cochepaille + trope:self-loathing   32

You can't roller skate in a buffalo herd. — FIC: In Too Deep
summary: for #jaydickweek2, day 3- first time realizing they’re in love (kind of vague, more from jason’s pov)
Jason knows it’s going to be bad as he runs over, throwing his broken helmet to the side. Dick hasn’t gotten up yet, and there’s blood pooling under him. Too much blood. That’s a really, really bad amount of blood. “Nightwing,” he says, pushing back Dick’s hair. He wants to pull Dick to him, but he’s scared to move him. He doesn’t know where exactly he was hit. “Dick, come on.” Dick’s face is screwed up tight.
trope:batfamily-feels  trope:relationship(fuckbuddies)  char:roy-harper  wc:1k5k  trope:self-loathing  trope:emotion(guilt)  char:tim-drake  char:barbara-gordon  author:dinolaur  trope:emotion(emotional-constipation)  trope:peril  trope:medical(injury)  pov:jason-todd  char:dick-grayson  f:dcu  pairing:dick/jason  trope:emotion(denial-of-feelings)  char:cassandra-cain  pairing:jason+roy  fav  au:fuckbuddies  trope:medical(injury-serious)  trope:emotion(protectiveness)  char:bruce-wayne  trope:relationship(love-confessions)  warning:near-death-experiences  char:jason-todd  char:wally-west  char:damian-wayne  trope:emotion(realization-of-feelings) 
march 2017 by cochepaille
EXR--Point of No Return from Phantom...or really...
“Combeferre, make sure our weapons are prepared,” Enjolras was saying, the sort of rapid-fire rattle that commanded effortless attention.  He’d worked his way through every present member of Les Amis and then some by now, even little Gavroche getting instructions as they readied themselves for the next day’s march.  That just left…  “And where the hell is Grantaire?”
author:words-writ-in-starlight  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  char:combeferre  char:jehan  char:courfeyrac  char:joly  setting:canon-era  genre:angst  kink:kissing  trope:relationship(pre-relationship)  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:self-loathing  wc:1k5k  pov:enjolras  f:les-mis 
january 2017 by cochepaille
e/R and give me love by ed sheeran
2,567 words under the cut, because the term “drabble” is apparently meaningless to me; enjolras/grantaire modern au

cw: alcohol, swearing??

“It was working,” Courf tells him. “Honestly. It was. We never thought it would, all of us – don’t look at me like that; you didn’t think so either – and then all of a sudden it did. He was so happy. Happy with you, R. He was.”

“And then he wasn’t,” R says bluntly. He gets up and shoves his dishes into the sink, starts running water loudly.
pairing:enjolras/grantaire  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  char:courfeyrac  au:modern  trope:relationship(past-relationship)  trope:relationship(breakup)  genre:angst  trope:emotion(pining)  trope:art  trope:self-loathing  wc:1k5k  pov:R  trope:self-destructive-tendencies  f:les-mis 
november 2016 by cochepaille
I got this feeling inside my bones - sarahyyy - Les Misérables - All Media Types [Archive of Our Own]
“I mean, it definitely can’t be for my personality-”

Enjolras just stares pointedly at him.

Grantaire balks at the look on Enjolras’ face. “You like me for my personality?” He lets out a bout of helpless laughter. “Fuck. I’m so sorry this is happening to you."
author:sarahyyy  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  au:modern  trope:confessions  trope:relationship(love-confessions)  genre:humor  trope:obliviousness  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:self-loathing  trope:insecurities  trope:misunderstandings  wc:1k5k  pov:enjolras  wc:oneshot  f:les-mis 
november 2016 by cochepaille
you said you were looking for fic prompts so im...
Anonymous asked:
you said you were looking for fic prompts so im just gonna leave this here: Wing!fic where lots of people in the world have pretty feathery angel/bird type wings but they face discrimination and R has always hidden his wings because they're different (reptile?injured? he just hates them?).One day one of the amis drags him to a protest about wing rights and R is R and says cynical things. Cue chaos and Enjolras being oblivious. Wow that came out really long. Sorry. *runs away*
author:fiver  series:fiver's-mutant-au  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  pairing:joly+bossuet+R  pairing:joly/bossuet  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  char:joly  char:bossuet  char:courfeyrac  char:jehan  au:modern  au:mutants  au:f/b(marvel)  trope:supernatural-creatures  trope:self-loathing  trope:inequality  trope:wings  trope:self-esteem-issues  genre:angst  setting:protests/rallies  trope:first-meetings  wc:1k5k  pov:R  trope:mutants  trope:secrets  f:les-mis 
october 2016 by cochepaille
erotically uninterested
(nb: oh i’m sorry this totally got away with me! i love writing grantaire’s POV sklhgddkls sorry. anyway this comes after the argument on the roof in chapter 3 of junkies!au)
author:kkingofthebeach  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  char:grantaire  au:modern  au:junkie  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:self-loathing  trope:fights  trope:arguments  trope:cruel-words  trope:emotion(pining)  wc:<1k  wc:drabble  pov:R  genre:angst  f:les-mis 
october 2016 by cochepaille
life interrupted | deleted scene | r/r
Pairings: Grantaire/Grantaire
Warnings: NC-17, selfcest, porn, underage drinking

Grantaire watched as the figure on the bed propped himself up on his elbows and held his stare; a reflection breathing out of turn.
author:JJK  series:life-interrupted  char:grantaire  au:modern  au:film/book/etc  au:f/b(Time-Traveler's-Wife)  genre:smut  genre:angst  genre:pwp  trope:time-travel  pov:R  au:college  trope:self-loathing  trope:mental-health-issues(depression)  kink:hate-sex  kink:rough-sex  kink:rough  kink:blowjobs  kink:face-fucking  kink:dirty-talk  kink:bottom!R  kink:R-whump  kink:anal  wc:1k5k  fav  f:les-mis 
october 2016 by cochepaille
September, 1998 - JJK - Multifandom [Archive of Our Own]
There were many things in life that Grantaire didn’t get to choose: he didn’t have a choice in being plucked from the present and thrown across time; he didn’t have a choice about being abruptly thrust into his past or future, naked as the day he was born; he didn’t choose to repeatedly visit the very worst moments of his life. But meeting some preppy college kids, who were bound to hate him? That he did have a choice in.
author:JJK  series:life-interrupted  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  pairing:montparnasse+R  pairing:montparnasse/R  char:jehan  char:courfeyrac  char:montparnasse  char:combeferre  au:modern  au:film/book/etc  trope:time-travel  wc:1k5k  au:f/b(Time-Traveler's-Wife)  genre:angst  pov:R  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:self-loathing  trope:emotion(emotional-constipation)  f:les-mis 
september 2016 by cochepaille
Seeking Security - defying3reason - Les Misérables - All Media Types [Archive of Our Own]
Grantaire is not-quite-happily slacking his way through college, living off of his wealthy parents and ignoring the impending doom that will be graduation and getting cut off. His friends accept his facade of joviality at face value, not quite seeing the signs of depression and alcoholism.

Then the Musain hires a beautiful new barista with a whiff of tragedy clinging to him, and Grantaire's comforting familiar existence is entirely disrupted. Also, he can't seem to convince the barista that he's not sexually harassing him.

Rating will likely go up eventually but for now the boys have kept their hands in polite places.
pairing:enjolras/grantaire  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  char:combeferre  char:courfeyrac  char:jehan  char:bahorel  char:joly  char:les-amis  char:feuilly  char:bossuet  au:modern  au:college  au:coffee-shop  setting:coffee-shop/bakery  trope:poverty  trope:emotion(pining)  trope:first-meetings  warning:alcoholism  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:mental-health-issues(depression)  trope:mental-health-issues  trope:relationship(developing-relationship)  wc:wip  pov:R  trope:holidays  trope:holidays(christmas)  warning:child-abuse  warning:emotional-abuse  wc:20k50k  trope:holidays(new-years)  trope:self-loathing  trope:intoxication  setting:party  trope:cohabitation  trope:relationship(roommates/housemates)  trope:homelessness  warning:unhealthy-coping-mechanisms  fav  author:defying3reason  genre:slow-build  trope:occupation(barista)  warning:sexual-assault  f:les-mis 
september 2016 by cochepaille
chiaroscuro - got_spunk - Les Misérables - All Media Types [Archive of Our Own]
He's not good at this part. Words don't come so easily to him without a pulpit and a raised fist, and Grantaire is a different passion for him, difficult to express, especially in these moments. He never feels so useless as he does now, when Grantaire is curled up on the floor and Enjolras can feel the panic shooting up his spine.
author:got_spunk  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  au:modern  trope:mental-health-issues  trope:mental-health-issues(depression)  genre:angst  genre:h/c  pov:enjolras  wc:1k5k  trope:intoxication  trope:self-loathing  trope:self-esteem-issues  genre:smut  kink:blowjobs  trope:relationship(established-relationship)  f:les-mis 
august 2016 by cochepaille
The Internet Friend - defying3reason - Multifandom [Archive of Our Own]
One of Courfeyrac's internet-friends posts a suicide note in a discussion group. Enjolras offers to help find the guy, and finds himself getting much more invested than he'd planned.

Meanwhile, Combeferre and Prouvaire have been quietly crushing on each other for some time. Combeferre was under the impression his shy friend didn't like him back, but Jehan is just *that shy*
author:defying3reason  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  pairing:jbm  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  char:combeferre  char:courfeyrac  char:jehan  char:bahorel  char:les-amis  char:joly  char:feuilly  char:bossuet  char:musichetta  char:marius  au:modern  au:college  trope:mental-health-issues  trope:mental-health-issues(depression)  trope:mental-health-issues(anxiety)  trope:first-meetings  trope:self-loathing  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:insecurities  trope:cuddling  genre:angst  genre:fluff  genre:h/c  genre:smut  wc:50k+  wc:wip  pov:enjolras  trope:medical(panic-attacks)  trope:emotion(pining)  warning:alcoholism  warning:self-harm  warning:suicide  warning:suicide-attempt  warning:suicide-ideation  f:les-mis 
july 2016 by cochepaille
from one side to the other - myrmidryad - Les Misérables - All Media Types [Archive of Our Own]
For God’s sake, put the bottle down! We don’t have time for your antics. 

He hopes that when he hears those words, they’ll be fond. Maybe if he’s lucky, they’ll be gentle, accompanied by a laugh. Maybe, maybe.

 

When Grantaire realises that Enjolras is his soulmate, he goes out of his way to keep it a secret because he doesn't want Enjolras to be chained to someone as useless as him for the rest of his life.
author:myrmidryad  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  pairing:jbm  pairing:cosette/marius  pairing:cosette/eponine/marius  pairing:combeferre/courfeyrac  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  char:combeferre  char:courfeyrac  char:eponine  char:jehan  char:bahorel  char:joly  char:les-amis  char:feuilly  char:musichetta  char:marius  char:cosette  pairing:joly+bossuet+R  pairing:jbm+R  au:modern  au:soulmates  trope:soulmate-identifying-marks  genre:angst  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:insecurities  trope:self-loathing  trope:secrets  trope:secrets-revealed  wc:1k5k  wc:5k10k  pov:R  trope:g/s(transgender)  trope:g/s(non-binary)  trope:emotion(pining)  trope:relationship(soulmates)  f:les-mis 
july 2016 by cochepaille
Repair - MeMeMe - Multifandom [Archive of Our Own]
“It’ll be fine. I’m just going to do some light calisthenics and rearrange the furniture.”

“If I didn’t know for a fact you’re still too shaky to do anything but lie on the couch watching Law and Order reruns, I’d threaten to call Joly and tell him what you just said.” Feuilly ruffles Grantaire’s hair. “Keep the heating pad on it, all right?”

He rolls his eyes. “I’ll follow the instructions Joly taped to the fridge, bathroom mirror, and the remote control. Now go, or you’re going to be late.”

And then Enjolras knocks on the door.
series:oh-me-of-little-faith  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  char:grantaire  char:enjolras  char:courfeyrac  char:eponine  char:les-amis  char:joly  char:feuilly  pairing:jbm  char:musichetta  char:bossuet  au:modern  au:college  trope:mental-health-issues(depression)  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:self-loathing  trope:massages  trope:human-pillow  genre:fluff  genre:angst  genre:h/c  pov:R  pov:feuilly  wc:1k5k  trope:medical(injury)  trope:relationship(friendship-is-magic)  trope:medical(recovery)  warning:alcoholism  warning:addiction  f:les-mis 
july 2016 by cochepaille
too afraid to love you - kkingofthebeach - Les Misérables - All Media Types [Archive of Our Own]
Grantaire is nothing good. Enjolras doesn’t need to know anything more about him to be sure of that. He brings weed to his neighbours’ house and plasters himself all over people he doesn’t know. He smells like cigarettes and whiskey and looks starved. He’s got rough hands and dark circles under his eyes that make him look sickly. He’s trouble embodied, but Enjolras doesn’t want to let go; he can’t make himself do it.

 

 

[grantaire is a drug addict and enjolras is a university dropout with a history of bad ideas; featuring a group of misfit friends who just want to change the world and live dirty hedonistic lives while they do it]
author:kkingofthebeach  pairing:enjolras/grantaire  pairing:courfeyrac/jehan  pairing:cosette/marius  pairing:jbm  pairing:bahorel+feuilly+R  pairing:enjolras+combeferre+courfeyrac  char:enjolras  char:grantaire  char:courfeyrac  char:combeferre  char:eponine  char:les-amis  char:jehan  char:bahorel  char:joly  char:feuilly  char:cosette  char:marius  char:musichetta  char:montparnasse  char:bossuet  au:modern  genre:angst  genre:humor  genre:fluff  genre:smut  genre:plotty  trope:cohabitation  au:neighbors  au:junkie  au:fuckbuddies  trope:first-meetings  setting:nightclubs  trope:firsts  kink:first-time  kink:blowjobs  kink:frottage  trope:drunken-kisses  trope:misunderstandings  genre:h/c  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:self-loathing  trope:insecurities  trope:secrets  wc:50k+  trope:prostitution  pov:enjolras  fav  genre:slow-build  trope:secrets-revealed  kink:rimming  kink:anal-play  kink:finger-fucking  trope:relationship(secret-relationship)  trope:relationship(developing-relationship)  trope:emotion(emotional-constipation)  trope:relationship(friendship-i 
july 2016 by cochepaille
Harry Potter AU: Les Amis encounter boggarts.
He's self-aware enough to stay well enough away from the boggart, though Defence Against the Dark Arts is his specialty, and he knows the counter-curse to a boggart well enough to deal with the damn thing - if he could think of one single thing that made his worst nightmare funny enough.
char:grantaire  char:enjolras  char:joly  char:marius  char:les-amis  genre:angst  trope:self-loathing  genre:h/c  wc:<1k  trope:relationship(friendship-is-magic)  warning:child-abuse  au:film/book/etc  au:f/b(hp)  f:les-mis 
may 2016 by cochepaille

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