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Out Where the Shivers Won't Find You
After Castiel rescues Sam from Hell, he sets him up in a cabin in the middle of nowhere to recuperate, and to give his soul time to heal from the damage it suffered in the cage. When Sam experiences violent, frightening flashbacks to his time with Lucifer, Cas offers a solution, but neither one of them anticipates the way their tentative friendship will change. AU after 5x22.

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SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Castiel  First!Time  Character-Castiel  post!Season!5  PTSD  Angst  archiveofourown  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Bed!Sharing  Dream/Nightmare  livejournal  15000+  Long  Bonding  top!Sam  Slow!Burn  Dean/Lisa  Cabin!fic  A!Break!From!Hunting  Separated!Boys 
april 2019 by chellexxx
Shades of Sharp
Dean hunts the Supernatural, Sam survives on the street…then their worlds collide. An AU fic where Sam and Dean aren't brothers. Warnings: Eventual Sam/Dean, Prostitution, Rape, Angst, Explicit Content,
53,495
SPN  SPN!AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  First!Time  AU!Not!Brothers  Hunter!Dean  50000+  Long  fanfiction.net  Non-Con  Hurt/Sick!Boys  hurt!Sam  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Prostitution/Hustling  Hooker!Sam  Homeless  Homeless!Sam 
april 2018 by chellexxx
These are the Places I've Been
Waking up on a motel floor with a gun to your head is not particularly comforting, let me tell you. Especially when that gun belongs to your dead father, and you somehow made your way to 1993 overnight. OR In which Sam wakes up in 1993 and decides that Time Travel sucks. Set in early season 8 (after Southern Comfort), back when the brothers were still fighting.
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SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Gen  Season!8  806  Time!Travel  Time!Travelling!Sam  Character-John!Winchester  20000+  Long  fanfiction.net  Angst  Character-Castiel  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Confession  Amnesia  Weechesters  Pre-Series  AU!Pre-Series 
may 2017 by chellexxx
These Dreams
Sam's night terrors aren't going away and Dean needs to do something!
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Dream/Nightmare  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  livejournal  Length!Unknown 
may 2017 by chellexxx
Detached
Following the events of Road Trip, Sam and Cas head to the bunker. Sam doesn't feel quite like himself after being used as a vessel and has some trouble to be at peace again with the idea that Cas is still wearing Jimmy Novak's body.
8,327
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Castiel  Season!9  910  5000+  Short  archiveofourown  Self!Harm  Vessel  Angst  Bat!Cave  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  First!Time 
may 2017 by chellexxx
Going It Alone
After three months of searching for a demon to deal with, Sam finds one that says yes. Dean is saved. This is the story of Dean fighting to define a life without his brother.
98,068

Sequel
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10091487/1/Picking-Up-The-Pieces
Ten months ago, Sam was dragged into Hell in order to save his brother. Now Sam is back and he and Dean have to find a way to struggle on with their shared burdens, fighting in a world that is careening towards its end.
97,879
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!3  AU!Season!3  Dean!centric  Separated!Boys  Alone/Separated  Epic  fanfiction.net  Deal  Hell  150000+  hurt!Sam  hurt!Dean  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  PTSD 
april 2017 by chellexxx
Bring Me Back To You
The Wall of Sam fell, and Sam survived. But his grasp of reality doesn’t take much to shatter. A/U in the sense that the Wall fell on its own and Cas wasn’t working with Crowley.
3,600
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!6  Angst  Character-Castiel  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Memories/Flashback  Hell  Dream/Nightmare  Hurt/Sick!Boys  hurt!Sam  1000+  Short  livejournal 
april 2017 by chellexxx
The Long Way Home
Dean makes a decision to force his Dad to become the father his brother needs, but when he finds out how badly his plan backfires, it's going to take everything he has with the help of his friends to bring Sammy home. !Crazy John!
149,930

Sequel

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4171237/1/The-Long-Way-Back
SPN  SPN!AU  Gen  Pre-Series  Epic  100000+  fanfiction.net  Armed!Forces!Dean  Character-John!Winchester  asshole!John  Character-Pastor!Jim  Character-Joshua  Character-Caleb  hurt!Sam  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer  Separated!Boys  AU!Pre-Series  Teenchesters  kick!ass!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Car!Accident  Hospitalized!Boys  kick!ass!Dean  OMC  Shrink  Medical!Professional  sick!Sam 
april 2017 by chellexxx
Long Time Coming
Sam Winchester has dreaded and longed for this moment for six years. Dean just found the necklace in his pocket. (warning for season 11 spoilers) .... 1,428
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!11  1120  Missing!Scene  Amulet  Angst  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Short  fanfiction.net  1000+ 
april 2017 by chellexxx
One Hell of a Pretense
Sam was not as alright with Lucifer being in the bunker and in his space as he appeared to be. Angst, comfort, and a touch of fluffiness because I NEEDED THIS FIXED. .... 2,378
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!11  1122  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Missing!Scene  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Character-Impala  Bat!Cave  fanfiction.net  1000+  Short 
april 2017 by chellexxx
Counting in Dreams
The last few days almost seem like a bad dream, a nightmare he's finally awoken from.

If still more believable than his mother smiling up at him, saying his name.

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SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!12  1202  Angst  archiveofourown  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  1000+  Short 
april 2017 by chellexxx
12.02 Coda
Because really, why would Sam believe any of this is true?
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!12  1202  Angst  livejournal  Short  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Missing!Scene 
april 2017 by chellexxx
You Took My Body and Played to Win
Tag to The Foundry (12x03). Sam’s used to it by now. Really. It’s not the first time this has happened to him, or the tenth. Hell, it’s not even the hundredth, as shitty as it is to admit. And honestly, this one wasn’t as bad as the others. Not even close. Not by a mile. Sam’s used to it by now. He is. He…should be used to it by now.
5.564
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Established!Relationship  Angst  Season!12  1203  Memories/Flashback  Non-Con  Hurt/Sick!Boys  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Missing!Scene  5000+  archiveofourown  Short 
april 2017 by chellexxx
But it solves every problem!
Starts from the end of Meta fiction (season 9). After Metatron makes Cass see Gabriel again, Sam gets the idea of bringing the Archangel back. Because what better way to fight a knight of hell and a scribe of God than the one guy who was there from the beginning (who hasn't tried to end the world...yet).
53,144
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Character-Castiel  First!Time  Time!Travel  Character-Lucifer  Fix-It-Fic  archiveofourown  Angst  Long  Sam/Gabriel  Dean/Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Metatron  Character-Adam!Milligan  Character-Gadreel  Character-Michael  PTSD  Hurt/Sick!Boys  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Non-Con  Abused  50000+  Season!9  918  Gabriel!Lives  Bat!Cave  Character-Cain  Character-Abaddon 
april 2017 by chellexxx
Blast Into The Past
The Cage was never meant to hold a human. It was meant for one archangel, not two, and definitely not a human soul. Little by little Sam's soul was being destroyed by the torture the Cage inflicted on it. Lucifer and Michael joined together and, with their combined grace, pieced together Sam Winchester's soul and sent him out of the Cage and into the past in the hopes that he can stop this whole thing before it even starts.

Only, when Sam lands, things don't quite go so well. He's not all that sure that this isn't another torture the Cage has provided for him. He's in the past, right after Dean got out of Hell, and he's nowhere near the same man he was before. He can barely remember how to function as a human. It's going to take his family and a little help from a surprised archangel for Sam to start to recover. He doesn't have much time, though, because the apocalypse is still coming and the angels are fighting to get Lucifer free. Can one broken man manage to change the past? Or are they doomed to repeat their same mistakes over and over again?

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SPN!Non-AU  Slow!Burn  AU!Season!4  Season!4  Angst  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  Time!Travel  Time!Travelling!Sam  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Lucifer  Character-Michael  Character-Uriel  Angel  Bonding  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Season!6  AU!Season!6  archiveofourown  Long  50000+  Dream/Nightmare  Hell  Memories/Flashback 
march 2017 by chellexxx
Learning to Live Again
Set after the boys went their separate ways. Sam called Dean to tell him that he was Lucifer’s vessel, only to have his brother tell him how much better they were apart. Hurt, and afraid, Sam did the only thing that he thought might work to keep Lucifer from claiming his vessel. Unfortunately, he woke up anyways. Only, when he woke, it was to find the Trickster of all people sitting on the bed across from him.

He hadn’t expected to see him of all people there, and he certainly hadn’t expected to find him in his car the next morning, announcing that he was going to be traveling with him. Together, they set out, one to try and stop this whole thing, and the other for reasons that he keeps to himself.

Loki’s open about his opinion that Sam is going to eventually say ‘yes’. To him, it’s not even a question To Sam, it’s the one thing he’s determined to keep from happening. 132,781
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Season!5  AU!Season!5  504  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Ellen!Harvelle  Character-Jo!Harvelle  Character-Jesse!Turner  Epic  archiveofourown  100000+  asshole!Dean  Separated!Boys  Angst  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Bottom!Sam  503  505  511  Character-Anna!Milton  Character-Zachariah  Angel  Bonding  Blood!Magic  Dean/Castiel  Possessive!OC  Powers!Sam  Depression  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam 
march 2017 by chellexxx
Counting Coup
A stay at a hospital, after a dangerous hunt, provides Sam with a lot of embarrassment. The staff, though kind, is shocked by his scars, often making comments that hurt and are humiliating. Already self- conscious over them, he falls into a period of self- examination and becomes withdrawn. Determined to hide the visible marks of his life 5,220
Gen  SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Season!12  hurt!Sam  Hospitalized!Boys  Angst  fanfiction.net  Short  5000+  Outsider!POV  Medical!Professional!Jensen  Abused  Memories/Flashback  Hunt  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Bat!Cave 
march 2017 by chellexxx
Safe In the Arms of Love
Total AU Dean Winchester was just your average joe working as a
mechanic in his hometown of Lawarance,KS when he met Sam Logan and
everything changed. No slash or wincest! Warning: mentions of past abuse
of a minor. .... 70,358
SPN  SPN!AU  Gen  Teenchesters  Mechanic  Mechanic!Dean  hurt!Sam  Beaten  Abused  Abused!Sam  Hospitalized!Boys  Non-Con  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Shrink  Bed!Sharing  Teacher  Parent/Guardian!Dean  Lawyer  Agent/Police  Local!LEOS/FBI  50000+  fanfiction.net  Long  Domestic!fic  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  AU!Not!Brothers  AU!Not!Raised!as!Hunters 
march 2016 by chellexxx
While You Were Gone
Dean was gone and this time Sam had no idea where he was. Sam
could only assume that he was dead. He tried looking for his brother,
God had he tried. He has barely slept for those four long months
catching, questioning and, occasionally torturing any and every creature
he could. He went after demons, Levis, and even an angel and a cupid.
But nobody knew where his brother was at and if they did, they didn’t
say. He had been talking to hunters even though he knew some of them
still hated his guts but for his brother he’d do anything. Or so he
thought. ... 36,200 .. http://waya98.livejournal.com
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!8  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  PTSD  Hospitalized!Boys  Angst  Non-Con  Torture  Beaten  Abducted  Abducted!Sam  Motel/Hotel  806  guilty!Dean  Hunter  post!Season!7  Depraved!Humans  Asylum  pdf/mobi  Self!Harm  Bed!Sharing  75000+  livejournal  Epic  archiveofourown  kick!ass!Dean  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  A!Break!From!Hunting  Character-Castiel  Character-Crowley 
february 2016 by chellexxx
Respite
“Sam?” Dean reaches out toward him without thinking. Sam reacts
to his touch like it burns, eyes wide and unfocused as his hands lash
out; under his breath, barely audible, Dean hears Sam whispering no; no,
please. Something cold twists in his gut as he retreats, pressing
himself against the other side of the stairwell and raising his hands in
surrender. “Sam, it's me,” he says. “It's Dean.” But Sam doesn't hear
him. He's muttering and still holding his hands up, and Dean sees a
trickle of blood slide down from his hairline before following the
contours of his face into the dip under his eye and then down his nose.
Sam knocks himself off the step and fumbles down two more before Dean
finally hears him breathe. .... 3,139
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!11  1114  hurt!Sam  PTSD  Angst  Memories/Flashback  Hell  Brain/Head!injury  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Self!Harm  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  Domestic!fic  Bat!Cave  Bed!Sharing  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
february 2016 by chellexxx
I See You
Sam spent centuries locked in a cage with Lucifer. He figures out pretty quickly that Castiel is no longer home. Angst!.. 844
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!11  1111  1110  Angst  Bat!Cave  Secret  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Memories/Flashback  PTSD  hurt!Sam  under!1000  Short  fanfiction.net  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Lucifer 
january 2016 by chellexxx
Raising Hell
Dean takes care of his hurting little brother in the aftermath
of the cage fight with Lucifer. Hurt!Sam, Protective!Dean. .. 2,618
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!11  1110  Missing!Scene  Bat!Cave  hurt!Sam  hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Angst  Bed!Sharing  Memories/Flashback  Hell  PTSD  1000+  Short  fanfiction.net  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
january 2016 by chellexxx
the making, breaking, and remaking of sam winchester
AU. Sam Winchester and Cas - two detectives who haven't spoken
in a year, and are both now assigned to the same case. As partners. It's
not a question of if there is going to be a huge blowout, but a
question of when. Especially because Sam doesn't think he can ever let
go of past transgressions against him, and Cas isn't helping any by
pushing the subject. ....... 30,369
SPN!AU  Slash  Sam/Castiel  First!Time  Agent/Police!Jared  Local!LEOS/FBI  Angst  hurt!Sam  GSW  Homicide  Work!Together  drugged!Sam  Under!the!Influence  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Memories/Flashback  Mechanic!Dean  Depraved!Humans  Long  Hospitalized!Boys  kick!ass!Sam  25000+  archiveofourown  Big!Bang  Agent/Police  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  AU!Not!Raised!as!Hunters  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Crowley  Character-Jo!Harvelle 
december 2015 by chellexxx
Revelations
Sam opens one eye and clenches it shut again at the light, but
it's enough to see dark brown hair and ice blue eyes. Sam swallows.
"Loud," he rasps. "Bright." ..... "I don't..." Cas pauses for a moment.
"I'm loud?" he asks. .... Sam nods. .... "I am speaking at a very
reasonable volume." Cas sighs, but then lowers his voice to a whisper.
"I can heal you, if you'll allow me to come closer." .... 2,800
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Sam&Castiel  Powers!Sam  Vision  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Season!11  1106  Short  archiveofourown  1000+  Bat!Cave  Domestic!fic  Angst  Hell  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel  Character-Lucifer 
november 2015 by chellexxx
All or Nothing
Dean/Sam, OMC/Sam, bottom!Sam, jealous!Dean. When Dean and Sam
started getting involved with each other, they'd decided not to be
exclusive (though if asked, Sam would say that it was because of Dean's
tendency of one night stands). Now, about a month into their
relationship, Dean comes home from a bar to find some guy pounding into
his brother and decides that the whole 'not-exclusive' thing has got to
go. ... 3,124
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  Established!Relationship  Friends!With!Benefits  pining!Dean  Sam/OMC  Caught  Bottom!Sam  Jealous!Dean  Possessive!Dean  kick!ass!Dean  Schmoop  Confession  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  1000+  Short  livejournal  SPN 
october 2015 by chellexxx
Won't Get Fooled Again
picking up after "No Rest For The Wicked." When a creature
claiming to be an angel comes upon Sam and Ruby in a motel room claiming
he can help Sam train to rescue Dean from Hell, Sam agrees to work with
the mysterious Castiel. It doesn't hurt that the handsome stranger
tells him that his abilities don't damn him and makes him believe that
he might be worthy of affection. When Dean is safely alive again,
however, things change. Castiel's orders require him to sever ties,
leaving Sam adrift as the road to the Apocalypse appears before them.
What will Sam do when he begins to realize that angels are not what he
believed? ... 52,732
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Castiel  First!Time  1st!meeting  Season!4  AU!Season!4  Big!Bang  post!Season!3  Powers!Sam  Long  50000+  archiveofourown  Angst  top!Sam  Hell  Secret  kick!ass!Sam  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Demon  Hell!Hounds  Separated!Boys  Alone/Separated  Hospitalized!Boys  Bottom!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  It's!The!Great!Pumpkin!Sam!Winchester  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Chuck!Shurley  Character-Castiel  Character-Anna!Milton  Character-Hannah  Character-Ruby  Character-Meg  Character-Lillith  Character-Bela!Talbot 
october 2015 by chellexxx
Hold Me Close and Believe
Sam has an imaginary friend from a young age, in fact, it's his
only friend. He is withdrawn and shy around anyone that isn't his dad
or Dean. When he's fourteen, John comes to the conclusion Sam is ill in a
way that John can't fix and has to send him to an institute for
'disturbed youth'. However, Dean isn’t entirely convinced that Lo is as
imaginary as everyone assumes. ... 39,389
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7474603/1/Dirty-Tricks
http://archiveofourown.org/users/Meh_forget_it
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  Friends!to!Lovers  Asylum  Angst  asshole!John  Possessive!OC  sick!Sam  Ghost  Powers!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Trapped  Alone/Separated  Separated!Boys  drugged!Sam  Pre-Series  AU!Pre-Series  archiveofourown  35000+  Long  livejournal  Hospitalized!Boys  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-John!Winchester 
october 2015 by chellexxx
What You Don't Know
Dean comes back from Purgatory and finds his brother
domesticated and withdrawn from the hunting life. Naturally he jumps to
the conclusion that Sam abandoned him to find his cursed normal while
Dean fought for his life. He should have known not to assume anything
when it came to his little brother. ... 7.440
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!8  806  Angst  Confession  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Voicemail  Amulet  Bed!Sharing  Mute!Sam  5000+  archiveofourown  Mute  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Fix-It-Fic 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Hours Ago
Dean overhears something he should've known years ago and needs to clear the air. .... 1,110
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Bat!Cave  Voicemail  Amulet  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Confession  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  SPN  Fix-It-Fic  Character-Castiel 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Recall
Sam's having a hard time telling what's real and what isn't, especially when it comes to some voicemails from Dean. .... 6,344
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Voicemail  Angst  5000+  Short  archiveofourown  Season!7  PTSD  hurt!Sam  Hospitalized!Boys  Arm!broken/injured  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Fix-It-Fic  Character-Lucifer 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Ways We Stay Alive
“Gotta be just like the real thing, son,” Dad says, tightening
the rope against Sam's bare skin. “So you won’t panic when it happens
someday.” Sam's tied up in a shed in the woods. Dean's stuck back at
home with a pile of research to get through before he can take out the
monster and get Sam back. And Dad? Well, Dad's the monster. That's just
how training goes. Summer 1995. .... 7,172
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Pre-Series  hurt!Sam  Training  Trapped  asshole!John  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Abused!Sam  Teenchesters  Abusive!John  5000+  Short  archiveofourown  Abducted  Abducted!Sam  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Waiting for Rain
Sam leaves home at sixteen to escape two things: a growing
attraction to his older brother, and an angry and abusive father who
blames him for his mother's death. With nothing to his name save his
experience hunting and his determination to escape it, he turns to
prostitution to support himself through high school and then college.
This is an AU without the yellow-eyed demon and psychic powers bit. Lots
of hurt, but lots of comfort and eventual Wincest. .. 31,107
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Pre-Series  AU!Pre-Series  Stanford  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Angst  Prostitution/Hustling  Hooker!Sam  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  asshole!John  guilty!Sam  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  kick!ass!Dean  kick!ass!Sam  25000+  Long  archiveofourown  AU!Stanford  Depraved!Humans  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Crowley  Character-Ash 
september 2015 by chellexxx
a circle of quiet
Sam Winchester has seen a lot of shit. But nothing could have
prepared him for the moment when Castiel, his eyes dazzling like bright
blue gems, turned to him and pressed a kiss to his cheek. (Takes place
during some unspecified time period after Hunter Heroici.) ... 2,543
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Gen  Sam/Castiel  Sam&Castiel  Season!8  Schmoop  First!Time  808  PTSD  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  archiveofourown  Short  1000+  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Fear of Falling
Cage!fic. Post-Swan Song. Stuck in possibly the worst place in
creation with only a bitter and angry Michael still wearing Adam for
company, Sam decides sticking with Lucifer is better than nothing. But
with the memory of being Lucifer's vessel fresh in mind, Sam can't help
but contemplate over a few things he learnt while able to see inside the
devil's head. As a gradual sense of companionship builds between them,
Sam finds that maybe being with Lucifer is more of a comfortable
position than he thought. .... Eventual Samifer. ...... 39,255
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  post!Season!5  Sam/Lucifer  First!Time  Angst  Hell  Slow!Burn  25000+  Long  archiveofourown  Torture  hurt!Sam  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Adam!Milligan  Character-Michael 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Epiphany
The point is that legends are as good as myths--everyone has
his own opinion, and not half of them are right. The point is that Sam
Winchester returns from Hell three months after he jumped in, and
there’s nothing that’s legend about that. .... -or- ... Sam returns from
Hell with his body intact--and his powers, too. With Sam's abilities
cleansed of Azazel's taint, Heaven decides that a Sam with powers is a
soldier they want. But the angels aren't known for keeping the
Winchesters' best interests at heart and Sam has enough on his plate
when his newly-cleansed powers take a sinister turn. Fighting a battle
between Heaven's wishes and a deadly force from within, Sam and Dean
hunker down in a small town in Virginia and wait for something to break.
... 75,791
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  post!Season!5  Angst  hurt!Sam  Powers!Sam  Domestic!fic  75000+  Epic  archiveofourown  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Missouri!Moseley  Hunter 
september 2015 by chellexxx
The Right Way Up
Prompt: The boys are getting older. Dean's body may have been
brand new after hell, but Sam never got that quick fix. He still has all
his old scars and injuries. And when the weather gets cold, it's harder
to get his joints to loosen up. Especially in the mornings. ....2,075
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!8  Angst  hurt!Sam  Sad  Separated!Boys  Alone/Separated  Motel/Hotel  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  Separated!Boys  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Between Darkness and Light
Sam and Dean finally found happiness, a tiny scrap of peace in
the otherwise violent cacophony of their lives. They moved back to their
hometown of Lawrence, Kansas, letting domestic life fold in easily
around them as they built a life together away from the darkness of
their past. For a while it was good, better than maybe either of them
deserved. Sam finally let himself believe they had escaped the bloody,
violent death he always feared was in store for them. Sadly, suddenly,
the greed, violence and jealousy of mortal men swooped in and took it
all away.Twisted by grief and consumed by revenge, Sam paints his face
with a Glasgow smile of white and black and tracks down the men who
split his soul in two, making them pay for what they did. ... 32,077

http://archiveofourown.org/works/4459892/chapters/10133717
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Big!Bang  archiveofourown  livejournal  Domestic!fic  Curtain!fic  PTSD  Death!fic  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Criminal/Mafia  kick!ass!Sam  Non-Con  Homicide  25000+  Long  Angst  Depraved!Humans  SPN  Based!on!a!Movie/Book/TV!Show  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Book-The!Crow 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Hand Covers Bruise
After Dean is cured, Sam's trying to be fine, but he's really,
really not. He starts to realize the whole Dean-was-a-demon thing
affected him a lot more than he thought it did. Oneshot. (PTSD!Sam) ...
2,775
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  Missing!Scene  1003  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Memories/Flashback  Demon!Dean  hurt!Sam  PTSD  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  Bat!Cave  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2015 by chellexxx
See No Evil
Pre-Series AU. Sam leaves for Stanford, thinking only about
finally fulfilling his dream of having a normal life. Instead, he is
kidnapped and his life becomes anything but normal. Can the Winchesters
cope with the changes forced upon them and stick together or will they
crumble under the pressure? Major hurt!Sam. .... 99,019
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Pre-Series  AU!Pre-Series  Angst  hurt!Sam  Abducted  Abducted!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  75000+  Epic  fanfiction.net  Depraved!Humans  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Carry That Weight
Coda to "The Things They Carried." Contains Spoilers. Sam and
Dean have a Brother Moment after leaving Fayetteville. Sam contemplates
how he handled his side of the case and what the future may hold. ...
2.098
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  1015  Angst  asshole!Dean  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
august 2015 by chellexxx
lost
Sam volunteers at the humane society as he recuperates from the
trauma of his time in hell. His mind is not okay. He tries to help some
animals. Dean tries to help him. ..... 1,547
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Slash  Sam/Dean  Schmoop  Season!7  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Vet/Animal!Shelter  archiveofourown  1000+  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Kitten/Cat 
august 2015 by chellexxx
Second Chances and New Beginnings
Cas has disappeared, an ancient form of being called Leviathan
are freed from Purgatory, Sam’s wall is down, sending him into horrific
flashbacks of what he suffered for over a century. With no idea how to
evade or fight the latest Apocalypse, Dean concentrates on what’s most
important to him. Putting his brother back together. But a shocking turn
of events put the Winchesters on another journey. What does their
father and an archangel have in common with stopping the end of the
world? .... 49,858

http://archiveofourown.org/series/517681
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Season!7  AU!Season!7  Sam/Dean  Established!Relationship  Angst  Resurrected!John  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  PTSD  top!Sam  Bottom!Sam  Someone!Finds!Out  Big!Bang  Long  35000+  livejournal  archiveofourown  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Crowley 
july 2015 by chellexxx
Absolute Zero
Heaven is closed, and after Sam's sacrifice, so is Hell.
Crowley is missing, Abaddon is raising Hell on Earth, and Sam and Dean
are lost, trapped in a farmhouse in the middle of nowhere, where Sam
can’t wake up but also can’t die, and nothing Dean does can help. To
find them, Castiel will do whatever it takes, including agreeing to
become the vessel to the only angel willing to answer. And that's only
the beginning... .... 75,787
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Big!Bang  Angel  Demon  Season!8  AU!Season!8  Season!9  AU!Season!9  post!Season!8  Possessed!OC  Angst  Bat!Cave  top!Sam  Bottom!Sam  Cabin!fic  hurt!Sam  hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Coma  Dream/Nightmare  Deal  75000+  Epic  archiveofourown  Someone!Finds!Out  Romance  Slow!Burn  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Death  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Hannah  Character-Jody!Mills  Character-Kevin!Tran  Character-Gadreel 
june 2015 by chellexxx
Of Men and of Rockets
Sam's always thought it's this fiction-thing, biting your lip
until it bleeds. It seems dramatic and all, but short of tearing off too
much dry skin or having really dry lips to start with, it takes more
pressure than most people are willing to exert, really, to break the
skin of the lip and make it actually bleed. The pain of broken skin is
absolutely nothing, though, to the feeling of Lucifer's hands rooting
around in his innards (with that sort of gleeful detachment that the
fallen archangel must have spent millennia cultivating) and tearing out
whatever displeases him. In other words... Sam wakes up from a Cage
trauma-fueled nightmare and can't shake the dream. Dean helps by turning
on the heater in high summer and sweating through it. In the end,
there's nothing like a bit of blasphemy to shake the cold in his bones.
.... 1,677
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!7  Angst  PTSD  Dream/Nightmare  Torture  Memories/Flashback  Hell  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
june 2015 by chellexxx
Drowned
When the Winchesters and the BAU end up in the same town on the
same case, things go about as badly as they can go. .... And then they
go worse. ... 15,509
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Crossover  Case!fic  Someone!Finds!Out  hurt!OC  Abducted  Abducted!Sam  Abducted!OC  Caught  Prison/Jail  Season!7  PTSD  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  15000+  archiveofourown  Long  Local!LEOS/FBI  Depraved!Humans  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  TV!Show-Criminal!Minds 
may 2015 by chellexxx
Not Just a River in Egypt
Tag to 10x15 "The Things They Carried" Dean wonders why Sam
never once objected to Cole calling him 'Sammy'. Angst-fest and some
lovely bro-ments because... it's me. .... 3,258
Memories/Flashback  1000+  fanfiction.net  Short  Confession  Bat!Cave  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Angst  1015  Season!10  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
march 2015 by chellexxx
All The King's Horses
When Sam is unable to restrain Demon!Dean to cure him on his
own, he tracks down Gabriel and makes him an offer that makes even an
archangel blanch. Instead of giving Sam what he wants, the Trickster
enlists the help of Castiel and Flagstaff to help both brothers remember
that it was their love story that saved the world once... by sending
them on a quest through Sam's mind. ..... 15,894
Dream!Walking  guilty!Sam  guilty!Dean  Long  15000+  archiveofourown  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Demon!Dean  Spell/Curse  Dream/Nightmare  Angel  Angst  Season!10  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Gabriel!Lives  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Flagstaff 
march 2015 by chellexxx
Forgive me Father, for I have sinned
Pastor Thomas life took an interesting turn when he met a young
stranger at his church in Sioux Falls. (Spoilers for IMToD, ELAC and
Dead men don't wear plaid) .... 6,385
Confession  archiveofourown  Short  5000+  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Angst  Outsider!POV  515  Season!5  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  In!My!Time!of!Dying  Everybody!Loves!a!Clown 
march 2015 by chellexxx
Never have I ever
When a harmless drinking game among friends takes a turn for
the worse, the boys are faced with unresolved issues from the past.
Hurt/Comfort .... 8,434
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Bat!Cave  516  422  Angst  drunk!Sam  drunk!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Amulet  Voicemail  5000+  fanfiction.net  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  A!Break!From!Hunting  Fix-It-Fic  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Kevin!Tran 
march 2015 by chellexxx
The Change
Sam, Cas, and Dean bring Benny back from Purgatory when Dean
seems to need his "brother" after coming back from demonhood. In an
attempt to bridge the gap between him and Sam, Benny discovers some
things about Sam and the relationship between Sam and Dean that he
doesn't like much, and goes out of his way to get the brothers on the
path of rebuilding their relationship. ...... 10,000
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!9  AU!Season!9  asshole!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  guilty!Sam  guilty!Dean  Abusive!Dean  Separated!Boys  Domestic!fic  Bat!Cave  archiveofourown  Short  10000+  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel  Character-Benny!Lafitte 
february 2015 by chellexxx
Finding Normal
Sam finds out that there is something else Ruby was hiding from
him. Can he & Dean make a home for the child he never knew he had?
He might have cured his brother once but the Mark of Cain still haunts
the Winchesters and it's dark shadow hangs over every move they make.
Sam wants to keep his daughter but, deep down, he knows he will never
'Find Normal' ... 10,800
http://archiveofourown.org/works/3201533
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!9  AU!Season!9  Angst  Kid!fic  Parent/Guardian!Sam  Big!Bang  Hunter  Abducted  Abducted!Dean  Abducted!OC  Domestic!fic  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  archiveofourown  livejournal  10000+  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Ruby 
january 2015 by chellexxx
Worst Moment
Sam thinks back to the worst moment of his life and it modifies
his outlook on his current relationship with Dean. Sam POV. One shot.
Season Nine. Brotherly affecton. ... 1,099
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!5  Season!8  Season!9  503  504  806  912  Angst  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  1000+  fanfiction.net  Short  Separated!Boys  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
january 2015 by chellexxx
The Other Shoe
In which Sam states little but implies a lot, and Dean fills in
the blanks. Early season seven, rated for non-explicit references to
rape. ... 1,109
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!7  Angst  Non-Con  Memories/Flashback  PTSD  Hell  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  fanfiction.net  Short  1000+  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
december 2014 by chellexxx
There's a Hole in My Life, I Wish I Could Fill It (With Anything But You)
Sam and Dean got together when Sam was sixteen, but Sam figures
out pretty quickly that it's not exactly what he wanted. Sex can be
used as a tool just like anything else can. When the world-saving fight
is over, Sam still wants his brother, but knows he can never have him
again. But when Dean asks to start their relationship again, Sam takes
drastic measures to ensure what happened last time will never happen
again. This story does deal with dubious levels of consent, but I
promise you that by the end everyone is happy and enthusiastically
consenting. .. 11,906
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Established!Relationship  Previous!Relationship  First!Time  Angst  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Sam/OMC  post!Season!9  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  top!Sam  Bottom!Sam  pining!Sam  Insecurity  Dub-Con  10000+  archiveofourown  Short  Arranged!Marriage/Forced!Relationship  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel 
november 2014 by chellexxx
Apples, Peaches, Pumpkin Pie
Cas has no intention of letting Sam rot in the Cage, but even
before the surviving members of Team Free Will leave Stull Cemetery, Cas
receives a plea from the future that sends him on a very different path
from the one he'd planned to follow. Can Cas keep his promise and still
help Dean keep his pledge to pursue the apple-pie life with Lisa and
Ben? ....
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Het  post!Season!5  Time!Travel  Domestic!fic  AU!Season!6  AU!Season!7  AU!Season!8  AU!Season!9  Angst  PTSD  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Spell/Curse  Deal  Vision  Panic!Room  Powers!Sam  Dean/Lisa  pdf/mobi  livejournal  Long  Big!Bang  Length!Unknown  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Time!Travelling!Sam  Time!Travelling!OC  Character-Death  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Henry!Winchester  Character-Lisa!Braeden  Character-Abaddon  Character-Ben!Braeden 
november 2014 by chellexxx
Find My Soul As I Go Home
Sam did it. Dean's not a demon anymore. But where do they go from here? .............. 5,846
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  1004  Angst  Separated!Boys  Bat!Cave  guilty!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  5000+  fanfiction.net  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
november 2014 by chellexxx
Welcome Back
What might've happened between Dean waking up and the next
scene as Dean's guilt & emotions react to the cure in an unexpected
manner & Sam's unable to do anything but hope.
*Hurt/limp/tired/angsty/guilty!Dean & Worried/protective/upset!Sam*
........... 4,002
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  1003  sick!Dean  guilty!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Missing!Scene  Bat!Cave  1000+  Short  fanfiction.net  Angst  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel 
october 2014 by chellexxx
The Importance of Being Sam
Sam Winchester knew what was important and what wasn't. After all, it had been drilled into him all his life.
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Death!fic  livejournal  Short  1000+  Suicide  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2014 by chellexxx
In The Dark, In The Pain, On The Run
After Sam's wall breaks, Dean decides they need some time out
of the life. They rent a rundown house in a small town, and during the
renovations, everything changes between them. Sam/Dean curtain!fic,
veers off canon mid S6. ..... 18,666
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Season!7  AU!Season!7  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Bed!Sharing  Curtain!fic  Domestic!fic  Bar  PTSD  Pretend/Mistaken/Couple  archiveofourown  Schmoop  15000+  Long  Self!Harm  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
august 2014 by chellexxx
Foreseen
In 1967, tragedy struck Point Pleasant, West Virginia. They
were given their warnings. No one listened. .......... Now, the warnings
are back ........... 58,849
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Case!fic  Christmas  fanfiction.net  50000+  Long  Season!1  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
july 2014 by chellexxx
Touch and Go
Tag to 9.19 (Alex Annie Alexis Ann) in which Dean realises what
Sam is so angry about. Author's notes: This is basically a fix-it fic
for Season 9's glaring failure to fully address why Sam was so disturbed
by what happened with Gadreel (when ANY FULE CAN SEE it is the latest
in a long line of similar traumatic experiences). Also, it allows me to
work through my feelings about Sam's burnt-off tattoo. 3,188

http://archiveofourown.org/works/1842337
Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Season!9  919  Angst  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  guilty!Dean  PTSD  Tattoo  Secret  livejournal  archiveofourown  1000+  Short  Bloodloss  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Fix-It-Fic 
june 2014 by chellexxx
Trialculosis Sam
The long, dragged-out, emotional, let's-nearly-kill-'im version
of Sam dealing with the trials. Setting Season 8. Post S8E20, right
after Dean says, "Want me to do the whole, uh, airplane thing with the
spoon?" 81,043
Hospital  Gen  Season!8  820  sick!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Bat!Cave  Schmoop  Hug  Paralysis  hurt!Sam  Dream/Nightmare  PTSD  Angst  Torture  Mute!Sam  75000+  Epic  archiveofourown  WIP  Hospitalized!Boys  Mute  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
may 2014 by chellexxx
Breaking From Bad
Takes place after "Pac-Man Fever." Sam is getting sicker. Dean
feels helpless, and Dean Winchester doesn't do helpless. Brotherly
bonding abounds. 2,205
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!8  820  sick!Sam  Schmoop  archiveofourown  1000+  Short  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
may 2014 by chellexxx
The Lucifer Problem
Dean and Sam try to make it work, but after Heaven, it becomes
clear to Dean that it would be best to separate. Sam decides to let Dean
stop the apocalypse, while Sam takes on the Lucifer problem. After all,
if Lucifer doesn't have a true vessel to take, he'll be that much
easier to defeat. Sam goes off the grid, and not even Castiel can find
him. Pairings: Sastiel .... 23,965 Companion fic ..
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10313907/1/To-Protect-And-Defend ....
http://archiveofourown.org/series/135621
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Castiel  First!Time  Season!5  516  Angst  AU!Season!5  Self!Harm  Dream/Nightmare  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  guilty!Dean  guilty!Sam  Powers!Sam  fanfiction.net  20000+  Long  pdf/mobi  Separated!Boys  archiveofourown  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Lucifer  Dream!Walking 
may 2014 by chellexxx
Angel on My Shoulder
Sam’s in a bad place. He can barely keep track of what’s real
and what isn’t and it really doesn’t help that his head is becoming a
refuge for dead angels. ... 19,731
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  Bonding  PTSD  hurt!Sam  Angst  Schmoop  Big!Bang  archiveofourown  15000+  Long  Season!7  AU!Season!7  717  Hospitalized!Boys  sick!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Prank!War  SPN  Gabriel!Lives  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Lucifer  Character-Benny!Lafitte  Character-Kali  Purgatory 
april 2014 by chellexxx
Broken Mirrors
Gabriel has been stuck in that DVD the whole time and it isn’t
until Sam watches through to the end that he escapes. Only by then Sam
is all alone, with Dean and Cas fallen victim to exploding Dick, He
breaks down. Gabriel knows about loss, and knows that being alone is one
of the worst things in the world when you really need a shoulder to cry
on. Healing is rarely easy and never fast. ... 111,369
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Gabriel  First!Time  Big!Bang  post!Season!7  archiveofourown  top!Sam  Separated!Boys  Bonding  Dream/Nightmare  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Vision  Convention  Spell/Curse  Bottom!Sam  Epic  Dean/Castiel  519  sick!OC  pining!Gabriel  SPN  Gabriel!Lives  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Henry!Winchester  Character-Garth!Fitzgerald!IV  Character-Jody!Mills  Character-Kevin!Tran  Character-Abaddon  100000+  Purgatory  Character-Impala  Character-Bobby!Singer  Powers!Sam  Hell  Angst  Winchester!Gospels 
april 2014 by chellexxx
If It's The Last Thing I Do
Sam had broken the world, and his relationship with his
brother. Dean was angry and took it out on his little brother. What
would it take for them to be back to where they were? Hurt!Sam
Angry/Guilty!Dean Set season 5. .... 4,407
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!5  hurt!Sam  guilty!Dean  asshole!Dean  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  1000+  Short  fanfiction.net  Hunt  Torture  guilty!Sam  Demon!Blood  Bloodloss  Demon  Hospitalized!Boys  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
april 2014 by chellexxx
A Moment of Truth
Set in Season 3.Sam is convinced that he doesn't deserve to
live, that it was his fault that his father, mother & Jess died. And
now, Dean's time is also ticking away as his deadline approaches.
Depressed & disheartened, Sam is broken, convinced that he should be
dead when someone comes and tells, or rather, shows him otherwise.
5,674
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!3  guilty!Sam  Depression  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Angst  Short  5000+  fanfiction.net  Alternate!Universe  Sam/Jess  Het  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Mary!Winchester  Character-Jessica 
april 2014 by chellexxx
The Calling
Sam comes back from hell. No one remembers him. Except sometimes...sometimes Sam can hear someone whispering his name. 3,865
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  post!Season!5  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  1000+  Short  fanfiction.net  Memories/Flashback  Sad  Separated!Boys  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel 
april 2014 by chellexxx
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