elwarre + guilty!sam   45

Bound to Blame
""...my dad does, too. You don't want to see him when he's drinking." Teenchester, minor hurt!Sam, Sam's POV." (5437 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  john_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  abused!sam  protective!dean  abusive!john  pov:sam  hurt/comfort  angst  abuse:child  self_loathing  werewolves  spn:preseries  fandom:spn  author:sparkiebunny 
december 2016 by elwarre
✢ Shattered
"Sam didn't look for Dean the year they were apart. He didn't now he was supposed to. AU version of the events of the year between Season 7 and Season 8. Now a two shot, by request, with Dean bringing Sam home." (5741 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  jody_mills  sam/jody  parent!sam  depressed!sam  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  hurt!dean  guilty!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  domesticity  purgatory  misunderstanding  depression  recovery  pairings:unusual  spn:season:8  fandom:spn  author:dragonflybeach  need:pdf 
october 2016 by elwarre
✢ Redshift
"They're still reeling from Dean's stint in Purgatory, the Trials are tearing them apart, the world hangs in the balance (again)—and Dean wants to get a pool table and have a sex marathon. Of course he does." (27,087 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  hurt!sam  hallucinating!sam  jealous!sam  guilty!sam  protective!dean  understanding!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  hallucinations  purgatory  self_loathing  trials  bunker  jealousy  hothothot  kink:switching  kink:bdsm  sex:rough  sex:shower  sex:car  established!relationship  spn:season:8  fandom:spn  author:road_rhythm  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
The Lines Between Brotherhood and Blood
"Takes place after Southern Comfort, S8. The Vengeance Specter laid open wounds between the Winchester Brothers. A hunt goes wrong, which only deepens the divide. Just when Dean begins to feel like moving on and splitting up might be the best answer, a Pagan God drags Sam into a mission of absolution that he won't refuse. Dean discovers that his brother has been hanging on by a thread, and the year he was in Purgatory was much worse on Sam than he ever suspected. Cas, Benny, and, worst of all, Crowley see what he has somehow missed -- just how fragile Sam is. With a little help, Dean learns what Sam had been unable to share -- just how far he was willing to go do and what he is still going through, proving to Dean that he is still Sam’s stone number one." (35,858 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  crowley  benny_lafitte  castiel  gabriel  sam/dean  dean/benny  hurt!sam  hallucinating!sam  guilty!sam  pining!sam  jealous!sam  asshole!dean  guilty!dean  hurt!dean  pining!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  misunderstanding  demon_deal  purgatory  pining  jealousy  languages:enochian  hothothot  sex:car  established!relationship  spn:season:8  fandom:spn  author:jasmineisland  have:pdf 
july 2016 by elwarre
Worth the Whiskey
"Two times an outsider meets Dean Winchester, and two snapshots she gets of his life. She offers him advice and free beer and sees past the facade. First part is pre-series, second part takes place after 5.01 Sympathy for the Devil. Gen, focuses on the relationship between Dean and Sam and the consequences of Sam's actions in season 4. Outsider POV on Dean." (5,286 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  guilty!sam  hurt!dean  ptsd!dean  hustler!dean  protective!dean  character_study  angst  pov:outsider  hustling:pool  ptsd  spn:preseries  spn:season:5  spn:ep:5.1(sympathy_for_the_devil)  fandom:spn  author:you_idjits 
june 2016 by elwarre
Letting the Days Go By
"Ever since Dean pushed Sam away and into a normal life, Dean's been spiraling downwards. He's screwing up on the job. He's never gotten over his dad's death. He's not sure he loves his girlfriend anymore. Sam hates his guts and with good reason, what kind of jerk sleeps with their little brother's prom date? He's backslid and fallen off the wagon, he's worrying his mom to death. The problem is he doesn't really remember living this miserable life…." (45,547 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  mary_winchester  jessica_moore  carmen  sam/dean  sam/jess  dean/carmen  lawyer!sam  hurt!sam  pining!sam  guilty!sam  top!sam  mechanic!dean  pining!dean  guilty!dean  addict!dean  alcoholic!dean  bottom!dean  altered!reality  angst  hurt/comfort  addiction  djinns  bunker  infidelity  pining  first_time  fandom:spn  author:roxymissrose  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Lead Us On
"The aftermath of Sam getting his soul back isn't at all like Dean thought it would be." (18,700 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  meg_masters  castiel  sam/dean  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  top!sam  protective!dean  reluctant!dean  bottom!dean  angst  demons  ghosts  werewolves  ptsd  helltrauma  first_time  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:philalethia 
may 2016 by elwarre
You Never Forget Your First
"It was a night of firsts all over. A night where, for the first time, Dean told Sam he didn't want to be anywhere near his brother, out loud." Post Lucifer Rising. (comment-fic)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  abusive!dean  asshole!dean  guilty!dean  protective!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  self_loathing  spn:season:4  fandom:spn  author:authoressnebula 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Now We Are Come to Our Kingdom
"It's been months since Dean sold his soul, and Sam's run himself ragged trying to find a way out, Chinatown to "Amber Moon", South Dakota to Connecticut. So far he's got nothing to show for it but some cryptic words – "You've got the 'what' and the 'where' and the 'when', and you think you're missing the 'how'. You aren't, of course, only you haven't figured that out yet." There's a possessed girl following him around, Dean's trying his hardest to drive Sam insane with jealousy, and the visions that were supposed to stop when Azazel died still wake him night after night after night." (51,264 words) An incredible story of Sam's ambiguous climb to power to save Dean.
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  meg_masters  ruby  sam/dean  bamf!sam  powers!sam  boyking!sam  jealous!sam  guilty!sam  pining!dean  drama  angst  demons  demon_deal  dreams/visions  kink:switching  first_time  spn:season:3  fandom:spn  author:cormallen  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Only Thing That's Real
"The destruction of the wall in Sam’s head leaves him veering dizzily back and forth between reality and vivid flashbacks of the Pit. Caught in the nightmare world, Sam’s terrified, desperate, and dangerous. Most people would walk away. But Dean Winchester’s not most people." (27,000 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  dean/ofc  dean/omc  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  guilty!sam  jealous!sam  voyeur!sam  pining!sam  top!sam  protective!dean  understanding!dean  pining!dean  bottom!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  pov:outsider  self_loathing  ptsd  hallucinations  helltrauma  lucifers_cage  pining  jealousy  hothothot  kink:oralfixation  kink:voyeurism  first_time  spn:season:7  author:runedgirl  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Winning Scenario
"Disguised as a merchant during an information gathering mission on a gaming and pleasure station, Captain Dean hits the jackpot. Surprised to learn his winnings include a night with a pleasure slave, he is ready to reject the slave's services until he learns that the slave is human. There is no way he will leave one of his kind behind, no way. The pleasure slave, Sam, has his own secrets. Cylon torture and conditioning to make him a suitable commodity for the slave trade has left him with half memories, nightmares and psychological problems. If he knew Dean was a colonial warrior, there is no way he would leave with Dean and no way he would go anywhere near Dean's destination, the Battlestar Galactica." (215,000 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  john_winchester  sam/dean  bamf!sam  amnesiac!sam  slave!sam  hurt!sam  tortured!sam  guilty!sam  military!sam  bottom!sam  bamf!dean  military!dean  protective!dean  hurt!dean  tortured!dean  top!dean  hurt/comfort  action  scifi  spacetravel  military  torture  slavery  noncon/dubcon  prostitution  amnesia  recovery  hothothot  kink:switching  first_time  crossover  spn:au:not!brothers  spn:au:no!supernatural  spn:au:scifi  fandom:spn  fandom:battlestargalactica  author:virtualpersonal  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Injustus
"Sam isn't himself. He's withdrawn, moody and barely eats. Dean is worried about his little brother and the fragile wall in his mind. When Dean finds Sam crying and forces him to talk, nothing could have prepared him for what Sam tells him." (2660 words) Companion piece to Blue Moon (Now I'm No Longer Alone) by sylvia_locust.
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  sam/ofc  guilty!sam  protective!dean  understanding!dean  angst  heartbreaking  hurt/comfort  possession  noncon/dubcon  demons  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:reggie11  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Never Have I Ever
"When a harmless drinking game among friends takes a turn for the worse, the boys are faced with unresolved issues from the past."
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  kevin_tran  charlie_bradbury  castiel  gen  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  asshole!dean  guilty!dean  protective!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  friendship  bunker  samulet  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:twin_feathers 
may 2016 by elwarre
Reading into the Past
"This picks up after Sacrifice, and now that S9 has premiered it's AU. The trials are over, and, even though the gates of hell aren't closed, for the first time Sam and Dean are truly on the same page. They have a real home in the batcave, and have formed a relationship that makes them both happy. But it’s been a long, hard road to get there full of secrets, miscommunication, and manipulation from both sides. When Charlie opens the door to their virtual life, meaning the rest of the books online and the small community that knows they are real, they are shocked by the way they were both truly played. It gives them an insight to each other that goes a long way towards healing old hurts. They manage to clear the air, figure out just how bad and worse the options they had to choose from really were, and they find each other in a whole new way." (21,424 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  charlie_bradbury  sam/dean  guilty!sam  understanding!dean  understanding!charlie  angst  hurt/comfort  schmoop  domesticity  spnbooks  wincest!discovered  charlie_finds_out  bunker  self_loathing  selfharm  kink:switching  established!relationship  spn:season:9  fandom:spn  author:jasmineisland  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
(Red Light) Green Light
"Kevin helps Sam unwind, but the belt is really psyching him out." (1450 words) - a unique and compelling look at a troubled s/m relationship
sam_winchester  kevin_tran  sam/kevin  sub!sam  guilty!sam  whipped!sam  dom!kevin  reluctant!kevin  pov:kevin  angst  character_study  whipping  kink:bdsm  established!relationship  pairings:unusual  spn:season:9  fandom:spn  author:lacitedesdames 
may 2016 by elwarre
Beneath the Skin
"The shifter took one look at Dean and knew that it had finally found a skin it wanted to keep. This human was someone it understood. Someone it wanted to be. Someone that made it complete. When it looked at Dean’s brother, it felt a desire of a different kind, and nothing would stop it from taking what it wanted…." (52,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  gen  protective!sam  guilty!sam  hurt!sam  abused!sam  tortured!sam  raped!sam  protective!dean  guilty!dean  hurt!dean  abused!dean  kidnapped!dean  shapeshifter!dean  horror  casefic  angst  dark  noncon/dubcon  shapeshifters  torture  kidnapping  kink:voyeurism  spn:season:1  fandom:spn  author:varkelton  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Second Time Around
"Sam's back from Stanford, but that doesn't mean everything's ok. The boys still have a lot of issues to work out and when a curse finally makes them confront their problems, Sam finally gets the punishment he 'deserves'. " (6300 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  bottom!sam  hurt!dean  guilty!dean  top!dean  cursed!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  casefic  curse/spell  hothothot  sex:rough  kink:fuckordie  kink:dirtytalk  kink:bdsm  kink:rimming  kink:spanking  first_time  previous!relationship  spn:season:1  fandom:spn  author:bewaretheides15  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Let It Ride
"While transporting relics from John's old storage to the Men of Letters bunker the Winchesters lose an item with disastrous results." (8891 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  raped!sam  bottom!sam  pining!sam  clueless!dean  guilty!dean  soulless!dean  cursed!dean  possessive!dean  top!dean  pining!dean  angst  heartbreaking  hurt/comfort  noncon/dubcon  curse/spell  pining  sex:rough  kink:d/s  first_time  spn:season:8  fandom:spn  author:dimeliora  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
What Remains
"In Jefferson, Texas a man ends a generations-old curse and saves all the town's children, but completely loses his memory in the process. When it's discovered that he's a wanted criminal, the town comes together to conceal him out of gratitude for what he's done for them, giving him an apartment, a job and a whole new life. It takes seven months for Sam to find Dean, and when he finally does, he has to adapt to being around a man who has no idea that he used to be Sam's brother." (39,327 words) Sequel: "Actually, Plenty"
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  sam/dean  protective!sam  guilty!sam  sick!sam  mechanic!dean  amnesiac!dean  hurt!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  pov:outsider  domesticity  amnesia  illness  recovery  slowburn  kink:switching  first_time  spn:postseries  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:merrin  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Where Do We Begin (The Rubble of our Sins)?
"AU post season one. He wakes in a hospital, missing a limb and all of his memories. They tell him he is Dean Hunt. That his sister died in the accident that claimed his leg. From there he rebuilds with the help of his quirky lesbian neighbors and a homeless drifter named Sam." (40,236 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  castiel  sam/dean  hurt!sam  homeless!sam  guilty!sam  protective!sam  top!sam  cursed!dean  amnesiac!dean  hurt!dean  ptsd!dean  protective!dean  bottom!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  schmoop  domesticity  heartbreaking  amnesia  permanent!injury  homelessness  cabin/wilderness  demons  curse/spell  ptsd  recovery  first_time  spn:season:2  fandom:spn  author:dimeliora  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Credit in the Straight World
"Sam has always had his brother, when he wanted him and when he didn't. But that was before he was the lucky recipient of a gift from faerie that Dean can't remember and John can't forget. It leaves Sam to find his own way to navigate between the 'real' world and the Winchester world and deal with guilt he can't shake, no matter how hard he tries." (29,580 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  john_winchester  jessica_moore  sam/dean  sam/jess  sam/omc  sam/ofc  bamf!sam  student!sam  guilty!sam  hurt!sam  pining!sam  bottom!sam  hooker!dean  amnesiac!dean  protective!dean  possessive!dean  pining!dean  top!dean  asshole!john  neglectful!john  top!jess  angst  hurt/comfort  wincest!discovered  john_finds_out  prostitution  amnesia  curse/spell  witches/wizards  fairies  ghosts  highschool  college  stanford  underage  infidelity  pining  slowburn  hothothot  sex:rough  sex:car  kink:pegging  kink:bdsm  first_time  spn:preseries  fandom:spn  author:vaingirlfic  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Your Favourite Innocence
"Oh these boys porn and they angst and then they porn some more and then it's time for angst again. Really, I just wanted to write some angsty porn. Title from Depeche Mode. Did I mention this was really very porny? And angsty?" (2966 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  dean/omc  protective!sam  reluctant!sam  guilty!sam  pining!sam  voyeur!sam  hustler!dean  hurt!dean  pining!dean  exhibitionist!dean  angst  heartbreaking  hustling:pool  hustling:poker  pining  kink:exhibitionism  kink:voyeurism  ust  fandom:spn  author:fleshflutter  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Death Like Dying
"After Sam gets Dean out of hell, Dean doesn't remember anything except Sam. And that means anything. So Sam has bundles of fucking joy trying to deal with it. (Written between the S3 and S4 hiatus)." (3134 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  protective!sam  reluctant!sam  guilty!sam  hurt!dean  amnesiac!dean  ptsd!dean  helltrauma!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  ptsd  helltrauma  amnesia  demon_deal  first_time  spn:season:3  fandom:spn  author:sobrecogimiento  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Siren Song
"Sam and Dean leave Dean's pregnant wife and daughter behind to hunt for an answer to what's killing Azazel's last remaining psychics. But life on the road means the two of them against the world, just like it always did, and they struggle to find a balance between their fierce love for each other and Dean's commitment to his family. Meanwhile, though Sam forswore his psychic abilities years ago, he is being drawn inevitably into a battle that will demand every weapon at their disposal. Worse, the Winchesters both know that the time will soon come when they must go home and face the consequences of their choices." (71,979 words) Sequel to: "And the Devil Makes Three"
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  dean/ofc  sam/dean/ofc  powers!sam  psychic!sam  protective!sam  reluctant!sam  guilty!sam  hurt!sam  pining!sam  parent!dean  protective!dean  hurt!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  casefic  domesticity  amnesia  dreams/visions  psychic_kids  demons  demonblood  infidelity  bonding/soulmates  pining  polyamory  hothothot  kink:threesome  established!relationship  spn:postseries  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:killabeez  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
The Empty Man
"Sam managed to get Dean out of the deal. But six months after Dean's year should have been up, Sam and Dean still have to deal with the aftermath." SPN remake of Good Will Hunting. (20,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  gen  smart!sam  janitor!sam  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  protective!sam  hurt!dean  blind!dean  angst  domesticity  demon_deal  permanent!injury  disability  clinic/hospital  college  fighting/sparring  languages:multiple  spn:season:4  spn:postseries  fandom:spn  author:legoline  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Elements of Journalism, or: How to Find Friends and Alienate Your Superiors
"Sam Winchester needs a job. He's a news reporter who recently stepped down from his comfortable position with the Los Angeles Times after his mix-up in a questionable case of journalism ethics. Luckily for him, his brother and Bobby think they can snag him a job at the New Eldritch Herald, a small-town newspaper in the middle of Kansas. And they do. And Sam meets Castiel Novak: the photography editor who everyone agrees resembles the Grumpy Cat meme. Several things happen after that: Sam and Cas develop a friendship, Cas keeps photographing everything, Dean and Sam try to figure out how to be brothers again, Sam starts to realize Editor-in-Chief Michael Alef sort of hates him, and everyone partakes in a hefty dose of vigilante journalism." (72,649 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  charlie_bradbury  kevin_tran  rufus_turner  bobby_singer  sam/castiel  journalist!sam  guilty!sam  protective!dean  photographer!castiel  human!castiel  hurt/comfort  action  humor  friendship  industry:journalism  art/photography  preslash  spn:au:no!supernatural  fandom:spn  author:story_monger  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Second Chances and New Beginnings
"Cas has disappeared, an ancient form of being called Leviathan are freed from Purgatory, Sam’s wall is down, sending him into horrific flashbacks of what he suffered for over a century. With no idea how to evade or fight the latest Apocalypse, Dean concentrates on what’s most important to him. Putting his brother back together. But a shocking turn of events put the Winchesters on another journey. What does their father and an archangel have in common with stopping the end of the world?" (30,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  john_winchester  bobby_singer  jody_mills  castiel  gabriel  crowley  sam/dean  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  hallucinating!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  tortured!sam  protective!dean  asshole!john  guilty!john  understanding!john  protective!bobby  angst  hurt/comfort  wincest!discovered  john_finds_out  bobby_finds_out  noncon/dubcon  ptsd  helltrauma  hallucinations  torture  leviathan  kink:switching  established!relationship  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:jasmineisland  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
The Age of Foolishness
"Of all the heavens in the world, a dead angel just had to walk into Kevin Tran's." (15,967 words)
sam_winchester  kevin_tran  dean_winchester  balthazar  castiel  billie  sam/kevin  reluctant!sam  guilty!sam  pining!kevin  ghost!kevin  angst  heaven  ghosts  reapers  pining  spn:season:11  author:de_nugis  author:amberdreams 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Res Gestae
"When Dean disappears on a hunt, the last thing Sam expects is the help of another psychic in trying to find him. The search doesn't go well, and when Dean walks back into his life, it's with news that tears the world out from under them both." (58,332 words) The tags for this make it sound like crack; it isn't.
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  ellen_harvelle  jo_harvelle  sam/dean  psychic!sam  powers!sam  clueless!sam  hurt!sam  pining!sam  parent!sam  guilty!sam  top!sam  girl!dean  pregnant!dean  parent!dean  guilty!dean  pining!dean  grieving!dean  bottom!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  drama  domesticity  curse/spell  tricksters  dreams/visions  genderswap  issues:gender/sexuality  undercover  slowburn  pining  hothothot  first_time  spn:season:2  spn:postseries  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:dreamlittleyo  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
The World Devours Me
"Dean thought he was doing the right thing when he let Sam walk away from hunting.....away from him. Sam thought the separation was nothing more than he deserved. They both thought Castiel had found a way to keep Lucifer from finding them. Neither one of them knew how wrong they really were." Dark and graphic - read warnings. (82,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  lucifer(spn)  castiel  sam/dean  hurt!sam  raped!sam  tortured!sam  whipped!sam  hallucinating!sam  strangled!sam  blind!sam  guilty!sam  bottom!sam  hurt!dean  ptsd!dean  helltrauma!dean  asshole!dean  clueless!dean  guilty!dean  protective!dean  top!dean  dark  angst  horror  noncon/dubcon  torture  whipping  hallucinations  dreams/visions  self_loathing  ptsd  helltrauma  demonblood  addiction  bonding/soulmates  sex:rough  kink:bdsm  kink:bloodplay  kink:switching  first_time  spn:season:5  fandom:spn  author:varkelton  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
Flying Weight
"Sam wakes after being soulless for three years to discover that Dean and his relationship with him have undergone some serious changes. Through traveling and hunting with Dean, Sam struggles to put his life back together after events he has only limited memory of. A season six wincest AU." (46,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  sam/dean  amnesiac!sam  jealous!sam  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  protective!sam  creature!dean  vampire!dean  asshole!dean  guilty!dean  protective!dean  angst  drama  vampires  amnesia  noncon/dubcon  kink:bloodplay  kink:voyeurism  established!relationship  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:fleshflutter  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Lodi
"Sam finds out that love is never simple during a long hot summer in New Jersey." (38,689 words) Sequel: "Under the California Sun (Impalas and Big Trucks)"
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean/omc  hurt!sam  asshole!sam  guilty!sam  pining!sam  clueless!dean  asshole!dean  guilty!john  neglectful!john  heartbreaking  angst  casefic  domesticity  self_loathing  abuse:child  homophobia  issues:gender/sexuality  highschool  pining  slowburn  unrequited  kink:threesome  first_time  spn:preseries  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:roxymissrose  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Settle Down My Shivered Bones
"Sometimes John hunts without his boys, and sometimes he stays gone too long. His sons come up with a way to cope. It's not necessarily pretty, but it's what they do. (Read my notes, heed the warnings! Sam is 15-ish, Dean is 19-20.)" (4791 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  john_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  anorexic!sam  guilty!sam  protective!dean  clueless!dean  clueless!john  asshole!john  neglectful!john  angst  dark  domesticity  eating_disorder  abuse:child  spn:preseries  fandom:spn  author:quickreaver  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Gnaw
"Two boys go into a box. Their father wants them to have a dress rehearsal. One boy wants all of the other, the other wants him to have him. More than anything. More than the whole world. There is a thing that is bigger than the box but contained in it. Two boys go into a box. —What I Did on My Summer Vacation, by Samuel Winchester" (25,000 words) This is an incredibly dark, incredibly effective story. Don't read if the warnings give you pause.
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  john_winchester  sam/dean  hurt!sam  abandoned!sam  guilty!sam  hallucinating!sam  ptsd!sam  hurt!dean  abandoned!dean  guilty!dean  protective!dean  hallucinating!dean  ptsd!dean  asshole!john  abusive!john  neglectful!john  dark  horror  heartbreaking  abandonment  abuse:child  abuse:emotional/psychological  buried_alive  ptsd  hallucinations  hunger/starvation  cannibalism  kink:switching  kink:humiliation  kink:bloodplay  sex:rough  breakup  established!relationship  spn:preseries  fandom:spn  author:road_rhythm  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ Each Our Own Devil
"I will kill myself before letting you in. And I'll just bring you back. Sam takes Lucifer at his word and Dean kills monsters. They learn that they keep each other human. Set primarily after 5x03 and 5x04." (7086 words)
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march 2016 by elwarre

bundles : supernatural

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