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Let Me Help
"The Narada incident has just been dealt with, and Kirk is realizing that he's in worse shape than he would like to admit." (111,306 words) Part 2 of Shades of Blue and Gold
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  kirk/mccoy  bamf!kirk  hurt!kirk  ptsd!kirk  guilty!spock  protective!spock  protective!mccoy  friendship  hurt/comfort  ptsd  abuse:child(past)  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  noncon/dubcon  recovery  slowburn  preslash  series/verse  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:maifai 
8 weeks ago by elwarre
Five Space Pets Jim Brought Home and One Bones Let Him Keep
"Jim never really got to have a pet as a child and Leonard sympathizes, but this is starting to get ridiculous." (7314 words)
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  hikaru_sulu  spock  kirk/mccoy  st:fiveyearmission  humor  crack  brainwashing/mindgames  sex:pollen  established!relationship  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:the_dala 
april 2018 by elwarre
Linguistic Ambiguities in Vulcan Ethical Codes
"The thing people always forget is that it was a Vulcan ship that reached Tarsus IV first." (5770 words) Sequel: "Infinite Diversity in Infinite Combinations"
james_kirk  spock  gen  bamf!kirk  hurt!kirk  abused!kirk  smart!kirk  character_study  abuse:child(past)  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  recovery  academy!fic  languages:multiple  st:preseries(aos)  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:elumish 
april 2018 by elwarre
Miles and Miles of Mountains
"Spock is standing outside of his quarters. Jim pauses. He wants to punch him, turns the idea over in his mind briefly before loosening his fist and keying in his access code instead. Spock follows him inside wordlessly. He eyes Jim like he’s a wild animal, something that needs to be monitored and contained. Jim has never felt less contained in his life." (3605 words)
james_kirk  spock  kirk/spock  ptsd!kirk  bottom!kirk  top!spock  pov:kirk  character_study  angst  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  hothothot  sex:rough  kink:manhandling  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:mombasas  have:pdf 
february 2018 by elwarre
I'll Find My Soul As I Go Home
"Spock is a lonely post-graduate student at Columbia who is just coming to terms with being gay. Jim is a bright, vivacious young man with as many secrets as scars. They both find an outlet for their emotions in the alternative club scene in late 1980s Manhattan – and in each other. But will Jim’s dark past ruin the tenuous relationship they’ve built?" (33,135 words) Very interesting premise and solid writing, but the ending feels rushed and incomplete to me.
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  gaila  kirk/spock  homeless!kirk  streetkid!kirk  hooker!kirk  hurt!kirk  student!spock  protective!mccoy  angst  historical  homelessness  streetkids  abuse:child(past)  prostitution  underage  college  preslash  st:au:non-starfleet  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:rabidchild67  have:pdf 
october 2017 by elwarre
Knives in the Water
"When Leonard McCoy moved out the California to work with his idol, the last thing he expected was to get caught in the middle of a decade long mafia war." (18,618 words) Extra warning for a long torture scene near the end that was way too much for me. I ended up skipping most of it.
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  hikaru_sulu  spock  pavel_chekov  kirk/mccoy  mob!kirk  criminal!kirk  bamf!kirk  protective!kirk  top!kirk  doctor!mccoy  hurt!mccoy  kidnapped!mccoy  tortured!mccoy  pining!mccoy  reluctant!mccoy  bottom!mccoy  action  drama  criminals/mafia  kidnapping  torture  escape/rescue  pining  kink:manhandling  first_time  fandom:startrek(aos)  fandom:startrek(tos)  st:au:non-starfleet  author:green_postit 
october 2017 by elwarre
I Want to (be)Leave
"Jim follows his government official mother to New Mexico, and eventually finds himself working as a janitor in Area 51. He tries his best to ignore all the spooky alien nonsense around the base, and gets into some bar fights along the way. When he's saved from a kick to the stomach by a mysterious pointy-eared gentleman, he realizes that the man isn't just metaphorically out of this world." (15,540 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  winona_kirk  kirk/spock  janitor!kirk  schmoop  misunderstanding  abuse:child(past)  first_time  st:au:non-starfleet  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:spacegaysgalore 
october 2017 by elwarre
The Way Glass Warps
"Kirk lands in the alternate timeline's version of the Mirrorverse, where he finds himself in the middle of what Mirror!Spock thinks is a prearranged and consensual BDSM scene. Jim can't blow his cover so he endures it, finding himself further humiliated by enjoying parts of it. But everything falls apart when Mirror!Spock realizes something's wrong." (11,237 words) Wow, so take the warnings seriously on this one
james_kirk  spock  kirk/spock  hurt!kirk  raped!kirk  mirror!spock  guilty!spock  protective!spock  angst  dark  noncon/dubcon  kink:rapefantasy  bonding/soulmates  first_time  st:mirrorverse  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:trieduntrue 
october 2017 by elwarre
✢ Excerpts from Spock's Journal
"I may have a difficult time writing this. I was in a shop, in Cassidian, when I saw this book and felt compelled to fill its pages. I do not know how I will do so. I do not express much. I suppose I will write little, and what little I write I will write slowly, and after a time it will fill itself up, and I will be surprised when I turn the final page." (2849 words)
  james_kirk  spock  kirk/spock  clueless!kirk  pining!spock  pov:spock  character_study  angst  confession/secrets  pining  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:cable69 
april 2017 by elwarre
A Monument to All Your Sins
"Two months after Jim is released from the hospital, an Admiral looking for some good Starfleet publicity orders him to retake the Kobayashi Maru." (9629 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  kirk/spock  bamf!kirk  smart!kirk  hurt!kirk  understanding!spock  protective!spock  pov:spock  character_study  friendship  hurt/comfort  recovery  established!relationship  st:intodarkness  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:sinestrated 
january 2017 by elwarre
✢ Papers in the Roadside
"Non-Starfleet AU. Jim owns a small bar in Chicago, keeps on picking up strays and taking care of everyone no matter how hard it makes his own life. Spock is a journalist writing feature articles for the Chicago Tribune; he depicts the world with uncanny skill, but hides more than one personal drama and is possibly under surveillance from the Vulcan royal family. They meet by accident just before their lives start to spin out of control." (49,637 words)
  james_kirk  spock  gaila  nyota_uhura  leonard_mccoy  pavel_chekov  hikaru_sulu  kirk/spock  bartender!kirk  orphan!kirk  pining!kirk  journalist!spock  angst  friendship  misunderstanding  industry:journalism  issues:class  slowburn  pining  kink:switching  first_time  st:au:non-starfleet  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:kianspo  have:pdf 
december 2016 by elwarre
Cardinal Rule
"The Enterprise is sent on a mission, one that is strikingly similar to Tarsus IV. Trapped on the warring planet, Kirk must struggle through his demons to keep Spock and his landing team safe. Meanwhile, Spock has recently found he has feelings for his captain and is determined to stay away. Can he when he sees Jim falling into the memories of his horrid past?" (117,960 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  kirk/spock  bamf!kirk  smart!kirk  hurt!kirk  ptsd!kirk  clueless!kirk  protective!spock  hurt!spock  tortured!spock  pining!spock  action  angst  hurt/comfort  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  noncon/dubcon  torture  ptsd  escape/rescue  slowburn  pining  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:sakuraminamio  have:pdf 
december 2016 by elwarre
If I'm Not in Charge
"Admiral Marcus takes advantage of Jim. Nobody notices." (6174 words) Note that the kinks I've tagged for this story are dark and nonconsensual, not kinky.
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  spock  alexander_marcus  kirk/marcus  hurt!kirk  raped!kirk  clueless!mccoy  protective!spock  pov:kirk  academy!fic  angst  hurt/comfort  friendship  noncon/dubcon  abuse:child(past)  tarsus_iv  kink:toys  kink:humiliation  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:s0mmerspr0ssen 
november 2016 by elwarre
Twice Shy
Prompt: "Bones is a werewolf.The moment he meant James Kirk, got a good whiff of his scent, he knew he was fucked. He had thought those stories about werewolves scenting their mate were all bullshit. But the stories about mating for life have got to be fake, right? Right?" (20,000 words)
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  spock  pavel_chekov  hikaru_sulu  kirk/mccoy  spock/uhura  clueless!kirk  kidnapped!kirk  hurt!kirk  tortured!kirk  bottom!kirk  werewolf!mccoy  protective!mccoy  possessive!mccoy  jealous!mccoy  pining!mccoy  top!mccoy  angst  humor  hurt/comfort  werewolves  confession/secrets  kidnapping  torture  escape/rescue  jealousy  pining  bonding/soulmates  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:sarkasticfics 
october 2016 by elwarre
✢ b song
“There's moments in your life that make you, that set the course of who you're gonna be. Sometimes they're little, subtle moments. Sometimes they're not. I'll show you what I mean.” This is the story of Jim Kirk, not as he might have been in another world, but who he is becoming in this one; and these are the people and encounters that change him along the way. (51,000 words)
  james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  winona_kirk  gaila  spock  samuel_kirk  kevin_riley  thomas_leighton  kodos  frank(startrek)  gary_mitchell  christopher_pike  george_kirk  kirk/mccoy  kirk/leighton  kirk/mitchell  kirk/gaila  mccoy/ofc  winona/george  smart!kirk  protective!kirk  hacker!kirk  hurt!kirk  abused!kirk  grieving!kirk  pining!kirk  bottom!kirk  understanding!mccoy  jealous!mccoy  top!mitchell  grieving!winona  abusive!frank(startrek)  pov:winona  pov:kirk  character_study  angst  academy!fic  friendship  grief  abuse:child  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  prostitution  languages:multiple  underage  pining  jealousy  kink:rimming  kink:voyeurism  kink:switching  first_time  st:preseries(aos)  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:ladybugkay  need:pdf 
october 2016 by elwarre
Narada's Child
"Spock will arrive at any moment and Nero will use the child Kirk to cause him pain. AU Kirk's childhood on the Narada." (3253 words) There is mpreg in this, but it's presented as body horror and not kink.
james_kirk  spock(prime)  spock  nero  winona_kirk  gen  feral!kirk  hurt!kirk  pregnant!kirk  parent!kirk  horror  altered!reality  pov:nero  abuse:child  revenge  kink:mpreg  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:ladyjanelly 
october 2016 by elwarre
Antigravity
"Five times Spock was surprised by the brilliance of Kirk's mind, and one time he totally saw it coming." (9727 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  smart!kirk  protective!kirk  hurt!kirk  protective!spock  character_study  mindmeld  telepathy  bonding/soulmates  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:sinestrated 
september 2016 by elwarre
Win for Losing
"Spock's been played. He doesn't mind too much." (1027 words) Part 2 of the Illogical series
james_kirk  spock  spock(prime)  christopher_pike  kirk/spock  character_study  established!relationship  series/verse  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:waldorph  have:pdf 
september 2016 by elwarre
A Beautiful(ly Illogical) Mind
"Jim never takes up Pike's dare to do better. Close-canon movie AU, with touches of Good Will Hunting." (8233 words) Part 1 of the Illogical series
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  gaila  nyota_uhura  pavel_chekov  kirk/spock  smart!kirk  bamf!kirk  bartender!kirk  bottom!kirk  professor!spock  top!spock  academy!fic  friendship  sex:rough  sex:shower  first_time  series/verse  st:preseries(aos)  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:waldorph  have:pdf 
september 2016 by elwarre
Refractions
"Two separate parallel universes merge with their own as the Enterprise is sent to an unknown planet where a dangerous phenomenon is destroying ships and expanding outward." (25,000 words plus ficlets) Coming up with accurate tags tags for this one is tricky due to the parallel universe issue. :) Note that the noncon is past, not between main characters, and non-graphic.
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  kirk/spock  bamf!kirk  dark!kirk  tortured!kirk  bamf!spock  protective!spock  dark!spock  altered!reality  action  torture  mindmeld  noncon/dubcon  bonding/soulmates  first_time  established!relationship  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:bigmamag 
september 2016 by elwarre
✢ For Gladness of You
"In which shit goes down in no particular order: Jim almost starts a war, Spock gets tortured, Jim gets kidnapped, Jim gets tortured, Spock gets not-quite-kidnapped, Jim takes the Enterprise joyriding, and mysterious Vulcans with their even more mysterious leader hop a ride for a few weeks. But that’s not what the story’s about. It’s about this: Jim was always going to fall in love with Spock – boldly, recklessly. He just didn’t expect to stay that way. A story about getting over all that." (51,055 words) This is perfect in every way.
  james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  hikaru_sulu  pavel_chekov  nyota_uhura  christopher_pike  sybok  kirk/spock  hurt!kirk  kidnapped!kirk  tortured!kirk  protective!spock  musician!spock  pov:kirk  character_study  music/dance  abuse:child(past)  hunger/starvation  tarsus_iv  kidnapping  torture  dehydration/heatstroke  fighting/sparring  mindmeld  hothothot  sex:rough  kink:rimming  kink:switching  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:kariye  have:pdf 
september 2016 by elwarre
Journey From Babel
"The Enterprise has dropped off the diplomats on Babel... but the events of the journey there have repercussions. First printed 1987 in Enterprise Incidents 8." (5245 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  gen  hurt!kirk  sick!kirk  grieving!kirk  protective!kirk  sick!spock  protective!spock  friendship  hurt/comfort  grief  illness  recovery  clinic/hospital  st:season:2  st:ep:2.10(journey_from_babel)  fandom:startrek(tos)  author:sheila_clark 
september 2016 by elwarre
Signed, Sealed, Delivered (I'm Yours)
"In which Spock contemplates the laws of attraction and realizes what a slippery slope that is only after he has already fallen. There's no help for him now." (10,927 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  bamf!kirk  hurt!kirk  pining!spock  pov:spock  character_study  fighting/sparring  pining  slowburn  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:kianspo 
september 2016 by elwarre
✢ A Failure of Logic
"The Enterprise's walls are not thick enough that Spock can't hear what the captain is doing next door." (oneshot)
  james_kirk  spock  kirk/ofc  pining!spock  jealous!spock  voyeur!spock  pov:spock  angst  pining  jealousy  unrequited  hothothot  kink:voyeurism  fandom:startrek(tos)  author:mullenkamp 
september 2016 by elwarre
✢ Shine Like the Sun
"Prompt-fill. An accident leaves Spock with amnesia. His last memory is bringing a cadet up on charges for cheating on the Kobayashi Maru - a cadet who, to his disgust, is now his bondmate." (25,000 words)
  james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  spock(prime)  nyota_uhura  kirk/spock  protective!kirk  hurt!kirk  bottom!kirk  amnesiac!spock  asshole!spock  guilty!spock  top!spock  heartbreaking  angst  hurt/comfort  amnesia  self_loathing  bonding/soulmates  pon_farr  established!relationship  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:kyliselle 
september 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Lotus Eaters
"Stranded on the planet Sigma Nox while searching for a missing away team, Spock and Kirk find themselves pitted against a disturbing native life form. With the captain out of commission on a regular basis and Spock struggling to preserve his stoicism, staying alive is difficult enough – but when a slim chance for escape surfaces, their resolve is truly put to the test. Together they must fight for survival in the heart of an alien jungle, and in the process, uncover the mystery of the planet’s past. Slow build K/S." (93,594 words)
  james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  hurt!kirk  protective!kirk  sick!kirk  drugged!kirk  pining!kirk  bottom!kirk  protective!spock  hurt!spock  top!spock  pov:kirk  pov:spock  action  addiction  illness  jungle  slowburn  pining  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:aldora89  need:pdf 
august 2016 by elwarre
She's the One They Call Old Whatsername
"You gotta plant your flag in the dirt and declare victory on your own terms. The winner is whoever survives long enough to write the history books." (Always-a-girl!Kirk.) (9599 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  girl!kirk  bamf!kirk  pov:kirk  character_study  genderswap  issues:gender/sexuality  issues:sexism  tarsus_iv  abuse:child(past)  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:kaydeefalls 
august 2016 by elwarre
The Sum of its Parts
"The Casari homeworld is a place that has yet to become unified. The people are ready to join the Federation, but one rebel faction will do anything to stop it. Anything, including capturing a starship captain and his first officer. With Kirk's memory damaged and Spock's mental shields shattered, escape is unlikely. It won't stop them from trying." (42,000 words) Ambiguous ending.
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  hurt!kirk  kidnapped!kirk  interrogated!kirk  tortured!kirk  amnesiac!kirk  protective!spock  kidnapped!spock  hurt!spock  tortured!spock  hypothermic!spock  angst  action  amnesia  kidnapping  interrogation  torture  brainwashing/mindgames  hypothermia  escape/rescue  telepathy  mindmeld  recovery  sex:telepathic  first_time  preslash  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:jbmcdragon 
august 2016 by elwarre
Antithesis
"Kirk is given an assignment he isn't sure he'll ever be able to finish. "What would you have done differently in the situation on Tarsus IV?" His childhood nightmare double-spaced in twelve-point font." (shortish)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  ptsd!kirk  guilty!spock  understanding!spock  angst  hurt/comfort  academy!fic  tarsus_iv  ptsd  preslash  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:annenburg 
august 2016 by elwarre
Foundations
"Amanda only wanted what was best for her son, and after Sarek’s death, she was certain that Vulcan was not it. However, she had never expected it to be Iowa either, or rather, a poor little boy from Riverside." (44,819 words)
james_kirk  spock  amanda_grayson  winona_kirk  samuel_kirk  leonard_mccoy  frank(startrek)  kirk/spock  kirk/omc  abused!kirk  lonely!kirk  jealous!kirk  jealous!spock  virgin!spock  neglectful!winona  friendship  character_study  academy!fic  grief  loneliness  abuse:child  resentment  jealousy  kink:virginity  first_time  st:preseries(aos)  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:notboldly 
august 2016 by elwarre
Master of a Nothing Place
"spock is stripped of his logic on an away mission gone bad and turns feral, incredibly violent and utterly brutal. when he comes across jim, though, he is possessive, protective, and even affectionate." (6643 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  bottom!kirk  feral!spock  protective!spock  possessive!spock  top!spock  action  cabin/wilderness  hothothot  kink:manhandling  sex:rough  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:strzyga 
august 2016 by elwarre
Humanoid Sexuality
"Based on this prompt at the STXI kink meme: Spock fingerfucks Kirk in public." (1341 words)
james_kirk  spock  kirk/spock  bottom!kirk  pwp  hothothot  kink:exhibitionism  established!relationship  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:fagurfiskur 
august 2016 by elwarre
✢ Magpie
"Spock met Jim when he was 7 and Jim was 6. It has since been generally agreed that this was a mistake (or: the one where they grow up together and things are simultaneously better and worse for it)." (57,648 words)
  james_kirk  spock  amanda_grayson  sybok  sarek  winona_kirk  frank(startrek)  kirk/spock  smart!kirk  hacker!kirk  grieving!kirk  orphan!kirk  hurt!kirk  lonely!kirk  abused!kirk  bottom!kirk  protective!spock  understanding!spock  lonely!spock  possessive!spock  top!spock  friendship  hurt/comfort  pov:spock  misunderstanding  grief  loneliness  abuse:emotional/psychological  tarsus_iv  underage  sex:phone  kink:dirtytalk  first_time  st:preseries(aos)  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:waldorph  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ Decimation
"Spock is pretty much doomed the minute Jane realizes that the fatshirt is incredibly slutty, and also regulation." (8744 words) I did not expect to like this as much as I did. It's fantastic.
  james_kirk  spock  nyota_uhura  leonard_mccoy  hikaru_sulu  winona_kirk  pavel_chekov  kirk/spock  girl!kirk  humor  pwp  genderswap  bonding/soulmates  pon_farr  hothothot  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:waldorph 
july 2016 by elwarre
I'd Lie
"Bones has loved Jim Kirk almost from the start. That doesn't mean he'll admit it to anyone other than himself. Fortunately for him, it looks like he doesn't need to." (30,211 words)
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  christopher_pike  spock  nyota_uhura  winona_kirk  samuel_kirk  hikaru_sulu  kirk/mccoy  smart!kirk  clueless!kirk  pining!mccoy  angst  hurt/comfort  friendship  academy!fic  confession/secrets  tarsus_iv  noncon/dubcon  hunger/starvation  birthday/holiday  pining  slowburn  first_time  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:anonymous 
july 2016 by elwarre
Long Way Home
"Apparently my brain can break Jim Kirk, too. The fic is mostly Jim centric, with a couple barrels of angst thrown in as Jim feels his way into being a captain and gaining friends. I wrote this drunk (yes, all of it), so I blame vodka for this mess, yes I do. Also, since I can’t find the stepdad’s last name, I gave him the last name of the guy who did his voice over from the film. Also? I loathe the character Winona Kirk’s actress plays on House. Loathe. Hence the bashing." (mid-length)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  spock(prime)  pavel_chekov  christopher_pike  winona_kirk  frank(startrek)  kirk/spock  kirk/omc  kirk/ofc  grieving!kirk  abused!kirk  drugged!kirk  kidnapped!kirk  tortured!kirk  lonely!kirk  bottom!kirk  protective!spock  protective!mccoy  guilty!uhura  asshole!winona  abusive!frank(startrek)  angst  grief  loneliness  misunderstanding  abuse:child(past)  kidnapping  drugs:nonconsensual  torture  clinic/hospital  kink:rimming  sex:rough  preslash  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:jezebel_rising  need:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ Fingerprints of Forgotten Memories
“Jim presses his palm to his forehead, because suddenly there’s just a big fuzzy blip where the name of the planet used to be.” Mistakes that aren’t mistakes can snowball into something else entirely. (27,000 words) Sequel to Sealed by a Fragile Touch
  james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  spock  nyota_uhura  kirk/mccoy  kirk/ofc/omc  amnesiac!kirk  drugged!kirk  hurt!kirk  raped!kirk  asshole!mccoy  guilty!mccoy  protective!mccoy  protective!spock  understanding!spock  angst  hurt/comfort  misunderstanding  amnesia  noncon/dubcon  drugs:nonconsensual  mindmeld  established!relationship  series/verse  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:vixys  need:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ Sealed By a Fragile Touch
“He’s not leaving Bones behind on some godforsaken desert planet with nothing but the dead for company.” Time moves on, wherever you are, but the question is, how fast? Kirk/Bones. (12,300 words) Sequel: Fingerprints of Forgotten Memories
  james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  spock  kirk/mccoy  protective!kirk  hurt!mccoy  lonely!mccoy  angst  hurt/comfort  abandonment  dehydration/heatstroke  loneliness  touchstarvation  escape/rescue  established!relationship  series/verse  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:vixys  need:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Prison of your Mind
"The kid takes him to the ground, hard and fast, and the knife punches right through his throat. The man gurgles and blood sprays, and the kid’s head snaps up, blond hair flying everywhere, as he gives the blade a final, savage, twist and pulls it free. He’d know those eyes anywhere. It’s Jim Kirk." (7460 words)
  james_kirk  nyota_uhura  leonard_mccoy  spock  hikaru_sulu  gen  bamf!kirk  smart!kirk  protective!kirk  hurt!kirk  abused!kirk  tortured!kirk  whipped!kirk  understanding!uhura  asshole!winona  pov:kirk  heartbreaking  angst  friendship  confession/secrets  tarsus_iv  abuse:child(past)  torture  whipping  hunger/starvation  fighting/sparring  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:eternalshewolf  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Reminders of Yesterday
"During a routine mission, two years after the Narada incident, the Enterprise beams its Captain and away-team back from an uninhabited planet, only to find them drastically altered. With disturbing information being discovered at every turn, and cryptic hints from a defensive teenager named JT, Spock and Bones realise that not all is what it appears, both with the planet they are investigating and the Captain they thought they knew...." (23,145 words) Kidfic, in a way. Heartbreaking and wonderful.
  james_kirk  pavel_chekov  leonard_mccoy  spock  hikaru_sulu  gen  deaged!kirk  hurt!kirk  protective!kirk  deaged!chekov  friendship  character_study  heartbreaking  deathfic  homelessness  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:nibelethe  need:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ Leave No Soul Behind
"If you're Starfleet, you spend your whole life wishing you never see an EPAS uniform right up until the moment they become your only hope. Whether you're dying a slow, cold death in space, or a long painful one on some godforsaken planet, they're going to come for you. So count your last breaths, son, and hold on tight. They leave no soul behind." (258,951 words)
  james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  pavel_chekov  gaila  christine_chapel  christopher_pike  hikaru_sulu  montgomery_scott  winona_kirk  spock(prime)  kirk/spock  kirk/ofc  mccoy/ofc  bamf!kirk  smart!kirk  protective!kirk  hurt!kirk  ptsd!kirk  pining!kirk  bottom!kirk  bamf!spock  protective!spock  hurt!spock  pining!spock  top!spock  friendship  action  military  ptsd  abuse:child(past)  misunderstanding  mindmeld  slowburn  pining  bonding/soulmates  hothothot  sex:rough  kink:manhandling  kink:switching  first_time  fandom:startrek(aos)  fandom:startrek(tos)  author:whochick  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
Lead Me to Your Door
"An in-depth look at what happens to Jim in the wake of a violent attack by terrorists. Rape and its aftermath, and the process of recovery." (20,560 words) Sequel to CMO Confidential.
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  spock  kirk/mccoy  bamf!kirk  protective!kirk  hurt!kirk  tortured!kirk  raped!kirk  protective!mccoy  understanding!mccoy  angst  hurt/comfort  abuse:child(past)  noncon/dubcon  torture  recovery  clinic/hospital  established!relationship  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:shoreleave  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
CMO Confidential
"McCoy becomes CMO and finds himself privy to confidential information in Jim's medical file. Starts just after the movie leaves off and continues until just after the Enterprise docks again." (55,246 words) Sequel: "Lead Me to Your Door"
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  christine_chapel  nyota_uhura  spock  christopher_pike  montgomery_scott  frank(startrek)  gen  hurt!kirk  understanding!mccoy  abusive!frank(startrek)  friendship  character_study  abuse:child(past)  clinic/hospital  series/verse  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:shoreleave  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ Though My Soul May Set In Darkness
"Six months into the Five Year Mission, the Enterprise has reached the outskirts of the known galaxy, and its Captain has fallen ill. With a growing sense of unease, and increasing desperation, Spock takes it upon himself to manage both the ship, and Jim’s failing health, determined to save them both. Because Khan’s blood was never going to be a permanent solution." (111,822 words)
  james_kirk  spock  nyota_uhura  leonard_mccoy  pavel_chekov  hikaru_sulu  frank(startrek)  kirk/spock  hurt!kirk  sick!kirk  pining!kirk  protective!spock  guilty!spock  hurt!spock  pining!spock  reluctant!spock  protective!mccoy  abusive!frank(startrek)  friendship  angst  mystery  misunderstanding  illness  abuse:child(past)  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  prostitution  noncon/dubcon  fighting/sparring  clinic/hospital  recovery  mindmeld  bonding/soulmates  pining  slowburn  hothothot  sex:pollen  sex:telepathic  kink:fuckordie  kink:somnophilia  kink:rimming  kink:switching  first_time  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:pastmydancingdays  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
Streetlight People
"AU. Strangers waitin up and down the boulevard, their shadows searchin' in the night. Streetlight people, living just to find emotion; hiding somewhere in the night." (54,009 words)
james_kirk  spock  nyota_uhura  gaila  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  kirk/omc  hooker!kirk  smart!kirk  hurt!kirk  pining!kirk  bottom!kirk  protective!spock  pining!spock  possessive!spock  top!spock  protective!mccoy  friendship  prostitution  abuse:child(past)  noncon/dubcon  tarsus_iv  confession/secrets  slowburn  pining  first_time  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:ladyblahblah 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ Death I Think is No Parenthesis
"Another battle/orgy prompt post for Team McSpirk for STXI Ship Wars on LJ. IDEK know how e.e. cummings turned into a backhanded homage to Keats and Sappho’s fragmented poems. It was what was caught my eye on my poetry shelves that afternoon. Warnings for elliptical references to torture, old TOS episodes, Tarsus and of course, broken!Jim." (4005 words)
  james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  spock  kirk/spock/mccoy  hurt!kirk  ptsd!kirk  protective!mccoy  protective!spock  angst  character_study  confession/secrets  ptsd  hunger/starvation  torture  tarsus_iv  recovery  polyamory  established!relationship  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:blcwriter 
july 2016 by elwarre
Break
"Alien slavebreakers are hired by parties unknown to torture Kirk. Gaila, Uhura and McCoy are forced to watch while frantically trying to get him and themselves out of this disaster." (13,500 words) Extremely graphic; heed the warnings.
james_kirk  gaila  nyota_uhura  leonard_mccoy  spock  kirk/gaila  kidnapped!kirk  hurt!kirk  tortured!kirk  raped!kirk  protective!gaila  understanding!gaila  dark  friendship  kidnapping  torture  noncon/dubcon  revenge  established!relationship  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:vaingirlfic  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
5x Spock melded w/Kirk & 1x Kirk melded w/Spock
"After that one meld with Other Spock, Jim Kirk is seriously obsessed by the thought that if Other Spock is really that fascinating, how much more awesome must his Spock be? Thus begins a journey of heartwarming epicness as Jim Kirk gets to know his Spock even better than he could ever imagine via meld after enticing meld." (45,519 words)
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july 2016 by elwarre
Looking for Shooting Stars
"Spock and his family have moved to Earth. He has accepted this. But when Jim Kirk moves in next door and Spock accidentally gets a glimpse of the younger boy's pain, Spock refuses to accept the fact that he cannot help. It may be illogical, but he will unravel the mystery that is Jim Kirk." (56,736 words) First in an ongoing series.
james_kirk  spock  winona_kirk  frank(startrek)  amanda_grayson  sarek  kirk/spock  kirk/ofc  student!kirk  hurt!kirk  abused!kirk  drugged!kirk  raped!kirk  bullied!kirk  ptsd!kirk  reluctant!kirk  student!spock  protective!spock  pining!spock  friendship  hurt/comfort  angst  drugs:nonconsensual  abuse:child  noncon/dubcon  hunger/starvation  eating_disorder  ptsd  bullying  homophobia  self_loathing  highschool  mindmeld  telepathy  bonding/soulmates  escape/rescue  clinic/hospital  first_time  series/verse  st:preseries(aos)  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:miss_meh 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Morning After
"Jim convinces Spock to take shore leave with him on Risa, hoping the time together will help re-solidify their bond of friendship after some recent tension. Meanwhile, Spock convinces himself he's on Risa for one reason and one reason only, to prevent his wayward captain from getting into trouble. After a passionately illogical night of Romulan Ale and chocolate infused liquor, everything changes when Jim wakes with something other than a hangover filling his head. Something he's sure neither he nor Spock can handle. Because if Jim knows anything for sure, it's that his messed up thoughts belong nowhere near Spock's clean, ordered mind." (50,381 words)
  james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  kirk/spock  hurt!kirk  guilty!kirk  pining!kirk  bottom!kirk  protective!spock  understanding!spock  pining!spock  top!spock  angst  friendship  misunderstanding  abuse:child(past)  hunger/starvation  tarsus_iv  self_loathing  dreams/visions  telepathy  mindmeld  confession/secrets  pining  bonding/soulmates  hothothot  sex:telepathic  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:noodleinabarrel  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ So Wise We Grow
"Commander Spock, we have located your son," the Vulcan lady on the screen says, which would be great, except Jim can tell by the look on Spock's face that he's never heard of this kid before in his life. "If it is expedient, the child will be sent to join you on the Enterprise within the week." (81,248 words) Kidfic but no mpreg
  james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  kirk/spock  kirk/omc  parent!kirk  smart!kirk  hurt!kirk  pining!kirk  parent!spock  protective!spock  jealous!spock  pining!spock  friendship  angst  action  abuse:child(past)  noncon/dubcon  dehydration/heatstroke  mindmeld  jealousy  pining  slowburn  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:deastar  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
Diplomatic Relations
Prompt: "Kirk turned tricks when he was younger, so when it becomes apparent that some seducing is needed, he volunteers. Spock is uneasy in the beginning and tries to reason with Kirk. And we all know how that goes." (13,636 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  frank(startrek)  kirk/spock/uhura  protective!kirk  hurt!kirk  abused!kirk  hooker!kirk  protective!spock  understanding!uhura  asshole!frank(startrek)  abusive!frank(startrek)  angst  hurt/comfort  abuse:child(past)  noncon/dubcon  prostitution  polyamory  kink:fuckordie  kink:threesome  first_time  series/verse  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:vaingirlfic  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ Recrudescence
If Jim ever wrote his own autobiography. Well. The preface would probably be something like, “Hello, I’m Jim. I’m fucked up.” But it would probably end with, “It took some time, and I had some help. But I made it.” (8605 words)
  james_kirk  spock  winona_kirk  gaila  spock(prime)  frank(startrek)  kirk/spock  hurt!kirk  abused!kirk  ptsd!kirk  understanding!spock  protective!spock  abusive!frank(startrek)  pov:kirk  hurt/comfort  angst  friendship  abuse:child(past)  noncon/dubcon  ptsd  confession/secrets  clinic/hospital  preslash  st:intodarkness  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:infinite_wonders  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre

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