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A Bartered Soul
Even at sixteen, Sam knew his father would give anything to find a way to avenger Mary's death - he just didn't expect to be the bartering chip. When John trades his son to a mysterious figure to get his hands on the Colt, Sam has no choice but to find a way to get used to the idea - after all, Gabriel isn't so bad, right?

SPN  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Sam/Gabriel  Dean/Castiel  First!Time  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  AU!Pre-Series  Character-Castiel  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-Balthazar  Character-Yellow!Eyed!Demon  20000+  Long  archiveofourown  Separated!Boys  Deal  asshole!John  Abusive!John  hurt!Dean 
june 2017 by chellexxx
The Final Arc
Tracy is with Krissy, Josephine, and Aidan are on a hunt in
Florida, when they run into her least favorite person: Sam Winchester,
the reason her family is dead. After hearing Sam's story, however, she
begins to worry. Especially now that he's not with Dean, and is
suffering a heavy backlash of nightmares from The Cage. .. 43,660
SPN!Non-AU  Het  Sam/OFC  Self!Harm  Angst  Non-Con  hurt!Sam  Powers!Sam  pining!OC  asshole!John  Abusive!John  Abused!Sam  Unrequited  Torture  Abusive!Dean  Spell/Curse  PTSD  post!Season!10  Angel!Sam  Angel  Long  35000+  archiveofourown  Dream/Nightmare  kick!ass!Sam  Memories/Flashback  Confession  Gen  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-Adam!Milligan  Character-Chuck!Shurley  Character-Castiel  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Hannah  Character-Lucifer  Character-Michael  Character-Flagstaff  Character-Metatron  Character-Tracy!Bell  Character-Krissy!Chambers  Separated!Boys 
december 2015 by chellexxx
Ways We Stay Alive
“Gotta be just like the real thing, son,” Dad says, tightening
the rope against Sam's bare skin. “So you won’t panic when it happens
someday.” Sam's tied up in a shed in the woods. Dean's stuck back at
home with a pile of research to get through before he can take out the
monster and get Sam back. And Dad? Well, Dad's the monster. That's just
how training goes. Summer 1995. .... 7,172
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Pre-Series  hurt!Sam  Training  Trapped  asshole!John  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Abused!Sam  Teenchesters  Abusive!John  5000+  Short  archiveofourown  Abducted  Abducted!Sam  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Waiting for Rain
Sam leaves home at sixteen to escape two things: a growing
attraction to his older brother, and an angry and abusive father who
blames him for his mother's death. With nothing to his name save his
experience hunting and his determination to escape it, he turns to
prostitution to support himself through high school and then college.
This is an AU without the yellow-eyed demon and psychic powers bit. Lots
of hurt, but lots of comfort and eventual Wincest. .. 31,107
SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Pre-Series  AU!Pre-Series  Stanford  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Angst  Prostitution/Hustling  Hooker!Sam  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  asshole!John  guilty!Sam  hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  kick!ass!Dean  kick!ass!Sam  25000+  Long  archiveofourown  AU!Stanford  Depraved!Humans  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-Gabriel/The!Tickster  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Crowley  Character-Ash 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Hotch and his team catch a case involving decapitations, grave desecration, and Latin. Preseries both shows. ... 7,000+
Gen  Het  Sam/OFC  Crossover  Abused!Sam  asshole!John  Abusive!John  Pre-Series  AU!Pre-Series  Parent/Guardian!Sam  Agent/Police!Sam  archiveofourown  Short  5000+  hurt!Sam  Local!LEOS/FBI  SPN!AU  Hospitalized!Boys  Outsider!POV  Abused  Agent/Police  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  TV!Show-Criminal!Minds 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Family Matters
It's no secret that John Winchester holds a prejudice against
anything non-human. That includes angels. Angels who have no business
being this close to his boys. Not even a fallen angel who helped save
the world. Mysteriously alive once more, John can't fathom why his sons
would be running around with a halo in his absence, but if they don't
get rid of it, he will. ..... 52,148
SPN!Non-AU  Gen  post!Season!5  Angst  Resurrected!John  asshole!John  Long  50000+  Abducted  Abducted!Dean  Abusive!John  hurt!Castiel  Emotionally!hurt  Spell/Curse  hurt!Dean  Powerless!Castiel  Cursed!Dean  Case!fic  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-Castiel  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Raphael 
september 2015 by chellexxx
Daddy, Please, No
After Mary's death, John is very lonely, and he can't help but
notice how attracted he is to Sam (who is eight). So, feeling absolutely
disgusted with himself, John attempts to drink his feelings away. But
that doesn't help; only makes them stronger, and harder to control. One
night, while he's drunk out of his mind, he goes into Sam's room and
starts touching him. And once he's started, he does it every night, his
actions getting bolder until he finally rapes Sam (who is now eleven).
After the rape, Sam becomes anti-social, and jumpy. He won't let anyone
but John touch him (only because he's scared to flinch away from John).
Not even Dean. And Dean noticed it, and goes to investigate, trying to
get Sam to open up to him. And when he doesn't, he scopes out his room
at night, finally catching John in the act. Once John's been caught,
Dean takes Sam and runs to Bobby's house ...... 46,000+
pdf/mobi  pining!OC  pining!Sam  Angst  Long  livejournal  35000+  kick!ass!Dean  Hunter  Abducted!Sam  Abducted  Bottom!Sam  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Emotionally!hurt  Abused!Sam  Non-Con  hurt!Sam  asshole!John  Sam/Dean  Teenchesters  Weechesters  Slash  Pre-Series  Abusive!John  Separated!Boys  SPN!AU  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  AU!Not!Raised!By!John  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-John!Winchester 
february 2014 by chellexxx
AU to Croatoan. Years ago the Winchester family was torn apart.
Now a hunt has gone wrong sending a son to find a cure only to find
long buried truths, while another continues to face his losses and
fights to keep his life his own. .... 72,832
Dream/Nightmare  hurt!Sam  sick!Sam  Angst  Vision  Powers!Sam  Curtain!fic  Local!LEOS/FBI  asshole!John  Long  50000+  Season!2  Gen  Abusive!John  Hospital  Hospitalized!Boys  Medical!Professional!Sam  SPN!AU  Hunter!Dean  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  AU!Raised!Apart  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Caleb  Character-Pastor!Jim  Character-Joshua  Character-Yellow!Eyed!Demon 
february 2014 by chellexxx
Bound to Blame
" dad does, too. You don't want to see him when he's drinking." Teenchester, minor hurt!Sam, Sam's POV. 5,437
5000+  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  asshole!John  hurt!Sam  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Short  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-John!Winchester 
october 2013 by chellexxx
Sam fancies Dean but they haven't done anything, John ends up
beating the boys for some reason, then Dean tries to make Sam feel
better by shagging him, and Sam's a bit scared and reluctant (although
there's no non-con)
hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  Bottom!Sam  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  First!Time  Angst  asshole!John  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  1000+  Short  Abusive!John  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
november 2011 by chellexxx
To Hold Back Tears
After multiple times of seeing this interaction between the
brothers, Castiel could no longer stand back and wonder why Sam seemed
so reluctant to discuss his childhood. 3,900
hurt!Sam  Abused!Sam  Sam/Castiel  Established!Relationship  Season!5  Memories/Flashback  Beaten  Confession  1000+  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  Short  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-Castiel  Character-John!Winchester 
july 2011 by chellexxx
Behind Those Eyes
The instincts that raised the hackles on the back of one's
neck, that warned one when something was watching... I knew with that
extra sense that I wasn't alone. Pre-Season: hurt!Sam, angst!everyone.
Outsider POV, sort-of. 26,888
Gen  Outsider!POV  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  25000+  Angst  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  hurt!Sam  Long  Shifter  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Pastor!Jim 
march 2011 by chellexxx
Maybe We're Not Only Human
Sam has always had more than his fair share of problems, but
this is the worst. This a problem that goes beyond Dean's devotion and
above John's abuse, and it comes down to this; to the heat running
through him as he stands alone with his brother in a secluded spot in
the Ohio countryside; to the pure, molten wantneedlove always rushing
through him, coursing through his veins every moment that he's near
Dean: his best-kept secret since he was old enough to categorise the
feelings. 7,200
asshole!John  Angst  pining!Sam  5000+  Sam/Dean  First!Time  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  SPN!Non-AU  Slash  Short  Abusive!John  SPN  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Caleb 
december 2010 by chellexxx
You Didn’t Know and Now You Just Don’t Know…but I’m Okay with that as Long as You’re Here
Sam didn’t know when it had begun, just that it had. It
followed him for most of his childhood, all his teenage years, and
through much of his young adult life. When he finally came to terms with
the emotional backlash it wasn’t because Dean learned the truth. It was
just that Sam learned to live with Dean not knowing the truth. Written
for Hurt Comfort Bingo.
pining!OC  Unrequited  1000+  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Memories/Flashback  Non-Con  SPN!Non-AU  First!Time  Angst  asshole!John  livejournal  hurt!Sam  Short  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  pdf/mobi  Abused  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Deleted!Fic!or!Author  Character-John!Winchester 
december 2010 by chellexxx
Pieces of Us
John Winchester loved his son, Dean, desired him and cherished
him. He was the perfect boy. John Winchester despised his offspring,
Sam, hated him with a passion because of how his late wife and now his
eldest boy loved the whore. So, John took his due from the slut and made
sure that Sam understood that it was all his fault.
1000+  First!Time  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Non-Con  Slash  Angst  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  livejournal  hurt!Sam  Short  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  pdf/mobi  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Deleted!Fic!or!Author  Character-John!Winchester 
december 2010 by chellexxx
Playing Monsters
It was just a game ... a game that those boys used to play.
They'd pretend that they were monster hunters, that they were some kind
of heroes. The problem was that they started to believe that all of that
nonsense was real, you see? 2,769
Powers!Sam  Sam/John  Angst  Death!fic  asshole!John  hurt!Sam  Non-Con  Outsider!POV  1000+  Sam/Dean  Slash  SPN!Non-AU  livejournal  First!Time  Short  Abused!Sam  AU!Pre-Series  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Meg 
october 2010 by chellexxx
Sam has always been a disappointment in his fathers eyes. After
a hunt gone wrong, will John ever look at his youngest the same again?
Will Sam survive Johns anger and beat-down? 28,795
Abused!Sam  Spell/Curse  Possessed!OC  Cabin!fic  Trapped  Beaten  GSW  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Sad  25000+  Angst  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  Gen  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  Long  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Pastor!Jim 
october 2010 by chellexxx
Flagstaff - Sam runs away from home. Dean and John try to find him. mean!John 7,341
hurt!Dean  516  Angst  asshole!John  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  5000+  Short  Abusive!John  Separated!Boys  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
september 2010 by chellexxx
Better The Devil
When 13 year old Dean and 9 year old Sam share the same dream
where each sees their father killing the other, the boys are forced to
take drastic measures when John returns from a hunt not quite
"himself"... 23,183
CPS  Angst  asshole!John  Dream/Nightmare  Weechesters  Pre-Series  20000+  SPN!Non-AU  hurt!Dean  hurt!Sam  Gen  Long  Abusive!John  Cursed!John  guilty!John  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-John!Winchester 
september 2010 by chellexxx
Kill For You
John started hitting Sam when he was only thirteen. A year
later, Dean finds out the hard way. Will he rid Sam of his father? Is it
too late to undo the damage? 12,561
kick!ass!Dean  10000+  Angst  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  Gen  hurt!Sam  Short  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-John!Winchester 
september 2010 by chellexxx
A Word to Start, A Fist to End
It started when Sam told his dad he didn't believe in the monsters John chased after. 713 look for sequal in WIP Intermission
under!1000  Secret  Pre-Series  Weechesters  Beaten  Angst  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  Gen  hurt!Sam  Short  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-John!Winchester 
september 2010 by chellexxx
No Fortunate Son
Secrets and misconceptions lead to Dean having a very unexpected hunt on his hands. His own father. 24,837
Angst  Season!1  Sam/Dean  Slash  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Alternate!Universe  asshole!John  Non-Con  20000+  SPN!Non-AU  hurt!Sam  Long  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-John!Winchester  archiveofourown 
september 2010 by chellexxx
An encounter with a demon shows Dean that while his childhood
wasnt like Max's Sams was. At least when their father was drunk beyond
reason.. teenchesters flashback 2,443
Trapped  Memories/Flashback  Confession  Demon  1000+  Season!2  Angst  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  Gen  hurt!Sam  Short  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-John!Winchester 
august 2010 by chellexxx
And When Dad Came Home
I thought you were dead. And when Dad came home...' What Dean went through emotionally and physically after Sam ran away. 2,403
Gen  516  hurt!Dean  Season!5  1000+  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  Short  Abusive!John  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
august 2010 by chellexxx
The Anger of Innocence Lost - part 4
John is captured by Azazel and tortured for mistreating his favorite of the psychic children. 21,136
Season!1  asshole!John  hurt!John  Abducted  Anger's!Heartbreak  20000+  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Long  Abusive!John  SPN  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Yellow!Eyed!Demon 
august 2010 by chellexxx
Angers Outcome - part 3
What was behind Sam applying to Stanford and leaving his family
behind? Was it more than just a quest for normalcy, or was it something
more heartbreaking? 35,952
Angst  guilty!John  asshole!John  Pre-Series  Teenchesters  Anger's!Heartbreak  35000+  SPN!Non-AU  Gen  Long  Abusive!John  SPN  Character-John!Winchester 
august 2010 by chellexxx
Angers Betrayal - part 2
Sequel to Angers Heartbreak. After John becomes obsessed by the
hunt again, Dean takes an injured Sammy and runs. Will it cost them
both their lives? 32,965
Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Neglect  Angst  Anger's!Heartbreak  guilty!John  hurt!Sam  Hunt  asshole!John  sick!Sam  25000+  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Long  Abusive!John  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
august 2010 by chellexxx
When John finds out who or what really killed his wife, he does something he will regret for the rest of his life. 3,065
guilty!Dean  Pre-Series  Weechesters  1000+  Angst  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  Gen  hurt!Sam  Short  Abused!Sam  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-John!Winchester 
august 2010 by chellexxx
Angers Heartbreak
Will John's constant pressure for Sammy to suck it up cost him the lives of his sons? 29,404
Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Neglect  guilty!John  asshole!John  sick!Sam  hurt!Sam  25000+  Anger's!Heartbreak  Gen  SPN!Non-AU  Long  Abusive!John  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
august 2010 by chellexxx
Mother Mary Comes to Me
Sam sometimes reminds John of his mother. When John sees more
than a resemblance, he lets himself believe something that can't
possibly be true. Sam pays the price. 8,378 Dean takes Sam to Pastor
Jim, hoping they can somehow overcome what has happened. Sam insists
that he's fine, but Dean knows better. Bobby hunts John down, only to
discover that maybe not every monster is evil through and through. 6178
Abused!Sam  sick!OC  Brain/Head!injury  Gen  Weechesters  Emotionally!hurt  hurt!Sam  Non-Con  hurt!John  5000+  livejournal  Angst  SPN!Non-AU  asshole!John  Short  Emotionally!hurt!Sam  Abusive!John  Abused  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Pastor!Jim 
august 2010 by chellexxx
A botched hunt results in harsh words, but is everything as it seems? 5,758
Teenchesters  Pre-Series  Gen  guilty!Dean  hurt!Sam  Secret  hurt!Dean  5000+  asshole!John  SPN!Non-AU  Short  Abusive!John  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
august 2010 by chellexxx
Heat of the Moment
When Sam is late home from school, John's own brand of discipline goes a little too far. 12,950
Training  Gen  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  hurt!Sam  sick!Sam  asshole!John  guilty!John  10000+  Mother!Nature  SPN!Non-AU  Short  Abusive!John  Heat/Summer  SPN  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Character-John!Winchester 
august 2010 by chellexxx
Never An Absolution
Sam cops the blame when a vital piece of equipment is damaged
on a hunt. But things become convoluted when their next hunt results in
an injured big brother, and Johns anger seems to be spiralling out of
control... 15,543
Abused!Sam  Possessed!OC  Gen  Teenchesters  Pre-Series  hurt!Dean  guilty!Sam  15000+  asshole!John  SPN!Non-AU  Long  Abusive!John  Hospital  Hospitalized!Boys  Abused  SPN  Attempted!Suicide/Suicidal!Thoughts  Hurt/Sick!Boys  Domestic!Violence  Character-Bobby!Singer  Character-John!Winchester  Character-Pastor!Jim 
august 2010 by chellexxx

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