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✢ Skin Like Fear
"It's not that Dean doesn't get that Sam doesn't want to talk about whatever Hell did to him; Dean practically wrote the book on that particular brand of avoidance. Except that Sam doesn't do this. Dean is supposed to clam up and Sam is supposed to pry and bleat about how "communication is good for the soul" or some shit. Sam is supposed to cry on his shoulder and Dean is supposed to stoically hold him and let him get it out, maybe shedding a manful tear or two in solidarity. Here's the thing: Sam comes back from Hell with a bubble of space around him. He doesn't want to be touched, especially by Dean, and he won't explain. He won't talk about Hell at all, and Dean's going crazy. It's going to take a strange case (and a little magic) in Michigan to break the floodgates, but when Dean finally learns the truth, he might wish that he hadn't...." (18,762 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  lucifer(spn)  sam/dean  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  tortured!sam  hallucinating!sam  raped!sam  ptsd!sam  protective!dean  guilty!dean  clueless!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  dark  casefic  ptsd  hallucinations  noncon/dubcon  torture  lucifers_cage  helltrauma  boggarts  first_time  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:fantamae  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
His Heart Left the World
"Dean would do anything for his brother. When Sam jumps into the cage to save the world Dean keeps his promise and goes to Lisa and Ben. But months later a visit to Sam's grave reveals that his brother has somehow been freed from hell. Dean won't leave his brother alone to deal with the aftermath. But what has been saved from the cage is nothing like his brother, and Dean has to try to teach Sam how to be human again." (32,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  lisa_braeden  castiel  balthazar  sam/dean  feral!sam  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  possessive!sam  bottom!sam  protective!dean  guilty!dean  hurt!dean  top!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  ptsd  helltrauma  depression  established!relationship  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:taelynhawker  need:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Lead Us On
"The aftermath of Sam getting his soul back isn't at all like Dean thought it would be." (18,700 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  meg_masters  castiel  sam/dean  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  top!sam  protective!dean  reluctant!dean  bottom!dean  angst  demons  ghosts  werewolves  ptsd  helltrauma  first_time  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:philalethia 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Fusion Verse
"Part of the Fusion 'verse. Sam walks out of hell and finds his way home. From a prompt at the First Time comment-fic meme by the lovely and talented de_nugis: The first time Sam gets that Dean does unreservedly trust him again, coupled with the first time Dean gets that Sam really does want nothing more than he wants to be with Dean." (100k+ words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  castiel  lisa_braeden  gen  protective!sam  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  ptsd!sam  protective!dean  hurt!dean  sick!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  domesticity  pov:outsider  hallucinations  ptsd  helltrauma  permanent!injury  illness  bakery/coffeeshop  bookstore/library  spn:season:6  spn:postseries  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:ratherastory 
may 2016 by elwarre
Living on Flood Tides
"AU after 5x22: Sam mysteriously returns from the cage and Dean thinks their problems are solved. Unfortunately, Sam is so shaken from his time in Hell that he can't—won't?—even talk to Dean, and when natural disasters begin to occur as frequently as they did when the Devil was walking the Earth, Dean realizes his brother may have acquired some of the angel's powers without picking up the ability to control them. In order to prevent Sam from hurting anyone, Dean finds a house as far from anything as he can manage and settles there to wait until the day Sam gets better—or until they both get killed by Sam's grace." (20,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  lucifer(spn)  castiel  sam/dean  powers!sam  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  hallucinating!sam  protective!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  domesticity  hallucinations  helltrauma  lucifers_cage  ptsd  recovery  established!relationship  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:cherie_morte  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Through the Seasons
"Sam is back from two thousand years in the Cage, in a bad mental state with no real conection to normalcy anymore, and Dean tries to help him cope." sequel to "The Long Calendar"
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  protective!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  domesticity  ptsd  helltrauma  lucifers_cage  recovery  spn:season:6  spn:postseries  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:foolscapper 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Long Calendar
"One time per month, every month on Earth, Sam visits Dean for a day from the Cage." Sequel: "Through the Seasons"
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  castiel  gen  hurt!sam  tortured!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  hurt!dean  angst  dark  heartbreaking  lucifers_cage  ptsd  helltrauma  torture  escape/rescue  spn:season:6  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:foolscapper 
may 2016 by elwarre
Shattered
"'The only difference between you and a demon, Sam, is that your Hell is right here.' Over a year out of the Cage, and Sam's beginning to realize that Brady might be right. At least in Hell, he could pretend Dean still trusted him, still cared for him." (10,741 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  samuel_campbell  gwen_campbell  gen  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  asshole!dean  angst  heartbreaking  self_loathing  helltrauma  ptsd  misunderstanding  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:liron_aria 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Since Feeling Is First
"That he wants to think this is Dean yanking a leash should make his blood run cold, not aching hot. It should make him sick, angry, it should get his fucking hackles up and make him fight." (14,500 words) This is an AU version of how Sam gets back his soul, and it's just so, so marvelous (and hot).
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  sam/dean  soulless!sam  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  pining!sam  protective!dean  reluctant!dean  pining!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  domesticity  ptsd  helltrauma  recovery  pining  hothothot  kink:oralfixation  kink:d/s  first_time  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:queenklu  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Sammy's Secret
"With Dean being so torn up by his time in hell, it's up to Sam to earn most of their money. The problem is that he isn't good at hustling pool so he earns the money by working in male strip clubs and doing...other things for clients. But one night, a client gets too rough and hurts Sam badly enough to land him in the hospital. Lots of hurting!Sam and angry!protective!Dean." (8850 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  protective!sam  hooker!sam  hurt!sam  raped!sam  protective!dean  hurt!dean  sick!dean  ptsd!dean  helltrauma!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  prostitution  noncon/dubcon  ptsd  helltrauma  illness  clinic/hospital  recovery  first_time  spn:season:4  fandom:spn  author:annie46  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Only Thing That's Real
"The destruction of the wall in Sam’s head leaves him veering dizzily back and forth between reality and vivid flashbacks of the Pit. Caught in the nightmare world, Sam’s terrified, desperate, and dangerous. Most people would walk away. But Dean Winchester’s not most people." (27,000 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  dean/ofc  dean/omc  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  guilty!sam  jealous!sam  voyeur!sam  pining!sam  top!sam  protective!dean  understanding!dean  pining!dean  bottom!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  pov:outsider  self_loathing  ptsd  hallucinations  helltrauma  lucifers_cage  pining  jealousy  hothothot  kink:oralfixation  kink:voyeurism  first_time  spn:season:7  author:runedgirl  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Stay the Distance
"Sam is dependent on Dean's touch and closeness after the wall falls - Dean's presence reminds him of why he chose to wake up, and keeps the memories at bay, allowing Sam to function. The brothers have to face up to what happens when their Winchester codependency becomes literal, and the physical, spatial and temporal boundaries of their bond blur the line between familiar and suffocating, comforting and limiting." (23,934 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  sam/dean  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  top!sam  protective!dean  bottom!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  ptsd  helltrauma  hallucinations  homophobia  voodoo  ghosts  hothothot  first_time  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:lazy_daze  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Room 3135
"There are a few things you know about the new guy. He is unreasonably tall, his arms are in bandages, and he doesn't talk much. Which isn't a rare thing in the psych ward. There seems to be a constant balance in here between people who will talk your ear off, and those who have run out of words altogether. But you do know his name is Sammy. That's what his brother calls him when he brings him in, and then when he visits. Every day." (1500 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  protective!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  heartbreaking  pov:outsider  illness:mental  hallucinations  ptsd  helltrauma  mental_institution  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:inheritedjeans  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Stand Down, Son; Start Resting Easy
Prompt: "Sam suffers from insomnia or insomnia with a slice of Very Bad Dreams of his time in the pit with Mike & Lucy. He can't sleep and nothing they try works. Dean's getting worked up/bitchy/worried as hell over it and Sam's starting to get a little loopy and depressed, can't focus, can't find his socks when they're right there on the bed with him. In the end, worried that Sam's going to suffer some damage, Dean beseeches Castiel to put him under for a while, Sam's dreams are too bad and he's too afraid of a sleep he can't wake from. Whether it's Dean's idea or something he chances upon himself, Castiel with his new mojo, gets it to rain and Sam relaxes, then gets heavy lidded, then protests like a sleepy kid that he's not going to bed, not ever, then slowly drops off into sleep that's maybe not perfectly peaceful, but a damn sight better than it has been. Bonus points for platonic bro cuddling, hair smoothing." (Comment fic)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  protective!dean  hurt/comfort  schmoop  ptsd  hallucinations  dreams/visions  lucifers_cage  helltrauma  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:kettle_o_fish 
may 2016 by elwarre
The Other Shoe
"In which Sam states little but implies a lot, and Dean fills in the blanks. Early season seven, rated for non-explicit references to rape." (1,109 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  hallucinating!sam  raped!sam  understanding!dean  hurt/comfort  ptsd  helltrauma  hallucinations  noncon/dubcon  lucifers_cage  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:bookkeeperthe 
may 2016 by elwarre
Consider the Hairpin Turn
"AU of 6x22: Sam's wall has shattered and the memories in his mind have splintered. When the Sam who remembers Hell tells him to go find Jess and be happy, Sam knows he can't stay while Dean needs him. But when the Sam from Hell says that Dean is already there looking for him, Sam leaves his memories of the pit behind to find him. What he finds is a life he doesn't remember: a house that he shares with his brother (and has for years), a law career he thought he'd left behind at Stanford, and a relationship with Dean he never dreamed he could have. Life is almost too good to be true, at least until Sam begins to hear his brother's voice calling to him, begging him to wake up." (27,692 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  sam/dean  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  hallucinating!sam  helltrauma!sam  tortured!sam  pining!sam  protective!dean  reluctant!dean  pining!dean  altered!reality  angst  hurt/comfort  ptsd  helltrauma  torture  hallucinations  dreams/visions  pining  kink:switching  first_time  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:cherie_morte  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Three Faces of Sam
"Sam wakes up with amnesia after Cas takes down his mental wall, so he goes to a local hospital clinic for help where he gets treated by Dr. Gregory House, who gives him a new diagnosis: multiple personality disorder." (9377 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  gregory_house  gen  bamf!sam  soulless!sam  hurt!sam  amnesiac!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  protective!dean  asshole!castiel  angst  pov:outsider  illness:mental  amnesia  hallucinations  ptsd  helltrauma  clinic/hospital  spn:season:7  crossover  fandom:spn  fandom:house  author:brightly_lit  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
The Piper
"They've left hunting behind and settled down to small town life, but it's not easy. There's a plague of rats in the wheat-field and the town's in crisis. It's probably not their kind of gig, but that won't stop Dean from getting to the bottom of it, even if it means burning their house down in the process. Sam's memory is full of holes. He's having dreams, another thing he can't talk to Dean about, and he can't shake the feeling that Dean's not telling him everything that's happened." (43,466 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  librarian!sam  amnesiac!sam  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  top!sam  mechanic!dean  protective!dean  pining!dean  bottom!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  casefic  domesticity  ptsd  helltrauma  amnesia  pining  established!relationship  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:gretazreta  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
When Memory Fades
"After Sam’s wall breaks, his mind continuously erases his recent memories when he sleeps to keep visions of hell from his conscious self. Today is day 1156." (3783 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  amnesiac!sam  helltrauma!sam  bottom!sam  understanding!dean  top!dean  angst  domesticity  amnesia  helltrauma  established!relationship  spn:postseries  fandom:spn  author:ephermeralk  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Watershed
"Sam's evolving relationship with his brother - season six through the end of season 7." (560 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  hurt!sam  hallucinating!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  hurt!dean  angst  ptsd  hallucinations  purgatory  helltrauma  experimental  first_time  spn:season:6  spn:season:7  author:toratio 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Magpie, to the Seaside
"Him and Dean, a house trailer by the sea, peaceful mornings recuperating from being ensouled—Sam could live with this, if only it weren’t for the uninvited visitor knocking at their door at midnight, every night." (9111 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  ptsd!sam  amnesiac!sam  helltrauma!sam  hurt!sam  hallucinating!sam  protective!dean  drama  angst  domesticity  horror  magical_realism  hallucinations  ptsd  helltrauma  amnesia  tentacles  beach/island  established!relationship  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:indiachick  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ We Can Make the World Stop
"After 7x06, Dean and Sam are separated. Dean is at Bobby's, nursing a hangover, when he hears of Sam's arrest. He's over five hundred miles away and able to do nothing but watch the television when the hell in Sam's head breaks him completely." (6258 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  gen  bamf!sam  powers!sam  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  arrested!sam  guilty!dean  protective!dean  angst  horror  ptsd  helltrauma  hallucinations  incarceration  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:lexicale  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Gentle Flesh
"Sam's soul is back, safe and sound, from Hell--but his body's nowhere to be found. He's on the run, leaving nothing in his wake but echoes. He doesn't want his soul back, and he's got good reasons. When Sam finds him, hiding out in a motel room halfway across the country, they only have until morning to decide: whether to become one person again, or part ways forever." (7373 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/sam  ghost!sam  soulless!sam  helltrauma!sam  grieving!dean  angst  heartbreaking  horror  character_study  deathfic  helltrauma  noncon/dubcon  torture  ghosts  roadtrip  fandom:spn  spn:season:6  author:steeplechasers  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
The Other Brother
"Sam and Adam are pulled from the cage at the same time. Sam is not right, and Adam, stuck as his caretaker, is not pleased." Sequel: "The Christmas Special"
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  adam_milligan  gen  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  protective!sam  protective!dean  protective!adam(spn)  hurt/comfort  ptsd  helltrauma  hallucinations  lucifers_cage  illness:mental  series/verse  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:kettle_o_fish  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Roots Deep and Low
"I gave myself the prompt "Castiel has returned. Now he must face what he's done to Sam's mind, and feel really bad about it." There's not much more to this story than that, I'm afraid." (3000 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  hallucifer  gen  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  protective!dean  understanding!dean  clueless!castiel  guilty!castiel  hurt/comfort  angst  ptsd  hallucinations  helltrauma  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:mya_rofki  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Holy Trinity
" s7, Sam/Dean or gen; Sam is compensating for having Lucifer in his head by going into hyperfunctional mode. I want to see touches of Mystery Spot OCD Sam: hospital corners, perfect efficiency, everything under control, everything in place. It works. He still hallucinates, but he can keep going through it, he can wall himself off from being affected by fear of his breaks with reality and by the trauma of the things he remembers and hallucinates. He just has to keep going further and further into his coping mechanism, because if it breaks it will all come crashing down and that will not be good." (11,986 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  lucifer(spn)  crowley  hallucifer  sam/dean  hurt!sam  hallucinating!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  tortured!sam  ocd!sam  bottom!sam  protective!dean  top!dean  angst  heartbreaking  dark  selfharm  illness:mental  hallucinations  ptsd  helltrauma  torture  spn:season:7  established!relationship  fandom:spn  author:checkthemargins  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Films About Ghosts
Prompt: Sam never wakes up after Cas tears his wall down. Godstiel, showing what he believes to be compassion, lets Dean and Bobby go. They return to Sioux Falls and take care of a catatonic Sam, first in the panic room, then upstairs, and finally, eventually, Bobby convinces Dean that Sam needs -- deserves-- better care than they can provide. The long-term care facility is nice enough, Dean supposes. Sam opens his eyes for the first time in months, though he's clearly still not home. Dean gets a job as the night janitor so he can be nearer Sam, ducks into his room when he can. Whether or not Sam wakes is up to you. (1763 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  hallucifer  sam/dean  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  mute!sam  tortured!sam  protective!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  hallucinations  torture  lucifers_cage  ptsd  helltrauma  clinic/hospital  recovery  established!relationship  spn:season:6  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:elwarre 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ In the Dark, in the Pain, on the Run
"After Sam's wall breaks, Dean decides they need some time out of the life. They rent a rundown house in a small town, and during the renovations, everything changes between them. Sam/Dean curtain!fic, veers off canon mid S6." (18,666 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  hallucifer  sam/dean  librarian!sam  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  bartender!dean  protective!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  domesticity  helltrauma  ptsd  hallucinations  selfharm  recovery  bookstore/library  pining  first_time  spn:season:6  spn:postseries  fandom:spn  author:geckoholic  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Trainwrecking
"After more than a year in the cage, his little brother has some pretty terrifying demons locked up in that head of his." (1155 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  lucifer(spn)  hallucifer  sam/lucifer(spn)  hurt!sam  tortured!sam  raped!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  ptsd!sam  dark  horror  noncon/dubcon  torture  hallucinations  helltrauma  ptsd  heartbreaking  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:technicolorcarbon  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Death Like Dying
"After Sam gets Dean out of hell, Dean doesn't remember anything except Sam. And that means anything. So Sam has bundles of fucking joy trying to deal with it. (Written between the S3 and S4 hiatus)." (3134 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  protective!sam  reluctant!sam  guilty!sam  hurt!dean  amnesiac!dean  ptsd!dean  helltrauma!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  ptsd  helltrauma  amnesia  demon_deal  first_time  spn:season:3  fandom:spn  author:sobrecogimiento  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
All Things Considered
"Two year after Cas declared himself God and “fixed” the world for our favorite hunters, Sam and Dean have settled down into their best impression of domesticity, while Bobby... well, Bobby’s just drinking himself to an even earlier early grave. He’s also gotten himself estranged from the boys after discovering something that not even his ever-patient, ever-tolerant ass is willing to overlook. But family’s still family, and when Sam calls with a desperate plea for help, he can’t say no." (18,500 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  sam/dean  protective!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  sick!dean  protective!dean  understanding!bobby  pov:bobby  hurt/comfort  angst  domesticity  wincest!discovered  bobby_finds_out  hallucinations  helltrauma  ptsd  illness  clinic/hospital  established!relationship  spn:postseries  fandom:spn  author:sonofabiscuit77  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Second Chances and New Beginnings
"Cas has disappeared, an ancient form of being called Leviathan are freed from Purgatory, Sam’s wall is down, sending him into horrific flashbacks of what he suffered for over a century. With no idea how to evade or fight the latest Apocalypse, Dean concentrates on what’s most important to him. Putting his brother back together. But a shocking turn of events put the Winchesters on another journey. What does their father and an archangel have in common with stopping the end of the world?" (30,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  john_winchester  bobby_singer  jody_mills  castiel  gabriel  crowley  sam/dean  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  hallucinating!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  tortured!sam  protective!dean  asshole!john  guilty!john  understanding!john  protective!bobby  angst  hurt/comfort  wincest!discovered  john_finds_out  bobby_finds_out  noncon/dubcon  ptsd  helltrauma  hallucinations  torture  leviathan  kink:switching  established!relationship  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:jasmineisland  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Out Where the Shivers Won't Find You
"After Castiel rescues Sam from Hell, he sets him up in a cabin in the middle of nowhere to recuperate and to give his soul time to heal from the damage it suffered in the cage. When Sam experiences violent, frightening flashbacks to his time with Lucifer, Cas offers a solution, but neither one of them anticipates the way their tentative friendship will change. AU after 5x22." (16,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  sam/castiel  dean/lisa  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  top!sam  protective!castiel  bottom!castiel  hurt/comfort  domesticity  ptsd  helltrauma  recovery  cabin/wilderness  kink:wingkink  first_time  spn:season:5  fandom:spn  author:discreetmath  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Sharing and Kevin
"Don't poke the mutilated soul with a stick, Kevin. Someone asks Sam to share details about his time in the Cage. For once he actually opens up a little. Set sometime between 'Clip Show' and 'Sacrifice.'" (3170 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  kevin_tran  gen  hurt!sam  sick!sam  tortured!sam  raped!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  understanding!kevin  angst  hurt/comfort  noncon/dubcon  torture  ptsd  helltrauma  lucifers_cage  trials  illness  bunker  spn:season:8  fandom:spn  author:safiyabat  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Start of Something
"Castiel knew that Metatron killed Dean, but he expected his friend would make it to Heaven. When that doesn't happen he reluctantly joins forces with Sam to try to figure out what happened and how to fix it. He surprises himself by the pleasure he takes in working with Sam and soon comes to the realization that he loves Sam for his own sake. Convincing Sam of that, or that such a thing is even possible, may prove even more of a challenge than hunting down a super-demon and curing him." (23,447 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  crowley  sam/castiel  bamf!sam  hurt!sam  depressed!sam  asshole!dean  demon!dean  abusive!dean  guilty!dean  clueless!castiel  protective!castiel  understanding!castiel  angst  depression  self_loathing  abuse:emotional/psychological  helltrauma  possession  markofcain  demons  bunker  clinic/hospital  first_time  pairings:unusual  spn:season:10  fandom:spn  author:safiyabat  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ After the End
"Dean disappeared the night of his death. Sam's alone in the bunker, researching ways to bring Dean back, when a certain handsome devil shows up." (23,846 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  crowley  cain  sam/dean  protective!sam  hurt!sam  bamf!dean  powers!dean  demon!dean  protective!dean  possessive!dean  pining!castiel  angst  drama  humor  schmoop  bunker  demons  helltrauma  markofcain  firstblade  pining  hothothot  kink:switching  first_time  spn:season:10  fandom:spn  author:amypond45  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Three Days on the Rack
"It’s been months, but Sam finally found a crossroads demon willing to Deal to get Dean’s soul out of Hell. The Deal sounded too good to be true. Sam took it anyway." (3818 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  bamf!sam  protective!sam  tortured!sam  raped!sam  demon!dean  dark!dean  dark  noncon/dubcon  torture  demons  demon_deal  helltrauma  spn:season:3  fandom:spn  author:keerawa  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Fade to Black
"The brother that Sam gets back isn’t the same, but Sam’s love is. Sam risks everything and leaves everyone he’s ever cared about behind in the desperate hope that the bond between him and Dean might just be strong enough to transcend what hell did to his brother. Set post Season 3, seven months after Dean’s deal came due and written over the summer before it was AU, this story just kept writing itself and wouldn’t let go until it was an epic love story in every sense, eventually spanning five decades with enough twists and turns to make me dizzy." (long, plus sequel - "Black is the Color")
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  sam/dean  sam/dean/ruby  parent!sam  protective!sam  understanding!sam  reluctant!sam  pining!sam  hurt!sam  top!sam  demon!dean  bamf!dean  dark!dean  protective!dean  parent!dean  guilty!dean  helltrauma!dean  ptsd!dean  hurt!dean  bottom!dean  pregnant!ruby  parent!ruby  angst  dark  domesticity  noncon/dubcon  helltrauma  ptsd  aging  demons  curse/spell  bonding/soulmates  polyamory  pining  hothothot  sex:rough  kink:threesome  kink:switching  kink:breathplay  first_time  pairings:unusual  spn:season:4  spn:postseries  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:runedgirl  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
The World Devours Me
"Dean thought he was doing the right thing when he let Sam walk away from hunting.....away from him. Sam thought the separation was nothing more than he deserved. They both thought Castiel had found a way to keep Lucifer from finding them. Neither one of them knew how wrong they really were." Dark and graphic - read warnings. (82,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  lucifer(spn)  castiel  sam/dean  hurt!sam  raped!sam  tortured!sam  whipped!sam  hallucinating!sam  strangled!sam  blind!sam  guilty!sam  bottom!sam  hurt!dean  ptsd!dean  helltrauma!dean  asshole!dean  clueless!dean  guilty!dean  protective!dean  top!dean  dark  angst  horror  noncon/dubcon  torture  whipping  hallucinations  dreams/visions  self_loathing  ptsd  helltrauma  demonblood  addiction  bonding/soulmates  sex:rough  kink:bdsm  kink:bloodplay  kink:switching  first_time  spn:season:5  fandom:spn  author:varkelton  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Scratch
"Dean's been fixated on Sam all his life; it's no secret. It's only when Sam abandons him for normalcy that his obsession becomes something darker, more necessary--and incredibly violent. And even when Sam comes home to him, there's no guarantee that Dean will ever be the same." (17,965 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  jessica_moore  ruby  sam/dean  sam/jess  clueless!sam  soulless!sam  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  bottom!sam  dark!dean  possessive!dean  helltrauma!dean  top!dean  horror  dark  deathfic  cannibalism  serial_killers  helltrauma  ptsd  hallucinations  hell  selfharm  kink:bloodplay  kink:breathplay  kink:switching  established!relationship  spn:preseries  spn:season:2  spn:season:5  spn:season:7  spn:au  fandom:spn  author:steeplechasers  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Coda
"Dean tries to cook something Sam can eat. There are issues. Not a curtain fic." (1250 words) Companion piece: "Refrain"
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hurt!dean  protective!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  ptsd  helltrauma  eating_disorder  bunker  trials  series/verse  spn:season:8  fandom:spn  author:caranfindel 
april 2016 by elwarre
Mind's Eye
"Everything is just about as bad as it can possibly get. And then one day, completely out of nowhere, Dean disappears." (7362 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  powers!sam  hurt!sam  lonely!sam  hallucinating!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  pining!sam  bottom!sam  invisible!dean  pining!dean  top!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  loneliness  helltrauma  hallucinations  ptsd  hallucifer  pining  first_time  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:cherie_morte  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ And Indeed There Will Be Time
"Sam and Dean take a break from hunting, settling in a seaside town in Maine. Dean fixes cars; Sam gets a gig as an agony-aunt on the radio, and all things considered, life should be simpler. It isn't." (8147 words) AU post season 7.
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  radio!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  lonely!sam  mechanic!dean  lonely!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  domesticity  loneliness  helltrauma  ptsd  beach/island  ghosts  established!relationship  spn:season:7  spn:postseries  fandom:spn  author:gretazreta  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Way Back
"AU in which Dean gets between Lucifer and Cas, preventing Castiel’s death and eventual return to full-blooded angelhood. In the following months, a mostly human Cas gets a job at Taco Bell, Dean recovers from wounds given to him by Lucifer, and a silent, shell-shocked Sam wanders in from the cold." (35,695 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  gen  hurt!sam  mute!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  musician!dean  protective!dean  hurt!dean  human!castiel  hurt/comfort  angst  heartbreaking  domesticity  friendship  ptsd  helltrauma  recovery  music/dance  spn:season:6  spn:postseries  fandom:spn  author:rainylemons  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Crush
"Five years after the apocalypse didn’t happen and Sam and Dean have settled down, or as much as the Winchesters can ever settle down. Sam is a college professor and Dean a well-respected small business owner and they’re learning how to balance work, hunting and dog-ownership while coping with the metaphorical and literal scars of war. Life’s not perfect, not for a (sort of) out and proud couple in small town USA with a lot to hide, but they’re dealing, that is, until Dean employs one sexually-confused teenager who develops an unhealthy obsession with both of them... Switching between five years earlier and now, we learn how the boys came together, how they made it through the big fight and whether they’ll ever manage to find that flighty temptress, happily ever after." (61,000 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  sam/dean  professor!sam  powers!sam  protective!sam  mechanic!dean  hurt!dean  ptsd!dean  helltrauma!dean  cursed!dean  understanding!bobby  angst  schmoop  domesticity  pov:outsider  wincest!discovered  bobby_finds_out  curse/spell  ptsd  helltrauma  demon_deal  bonding/soulmates  kink:switching  first_time  established!relationship  spn:postseries  fandom:spn  author:sonofabiscuit77  have:pdf 
march 2016 by elwarre
A Hole in You and Me (That Pulls Us Together)
"The wall between Sam's conscious mind and his memories of hell has fallen. Everything is a danger and only Dean knows how to keep Sam from falling apart. The question is, does he trust himself to do what is right for Sam, or will his own memories of hell keep him from acting? There is no easy answer for Dean, especially as a new hunt comes up and Dean's dreams warn him of another problem on the rise; the FBI's best and brightest are looking for a serial killer and one of them has a vendetta against the Winchesters." (18,076 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  hallucifer  aaron_hotchner  derek_morgan  emily_prentiss  spencer_reid  sam/dean  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  sub!sam  bottom!sam  ptsd!dean  helltrauma!dean  dom!dean  top!dean  angst  casefic  misunderstanding  ptsd  helltrauma  hallucinations  fbi/police  kink:d/s  kink:manhandling  first_time  spn:season:7  crossover  fandom:spn  fandom:criminalminds  author:hunters_retreat  have:pdf 
march 2016 by elwarre

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