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Running Out of Air
Tag to 12x21 Reaction to being trapped in the bunker. Dean panics, Sam takes charge. A little hurt/comfort for all of us before the finale.
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!12  1221  Trapped  Outsider!POV  Short  1000+  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean 
may 2017 by chellexxx
Going It Alone
After three months of searching for a demon to deal with, Sam finds one that says yes. Dean is saved. This is the story of Dean fighting to define a life without his brother.

Ten months ago, Sam was dragged into Hell in order to save his brother. Now Sam is back and he and Dean have to find a way to struggle on with their shared burdens, fighting in a world that is careening towards its end.
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!3  AU!Season!3  Dean!centric  Separated!Boys  Alone/Separated  Epic  Deal  Hell  150000+  hurt!Sam  hurt!Dean  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  PTSD 
april 2017 by chellexxx
The Hedgehog Rescue
Dean went to Hell and was hauled out of Perdition, only to be turned into a 4/5-year-old version of himself. It just might avert the apocalypse... but only if Dean can help Bobby save Sam from himself. Also has to be sick.

SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!4  post!Season!3  AU!Season!4  Regression/De-Aged  Regressed/De-Aged!Dean  sick!Dean  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Long  20000+  Addiction  Addict!Sam  asshole!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  PTSD  Character-Ruby  Sam/Ruby  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel 
april 2017 by chellexxx
the darkness within
Ever since he lost the Mark of Cain, Dean's been haunted by
ever-worsening nightmares. He insists it's nothing, but when injuries he
sustains while asleep appear on him for real, Sam goes to great lengths
to figure out what's happening — and to make Dean let him in. 19,002
SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  First!Time  livejournal  archiveofourown  Season!11  AU!Season!11  Season!10  hurt!Sam  Fae/Fairies  Dream/Nightmare  Long  15000+  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Hooker!Sam  Bed!Sharing  Angst  Prostitution/Hustling  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
march 2016 by chellexxx
Reap the Wild Wind
Sam wasn't here. Sam was gone. Gone. Gone. Gone. And nothing
Dean could do, no curse or bargain he could make would bring him back.
.... 42,000+ Sequel ....
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Season!2  AU!Season!2  Death!fic  Angst  Wing!fic  Winged!Sam  Bonding  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Gen  35000+  Long  pdf/mobi  Powers!Sam  Reaper!Sam  SPN  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Ellen!Harvelle  Character-Ash  Character-Jo!Harvelle  Character-Missouri!Moseley 
january 2016 by chellexxx
Without You (The Tears Dry)
for depressing, suicidal thoughts, also mentions of self-harm.
Warnings: Depressing, suicidal thoughts, also mentions of self-harm. Set
in season 8, spoilers for 9x03. Sam makes an unexpected discovery about
Dean. He's keeping a secret journal, in shape of series of cassettes,
for times he wasn't feeling so well. Maybe he didn’t know Dean as well
as he thought he did. But, suicide notes were the last thing on his
mind. .... 56,088
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!8  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Self!Harm  Secret  Long  livejournal  50000+  Depression  Angst  hurt!Dean  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Deleted!Fic!or!Author  pdf/mobi 
november 2015 by chellexxx
All or Nothing
Dean/Sam, OMC/Sam, bottom!Sam, jealous!Dean. When Dean and Sam
started getting involved with each other, they'd decided not to be
exclusive (though if asked, Sam would say that it was because of Dean's
tendency of one night stands). Now, about a month into their
relationship, Dean comes home from a bar to find some guy pounding into
his brother and decides that the whole 'not-exclusive' thing has got to
go. ... 3,124
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  Established!Relationship  Friends!With!Benefits  pining!Dean  Sam/OMC  Caught  Bottom!Sam  Jealous!Dean  Possessive!Dean  kick!ass!Dean  Schmoop  Confession  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  1000+  Short  livejournal  SPN 
october 2015 by chellexxx
Hours Ago
Dean overhears something he should've known years ago and needs to clear the air. .... 1,110
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Bat!Cave  Voicemail  Amulet  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Confession  1000+  Short  archiveofourown  SPN  Fix-It-Fic  Character-Castiel 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Lightning Never Strikes Twice
Dean is having horrific dreams. Sam just wants to take care of
Dean. "Sam somehow goes back in time, meets teenage!Dean and saves him
from being brutalized/raped by some men, comfort sex ensues. No Sam/Dean
noncon please." .... 2,645
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Dream/Nightmare  Time!Travel  kick!ass!Sam  hurt!Dean  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  top!Sam  1000+  livejournal  Short  Angst  Spell/Curse  Non-Con  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Time!Travelling!Sam 
august 2015 by chellexxx
Absolute Zero
Heaven is closed, and after Sam's sacrifice, so is Hell.
Crowley is missing, Abaddon is raising Hell on Earth, and Sam and Dean
are lost, trapped in a farmhouse in the middle of nowhere, where Sam
can’t wake up but also can’t die, and nothing Dean does can help. To
find them, Castiel will do whatever it takes, including agreeing to
become the vessel to the only angel willing to answer. And that's only
the beginning... .... 75,787
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Big!Bang  Angel  Demon  Season!8  AU!Season!8  Season!9  AU!Season!9  post!Season!8  Possessed!OC  Angst  Bat!Cave  top!Sam  Bottom!Sam  Cabin!fic  hurt!Sam  hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Coma  Dream/Nightmare  Deal  75000+  Epic  archiveofourown  Someone!Finds!Out  Romance  Slow!Burn  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Death  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Hannah  Character-Jody!Mills  Character-Kevin!Tran  Character-Gadreel 
june 2015 by chellexxx
Violet Ribbon
While working a case, Dean realizes Sam's birthday was a
disaster (again) and sets about trying to make amends. Spoilers through
to the end of S10. ...... 3,423
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  Angst  Birthday  guilty!Dean  Case!fic  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  post!Season!10  Schmoop  1000+  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
june 2015 by chellexxx
Never have I ever
When a harmless drinking game among friends takes a turn for
the worse, the boys are faced with unresolved issues from the past.
Hurt/Comfort .... 8,434
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Bat!Cave  516  422  Angst  drunk!Sam  drunk!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Amulet  Voicemail  5000+  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  A!Break!From!Hunting  Fix-It-Fic  Character-Charlie!Bradbury  Character-Castiel  Character-Kevin!Tran 
march 2015 by chellexxx
He's In Trouble
Sam's thoughts as he ponders what happened with Dean and how
things will go for them now as he knows the struggle his brother has is
just beginning. *Thoughtful/worried/concerned!Sam* ... 1,384
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  1014  hurt!Dean  Missing!Scene  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  1000+  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
february 2015 by chellexxx
Aftermath 'verse
It took Sam four months to get Dean out of Hell. Four months in
which the world was black and white – on mute. Four months, six days,
and seventeen hours and Sam felt like he might sleep for a year, after.
Dean slept for three days. .. 11,371
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Gen  post!Season!3  Hell  Sam/Dean  First!Time  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Angst  10000+  archiveofourown  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
december 2014 by chellexxx
Find My Soul As I Go Home
Sam did it. Dean's not a demon anymore. But where do they go from here? .............. 5,846
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  1004  Angst  Separated!Boys  Bat!Cave  guilty!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  5000+  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
november 2014 by chellexxx
Welcome Back
What might've happened between Dean waking up and the next
scene as Dean's guilt & emotions react to the cure in an unexpected
manner & Sam's unable to do anything but hope.
*Hurt/limp/tired/angsty/guilty!Dean & Worried/protective/upset!Sam*
........... 4,002
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  1003  sick!Dean  guilty!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Missing!Scene  Bat!Cave  1000+  Short  Angst  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel 
october 2014 by chellexxx
Healing Rifts
After the events in 'Soul Survivor' it's time to heal some
rifts between them. Sam thinks he knows how but isn't expecting Dean's
reaction to his choices. *Healing/wary!Dean & worried/caring!Sam*
Spoilers! ...... 2,918
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!10  1003  guilty!Dean  Angst  Insecurity  Domestic!fic  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  1000+  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
october 2014 by chellexxx
The Angel and The Devil, Heavy On Your Shoulders
This AU jumps the tracks a little after the beginning of season
four. The Apocalypse is coming and hopes of saving the world are dim.
Dean’s been sprung from Hell, but isn’t quite off the rack. Sam’s
determined to help his brother deal with the side-effects of forty years
in the Pit, until he’s hit with a nameless illness. Dean struggles to
do the best for Sam, while navigating nightmarish visions, angry angels,
and his own conscience. In trying to save each other, the boys lose
their way in a world where enemies and allies, good and evil, and love
and hate bleed together into a gray fog. In the end, Sam and Dean
discover that it isn’t about right and wrong, it’s about what you can or
can’t live with. ... 35,000
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Dean  Big!Bang  livejournal  35000+  Angst  Long  Season!4  AU!Season!4  Bottom!Sam  PTSD  Angel  sick!Sam  First!Time  Vision  guilty!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Powers!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2014 by chellexxx
And a Hard Place
As soon as they were inside their room, Dean made a line for
the closet and slammed the door, and Sam wasn't even surprised, this has
been happening for years. He can't account for the why, but he gets
that Dean needs it, so he doesn't say all the things he wants to. ....
SPN!Non-AU  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Trapped  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  guilty!Sam  Angst  pining!Sam  Motel/Hotel  Sad  Short  1000+  livejournal  Pre-Slash  Slash  Memories/Flashback  Season!Undefined  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
august 2014 by chellexxx
Breaking From Bad
Takes place after "Pac-Man Fever." Sam is getting sicker. Dean
feels helpless, and Dean Winchester doesn't do helpless. Brotherly
bonding abounds. 2,205
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!8  820  sick!Sam  Schmoop  archiveofourown  1000+  Short  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
may 2014 by chellexxx
The Scattered Pieces of Me
SPN AU from episode 120: Salvation. What if Sam had killed
Yellow Eye Demon that night in Rosie's room? As it turns out, it doesn't
prevent John Winchester's death. As Dean struggles to come to term with
the loss, he comes across a demon seeking revenge that will leave him
struggling for his life. Sam will need to come to terms with maybe never
getting his brother back the way he was. Dean is comatose and, when he
finally wakes up, the brain damages are severe. Sam will have to step up
and become the caretaker for once. ... 100,000
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!1  AU!Season!1  hurt!Dean  Angst  Coma  100000+  Epic  livejournal  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Brain/Head!injury  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  archiveofourown 
april 2014 by chellexxx
Letters From the Dead
Sam's words cut him deep and in the confusion and anger of
their aftermath, Dean flees. He thinks some time apart might do them
some good. How very wrong he turns out to be. Multi-chapter casefic with
lots of hurt!dean in later chapters. Goes slightly AU after The Purge.
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Season!9  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  913  100000+  Epic  Angst  Case!fic  hurt!Dean  archiveofourown  livejournal  Separated!Boys  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel 
march 2014 by chellexxx
Ain't No Me, Ain't No You
Sam doesn't recover from his amnesia after Cas takes down his
wall. Dean and Bobby find him in a hospital a week later, having no
memory of them or anything they've all been through. 3,900
Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  livejournal  Short  1000+  Sad  Hospital  Amnesia!Sam  Amnesia  Angst  622  Season!6  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  AU!Season!6  Hospitalized!Boys  Separated!Boys  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer 
february 2014 by chellexxx
Most Important
Sam listens when Dean makes a few confessions. Sam has some thinking to do .......
Confession  Angst  Short  1000+  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  guilty!Sam  913  Season!9  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
february 2014 by chellexxx
Sam decides honesty isn't always best when he realizes just how
his words have hurt his brother & as he fears Dean's reactions he
must come to terms with having to be honest about his reasons for being
ready to die & hoped it wasn't too late.
*Drunk/upset!Dean &Worried;/thoughtful/nervous!Sam with a guest shot
from Jodi Mills.*
Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Gen  Short  5000+  drunk!Dean  guilty!Sam  Angst  913  Season!9  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Jody!Mills 
february 2014 by chellexxx
Fallout from Sam's truthful revelation at the end of 9x13 "The Purge" spoilers for the episode.
An angsty/comfort fix for the scene that just broke my heart.
2,889  Short  1000+  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  drunk!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Angst  913  Season!9  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
february 2014 by chellexxx
They're still reeling from Dean's stint in Purgatory, the
Trials are tearing them apart, the world hangs in the balance
(again)--and Dean wants to get a pool table and have a sex marathon. Of
course he does. 27,500
PTSD  813  821  Season!8  Schmoop  sick!Sam  25000+  Long  livejournal  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Bottom!Sam  top!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Bat!Cave  Kink-Knife!Play  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Kink-Blood!Play 
january 2014 by chellexxx
A Moment Too Late
Dean and Cas tried to reach Sam before he closed the
gates...but they were a moment too late. This is a what if scenario
where Sam sacrifices his life to close Hell. WARNINGS! See Inside for
Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Angst  hurt!Sam  Non-Con  Epic  75000+  823  Season!8  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  AU!Season!8  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel  Powerless!Castiel  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Dean!centric 
january 2014 by chellexxx
Worth the Price?
Dean's always hustled for their living. And he was getting
pretty good at it. But not everyone is a good loser and Dean's
discovered being good at one thing meant being tragically wrong about
the other. And when the healing begins, will the boys find their way
back to each other? 165,409
PTSD  Torture  Bottom!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!Dean  Porn  pdf/mobi  Non-Con  Epic  150000+  samdean.archive  Abducted!Sam  Abused!Dean  Abducted  Abducted!Dean  Abused!Sam  hurt!Sam  Angst  Season!1  First!Time  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Depraved!Humans  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Deleted!Fic!or!Author  Character-John!Winchester 
january 2014 by chellexxx
During Sam's first year at Stanford Dean arrives to leave Sam
his car and then checks himself into a mental institution. He won't
speak. When something bad happens there Dean finally starts talking to
Sam and leaves with him. Sam has to figure out what happened to Dean so
he can help him get better, especially if he wants to carry on the
relationship Dean seems to want to rekindle with him. Their father may
cause some problems when he gets involved. 49,000
Mute!Dean  Long  50000+  Time!Travel  hurt!Dean  sick!Dean  First!Time  Sam/Dean  Stanford  Pre-Series  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Hospitalized!Boys  Hospital  Non-Con  PTSD  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  AU!Pre-Series  AU!Stanford  Mute  top!Sam  Bottom!Sam  pdf/mobi  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Time!Travelling!Dean  Character-John!Winchester 
january 2014 by chellexxx
Just a Wish
Sam had always leaned on Dean and now for the first time he was
seeing his brother in a new light and he wanted to be there to support
him. After years of being brothers he was finally glimpsing the hidden
Dean, buried too long in the depths of his pain. Dean needed to accept
his true worth in this family! Expanding on the brothers' talk.
Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Season!2  Short  5000+  Angst  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  What!Is!and!What!Should!Never!Be 
december 2013 by chellexxx
The Holy Trinity (OCD Sam)
Sam/Dean or gen; Sam is compensating for having Lucifer in his
head by going into hyperfunctional mode. I want to see touches of
Mystery Spot OCD Sam: hospital corners, perfect efficiency, everything
under control, everything in place. It works. He still hallucinates, but
he can keep going through it, he can wall himself off from being
affected by fear of his breaks with reality and by the trauma of the
things he remembers and hallucinates. He just has to keep going further
and further into his coping mechanism, because if it breaks it will all
come crashing down and that will not be good
hurt!Dean  sick!Sam  Abducted  hurt!Sam  Sam/Dean  Angst  Hell  Memories/Flashback  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  Season!7  10000+  livejournal  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Short  Abducted!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Crowley  archiveofourown 
october 2013 by chellexxx
Phantom Load
Dean and Sam return to Boulder, CO, where they investigate a
haunted school. The job seems simple enough to Sam, who has good,
although vague, memories of living in Boulder back in 1992, when John
Winchester rented a single-wide trailer, and the boys were able to walk
home from school together. Dean, however, has altogether different
memories, far less pleasant and far more damaging. It's during the
investigation that Sam discovers the secret that Dean doesn't realize
he's been hiding.
Abused!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  PTSD  !School  Season!2  Big!Bang  Non-Con  Angst  livejournal  50000+  hurt!Dean  Case!fic  Memories/Flashback  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Long  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Depraved!Humans  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
september 2013 by chellexxx
Something evil is killing treeplanters in the forests of the
Pacific Northwest, possibly the same predator that Dean narrowly escaped
years before. How Grimm will things get before the brothers figure it
pdf/mobi  Season!1  kick!ass!Sam  75000+  Season!2  Emotionally!hurt  Angst  Prostitution/Hustling  Memories/Flashback  hurt!Dean  Case!fic  livejournal  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Epic  Hooker!Dean  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
september 2013 by chellexxx
It's Time
Sam and freshly rehabbed Dean retire to a life of seaside idyll
whereupon Dean feels generally shitty about himself and cannot sleep.
sick!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Depression  717  Season!7  Domestic!fic  Curtain!fic  hurt!Dean  10000+  livejournal  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Short  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel 
september 2013 by chellexxx
The Lights of Home
There are some memories that Dean doesn't want to remember, and
some things that he hopes Sam has forgotten. But when Castiel calls the
Winchesters to protect a seal in a small Indiana town where they once
lived with their father, everything comes back. Sometimes even a
sun-soaked childhood summer has shadows lurking underneath.
Case!fic  Season!4  Emotionally!hurt  Angst  Memories/Flashback  livejournal  25000+  Big!Bang  hurt!Dean  Non-Con  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Long  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel  Character-John!Winchester 
september 2013 by chellexxx
A Glimpse Of Home
One night Sam goes on a pizza run and doesn't return. Dean
searches for him, not knowing they are going up against something older
and more powerful that any of them imagined. When they find him, their
problems double as Sam is not the same man he was before. ..... 41,034
pdf/mobi  Angst  35000+  Abducted  hurt!Sam  619  Season!6  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Long  Abducted!Sam  Hospitalized!Boys  Asylum  Shrink  Demon  Amnesia  Amnesia!Sam  drugged!Sam  Medical!Professional!Jensen  Torture  GSW  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  AU!Season!6  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Castiel  Character-Raphael 
september 2013 by chellexxx
The Worst Kind of Freedom
The things Dean said to his brother while under the influence
of the cursed penny broke something inside of Sam. With no hope of
fixing his relationship with Dean, Sam turns to the only option he has
left to set himself and his brother free. Alternate ending to Southern
Comfort. Trigger warning for suicide attempt. Not a deathfic. .... 5,194
806  hurt!Sam  Season!8  Emotionally!hurt  guilty!Sam  Angst  Amulet  guilty!Dean  5000+  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Short  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Bed!Sharing  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Garth!Fitzgerald!IV 
august 2013 by chellexxx
Beneath the Skin
The shifter took one look at Dean and knew that it had finally
found a skin it wanted to keep. This human was someone it understood.
Someone it wanted to be. Someone that made it complete. When it looked
at Dean’s brother, it felt a desire of a different kind, and nothing
would stop it from taking what it wanted… 52,000
hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  F.O.D  drugged!Sam  Angst  Sam/Dean  50000+  livejournal  Abducted  archiveofourown  Non-Con  Voyeurism  Gen  Torture  SPN!Non-AU  Long  Shifter  Abducted!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Slash  Shifter!Dean  Beaten  sick!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer 
july 2013 by chellexxx
A Thousand Words
A picture on a long lost phone leads to a revelation of just
how far Heaven was once willing to go to keep the Winchesters on their
course to the apocalypse. Set somewhere in Season 8 after Sam has begun
the trials. 10,654
hurt!Sam  Spell/Curse  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Cursed!Dean  Cursed!Sam  Amnesia!Dean  Amnesia!Sam  Amnesia  Confession  Previous!Relationship  Season!8  10000+  Sam/Dean  Bonding  Bottom!Sam  First!Time  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Short  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel 
may 2013 by chellexxx
Last Stand at Goblin Valley
Sam and Dean go undercover at a Wild West show in Utah in order
to save a seal, but very little is as it seems. Castiel and Ruby are
both involved in a case that makes Dean remember what happened after Sam
left for Stanford, memories that he thinks are best left forgotten
..... 48,500
Powers!Sam  Powers!Dean  Possessive!Sam  First!Time  Romance  top!Sam  Angst  Bottom!Sam  Demon  Previous!Relationship  Case!fic  Stanford  Dean/omc  Big!Bang  pining!Dean  Season!4  livejournal  35000+  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Long  Rancher/Cowboy  Rancher/Cowboy!Sam  Rancher/Cowboy!Dean  Ranch/Farm  Sam/Ruby  Depression  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Memories/Flashback  SPN  Undercover/Secret!Identity  Character-Castiel  Character-Ruby 
february 2012 by chellexxx
The Way Back
AU in which Dean gets between Lucifer and Cas, preventing
Castiels death and eventual return to full-blooded angelhood. In the
following months, a mostly human Cas gets a job at Taco Bell, Dean
recovers from wounds given to him by Lucifer, and a silent,
shell-shocked Sam wanders in from the cold. 35,971
Musician  sick!Sam  Curtain!fic  Domestic!fic  post!Season!5  Angst  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!Sam  hurt!Dean  Season!5  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  35000+  livejournal  Long  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  AU!Season!5  Powerless!Castiel  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel 
february 2012 by chellexxx
The Harder They Fall
It seemed like any normal day at school for the 17 year old
Winchester until he went to lunch and a kid with a gun decided to change
everyone's life...
Emotionally!hurt  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Angst  !School  1000+  School!Shooting  SPN!Non-AU  hurt!Dean  Sam/Dean  Gen  Short  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Slash  Depraved!Humans  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
may 2011 by chellexxx
Set in the Stanford years. After a rough solo hunt, a hurting
Dean camps out on Sam's couch. Sam's roommate notices a few things about
Dean that Sam finds hard to hear. 13,939
Abused!Dean  Angst  Outsider!POV  hurt!Dean  10000+  Gen  Pre-Series  Stanford  SPN!Non-AU  Short  PTSD  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Emotionally!hurt  Depraved!Humans  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer 
march 2011 by chellexxx
Finding Sam
Post 4x06: All Dean knew, when he came to, was that Bobby was
crouched over him, concern evident, and Sam was standing above him,
looking like his world had ended. Angsty!Sam, bigbrother!Dean,
patient-dad!Bobby, awesome brotherness.
Emotionally!hurt  316  Memories/Flashback  Hunt  hurt!Dean  Angst  Season!4  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  1000+  Short  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer 
december 2010 by chellexxx
A Good Exit
Dean kills Lucifer and is nearly killed himself. When Deans
left physically and emotionally drained, Sam finally gets his chance to
save his brother.
Romance  Established!Relationship  Curtain!fic  Friends!With!Benefits  Schmoop  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!Dean  post!Apocalypse  Season!5  5000+  livejournal  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  Short  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
december 2010 by chellexxx
Palo Alto
Dean is sick and Sam is hurting. They both find a little
healing in Palo Alto. meeting Jess's parents, Jess's parents watch over
them for 24 hours 8,363 & sequel Dean and Sam are invited to
Christmas dinner at the Moore's
sick!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!Dean  Season!1  Domestic!fic  Schmoop  Outsider!POV  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  hurt!Sam  10000+  Short  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Friends!From!Stanford 
december 2010 by chellexxx
Thank You For Not Loving Me
Sam is sick of being only a way to relieve the tension for
Dean. He is tired of fighting. What he wants is just one kiss, is that
so much to ask? sam gives up all hope and dean has to deal with the
aftermath ... 2,770 .......
Slash  Sad  pining!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  1000+  guilty!Dean  asshole!Dean  Established!Relationship  Angst  Death!fic  SPN!Non-AU  hurt!Sam  Short  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Abusive!Dean  Bottom!Sam  Season!Undefined  Sam/Dean  archiveofourown  Suicide  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
october 2010 by chellexxx
Moon on Fire + sequel
Dad's disappeared and Sam's left to pick up the pieces of his
broken brother. 59,532 The boys are still dealing with the change in
their relationship, as well as the new bond, all while dealing with a
case involving an Ancient Egyptian cult, a killer mummy and some very
unusual deaths. 33,000
Case!fic  Bonding  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!Dean  Angst  First!Time  Season!1  75000+  dreamwidth  Sam/Dean  Slash  Epic  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN!Non-AU  AU!Season!1  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
october 2010 by chellexxx
Out of Our Control
New town, new school... and the boys get into some trouble. Sam
and Dean end up right in the middle of a school hostage situation. Sam
11, Dean 15..
Emotionally!hurt  Weechesters  Pre-Series  Angst  1000+  School!Shooting  !School  SPN!Non-AU  hurt!Dean  Gen  hurt!Sam  Short  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Depraved!Humans  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
september 2010 by chellexxx
Pins & Needles
A lot can change in an instant. Six months ago, Sam was injured
in the course of a hunt that went terribly wrong. Now, there's
something in the woods of Michigan's upper peninsula, stalking, beating,
and killing people in the tiny town of Big Bay. A retired hunter calls
Sam and Dean in to investigate, but they're also still dealing with the
aftermath of that hunt-gone-wrong, and the effect it's had on their
relationship. ... 52,423
pdf/mobi  Domestic!fic  Big!Bang  Curtain!fic  Case!fic  hurt!Dean  Angst  Hunt  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!Sam  livejournal  50000+  Sam/Dean  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Established!Relationship  Long  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Paralysis  Permanent!Injury  Permanent!Injury!Dean  Someone!Finds!Out  Bottom!Sam  Spell/Curse  Hunter  Agent/Police!Dean  Cursed!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Bobby!Singer 
september 2010 by chellexxx
Hit the Ground Crawling
After Sam pulls Dean out of Hell, Dean stops talking. It takes a
week for Sam to convince Dean to open his mouth so Sam can check that
his tongue hasnt been cut out. It takes two weeks for Sam to accept that
Dean really isnt talking. Then it takes a week of silence, the two of
them sitting in the Impala like ventriloquist dummies, sitting in motel
rooms like human taxidermy, before Sam decides to start talking for the
both of them. .... 28,161
PTSD  316  Season!3  top!Sam  Big!Bang  Spell/Curse  Hell  First!Time  25000+  livejournal  Sam/Dean  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Long  AU!Season!3  Mute!Dean  Angst  Memories/Flashback  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Mute  Cursed!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
august 2010 by chellexxx
What a Father Won't Do
I used to be a good man, and maybe I still could be. But only
if I change my mind and leave now. I don't think I can do that. Not
after everything I've learned tonight, everything I've seen. This is the
only thing that will even come close to erasing the horror that will
haunt me until the day I die…

Sam’s spiraling out of control. He doesn’t eat. He doesn’t sleep. Now
that Dean knows, he finds it’s getting harder and harder not to confront
him with it. So what’s a big brother to do?
Abused!Sam  Secret  Emotionally!hurt  Case!fic  50000+  Spell/Curse  Regression/De-Aged  Memories/Flashback  Non-Con  guilty!Dean  guilty!John  Training  POV!John  Angst  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  livejournal  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  Long  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Outsider!POV  Regressed/De-Aged!Sam  Depraved!Humans  Abused  Cursed!Sam  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Missouri!Moseley 
august 2010 by chellexxx
2nd of November
Dean sipped his coffee and forced his leg to be still. It was
quiet, the calm before the storm. He hated this time of the year. He'd
always tried to be south, somewhere warm and changeless. Someplace where
the scent of burnt debris didn't linger in the air. Sammy was with Dad
and that was good. None of them should be alone right now, but well, he
had the least to lose. 11,880
Gen  Crossover  10000+  livejournal  Short  SPN!AU  Agent/Police!Dean  Outsider!POV  Dean!centric  AU!Season!1  Season!1  Angst  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  Case!fic  Hunter!Sam  Local!LEOS/FBI  Agent/Police  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  TV!Show-NCIS 
august 2010 by chellexxx
Your Mind Tricked You to Feel the Pain
Dean has kept a secret from Sam for months, one he is terrified
to share. But as he looks at his brother, and for a moment doesn't
remember who Sam is, Dean realizes that some secrets aren't meant to be
sick!Dean  Amnesia  Emotionally!hurt  Secret  hurt!Dean  Angst  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  35000+  Long  Amnesia!Dean  Emotionally!hurt!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys 
august 2010 by chellexxx

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