chellexxx + ptsd   227

Keep This Secret
Sam and Dean travel to the fairy realm hoping to make a deal to get Adam released from the Cage. The price: their shared secret.
23,388
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Angst  archiveofourown  20000+  Long  Fae/Fairies  Deal  Character-Adam!Milligan  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!OC  pining!Sam  Dream/Nightmare  Hell  Season!8  813  Alternate!Universe  Big!Bang  guilty!Sam  First!Time 
june 2019 by chellexxx
Out Where the Shivers Won't Find You
After Castiel rescues Sam from Hell, he sets him up in a cabin in the middle of nowhere to recuperate, and to give his soul time to heal from the damage it suffered in the cage. When Sam experiences violent, frightening flashbacks to his time with Lucifer, Cas offers a solution, but neither one of them anticipates the way their tentative friendship will change. AU after 5x22.

15,812
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Castiel  First!Time  Character-Castiel  post!Season!5  PTSD  Angst  archiveofourown  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Bed!Sharing  Dream/Nightmare  livejournal  15000+  Long  Bonding  top!Sam  Slow!Burn  Dean/Lisa  Cabin!fic  A!Break!From!Hunting  Separated!Boys 
april 2019 by chellexxx
Becomes the Beast
Sam Winchester is given a chance to go back in time and change things for the better, but he wakes up further back than he would have ever dared to hope. Only days have passed in this timeline since the fight that had him hitchhiking to California. Now he has four years at Stanford University to prepare for seeing his brother and hunting again.
But things will be different this time, and not just because Sam is taking courses that will help him in hunting. He's making the strangest assortment of friends, finding allies in tricksters, witches, demons, and nature spirits.
And that's without even looking at Loki. And... his kids.
Being a Winchester has always brought with it the strangest of oddities and the worst of luck, but this might be the adventure that takes the cake. Or the cadbury creme, at least.

84,757
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  archiveofourown  Time!Travel  Time!Travelling!Sam  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Lucifer  Stanford  PTSD  75000+  Epic  Angel  WIP  AU!Stanford  Pre-Series  AU!Pre-Series  Humour  Norse!God  Fix-It-Fic  Character-John!Winchester  Artist!Sam  Artist 
august 2018 by chellexxx
Rewriting the Book
When Sam gets a little too close to stopping Metatron’s plans, the angel decides to use some of his extra juice to get Sam out of his way by sending him to a completely different reality. He never could’ve predicted what Sam might find there – or what he might bring back home with him.
37,224
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  Season!9  AU!Season!9  Alone/Separated  Separated!Boys  Alternate!Universe  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Dean/Castiel  archiveofourown  Angst  Spell/Curse  Character-Michael  Memories/Flashback  Bat!Cave  35000+  Long  PTSD  Secret  Confession 
september 2017 by chellexxx
Bound By Kismet
In 2087, the world's a little different. MP3 players have been replaced with voice activated ear buds, farming is done almost entirely by machines, and "Self-Slavery" is acceptable and fairly common.
Despite finding the idea unsavory, 32-yr-old corporate bigwig Jensen - who sucks at sustaining relationships - agrees to a Convict Proprietor Contract with 26-yr-old photographer Jared - serving five years for a crime he took the fall for.

Divine Destiny, or The Cruel Hand of Fate?

Both haunted by their pasts - Jensen with one he couldn't remember, and Jared tormented by one he only wanted to forget - the two men's lives converge in a way neither could ever imagine.
Will dark secrets shatter the delicate friendship they manage to build? Or will the two men find their way to a happiness neither was even looking for?
66,000+
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Slave!fic  Photographer!Jared  Photographer  CEO!Jensen  C.E.O  Big!Bang  50000+  livejournal  pdf/mobi  Hurt/Sick!Boys  hurt!Jared  Abused  Abused!Jared  PTSD  Angst  Non-Con  Dream/Nightmare 
may 2017 by chellexxx
Going It Alone
After three months of searching for a demon to deal with, Sam finds one that says yes. Dean is saved. This is the story of Dean fighting to define a life without his brother.
98,068

Sequel
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10091487/1/Picking-Up-The-Pieces
Ten months ago, Sam was dragged into Hell in order to save his brother. Now Sam is back and he and Dean have to find a way to struggle on with their shared burdens, fighting in a world that is careening towards its end.
97,879
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!3  AU!Season!3  Dean!centric  Separated!Boys  Alone/Separated  Epic  fanfiction.net  Deal  Hell  150000+  hurt!Sam  hurt!Dean  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  PTSD 
april 2017 by chellexxx
The Hedgehog Rescue
Dean went to Hell and was hauled out of Perdition, only to be turned into a 4/5-year-old version of himself. It just might avert the apocalypse... but only if Dean can help Bobby save Sam from himself. Also has to be sick.

22,337
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!4  post!Season!3  AU!Season!4  Regression/De-Aged  Regressed/De-Aged!Dean  sick!Dean  Hurt/Sick!Boys  fanfiction.net  Long  20000+  Addiction  Addict!Sam  asshole!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  PTSD  Character-Ruby  Sam/Ruby  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel 
april 2017 by chellexxx
But it solves every problem!
Starts from the end of Meta fiction (season 9). After Metatron makes Cass see Gabriel again, Sam gets the idea of bringing the Archangel back. Because what better way to fight a knight of hell and a scribe of God than the one guy who was there from the beginning (who hasn't tried to end the world...yet).
53,144
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Character-Castiel  First!Time  Time!Travel  Character-Lucifer  Fix-It-Fic  archiveofourown  Angst  Long  Sam/Gabriel  Dean/Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Metatron  Character-Adam!Milligan  Character-Gadreel  Character-Michael  PTSD  Hurt/Sick!Boys  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Non-Con  Abused  50000+  Season!9  918  Gabriel!Lives  Bat!Cave  Character-Cain  Character-Abaddon 
april 2017 by chellexxx
Blast Into The Past
The Cage was never meant to hold a human. It was meant for one archangel, not two, and definitely not a human soul. Little by little Sam's soul was being destroyed by the torture the Cage inflicted on it. Lucifer and Michael joined together and, with their combined grace, pieced together Sam Winchester's soul and sent him out of the Cage and into the past in the hopes that he can stop this whole thing before it even starts.

Only, when Sam lands, things don't quite go so well. He's not all that sure that this isn't another torture the Cage has provided for him. He's in the past, right after Dean got out of Hell, and he's nowhere near the same man he was before. He can barely remember how to function as a human. It's going to take his family and a little help from a surprised archangel for Sam to start to recover. He doesn't have much time, though, because the apocalypse is still coming and the angels are fighting to get Lucifer free. Can one broken man manage to change the past? Or are they doomed to repeat their same mistakes over and over again?

57,905
SPN!Non-AU  Slow!Burn  AU!Season!4  Season!4  Angst  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  Time!Travel  Time!Travelling!Sam  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Lucifer  Character-Michael  Character-Uriel  Angel  Bonding  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Season!6  AU!Season!6  archiveofourown  Long  50000+  Dream/Nightmare  Hell  Memories/Flashback 
march 2017 by chellexxx
Heart's Desire
Sam and Dean are trying to adjust to life in retirement, something they never thought they'd live to see. Future/curtain fic with plenty of h/c. 4,100
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  post!Series  Season!11  Curtain!fic  Domestic!fic  Cabin!fic  Permanent!Injury  PTSD  1000+  Short  livejournal 
march 2017 by chellexxx
While You Were Gone
Dean was gone and this time Sam had no idea where he was. Sam
could only assume that he was dead. He tried looking for his brother,
God had he tried. He has barely slept for those four long months
catching, questioning and, occasionally torturing any and every creature
he could. He went after demons, Levis, and even an angel and a cupid.
But nobody knew where his brother was at and if they did, they didn’t
say. He had been talking to hunters even though he knew some of them
still hated his guts but for his brother he’d do anything. Or so he
thought. ... 36,200 .. http://waya98.livejournal.com
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!8  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  PTSD  Hospitalized!Boys  Angst  Non-Con  Torture  Beaten  Abducted  Abducted!Sam  Motel/Hotel  806  guilty!Dean  Hunter  post!Season!7  Depraved!Humans  Asylum  pdf/mobi  Self!Harm  Bed!Sharing  75000+  livejournal  Epic  archiveofourown  kick!ass!Dean  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  A!Break!From!Hunting  Character-Castiel  Character-Crowley 
february 2016 by chellexxx
Respite
“Sam?” Dean reaches out toward him without thinking. Sam reacts
to his touch like it burns, eyes wide and unfocused as his hands lash
out; under his breath, barely audible, Dean hears Sam whispering no; no,
please. Something cold twists in his gut as he retreats, pressing
himself against the other side of the stairwell and raising his hands in
surrender. “Sam, it's me,” he says. “It's Dean.” But Sam doesn't hear
him. He's muttering and still holding his hands up, and Dean sees a
trickle of blood slide down from his hairline before following the
contours of his face into the dip under his eye and then down his nose.
Sam knocks himself off the step and fumbles down two more before Dean
finally hears him breathe. .... 3,139
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!11  1114  hurt!Sam  PTSD  Angst  Memories/Flashback  Hell  Brain/Head!injury  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Self!Harm  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  Domestic!fic  Bat!Cave  Bed!Sharing  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
february 2016 by chellexxx
Gazes Into You
Ex-cop Jensen likes to watch. There's no harm in it. But when
the latest object of his obsession disappears, he finds himself getting
involved in something that goes way beyond a missing person's case. Can
he find Jared and keep him safe while they try to figure out what the
hell the kid has gotten himself mixed up in? And without Jared finding
out why Jensen is in his life in the first place? .... 75,851
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Big!Bang  Voyeurism  pining!Jensen  PTSD  top!Jared  Bottom!Jared  Torture  Abducted  Abducted!Jared  Agent/Police  Agent/Police!Jensen  hurt!Jared  hurt!Jensen  Angst  Leg!broken/injured  75000+  Epic  livejournal  archiveofourown  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Permanent!Injury!Jared  Person-Chad!Michael!Murray  Person-Christian!Kane  Person-Aldis!Hodge  Person-Mark!Pellegrino  Person-Jeffrey!Dean!Morgan 
february 2016 by chellexxx
I See You
Sam spent centuries locked in a cage with Lucifer. He figures out pretty quickly that Castiel is no longer home. Angst!.. 844
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!11  1111  1110  Angst  Bat!Cave  Secret  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Memories/Flashback  PTSD  hurt!Sam  under!1000  Short  fanfiction.net  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Lucifer 
january 2016 by chellexxx
Raising Hell
Dean takes care of his hurting little brother in the aftermath
of the cage fight with Lucifer. Hurt!Sam, Protective!Dean. .. 2,618
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!11  1110  Missing!Scene  Bat!Cave  hurt!Sam  hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Angst  Bed!Sharing  Memories/Flashback  Hell  PTSD  1000+  Short  fanfiction.net  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
january 2016 by chellexxx
Soldier's Heart
Because of horrific nightmares and crushing guilt, Doctor
Jensen Ackles hasn't practiced medicine since the end of the Civil War.
He has only one thing left to live for--saving his sister from a life of
working in a saloon. After losing his parents and brother during the
war, Jared Padalecki struggles to hold on to the family ranch. And
though he never planned to marry, he's obligated to wed his widowed
sister-in-law to provide her and his niece and nephew a home. When
Jensen finds himself working for Jared, he's afraid his terrible secrets
will be exposed. However, Jared has his own secret.... 42,200

http://archiveofourown.org/works/225747
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Big!Bang  Historical  Rancher/Cowboy!Jared  Armed!Forces!Jensen  Armed!Forces  Ranch/Farm  Alone/Separated  Boss/employee  Boss!Jared  Work!Together  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Jensen  PTSD  Medical!Professional!Jensen  Dream/Nightmare  Angst  Romance  35000+  Long  livejournal  Rancher/Cowboy  Separated!Boys  Hurt/Sick!Boys  archiveofourown 
january 2016 by chellexxx
Somewhere With You
Ever since his divorce became public, Jared can't go anywhere
without the paparazzi hounding him. The scandals surrounding his
marriage to Wall Street mogul Tom Welling swirl out of control, leaving
Jared desperate to shield his young daughter from the media. When he
flees with his daughter to a small town on the Florida coast, Jared's is
forced to rely on the kindness of a stranger Four years ago, Jensen
Ackles had everything he ever wanted – a partner and an infant son. But
when that perfect life was torn from him, he vowed never to let anyone
close again. Now, he spends his life traveling to scenes of natural
disasters and helping those who can't help themselves. The last thing he
needs after another exhausting mission is to find a stranger sleeping
in his bed. He most definitely doesn't need to hear the Frozen
soundtrack again. ... 15,000

http://archiveofourown.org/works/4078510/chapters/9184489
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Romance  Kid!fic  Parent/Guardian!Jared  Angst  Living!Together  Neighbour  Dog/Puppy  Wealthy/Not!Wealthy  Vet/Animal!Shelter  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Jensen  Library  PTSD  Everyday!Heroes  Memories/Flashback  Bottom!Jared  kick!ass!Jensen  Homeless!Jared  1st!meeting  15000+  Long  livejournal  archiveofourown  Thanksgiving  Jared/Tom  Wealthy!Jared  Homeless  Librarian!Jared  Person-Tom!Welling  Person-Genevieve!Cortese/Padalecki  Person-Jim!Beaver  Person-Osric!Chau  Person-Matt!Cohen  Person-Jeffrey!Dean!Morgan 
december 2015 by chellexxx
The Final Arc
Tracy is with Krissy, Josephine, and Aidan are on a hunt in
Florida, when they run into her least favorite person: Sam Winchester,
the reason her family is dead. After hearing Sam's story, however, she
begins to worry. Especially now that he's not with Dean, and is
suffering a heavy backlash of nightmares from The Cage. .. 43,660
SPN!Non-AU  Het  Sam/OFC  Self!Harm  Angst  Non-Con  hurt!Sam  Powers!Sam  pining!OC  asshole!John  Abusive!John  Abused!Sam  Unrequited  Torture  Abusive!Dean  Spell/Curse  PTSD  post!Season!10  Angel!Sam  Angel  Long  35000+  archiveofourown  Dream/Nightmare  kick!ass!Sam  Memories/Flashback  Confession  Gen  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-Adam!Milligan  Character-Chuck!Shurley  Character-Castiel  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Hannah  Character-Lucifer  Character-Michael  Character-Flagstaff  Character-Metatron  Character-Tracy!Bell  Character-Krissy!Chambers  Separated!Boys 
december 2015 by chellexxx
Slumbering Hearts
Human AU. Sam is an artist (painter). After losing his mother
and fiancé to a serial killer, he hides himself away in a remote
mountain cabin. He keeps to himself, only really talking to his brother
Dean, ex-military sheriff of Angel's Pass, the nearby town. When a
blizzard rolls through and strands itinerant musician Gabriel with him,
feelings Sam had thought long dead begin to wake up. Can two lonely
souls help each other heal? .... 24,458

http://archiveofourown.org/works/233238
Slash  SPN!AU  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  Trapped  Mother!Nature  Artist!Sam  Musician  Angst  dreamwidth  Long  20000+  pdf/mobi  Armed!Forces!Dean  Agent/Police!Dean  Agent/Police  Artist  Blizzard/Snow  SPN  Cabin!fic  PTSD  Romance  Slow!Burn  Dog/Puppy  sick!OC  AU!Not!Raised!as!Hunters  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Ellen!Harvelle  Character-Jo!Harvelle  archiveofourown 
november 2015 by chellexxx
Recall
Sam's having a hard time telling what's real and what isn't, especially when it comes to some voicemails from Dean. .... 6,344
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Voicemail  Angst  5000+  Short  archiveofourown  Season!7  PTSD  hurt!Sam  Hospitalized!Boys  Arm!broken/injured  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Fix-It-Fic  Character-Lucifer 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Changing Everything
Castiel’s store is full of books that have been well-loved. He
isn’t interested in books that find their way easily in the world; he
prefers the damaged ones. His own damage, he keeps hidden away: he keeps
his shop neat and his apartment private, keeps his life orderly and
small. Small until he meets Sam, the not-so-small owner of the bakery
next door, that is. Sam is outgoing and happy and ignores Castiel’s “No
Food or Drinks” sign. He’s got his own damage, but he’s kind, and maybe,
Cas thinks, he can make room for someone else in his orderly little
life. ... 19,329
SPN!AU  Slash  Sam/Castiel  First!Time  Dean/Lisa  Chef/Baker!Jared  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!Castiel  Big!Bang  Store  archiveofourown  15000+  Long  BookStore  Chef/Baker  SPN  AU!Not!Raised!as!Hunters  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Anna!Milton  Character-Jo!Harvelle  Character-Kevin!Tran  Character-Lisa!Braeden  Character-Ben!Braeden 
september 2015 by chellexxx
a circle of quiet
Sam Winchester has seen a lot of shit. But nothing could have
prepared him for the moment when Castiel, his eyes dazzling like bright
blue gems, turned to him and pressed a kiss to his cheek. (Takes place
during some unspecified time period after Hunter Heroici.) ... 2,543
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Gen  Sam/Castiel  Sam&Castiel  Season!8  Schmoop  First!Time  808  PTSD  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  archiveofourown  Short  1000+  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2015 by chellexxx
If I Knew Then What I Know Now
Given an opportunity to change his family's destiny, Dean
Winchester finds himself back in 1983 as his four year old self, yet
with his adult memories still intact. But can he alter the events of
that tragic night? And if so, will young Dean, his family, and Castiel
be ready to survive all the evil that destiny has in store for them?
pre-series AU ..... 500,962 ..
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8835418/1/If-I-Knew-Then-What-I-Know-Now
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Regression/De-Aged  Regressed/De-Aged!Dean  Time!Travel  hurt!Dean  Angst  Torture  PTSD  Memories/Flashback  Weechesters  Pre-Series  AU!Pre-Series  WIP  500000+  Epic  archiveofourown  Season!8  AU!Season!8  fanfiction.net  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Time!Travelling!Dean  Character-Castiel  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Mary!Winchester 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Epiphany
The point is that legends are as good as myths--everyone has
his own opinion, and not half of them are right. The point is that Sam
Winchester returns from Hell three months after he jumped in, and
there’s nothing that’s legend about that. .... -or- ... Sam returns from
Hell with his body intact--and his powers, too. With Sam's abilities
cleansed of Azazel's taint, Heaven decides that a Sam with powers is a
soldier they want. But the angels aren't known for keeping the
Winchesters' best interests at heart and Sam has enough on his plate
when his newly-cleansed powers take a sinister turn. Fighting a battle
between Heaven's wishes and a deadly force from within, Sam and Dean
hunker down in a small town in Virginia and wait for something to break.
... 75,791
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  post!Season!5  Angst  hurt!Sam  Powers!Sam  Domestic!fic  75000+  Epic  archiveofourown  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Missouri!Moseley  Hunter 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Between Darkness and Light
Sam and Dean finally found happiness, a tiny scrap of peace in
the otherwise violent cacophony of their lives. They moved back to their
hometown of Lawrence, Kansas, letting domestic life fold in easily
around them as they built a life together away from the darkness of
their past. For a while it was good, better than maybe either of them
deserved. Sam finally let himself believe they had escaped the bloody,
violent death he always feared was in store for them. Sadly, suddenly,
the greed, violence and jealousy of mortal men swooped in and took it
all away.Twisted by grief and consumed by revenge, Sam paints his face
with a Glasgow smile of white and black and tracks down the men who
split his soul in two, making them pay for what they did. ... 32,077

http://archiveofourown.org/works/4459892/chapters/10133717
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Big!Bang  archiveofourown  livejournal  Domestic!fic  Curtain!fic  PTSD  Death!fic  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Criminal/Mafia  kick!ass!Sam  Non-Con  Homicide  25000+  Long  Angst  Depraved!Humans  SPN  Based!on!a!Movie/Book/TV!Show  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Book-The!Crow 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Wicked Game
It was supposed to be easy. Safe. His new neighbor, Jensen,
with his broad shoulders, the heavy metal band shirts, the dog tags and
all kinds of scars was not Jared's type. Wasn't even gay. It was
supposed to be a casual friendship. But somewhere between unsuccessful
dates with pretty young men and summer days spend on motorcycle rides or
watching cheesy 80s movies with Jensen, things changed for Jared.
Question was, had they changed for Jensen, too? .... 21,000
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Neighbour  PTSD  Big!Bang  pdf/mobi  Long  20000+  livejournal  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Hand Covers Bruise
After Dean is cured, Sam's trying to be fine, but he's really,
really not. He starts to realize the whole Dean-was-a-demon thing
affected him a lot more than he thought it did. Oneshot. (PTSD!Sam) ...
2,775
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  Missing!Scene  1003  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Memories/Flashback  Demon!Dean  hurt!Sam  PTSD  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  Bat!Cave  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2015 by chellexxx
lost
Sam volunteers at the humane society as he recuperates from the
trauma of his time in hell. His mind is not okay. He tries to help some
animals. Dean tries to help him. ..... 1,547
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Slash  Sam/Dean  Schmoop  Season!7  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Vet/Animal!Shelter  archiveofourown  1000+  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Kitten/Cat 
august 2015 by chellexxx
Second Chances and New Beginnings
Cas has disappeared, an ancient form of being called Leviathan
are freed from Purgatory, Sam’s wall is down, sending him into horrific
flashbacks of what he suffered for over a century. With no idea how to
evade or fight the latest Apocalypse, Dean concentrates on what’s most
important to him. Putting his brother back together. But a shocking turn
of events put the Winchesters on another journey. What does their
father and an archangel have in common with stopping the end of the
world? .... 49,858

http://archiveofourown.org/series/517681
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Season!7  AU!Season!7  Sam/Dean  Established!Relationship  Angst  Resurrected!John  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  PTSD  top!Sam  Bottom!Sam  Someone!Finds!Out  Big!Bang  Long  35000+  livejournal  archiveofourown  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Crowley 
july 2015 by chellexxx
Of Men and of Rockets
Sam's always thought it's this fiction-thing, biting your lip
until it bleeds. It seems dramatic and all, but short of tearing off too
much dry skin or having really dry lips to start with, it takes more
pressure than most people are willing to exert, really, to break the
skin of the lip and make it actually bleed. The pain of broken skin is
absolutely nothing, though, to the feeling of Lucifer's hands rooting
around in his innards (with that sort of gleeful detachment that the
fallen archangel must have spent millennia cultivating) and tearing out
whatever displeases him. In other words... Sam wakes up from a Cage
trauma-fueled nightmare and can't shake the dream. Dean helps by turning
on the heater in high summer and sweating through it. In the end,
there's nothing like a bit of blasphemy to shake the cold in his bones.
.... 1,677
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!7  Angst  PTSD  Dream/Nightmare  Torture  Memories/Flashback  Hell  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
june 2015 by chellexxx
Drowned
When the Winchesters and the BAU end up in the same town on the
same case, things go about as badly as they can go. .... And then they
go worse. ... 15,509
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Crossover  Case!fic  Someone!Finds!Out  hurt!OC  Abducted  Abducted!Sam  Abducted!OC  Caught  Prison/Jail  Season!7  PTSD  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  15000+  archiveofourown  Long  Local!LEOS/FBI  Depraved!Humans  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  TV!Show-Criminal!Minds 
may 2015 by chellexxx
It's a Not-So-Wonderful Life
Dean has finally given in to the Mark of Cain and become a
monster. Gabriel gives Sam a chance to save him, but only by erasing
himself from Dean's life. What would Dean's life be like if Sam had
never existed? Without Sam, Dean gets the apple-pie life Sam always
wished he could have, never knowing what his brother sacrificed. Until
the day that something supernatural happens, and Dean's happy, normal
life encounters a snag or two in the form of a tall, dark-haired
stranger. . 19,000
Slash  Season!10  AU!Season!10  Sam/Dean  Deal  Spell/Curse  Parent/Guardian!Dean  Kid!fic  Amnesia  Amnesia!Dean  Firefighter!Dean  Self!Harm  sick!Sam  First!Time  Angst  Schmoop  PTSD  pining!Sam  15000+  Long  archiveofourown  SPN!AU  Hunter!Sam  SPN  Gabriel!Lives  Hurt/Sick!Boys  AU!Raised!Apart  AU!Not!Raised!as!Hunters  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Missouri!Moseley 
april 2015 by chellexxx
Not Just a River in Egypt
Tag to 10x15 "The Things They Carried" Dean wonders why Sam
never once objected to Cole calling him 'Sammy'. Angst-fest and some
lovely bro-ments because... it's me. .... 3,258
Memories/Flashback  1000+  fanfiction.net  Short  Confession  Bat!Cave  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Angst  1015  Season!10  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
march 2015 by chellexxx
Turn up the Bright Lights
Emotionally and physically hurt after an accident that killed
his best friend, Jensen is confined to his house. He finds unexpected
solace in Jared, the man delivering his groceries. But Jensen may be too
scarred by what happened to ever let things progress with Jared. ....
13,000

http://archiveofourown.org/works/472980
Store  pdf/mobi  livejournal  Short  10000+  Slow!Burn  Agent/Police!Jensen  Student!Jared  pining!Jensen  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt!Jensen  Memories/Flashback  Car!Accident  Leg!broken/injured  hurt!Jensen  Schmoop  Romance  First!Time  Jared/Jensen  Slash  RPS!Family  RPS!AU  RPS  Agent/Police  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Kitten/Cat  archiveofourown 
march 2015 by chellexxx
The Illusion Of Your Voice
After Dean disappears in Dick Roman's laboratory, Sam is left
with no clues as where his brother is, or if he's even alive. But that
doesn't stop him from looking for Dean. It doesn't matter how hard the
answers turn out to be found, and the things he has to give up and do to
get them. Sam is going to get his brother back this time. .... 12,972
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  post!Season!7  Angst  Spell/Curse  Vampire  Demon  Separated!Boys  Alone/Separated  hurt!Sam  PTSD  archiveofourown  Short  10000+  Amulet  Blood!Magic  Purgatory  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Lucifer  Character-Kevin!Tran  Character-Amelia!Richardson 
february 2015 by chellexxx
Cold as a Stone
In the heart of Chicago, a thrift store called Reruns acts as a
haven for the young, homeless, and destitute. Its owner, Gabriel Novak,
is always willing to lend a hand to people in need, but Sam Winchester
doesn’t seem to want anyone’s help. Gabriel is drawn to the too-skinny
young man with the startling eyes, even as Sam pushes him and his
charity away. When Sam is busted for prostitution, Gabriel bails him out
and agrees to take custody of him for thirty days to keep him out of
jail. But Sam’s pimp, the notorious and deadly Jed Prince, is looking
for him, and what begins as a budding friendship soon turns to romance
as Gabriel fights to keep Sam safe. ... 42,006
Slash  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  hurt!Sam  Angst  Non-Con  Hooker!Sam  Prostitution/Hustling  Torture  Abducted  Abducted!Sam  Homeless!Sam  Store  Dog/Puppy  Criminal/Mafia  Local!LEOS/FBI  Wealthy/Not!Wealthy  PTSD  35000+  Long  archiveofourown  SPN!AU  Depraved!Humans  Homeless  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Chuck!Shurley  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Lucifer  Character-Becky  Character-Kevin!Tran 
february 2015 by chellexxx
Aftermath 'verse
It took Sam four months to get Dean out of Hell. Four months in
which the world was black and white – on mute. Four months, six days,
and seventeen hours and Sam felt like he might sleep for a year, after.
Dean slept for three days. .. 11,371
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Gen  post!Season!3  Hell  Sam/Dean  First!Time  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Angst  10000+  archiveofourown  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
december 2014 by chellexxx
The Other Shoe
In which Sam states little but implies a lot, and Dean fills in
the blanks. Early season seven, rated for non-explicit references to
rape. ... 1,109
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!7  Angst  Non-Con  Memories/Flashback  PTSD  Hell  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  fanfiction.net  Short  1000+  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
december 2014 by chellexxx
next year's words await another voice
Jared's life is shattered when his wife is brutally murdered in
front of him at a romantic dinner – the horror of her senseless death,
and survivor's guilt, send him over the edge. He squats in a basement,
wanders the streets having visions. Jensen is a B List celebrity who
becomes the unwitting cause of this tragedy. Jensen's own guilt pushes
him into heavy drinking and hiding in his friend Steve's record shop.
Months later the two damaged men's paths cross, and their interaction
offers them both the possibility of redemption. ... 13,000...
http://archiveofourown.org/works/787959
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Angst  Homeless!Jared  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Jared  Famous/notFamous  Famous!Jensen  guilty!Jensen  drunk!Jensen  Emotionally!hurt!Jensen  Vet/Animal!Shelter  PTSD  Dog/Puppy  Hospitalized!Boys  hurt!Jared  Musician  Musician!Jensen  Store  livejournal  10000+  Short  Depraved!Humans  Homeless  Based!on!a!Movie/Book/TV!Show  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Movie-The!Fisher!King  archiveofourown  Person-Christian!Kane  Person-Danneel!Harris/Ackles  Person-Steve!Carlson 
december 2014 by chellexxx
Apples, Peaches, Pumpkin Pie
Cas has no intention of letting Sam rot in the Cage, but even
before the surviving members of Team Free Will leave Stull Cemetery, Cas
receives a plea from the future that sends him on a very different path
from the one he'd planned to follow. Can Cas keep his promise and still
help Dean keep his pledge to pursue the apple-pie life with Lisa and
Ben? ....
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Het  post!Season!5  Time!Travel  Domestic!fic  AU!Season!6  AU!Season!7  AU!Season!8  AU!Season!9  Angst  PTSD  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Spell/Curse  Deal  Vision  Panic!Room  Powers!Sam  Dean/Lisa  pdf/mobi  livejournal  Long  Big!Bang  Length!Unknown  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Time!Travelling!Sam  Time!Travelling!OC  Character-Death  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Henry!Winchester  Character-Lisa!Braeden  Character-Abaddon  Character-Ben!Braeden 
november 2014 by chellexxx
Any Day But Today
"You know what I miss? I miss those ten years of playing Mystery Spot," Lucifer says wistfully. .... 6,700
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!7  PTSD  Angst  sick!Sam  Memories/Flashback  Mystery!Spot  5000+  Short  livejournal  Motel/Hotel  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Lucifer 
september 2014 by chellexxx
Dry Salvages
The First Blade is at the bottom of the deepest ocean; Sam and
Dean go get it. With the help of a little cross-pollinated magic, Dean
undergoes an unusual transformation, for in the deep there's more than a
handful of origin stories that interweave and undercut the Blade's. As
Sam struggles to reclaim himself in the wake of Gadreel's departure, he
discovers that in the primordial sea, Heaven and Hell are not so far
removed. And both might be clamoring his name. ... However, with Dean
faltering under the grim accretions of the last few years and the
demands of his transformation, and Sam caught up in the impossibility of
his own traumas (not to mention the return of an old temptation), it
might not be Heaven and Hell that set the pace. From Kansas to Victoria
British Columbia, they have 1600 miles to get their shit together or
drown. ... AKA the one where Dean is a whale, and Sam takes back Sam.
Divergent timeline from 9x13 "The Purge." ... 40,00

http://archiveofourown.org/works/2124801/chapters/4637295
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!9  AU!Season!9  914  Spell/Curse  Demon  PTSD  Angst  Big!Bang  livejournal  archiveofourown  35000+  Long  Cursed!Dean  SPN  Character-Castiel  Character-Crowley  Character-Gadreel 
september 2014 by chellexxx
Second Star to the Right and Straight on Till Morning
Jared's life has always been mapped out for him: get good
grades so he can get into a high-ranked college, get more good grades so
he can get into an internship at a prestigious architecture firm, then
land an even better job. When his uncle needs help remodeling his house,
Jared volunteers. Soon after arriving at the tiny barrier island,
however, he finds himself drawn into the laid back life of the locals,
and one local in particular..... Jensen does alright for himself. A
part-time gig at the local bar down on the main drag, along with the
occasional repair work when his buddies wreck their surfboards keeps him
from starving. He has a great group of friends, who know not to mention
it when he talks in circles or his hands shake a little. He also has
Jared now, and he's not too sure how things are going to look when it's
time hand him back to the real world...... 25,587

http://archiveofourown.org/works/2094549
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  livejournal  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  archiveofourown  Big!Bang  PTSD  Memories/Flashback  25000+  Long  Student!Jared  Person-Christian!Kane  Person-Steve!Carlson 
september 2014 by chellexxx
The Angel and The Devil, Heavy On Your Shoulders
This AU jumps the tracks a little after the beginning of season
four. The Apocalypse is coming and hopes of saving the world are dim.
Dean’s been sprung from Hell, but isn’t quite off the rack. Sam’s
determined to help his brother deal with the side-effects of forty years
in the Pit, until he’s hit with a nameless illness. Dean struggles to
do the best for Sam, while navigating nightmarish visions, angry angels,
and his own conscience. In trying to save each other, the boys lose
their way in a world where enemies and allies, good and evil, and love
and hate bleed together into a gray fog. In the end, Sam and Dean
discover that it isn’t about right and wrong, it’s about what you can or
can’t live with. ... 35,000
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Big!Bang  livejournal  35000+  Angst  Long  Season!4  AU!Season!4  Bottom!Sam  PTSD  Angel  sick!Sam  First!Time  Vision  guilty!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Powers!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2014 by chellexxx
The Truth Lies Beneath
Dean Winchester is one of the most notorious criminals that
ever graced the FBI’s most wanted list. Now he’s back from the dead
(again) and in custody, facing trial for his pretty exceptional list of
crimes. It’s up to the experts of the prestigious Lightman Group to
unravel the mystery and find out whether Dean is criminally insane or a
stone-cold psychopath. Or something else entirely… 15,240

http://archiveofourown.org/works/439132?view_full_work=true
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  post!Season!5  Outsider!POV  Crossover  Caught  Prison/Jail  PTSD  Dean!centric  15000+  Long  archiveofourown  livejournal  Local!LEOS/FBI  SPN  TV!Show-Lie!to!Me  Character-Castiel  Character-Meg 
september 2014 by chellexxx
And a Hard Place
As soon as they were inside their room, Dean made a line for
the closet and slammed the door, and Sam wasn't even surprised, this has
been happening for years. He can't account for the why, but he gets
that Dean needs it, so he doesn't say all the things he wants to. ....
3,150
SPN!Non-AU  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Trapped  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  guilty!Sam  Angst  pining!Sam  Motel/Hotel  Sad  Short  1000+  livejournal  Pre-Slash  Slash  Memories/Flashback  Season!Undefined  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
august 2014 by chellexxx
In The Dark, In The Pain, On The Run
After Sam's wall breaks, Dean decides they need some time out
of the life. They rent a rundown house in a small town, and during the
renovations, everything changes between them. Sam/Dean curtain!fic,
veers off canon mid S6. ..... 18,666
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Season!7  AU!Season!7  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Bed!Sharing  Curtain!fic  Domestic!fic  Bar  PTSD  Pretend/Mistaken/Couple  archiveofourown  Schmoop  15000+  Long  Self!Harm  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
august 2014 by chellexxx
Gone but not Forgotten
Jared and Jensen were childhood sweethearts, but then Jared and
his family disappeared. Jensen was forced to move on and became a FBI
agent, but always wondered about Jared. His questions are in part
answered, when a mansion belonging to the Mafia gets raided. Jared is
one of the slaves they rescue, and Jensen immediately wants to help him.
Jared is now a very different man from the boy Jensen remembers and
trust is one of the furthest things on Jared’s mind, but with patience,
Jensen reminds Jared what it feels like to be loved and protected, and
slowly Jared’s story begins to unravel....... 97,476

http://archiveofourown.org/works/1979133/chapters/4284156
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Previous!Relationship  Big!Bang  Angst  Memories/Flashback  hurt!Jared  Non-Con  Agent/Police!Jensen  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Jared  PTSD  kick!ass!Jensen  Torture  Beaten  75000+  Epic  livejournal  archiveofourown  Bottom!Jared  Slave!fic  Agent/Police  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Person-Christian!Kane  Person-Danneel!Harris/Ackles  Person-Misha!Collins  Person-Steve!Carlson  Person-Jim!Beaver  Person-Mark!Pellegrino  Person-Sebastian!Roché  Person-Mark!Sheppard  Person-Jeffrey!Dean!Morgan 
august 2014 by chellexxx
Not all Cats are Grey in the Dark
Jared was a cop moving up in the department, happily married
until a hostage situation went horribly wrong, and Jared had to deal
with the tragic loss of his husband. Jared left the LAPD for a fresh
start with the sheriff's department in small-town Middlebrook. Though
still troubled by nightmares about the day his husband died, Jared's
moving on, meeting new people. Jensen plays guitar and sings in a local
band on weekends, and Jared really wants to get to know him better. But
for all Jared's charm, Jensen just isn't interested in sex. As they get
better acquainted, Jared realizes his path to happiness includes letting
go of the past, and a different way of loving. ..... 35,581

http://archiveofourown.org/works/2050674/chapters/4454202
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  Angst  Big!Bang  livejournal  pdf/mobi  pining!Jared  Agent/Police!Jared  Local!LEOS/FBI  Case!fic  Dream/Nightmare  Memories/Flashback  PTSD  Romance  35000+  Long  Agent/Police  Person-Christian!Kane  Person-Steve!Carlson  Person-Jeffrey!Dean!Morgan  archiveofourown  Person-Samantha!Ferris  Person-Jason!Manns  Musician!Jensen  Musician  Person-Aldis!Hodge  Person-Beth!Riesgraf  Homicide 
august 2014 by chellexxx
It Was a Dark and Stormy Night
He sighed. The eyes, the dimples, the stubborn crankiness… they
had a mini, female Sam in their hands. This was going to be hard. Sam's
soulless days come to catch up with him and the Winchesters find
themselves in a situation: Sam has a toddler daughter. There are
difficult times and sad times, and then there are times with cuddles,
bathtub babbles and wild ponytails on Sam's hair. He realises this might
be the best and worst thing in his life all at once. ... 44,000
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!7  Season!8  818  Kid!fic  Parent/Guardian!Sam  Big!Bang  pdf/mobi  livejournal  PTSD  sick!Sam  35000+  Long  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel  Character-Lucifer  Character-Jody!Mills 
july 2014 by chellexxx
Touch and Go
Tag to 9.19 (Alex Annie Alexis Ann) in which Dean realises what
Sam is so angry about. Author's notes: This is basically a fix-it fic
for Season 9's glaring failure to fully address why Sam was so disturbed
by what happened with Gadreel (when ANY FULE CAN SEE it is the latest
in a long line of similar traumatic experiences). Also, it allows me to
work through my feelings about Sam's burnt-off tattoo. 3,188

http://archiveofourown.org/works/1842337
Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Season!9  919  Angst  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  guilty!Dean  PTSD  Tattoo  Secret  livejournal  archiveofourown  1000+  Short  Bloodloss  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Fix-It-Fic 
june 2014 by chellexxx
Teaching Him to Trust
Jensen's a rock & roll star looking for a break after some
setbacks & an encounter with a crazed fan sends him back home to San
Francisco after 10 years away. Jared's a young man hiding inside
himself after escaping a childhood of horror. Protecting Jared from a
street gang that's stalking the church shelter that helped turn Jensen's
life around years earlier he forms a bond of protection for the silent,
scarred young man that slowly turns to more when Jared's nightmare
returns in the form of the man who kidnapped him as a child & is
looking to return Jared back to that life of pain and shame. It's up to
Jensen to teach Jared to trust someone in order to help him protect him
but when a piece of Jensen's past surfaces it becomes a test to see who
must learn to trust because soon the violence & threats escalate and
he must fight more than the legal system or one man's obsession to save
Jared ..... 270,168
RPS  RPS!AU  Slash  Jared/Jensen  First!Time  hurt!Jared  Abused!Jared  Non-Con  Torture  Memories/Flashback  Angst  Musician  Musician!Jensen  Bottom!Jared  sick!Jared  Romance  Famous/notFamous  Famous!Jensen  Abducted  Abducted!Jared  200000+  Epic  archiveofourown  Shy!Jared  Homeless!Jared  hurt!Jensen  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Jared  Emotionally!hurt!Jensen  Possessive!Jensen  Abducted!Jensen  Abused!Jensen  Hospitalized!Boys  RPS!Family  PTSD  Depraved!Humans  Homeless  Abused  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Person-Christian!Kane  Kitten/Cat 
may 2014 by chellexxx
Trialculosis Sam
The long, dragged-out, emotional, let's-nearly-kill-'im version
of Sam dealing with the trials. Setting Season 8. Post S8E20, right
after Dean says, "Want me to do the whole, uh, airplane thing with the
spoon?" 81,043
Hospital  Gen  Season!8  820  sick!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Bat!Cave  Schmoop  Hug  Paralysis  hurt!Sam  Dream/Nightmare  PTSD  Angst  Torture  Mute!Sam  75000+  Epic  archiveofourown  WIP  Hospitalized!Boys  Mute  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
may 2014 by chellexxx
One Step To The Edge (One Step Back)
After a hunt changes their lives, the boys are left to deal
with the fall out. Except this time they have to cope with the changes,
the strains it causes in their relationship, and re-learn everything
that defines them as hunters while they're on the run from the King of
Hell. Hurt!Dean. Hurt!Sam. Return of a beloved object. Post-purgatory S8
AU. 12,751
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  post!Season!8  Season!8  Big!Bang  hurt!Sam  hurt!Dean  10000+  archiveofourown  Short  PTSD  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Permanent!Injury  Permanent!Injury!Dean  Arm!broken/injured  Demon  Angst 
may 2014 by chellexxx
Angel on My Shoulder
Sam’s in a bad place. He can barely keep track of what’s real
and what isn’t and it really doesn’t help that his head is becoming a
refuge for dead angels. ... 19,731
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  Bonding  PTSD  hurt!Sam  Angst  Schmoop  Big!Bang  archiveofourown  15000+  Long  Season!7  AU!Season!7  717  Hospitalized!Boys  sick!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Prank!War  SPN  Gabriel!Lives  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Lucifer  Character-Benny!Lafitte  Character-Kali  Purgatory 
april 2014 by chellexxx
In The Dark
When Sam is abducted from the lone bar of a one-horse town,
Dean is desperate to find him. Three weeks later Sam is found, and Dean
begins to understand that finding his brother might not have been as
hard as putting him back together is going to be; Sam has been kept
alone and completely isolated from his senses, and there's no easy fix
for that. 13,000
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  hurt!Sam  Abducted  Abducted!Sam  Bed!Sharing  Schmoop  Hospital  livejournal  Hug  Sam/Dean  Slash  10000+  Long  Hospitalized!Boys  PTSD  Separated!Boys  Depraved!Humans  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
april 2014 by chellexxx
The Other Was a Star-Shaped Hole
AU following the end of the fifth season. Dean finds a way to
pull Sam out of Hell, and now all they want is for things to be over.
For them to be safe. But both brothers have secrets they aren't sharing,
and it takes several attacks from never-before-seen creatures—
including strangely Hollywood-like zombies— to make them admit things
aren't quite as perfect as they've been pretending. Sam reveals he still
has a piece of Hell trapped inside his mind, and it's clear Hell is set
on getting it back. He and Dean resolve to make a stand, but even that
isn't as simple as it seems. The struggle not only takes an immense toll
on Sam's mind and body, it also starts changing his relationship with
Dean. There's a price to be paid for every victory, and the Winchesters
find themselves paying their worst one yet. ... 28,35 ...
http://spoons1899.livejournal.com/137029.html
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  First!Time  post!Season!5  Angst  archiveofourown  25000+  Long  Big!Bang  hurt!Sam  Self!Harm  PTSD  Bottom!Sam  livejournal  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer 
april 2014 by chellexxx
An Old Acquaintance Among the Pines
After six people have gone missing and two have turned up dead,
the boys take on the case in the small town of Pineville. With Dean
injured and Sam's mental state hanging in the balance, they're operating
at half capacity, but whatever is creeping up from underneath the
floorboards and stealing people away isn't going to go down easily...
22563
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Case!fic  hurt!Dean  archiveofourown  20000+  Long  PTSD  post!Season!7  Angst  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Lucifer 
april 2014 by chellexxx
Getting A Life
Sam takes one too many hits to the head… compared to what
they've been through, what costs they've already paid, this is chump
change. They will have to give up hunting, give up the life. It is every
bit as simple and staggering as that. Spoilers up to 7X02
5,065
PTSD  fanfiction.net  Short  5000+  Domestic!fic  Curtain!fic  Brain/Head!injury  hurt!Sam  702  Season!7  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer 
march 2014 by chellexxx
Kintsugi
Dean needs a new protective sigil tattoo, and he visits the
tattoo artist other hunters recommend--the only person in the area who's
precise enough for the work. Getting two words in a row out of the guy
is hard labor, but undeniably worth it in the end.
4,600
Tattoo  1000+  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Angst  Self!Harm  PTSD  Insecurity  Abused!Sam  hurt!Sam  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
march 2014 by chellexxx
I'm Here For You
Dean's POV when he tries to convince Sam that he's real and Lucifer isn't.
No slash, just what Dean sees and thinks.
1,796
Gen  Short  fanfiction.net  1000+  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  PTSD  702  Season!7  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
march 2014 by chellexxx
A Star That Lights The Road
Dean thinks he finally knows the angel's plans for him. To be
their foot soldier in a war that can't possibly be won. And when he
can't do it? Well, there's every chance he'll be thrown back downstairs.
Sam already lost his brother once, and he won't let it happen again.
CURTAIN FIC!
11,000

http://archiveofourown.org/works/1180276
Domestic!fic  Angst  top!Sam  archiveofourown  livejournal  Short  10000+  First!Time  Memories/Flashback  Hell  Curtain!fic  hurt!Dean  PTSD  Season!4  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
march 2014 by chellexxx
Nothing to Kill or Die For
Sam is back from Hell and is one giant mess of sensory issues
and hallucinations. The common cold is just not something he can easily
deal with. Dean tries his best to help, because it’s Sam.
Rating: PG (couple of swear words, post-Hell-trauma Sam, gratuitous
hurt/comfort)
6,605
5000+  Short  livejournal  sick!Sam  Hell  PTSD  hurt!Sam  post!Season!5  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
march 2014 by chellexxx
Closed Curtains
Curtain!fic. When Sam, Cas and Dean settle in New Haven Sam
thinks he has the best of all worlds. His damaged mind on the mend, the
love and support of his brother and angel. But then, inevitably, it all
starts to fall apart. ... 7,720 ..... Closed Curtains

http://archiveofourown.org/works/527281
livejournal  Domestic!fic  Living!Together  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  PTSD  post!Season!7  guilty!Dean  OFC  Jealous!Sam  Insecurity  Angst  Short  5000+  post!Series  Curtain!fic  Dean/Castiel  Sam/Dean/Castiel  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  archiveofourown  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel 
march 2014 by chellexxx
A Bit Tired
An outsider sees a moment between the Winchesters. Gen, oneshot. Outsider POV, post Season 6.
1,675
fanfiction.net  Short  1000+  hurt!Sam  PTSD  Store  OFC  Outsider!POV  post!Season!6  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
february 2014 by chellexxx
The Inside Man
Post-9.02. Sam and Kevin have both been suffering from memory
loss since the Trials ended, and Dean is acting strangely. Sam suspects
a supernatural cause, but Kevin's not so sure either one of them has a
firm grasp on reality.
Or: another way the Ezekiel arc could have played out.
Length!Unknown  Amnesia!OC  Amnesia!Sam  Amnesia  PTSD  Gen  livejournal  902  Season!9  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Character-Castiel  Character-Ezekiel  Character-Kevin!Tran 
february 2014 by chellexxx
Broken Angel
Senator Fred Lehne has been brutally attacking, raping, and
murdering young men for over a decade, but always evades arrest thanks
to his money and power. He has everyone fooled, except one team of
detectives headed by Captain Jeffrey Dean Morgan and his protege Jensen
Ackles. When things become worse, Morgan goes to FBI agents Misha
Collins and Jim Beaver for help. They offer it in the form of Jared
Padalecki, hotshot profiler who also happens to be Jensen's boyfriend.
But there is more Jared...he also happens to be the only surviving
victim of Lehne's...
69,000

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PTSD  Bottom!Jared  Jealous!Jensen  Agent/Police!Jared  Torture  Non-Con  Abused!Jared  pdf/mobi  Angst  Established!Relationship  Agent/Police!Jensen  Abducted!Jared  Abducted  hurt!Jared  livejournal  Long  50000+  Jared/Jensen  Slash  RPS!AU  RPS  Abused  Agent/Police  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Person-Misha!Collins  Person-Jeffrey!Dean!Morgan  archiveofourown 
january 2014 by chellexxx
Redshift
They're still reeling from Dean's stint in Purgatory, the
Trials are tearing them apart, the world hangs in the balance
(again)--and Dean wants to get a pool table and have a sex marathon. Of
course he does. 27,500
PTSD  813  821  Season!8  Schmoop  sick!Sam  25000+  Long  livejournal  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Bottom!Sam  top!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Bat!Cave  Kink-Knife!Play  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Kink-Blood!Play 
january 2014 by chellexxx
Worth the Price?
Dean's always hustled for their living. And he was getting
pretty good at it. But not everyone is a good loser and Dean's
discovered being good at one thing meant being tragically wrong about
the other. And when the healing begins, will the boys find their way
back to each other? 165,409
PTSD  Torture  Bottom!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!Dean  Porn  pdf/mobi  Non-Con  Epic  150000+  samdean.archive  Abducted!Sam  Abused!Dean  Abducted  Abducted!Dean  Abused!Sam  hurt!Sam  Angst  Season!1  First!Time  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Depraved!Humans  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Deleted!Fic!or!Author  Character-John!Winchester 
january 2014 by chellexxx
Episode 901: Earth Angel
Sam Winchester has made his choice in the little abandoned
church at the end of that lake-side lane. Not for the first time, Dean
can't stop him from throwing his life away. But things don't always go
as planned, especially not for the Winchesters, and now they have more
than one mess to clean up. ... 211,609
Memories/Flashback  Angst  hurt!Sam  sick!Sam  Angel  Bat!Cave  post!Season!8  Epic  archiveofourown  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Powerless!Castiel  200000+  Humour  Deal  Time!Travel  Season!2  AU!Season!2  PTSD  Case!fic  Possessed!Sam  Ghost  Sam/Ruby  Foster!Care  Separated!Boys  Shrink  Alternate!Universe  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  All!Hell!Breaks!Loose  AU!Not!Raised!By!John  AU!Raised!Apart  AU!Not!Raised!as!Hunters  Time!Travelling!Dean  Character-Death  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Crowley  Character-Ruby  Character-Kevin!Tran  Character-Abaddon 
january 2014 by chellexxx
Almost
During Sam's first year at Stanford Dean arrives to leave Sam
his car and then checks himself into a mental institution. He won't
speak. When something bad happens there Dean finally starts talking to
Sam and leaves with him. Sam has to figure out what happened to Dean so
he can help him get better, especially if he wants to carry on the
relationship Dean seems to want to rekindle with him. Their father may
cause some problems when he gets involved. 49,000
Mute!Dean  Long  50000+  Time!Travel  hurt!Dean  sick!Dean  First!Time  Sam/Dean  Stanford  Pre-Series  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Hospitalized!Boys  Hospital  Non-Con  PTSD  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  AU!Pre-Series  AU!Stanford  Mute  top!Sam  Bottom!Sam  pdf/mobi  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Time!Travelling!Dean  Character-John!Winchester 
january 2014 by chellexxx
Benediction
So S7 left off with Sam stranded, alone and panicking, and then
we fast-forwarded to everything being fine in S8. I'd like the story of
what happened starting from that moment. How did Sam come to hit that
dog? Did he have a dissociative fugue? Did something else happen? Sam
wouldn't decide not to search for Dean unless he had a damned good
reason (even if it's a complex psychological problem that only makes
sense to him), and I want to know what it is.
Short  1000+  livejournal  post!Season!7  Angst  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  hurt!Sam  PTSD  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Separated!Boys  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
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