him in stasis—“
“I said get him out!”
livingtogether!  sweet  loves  c:15-50k  ptsd!  therapy!  firsttime  avengers  oblivious!  pining  alternatereality  firstsexexperience  depression!  alternatecanon  stucky:cap!steve+seargent!bucky  teamfic  gettingbetter!  steve/bucky 
may 2019 by floatondown
First Impressions Aren't Everything - charlesdk
"Why does it matter anyway? He’s obviously straight."

"Steve goes on a bisexual rant at least once a week," Sam says. "He is definitely not straight."

Okay, then he's not interested, Bucky wants to say but even he isn't blind enough to not have noticed the way Steve blatantly checked him out earlier.
flirting!  ptsd!  disabledvet!  firsttime  avengers  wooing!  veteran!  depression!  c:-15k  bucky+sam  roommates!  gettingbetter!  steve/bucky  au:human 
may 2019 by floatondown
Adjusting Focus - charlesdk
“What's this Bucky like?” Sam asks. “He a good neighbor?”

“I guess,” Steve says with a shrug. “We talk occasionally, whenever we run into each other. I think he works from home, has a lot of late nights doing whatever he's doing. Sometimes he still hasn't slept by the time I go for a morning run with Alice.”

OR— Steve gets a dog and a new neighbor. Also, there's a cat.
avengers  sweet  disabledvet!  emotionalhurt/comfort  neighbors!  veteran!  pet-owners!  flirting!  pining  c:15-50k  ptsd!  firsttime  gettingbetter!  steve/bucky  au:human  job:artist! 
may 2019 by floatondown
The Settler - charlesdk
“What do you want to do?”

Steve pauses and looks at them.

What he wants is to stay with them. He doesn't have any family left, they all died before he even joined the war and became... this. Captain America turned whatever he is now. But Natasha and Sam have become his family over the years. Not just because they're on the run together, fugitives and vigilantes, but way before that too.

He doesn't want to leave that.

But he knows that, realistically, he can't stay with them and they can't stay with him.

So he looks at them with a smile and lies. “I don't know.”

OR; In which Steve retires and finally finds a place to call home.
c:50-100k  characterstudy  ptsd!  lovely  developingrelationship  ohana!  loves  pining  alternatereality  stucky:cap!steve+modern!bucky  firsttime  smalltown!  avengers  retired!  farm!  friendstolovers  gettingbetter!  steve/bucky  trauma:aftermath!  job:baker! 
may 2019 by floatondown
sad cat - wearing_tearing
“Uh, hi? I’m here to volunteer at the Cat Loft?”

Bucky almost brains himself when he pushes the back door open and hurries to the reception area, tripping over the new box of dog treats he hasn’t had the time to put away yet.

“Hi,” Bucky breathes out, face flushing in embarrassment when Steve just blinks at him, confused.
c:-15k  alternatereality  firsttime  avengers  sweet  ptsd!  volunteering!  animalshelter!  stucky:cap!steve+modern!bucky  steve/bucky 
may 2019 by floatondown
These American Dreams (ain’t no white picket fences left for me) - kariye
In which Bucky has a house, a dog, an herb garden, and a serious case of insomnia. Welcome to Havensport, Indiana (population 8,294), where Tom’s Neighborhood Grocer stays open all night, little old ladies call the car shop to get their refrigerators repaired, and the heat of summer days and the length of summer nights can make you think that this perfect world will last forever.
angsty  trauma:mental  amnesia!  muggle!  c:15-50k  mechanic!  avengers  midwest!  coffeeshop!  smalltown!  ptsd!  slowbuild  away!  firsttime  developingrelationship  pining  canondivergence  gettingbetter!  steve/bucky  ending:ambiguous/open  buckybarnesrecovery!  trauma:aftermath! 
may 2019 by floatondown
Don't Leave Me Asunder - maikurosaki
Like many other war veterans, Bucky Barnes is alone. He doesn't talk to his family, he has no friends and his only human interactions are with his cleaning crew from Avengers Tower. Plagued by nightmares and pain, he lives each day in isolation. Until the Avengers bring their fight at home and Bucky gets to meet the famous Captain America. To his surprise, both their lives change forever after that.

Or: the janitor listening to music and ignoring the battle around him AU that no one asked for.
disability:physical!  emotionalhurt/comfort  depression!  alternatereality  firsttime  friendships  c:15-50k  pining  angst+happyending  disabledvet!  modernau!  sweet  avengers  ptsd!  friendstolovers  mentalhealthissues!  steve/bucky 
may 2019 by floatondown
I love the word warm - tigriswolf
Written for the following prompt:

5 times Bucky was told he could pick whatever he wanted from somewhere and his response were big, hopeful puppy eyes and "Anything I want?" And it broke Steve's heart.

+ 1 time he chose for himself
h50  ptsd!  steve+bucky  canondivergence  teamfic  c:oneshot/-7k  sweet  gettingbetter!  buckybarnesrecovery!  trauma:aftermath! 
april 2019 by floatondown
A New Reality in Direction - shanehardy
[Sequel: Walk of Fame]

It was the summer after many members of the New Directions had graduated. Everyone managed to get together to see Rachel off to New York City the day after graduation. When Mercedes left, Sam's heart broke. He didn't know how to lose the girl he wanted to be with and his best friend at the same time. He was lost with no direction.

But he knew he wasn't the only one. Other members of New Directions also had similar problems.
glee  blaine/sam  firstsexexperience  ohana!  musician!  youtuber!  canondivergence  kurt/blaine  romance  characterbashing  developingrelationship  famous!  drama  sam+sebastian  sam+santana  firsttime  angsty  breakup!  family!  w:low  sexualityconflict  model!  c:200-400k  ptsd!  trauma:emotional  trauma:sexual  otpfight!  adopt!/takecareof!  menage! 
december 2018 by floatondown
Through the Fire - MsPerception427
Life has been going well in the Big Apple. Kurt and Blaine are still happily engaged. Rachel is a Broadway sensation. Everything is as it should be. Until the day that Sam gets a call saying that there was an incident at the base where Puck was stationed. That one phone call shakes up their idyllic lives and changes things forever. But who ever said that change was a bad thing?
college!  canondivergence  trauma:mental  puck+jake  c:50-100k  kurt/blaine  pining  puck/rachel  self-injury!  soldier!/seal!  grief/mourning  glee  firsttime  blaine/sam  family!  hospital!  ptsd!  puck+sam 
november 2018 by floatondown
This We'll Defend - dark_Lady_eris
The look of shock was hard to miss on every single person's face that was sitting at the table; he wasn't sure if the shock was from him suddenly showing up after 10 years in an Army uniform of all things, or if it was from his appearance.
fast&furious  brian/dom  canondivergence  soldier!/seal!  c:-15k  cominghome!  ptsd!  veteran!  drama  fluff  pining  w:low 
june 2017 by floatondown
For God and Country - islandgirl
He’s got a bullet hole in his shoulder the size of a quarter and more cuts and bruises scattered over his body than there are hours in a day that all attest to where he has been. And for the last eighteen months, he’s had a faded picture in place of a family to guide him back home again.
h50  steve/danny  canondivergence  c:-15k  soldier!/seal!  recallactiveduty!  cominghome!  injured!  ptsd!  family!  establishedrelationship 
april 2017 by floatondown
It Wasn't Ever About the Fish and Chips - kho
He laughs, and the sad thing is, Danny thinks this is probably what actually passes for amusement to Steve these days. This is probably the most genuine laugh he’s had since getting out of the hospital. It hurts to hear because it’s only so deep, doesn’t reach his eyes, doesn’t radiate that big old giant heart of Steve’s that Danny’s come to know and love. (set post 07x02)
h50  steve/danny  canondivergence  coda/episodetag  firsttime  loveconfession!  angst+happyending  ptsd!  feelings!  depression!  c:oneshot/-7k  away!  europe/uk!  gettingbetter! 
february 2017 by floatondown
Love They Say - kailadawn
Relationships are complicated. Falling in love with your best friend, who just happens to be of the same sex, is complicated. Entering into that relationship with that best friend while you are both technically in relationships with someone else is complicated. Add on the fact that your best friend has been drugged and is now suffering from flashbacks that only you seem to be able to bring him out of, and things really are complicated.

Yeah, relationships are complicated, then again what aspect of Danny Williams life isn't complicated.
h50  steve/danny  canondivergence  firsttime  danny/gabby  steve/catherine  infidelity!  pining  sweet  angst+happyending  drugged!  ptsd!  c:15-50k 
february 2017 by floatondown
Ho`oilo - JoJo
It’s been a tough year for Five-O's premier unmarried married couple. Danny lost his brother in traumatic circumstances and Steve went one too many brutal rounds with Wo Fat. Chin figures it’s time the two of them found peace in a proper commitment to each other. Trouble is, the whole team’s busy having its ass kicked, Danny seems hopelessly conflicted, and Steve is showing every sign he’s about to come undone.
h50  steve/danny  canondivergence  illness!  ptsd!  hurt/comfort  emotionalhurt/comfort  ohana!  hookup!  developingrelationship  commitment/intimacyissues!  lovely  c:15-50k  pov:outside  team:50 
february 2017 by floatondown
Fall On Your Knees - A Touch of Insanity (RemainNameless)
This is not a Christmas story. This is a story of two brothers, both harboring secrets from the war, of soldiers and the battlefield they don't know how to leave, of finding happiness in unlikely places. And a little bit of Christmas.
spn  dean/castiel  veteran!  ptsd!  addiction!  drug/alcoholabuse!  sexualityconflict  angsty  angst+happyending  loves  c:50-100k  *EPUB*  mentalhealthissues!  au:human 
december 2016 by floatondown
Ho`i Mai - daughter_of_lilith
A year ago Danny couldn't have imagined a life without Steve in it, now it's an all-too-painful reality. But how to do you fix a friendship when there's five thousand miles between you?
h50  steve/danny  canondivergence  otpfight!  emotionalhurt/comfort  therapy!  angst+happyending  ptsd!  firsttime  away!  nyc!  jersey!  *EPUB*  gettingbetter! 
october 2016 by floatondown
The Time In-between. - withoutwords
In the wake of Steve's near-death, Danny's having trouble fighting off bad dreams. Post 6x25.
h50  steve/danny  canondivergence  hurt/comfort  ptsd!  baddreams!  anxiety!  firsttime  lovely  c:oneshot/-7k 
october 2016 by floatondown
Burning Love 'Verse - ialwayslikedthetie
“hi we’re neighbours and omg are you alright i could smell cooking burning - whoaaa now that’s just embarrassing? step aside i’ll handle this” // Steve and Danny begin to navigate their new relationship, and are there for each other when they need it most.
h50  steve/danny  alternatereality  healthcare!  neighbors!  firsttime  romance  angst+happyending  disabledvet!  ptsd!  breakup!  job:cop!/deputy! 
august 2016 by floatondown
I Know You're a Mistake I Won't Regret - LunaCanisLupus_22
“I don’t know how your omega at home lives with you,” Danny says, half-serious, half-mocking.

It’s a throw away comment. Not meant for further thought but Steve stiffens considerably, hackles rising with the urge to attack and defend. Mostly because there is no omega waiting for him at home.

And there’s no alpha Lieutenant Commander Steve McGarrett, either.
h50  steve/danny  alternatereality  genderthemes  ptsd!  therapy!  trauma:emotional  panicattacks!  self-hatred!  angst+happyending  romance  slowbuild  pining  consentissues  secrets!  lovely  fuckingperfect  loves  c:15-50k  *EPUB*  alpha/beta/omega! 
april 2016 by floatondown
Mamo's Books and Music - mermaid
Steve is an ex-SEAL, badly wounded in Afghanistan; Chin is an ex-violinist, kicked out of the HPO in disgrace. Together they own Mamo's, the best classical music and book store in Honolulu. Then one day, a cop from New Jersey walks in...   "Welcome to Hawaii," Steve says with a grin, handing over a loaner umbrella big enough to shelter Danny, Grace, and her newly-purchased books from the rainstorm. "I suggest you invest in a decent umbrella, if you're planning to stick around."
h50  steve/danny  alternatereality  bookstore!  soldier!/seal!  veteran!  disabledvet!  meetcute!  sweet  romance  ohana!  developingrelationship  ptsd!  lovely  loves  firsttime  c:15-50k  disability:physical!  *EPUB*  job:cop!/deputy! 
july 2015 by floatondown
Sanity is Overrated - Ataraxetta
Of course, a refusal to apologise and a handjob on the floor of a dressing room does not reparations make. Eggsy left the shop that night with a new chip on the shoulder of his new suit. Harry left the shop that night with the knowledge of what Eggsy looked like flushed and trembling with pleasure under his hands and the certainty that this single torturous taste of what he wanted most was worth living with the possibility that he would not get another. (Everyone has PTSD and gentleman spies make bad decisions.) [Sequel to The Green]
kingsman  post-canon  wasnotdead:consequences  ptsd!  trauma:emotional  trauma:abuse  therapy!  angsty  romance  hurt/comfort  developingrelationship  sexy  kink:finger  lovely  tearjerker  loves  eggsy/harryh  strainedrelationship!  trauma:aftermath! 
july 2015 by floatondown
take me to church - driftwoodq
He sees Westminster Abbey. Instead of a burst of civic and national pride, it feels like someone has just punched him in the chest. Harry stumbles, nearly falls over, and he can suddenly see bright Southern sunlight, he can smell the scent of blood all over him, his shoulder aches where someone’s just stabbed him, there are bullet bruises all over his back. There’s someone screaming in the distance and he can see flat, brown eyes facing him down the barrel of a silenced gun. He winds up crouched, retching on the floor of a public loo, head between his knees, breathing high and fast through his teeth while Merlin’s voice, quiet and calm and grounding in his ear tells him just stay there, Arthur, someone’s coming, and someone comes.
kingsman  char:harry  post-canon  wasnotdead:consequences  trauma:emotional  ptsd!  hurt/comfort  lovely  loves  c:oneshot/-7k  eggsy/harryh  gettingbetter! 
june 2015 by floatondown
Pick It All Up - thepinupchemist
Army veteran Castiel Novak is a wreck after his tour in Afghanistan, brought home to his brother's apartment in Lawrence, Kansas with scars both mental and physical. He copes poorly, and during one night of bad decision making, meets somebody just as much of a disaster as he is -- a prostitute named Dean Winchester. And suddenly, two damaged men might not be as irreparable as they believed.
spn  dean/castiel  soldier!/seal!  veteran!  prostitution!  angsty  romance  loves  tearjerker  ptsd!  c:100-200k  *EPUB*  au:human 
february 2014 by floatondown

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