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You Could Be With Me?
Jensen’s not as young as he used to be. He’s approaching his mid-thirties already. Jared’s almost thirty, perfect time to find someone to settle down with and start a family. And Jensen’s going to lose him just like that. He knows that Jared will still visit him, but it will be nothing like it is now. He’ll be lucky if he gets to see Jared three times a month. That person will become Jared’s whole world, and he won’t need Jensen anymore. Which is upsetting. Nothing Jensen can do about it, however. He’ll sit back, be the best man at the wedding, force out a happy speech to the couple and spend the rest of his life drowning in alcohol.

Yeah, that’s where he sees his life heading. In his lifetime, he’s had plenty of opportunities for relationships. The only thing is, he doesn’t want them. Jensen wants Jared, and he’s not going to settle for anyone else. He would rather go his whole life miserable, than spend the rest of it with someone that he’s not in love with.

When Jared does propose to someone fresh and new, Jensen's life turns upside down--abuse of alcohol that could eventually lead to his own death. Jared is cheated on, and Jensen is the only person he trusts. Was there light at the end of the tunnel?

RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Person-Chad!Michael!Murray  Person-Danneel!Harris/Ackles  Person-Christian!Kane  Person-Misha!Collins  Person-Tom!Welling  Infidelity  Unrequited  Angst  Addiction  Addict!Jensen  Car!Accident  drunk!Jensen  Hurt/Sick!Boys  hurt!Jensen  hurt!Jared  Bottom!Jared  Confession  20000+  archiveofourown  Long  Friends!to!Lovers  pining!Jensen  Jared/ofc 
6 days ago by chellexxx
The Final Arc
Tracy is with Krissy, Josephine, and Aidan are on a hunt in
Florida, when they run into her least favorite person: Sam Winchester,
the reason her family is dead. After hearing Sam's story, however, she
begins to worry. Especially now that he's not with Dean, and is
suffering a heavy backlash of nightmares from The Cage. .. 43,660
SPN!Non-AU  Het  Sam/OFC  Self!Harm  Angst  Non-Con  hurt!Sam  Powers!Sam  pining!OC  asshole!John  Abusive!John  Abused!Sam  Unrequited  Torture  Abusive!Dean  Spell/Curse  PTSD  post!Season!10  Angel!Sam  Angel  Long  35000+  archiveofourown  Dream/Nightmare  kick!ass!Sam  Memories/Flashback  Confession  Gen  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-Adam!Milligan  Character-Chuck!Shurley  Character-Castiel  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Hannah  Character-Lucifer  Character-Michael  Character-Flagstaff  Character-Metatron  Character-Tracy!Bell  Character-Krissy!Chambers  Separated!Boys 
december 2015 by chellexxx
Seers are individuals blessed with some remarkable ability
(think X-men) but are born blind (Amaurotic blindness is a marker for
the Seers, in this world.). Most families have their "seer" children
taken away at birth by the government. A few families avoid having their
children born in the hospital and if they have a "seer" baby they try
to hide them. The government raises the children to use their abilities
and matches them up with hunters… Sadly, since most hunters become so
after suffering from some personal tragedy; they are rarely known for
their compassion. Seers tend to have a short life span, being
mistreated, or used as bait or just getting killed by the thing that
they are hunting.Sam was lucky to escape being taken by the government
at birth and then managed to stay off-grid. Once an adult, he managed to
get in with an underground organization that helped seers from being
caught. .... 30,000
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Blind  Blind!Sam  Powers!Sam  Slave!fic  Bed!Sharing  Angst  pining!Dean  Big!Bang  livejournal  25000+  Long  Spell/Curse  Wendigo  Hunter  Blind!Dean  hurt!Sam  Sam/Dean  Unrequited  Depraved!Humans  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  AU!Not!Raised!By!John  AU!Raised!Apart  Characters-Roy&Walt  Character-Yellow!Eyed!Demon  archiveofourown 
july 2015 by chellexxx
Dean stitches Sam up after a hunt. Sam admits some stuff he probably shouldn't...... 1,151
SPN!Non-AU  Sam/Dean  Slash  Season!Undefined  pining!Sam  Unrequited  Angst  Confession  drunk!Sam  hurt!Sam  archiveofourown  livejournal  1000+  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
august 2014 by chellexxx
Filling In Blank Spaces
“Some people are born to be roamers, Jared. No matter how much
we love them, or roots they grow in a place, their free spirit will
always win." ... 2,467
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Angst  pining!Jared  Friends!With!Benefits  Sad  Established!Relationship  Unrequited  archiveofourown  1000+  Short  Separated!Boys  Bartender!Jared  asshole!Jensen  top!Jared  Bartender 
april 2014 by chellexxx
Acts of Love and War
Acts of Love and War,
Sam Winchester Wants You; Join Heavens Army Today!

Sam ends up in heaven instead of in the cage, only to discover there's a war going on. Cas wants to keep him out of it but he's not going to let his friends fight alone, especially when a prophecy hints at Cas's death.
The thing is, Angels aren't the only ones in heaven who can fight.
Gen  post!Season!5  pining!Sam  SPN  Character-Castiel  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Ellen!Harvelle  Character-Ash  Character-Mary!Winchester  Character-Jo!Harvelle  Character-Raphael  Death!fic  Dean/Lisa  Unrequited  Character-Death  Character-Missouri!Moseley  Character-Adam!Milligan  Sam&Castiel  35000+  archiveofourown  Long  SPN!Non-AU 
december 2013 by chellexxx
The hiss of the shower filled the untidy, cluttered room and
Sam listened to it carefully, his hands locked together in his lap,
shaking slightly, picturing what was happening.

1st Wincest fic to appear on the internet!!
Previous!Relationship  Unrequited  pining!Dean  Sam/Dean  under!1000  Season!1  livejournal  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Short  SPN 
september 2013 by chellexxx
Answered By You
Sam sucks a lot. It makes it both easier and harder for them to
fall back into each other after Dean comes back from purgatory. 2,200
livejournal  Unrequited  pining!Dean  Season!8  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  1000+  Short  SPN 
may 2013 by chellexxx
Universal Truths
For as long as he could remember, Chad had always been in love
with Jared. He would do anything for him. So when Jared gets a crush on
the new guy, Ackles, Chad does what he needs to do. But when buried
secrets are dug, memories are freed, tears are shed and hugs are given,
time goes by and surprisingly... the world doesn't end. .... 24,500
20000+  Unrequited  livejournal  pining!Jared  pining!OC  First!Time  Jared/Jensen  RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Long  HighSchool!AU  Student!Jared  Student!Jensen  Big!Bang  Schmoop  pdf/mobi  Outsider!POV  Person-Chad!Michael!Murray  Person-Misha!Collins 
january 2013 by chellexxx
The Lonely Souls
Dean would like to bury himself in the job to pretend that
seals aren't breaking around the world and Sam is willing to indulge him
for a little while. Except Sam keeps looking at him like something's
changed and there's enough secrets between them to fill an ocean.
Big!Bang  Case!fic  Unrequited  Angst  livejournal  Season!4  20000+  pining!OC  Established!Relationship  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Sam/Dean  Long  SPN  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  archiveofourown 
august 2012 by chellexxx
an awful mess
Castiel is just standing there, ignoring the clumsy drag of
Sam's grip on his coat, watching Dean for a response that is nowhere
near to coming.
Sam/Castiel, Dean (serious Dean/Castiel UST)
Jealous!Dean  pining!Dean  Unrequited  1000+  top!Sam  Under!the!Influence  F.O.D  Sam/Castiel  livejournal  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Short  SPN  Character-Castiel 
july 2012 by chellexxx
An Electric Dream
Sam spends some time remembering a dream he had about Gabriel whilst in the shower, pre slash, unrequited
pining!Sam  Season!5  1000+  Bottom!Sam  PWP  Dream/Nightmare  Unrequited  Sam/Gabriel  livejournal  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Short  SPN  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster 
december 2011 by chellexxx
For all that Michael was the fearsome general of the angelic
troops, Sam was finding it a little hard to take him seriously. 5,590
pining!OC  Sam/OMC  Season!5  Unrequited  First!Time  Humour  Sam/Dean  5000+  livejournal  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Short  AU!Season!5  Sam/Michael  SPN  Character-Michael 
october 2011 by chellexxx
World of Glass
Takes place during/after Tall Tales. Mention of Gabriel/Sam unrequited.
2,453  pining!Sam  Sam/Gabriel  Season!2  Pre-Slash  Unrequited  1000+  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Short  SPN  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster 
september 2011 by chellexxx
A lot of things are still up in the air right now but the one
thing Dean knows absolutely for sure is that they Don't. Talk. About.
pining!Sam  pining!Dean  Unrequited  guilty!Sam  Previous!Relationship  Season!1  Angst  5000+  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Short  Skin  Shifter  SPN 
september 2011 by chellexxx
Some mistakes are irreparable: His eyes crunch up and then
slowly open. Hazel eyes blink up at me for a second before recognition
crosses Jareds features and he yanks his hand away, scrambling
backwards, wincing painfully, Sorry, sorry, sorry, he murmurs, as if
apologising for the contact I initiated.
Jared/Jensen  pining!Jared  hurt!Jared  Unrequited  guilty!Jensen  Heartbreaking  Death!fic  fics!by!freakn-out  10000+  Bottom!Jared  RPS  Insecurity  livejournal  RPS!Non-AU  Slash  asshole!Jensen  Short  Depraved!Humans  Suicide  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
august 2011 by chellexxx
The Only One He Sees
Whenever Sam enters a room, Castiel forgets about everyone else
but him. Its a phenomenon he calls the Sam effect and hes utterly
helpless to resist it. Sam feels the same way...about Dean. 2,910
POV!Castiel  Sam/Dean  Established!Relationship  Unrequited  Sad  1000+  livejournal  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Outsider!POV  Short  pining!Castiel  SPN  Character-Castiel 
july 2011 by chellexxx
On Taking It Like A Bitch And Ten Other Ways to Say I Love You
Sam still remembers the look on his brother's face the day he
left—heartbroken and angry and betrayed all at once, like somehow
wanting to have a normal life was the worst kind of sin. Dad yelled, a
lot, and that was almost better, preferable, because at least Sam knew
where he stood. "If you go, stay gone." Pretty fucking clear, actually,
and Sam knows he will never understand his family, his dad. Mom wouldn't
have wanted this for him. Mom would've been proud.
Gen  Het  Slash  Unrequited  First!Time  Sam/Jess  OMC  TV!Show-The!OC  Crossover  Sam/OMC  pining!Sam  5000+  Living!Together  livejournal  Pre-Series  Stanford  SPN!Non-AU  Short  Domestic!fic  SPN  Character-Jessica 
march 2011 by chellexxx
In My Life I Love You More
Sam Winchester is nineteen years old when he realizes he's in
love. Turns out, running from his life only proved that he's even less
normal than he'd thought. Wincest, Sam/Dean one-sided implied, unless
you squint a bit.
Angst  Unrequited  pining!Sam  Slash  First!Time  Pre-Series  Stanford  SPN!Non-AU  5000+  Short  SPN 
march 2011 by chellexxx
You Didn’t Know and Now You Just Don’t Know…but I’m Okay with that as Long as You’re Here
Sam didn’t know when it had begun, just that it had. It
followed him for most of his childhood, all his teenage years, and
through much of his young adult life. When he finally came to terms with
the emotional backlash it wasn’t because Dean learned the truth. It was
just that Sam learned to live with Dean not knowing the truth. Written
for Hurt Comfort Bingo.
pining!OC  Unrequited  1000+  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Memories/Flashback  Non-Con  SPN!Non-AU  First!Time  Angst  asshole!John  livejournal  hurt!Sam  Short  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  pdf/mobi  Abused  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Deleted!Fic!or!Author  Character-John!Winchester 
december 2010 by chellexxx
Whole Lotta Love
Dean has feelings for Sam that could be taken as more than
brotherly, not that he'd ever let himself admit it, Sam knows something
is up, but not the extent of his sibling's sickness. 1,906
Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  1000+  Short  pining!Dean  Unrequited  Season!Undefined  SPN 
november 2010 by chellexxx
All of Five Minutes
After the Bloody Mary incident, Charlie still thinks of Sam. She imagines that Sam will show up one day, for her.
Sam/Dean  pining!OC  Unrequited  Established!Relationship  OFC  People!Helped  1000+  Season!1  livejournal  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Outsider!POV  Short  SPN  Character-Charlie 
september 2010 by chellexxx
It Doesn't Mean You Can Explain The Ocean
There are noises in the cosmic grapevine about three women in
Savannah, about prophesy and oracle and older gods than even they know
the words for, and Dean hears about it from a waitress at the counter of
a diner off the side of a North Carolina freeway. It's muggy outside:
like collards and carrot tops and green gumbo, stewed until it's mostly
brown, like mudslides and the thick scum left on everything after a

Sam doesn't ask.

In Florida, when they burst out of the old collapsing mausoleum into
afternoon sunshine, covered with dirt and ectoplasm and victory, and
Dean punches his fists in the air and looks at him, dirty and grinning
and shining so bright that for a minute Sam almost can't see, still he
doesn't ask, he doesn't reach out and put his hands on Dean's face,
where they belong according to every instinct and yearning he has in
Powers!Sam  hurt!Dean  Demon  pining!Sam  Bottom!Sam  Season!2  Dean/ofc  Sam/OMC  Unrequited  Length!Unknown  Romance  Humour  Angst  Season!1  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer 
august 2010 by chellexxx

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