Itsokaydean + rating:r   233

the morning after; kototyph
Oh and I ate all of your Cinnamon Toast Crunch. Consider it part of your reparation payment for accidental anal insertion. I may continue to collect payments until I am no longer sore.
rps  jared_jensen  genre:schmoop  genre:humor  genre:au  student!jared  student!jensen  first-kiss  first-time  pining!jared  pining!jensen  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:kototyph  0-5k  challenge:commentfic  ~ 
5 days ago by Itsokaydean
Just Say My Name; leonidaslions
Dean turns into a complete and utter nympho. It takes Sam a while to notice the difference.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  cursed!dean  genre:humor  genre:hurt_comfort  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:leonidaslion  0-5k  ~ 
11 days ago by Itsokaydean
Palatine; setissma
It’s not like he means for it to happen. Seriously.

One minute, he’s leaning over to look at the enormous spell book in Sam’s lap, sounding out a couple of phrases while they’re stopped at a red light, Sam messing with the radio. The next, he’s in the passenger seat while Sam’s nearly running Dean’s goddamned car into a Toyota.
supernatural  sam_dean  genre:schmoop  genre:humor  bodyswapped!dean  bodyswapped!sam  first-time  first-kiss  cursed!dean  cursed!sam  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:setissma  0-5k  ~ 
20 days ago by Itsokaydean
I'll take my chance on a beautiful stranger; fleshflutter
If Chase were a better friend, he might try to end the game now, before Brendan loses even more money. But if Brendan is a dick at Stanford, it’s nothing compared to how he is on break. Chase wishes he’d gone with Will and Sam to play pool, but he’d been too damn stuck on the long game, too stuck on Brendan Danver’s father being the Danver of Danver, Mitchell and Webb, the law firm that’s gonna give him his first job when he graduates.

So now they’re in this bar, which is full of smoke and the smell of stale piss, because Brendan wants to pretend he lives dangerously, on the edge, that his life’s not one big vapid, designer-dressed waste of time. And Brendan’s got himself into a game of poker with a hustler, who Chase keeps telling himself to stop staring at, and Brendan's being taken for every last cent in his wallet.
supernatural  sam_dean  genre:angst  pre-series  StanfordEra  outsider!pov  angry!sam  jaded!dean  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:fleshflutter  0-5k  ~ 
24 days ago by Itsokaydean
Ripping mended seams; lyra_wing
We all know John disappeared because he got a lead on the demon. But what if he ran off when the boys were still kids? AU – Dean as a fireman and Sam as a student at NYU.
supernatural  sam_dean  genre:canon_divergence  fireman!dean  StanfordEra  pre-series  ghost!john  john!dies  rescuer!sam  physicallyhurt!dean  Protective!Sam  Protective!Dean  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:lyra_wing  5-10k  ~ 
5 weeks ago by Itsokaydean
massé shot - road_rhythm
In a little bar in Nowhere, New Mexico, Dean Winchester makes a miscalculation. Sam has to survive it. Neither of them knows yet what they've lost.
supernatural  genre:gen  sam&dean  genre:angst  physicallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  tw:non-con_(attempted)  s2  Protective!Dean  Protective!Sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:road_rhythm  challenge:*minor  10-15k  ~ 
6 weeks ago by Itsokaydean
Mr Smith Goes to Jefferson; facetofcathy
Zachariah gets killed before he reveals to Dean Smith who he really is. So Dean Smith and Sam Wesson carry on as they were, as if that was always their life, not knowing who they really are
supernatural  sam_dean  genre:au  au:swesson  boys!dontregaintheirmemories  pining!dean  pining!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:facetsofcathy  0-5k  challenge:*minor  ~ 
9 weeks ago by Itsokaydean
All Our Tomorrows Thrown Away; teand
John discovers his sons are finding comfort in each other and while he almost understands why, he can't allow it to go on.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  genre:angst  john!findsout  bamf!John  pre-series  havepdf  archive:ao3  rating:R  author:teand  0-5k  challenge:*minor 
12 weeks ago by Itsokaydean
Mercury, Salt, and Sulfur; pyrebi
Hell and alchemy go hand in hand, see. It’s just a different sort of hell. Tag to 3.15 "Time Is On My Side."
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:angst  genre:horror  s3  3.15!coda  zombie!dean  zombie!sam  archive:ffnet  havepdf  rating:R  author:pyrebi  0-5k  ~ 
12 weeks ago by Itsokaydean
The Art of Compromise (Five Tries); wraith816
"It's in the rule book somewhere. Older brother doesn't have to take it."
Dean and Sam argue over who bottoms.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  genre:schmoop  genre:humor  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:wraith816  0-5k  ~ 
february 2019 by Itsokaydean
midwif; Askance
She's delivered hundreds--backwards babies, twisted cords, torn bodies, blood, urine, shit, sweat--she's seen it all. Until Eve.
supernatural  eve!givesbirth  genre:horror  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:askance  0-5k  s8  ~ 
february 2019 by Itsokaydean
The Dragon That Speaks Like A Lamb; thealexandriaarchives
"Hell got it wrong. Sam's not the Antichrist after all... Dean is. Of course, Sam's more than willing to play the part and front for his brother.

Dean is the Antichrist. But Sam is his False Prophet.
supernatural  sam_dean  genre:angst  genre:canon_divergence  antichrist!dean  falseprophet!sam  post-season3  inhell!dean  inhell!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:thealexandriaarchives  5-10k  challenge:sammessiah  ~ 
february 2019 by Itsokaydean
You Can Plan on Me; downjune
The snow comes down thick and heavy, now, blanketing the valley in white, turning the rusted corpses of the machines to harmless lumps. Jared perches on top of their own rusty lump and sips his spiked tea from a thermos. The whiskey as well as the hot liquid warm him from the inside out, even though his ass is still freezing and his toes have gone numb. He can’t stay out for much longer, not with this weather. But—Jensen’s late. Nearly a day late.
rps  jared_jensen  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:au  genre:dystopia  scientist!jared  soldier!jensen  genre:schmoop  smitten!jensen  smitten!jared  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:downjune  challenge:spn_j2_xmas  0-5k  ~ 
january 2019 by Itsokaydean
Twice Broken Makes A Whole; fullmoon_nightowl
Jensen’s eyes glide up and down his body. “Are you hungry? You must be hungry.”

Jared shakes his head. “I want to know why I’m here.”

“I’m going to make us some food,”

Jensen says as if he hasn’t heard Jared. “Pasta okay?”
rps  jared_jensen  genre:angst  genre:au  au:regular!joes  au:serial!killers  dark!jensen  dark!jared  jensen!kidnapsjared  stockholmsyndrome!jared  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:fullmoon_nightowl  challenge:spn_j2_xmas  5-10k  ~ 
january 2019 by Itsokaydean
cirrus; setissma
It’s all Sam’s fucking fault. Dean’s almost asleep, passed out in the passenger seat after a driver switch, when he hears a sudden click. “Shit,” Sam says. “What now?” Dean says. Inevitably, he’s not going to like what he hears, because Sam only starts swearing under his breath when something’s really fucked up. “She won’t shift,” Sam mutters, and then there’s kind of a low rumble, and Sam pulls over.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  genre:schmoop  Protective!Dean  physicallyhurt!sam  drugged!sam  archive:lj  rating:R  author:setissma  havepdf  0-5k  ~ 
december 2018 by Itsokaydean
All That I'm Good For; witling
The whole thing was fucked up to start with. You can't grow up with someone and half-raise or be half-raised by them, have one dead parent and one insane and hell-bent on training you up to be a wolfhound—you can't be that person, live alongside that person, and not be fucked up. You can't. It isn't possible.
supernatural  sam_dean  freakedout!dean  pining!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  Protective!Dean  scared!dean  s2  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:witling  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  0-5k  ~ 
december 2018 by Itsokaydean
More Than Meets The Eye; astolat
Dean had them heading towards Golden Valley on I-93 when the semi and the fighter jet went screaming by, blasting at each other with what looked like laserbeams. That was crazy enough, even before both of them smashed into the overpass and stopped long enough to unfold into giant robots. (Crossover with Transformers)
supernatural  sam_dean  crossover:transformers  baby!turnsintoarobot  happy!dean  happy!sam  rating:R  author:astolat  archive:ao3  0-5k  genre:humor  ~ 
december 2018 by Itsokaydean
after that, the road; summerboysam
Sam can’t figure out whether he’s bound to his rotting flesh, his battered bones strewn among the arsenal in the trunk, or if he’s bound to this car (the leather of the seats, the rattling band of army men, the carvings in the walls). Or maybe it’s Dean. It’s probably Dean, in death as well as in life.

-----

Sam dies and doesn't leave. Dean follows soon. The world keeps turning.
supernatural  sam_dean(implied)  ghost!sam  suicidal!dean  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  genre:angst  genre:horror  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:summerboysam  0-5k  ~ 
november 2018 by Itsokaydean
see you when I see you; osmalic
He doesn't see Dean everywhere. It's not like Jessica, who was always a stray shadow at the corner of his eyes. Dean's absence is a gaping hole, something that Sam can never forget, seared in his brain. He doesn't see Dean everywhere but he wants to. He misses him, wants him back, wants-- He drinks a lot, tries to fool his brain into an inebriated state where he'll start thinking that guy shooting some pool, the idiot flirting with the waitress, the man sitting next to Sam and discreetly stealing his peanuts is just here-a-Dean-there-a-Dean-everywhere-a-Dean. It's not the same, and the alcohol doesn't work.
supernatural  sam_dean(implied)  sam_ruby  genre:angst  s4  grieving!sam  desperate!sam  inhell!dean  pining!sam  dean!comesback  genre:canon_compliant  archive:ij  author:osmalic  rating:R  challenge:remix  0-5k  havepdf  ~ 
november 2018 by Itsokaydean
Sam/Dean Epic Love 'verse; longsufferingly
Starts in 2006--In which Jared (currently Gilmore Girls, season six) meets Jensen (currently on Dark Angel) and the two become friends.
rps  jared_jensen  genre:au  genre:non-au  actor!jared  actor!jensen  pining!jensen  smitten!jensen  smitten!jared  genre:schmoop  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:longsufferingly  5-10k  ~  epiclove_verse 
october 2018 by Itsokaydean
Heaven's Just A Sin Away; jeyhawk_fic
The first time Jared saw a ghost, he was seven years old. His older brother Jeff, ever the caring one, dared him to go into the neighborhood haunted house alone, and Jared had never been one to back down on a dare. The house was old and hadn’t been occupied for at least ten years; debris was cluttered in the corners and it smelled like mildew. 
rps  jared_jensen  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:schmoop  genre:au  medium!jared  comapatient!jensen  ghost!jensen  pining!jensen  pining!jared  shy!jared  au:ghosts  au:college  student!jared  student!jensen  archive:lj  havepdf  author:jayhawk  rating:R  challenge:*minor  15-20k  ~ 
october 2018 by Itsokaydean
Round One; 9091
Dean Winchester is horny and bored, and abandoned houses don't have pay-per-view.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  s7  horny!dean  exasperated!sam  genre:schmoop  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:9091  0-5k  ~ 
october 2018 by Itsokaydean
Before; sandymg
Life with Jensen is nothing like Jared ever could have imagined. But now that it's over, all he can do is follow the pieces to where it began.
rps  jared_jensen  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  mentallyill!jensen  protective!Jared  protective!jensen  emotionallyhurt!jared  emotionallyhurt!jensen  genre:au  au:regular!joes  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:sandymg  5-10k  ~ 
october 2018 by Itsokaydean
fly; Askance
Sam wakes up in an unfamiliar room with Dean and finds that he can't remember anything past the moment when those angels began to fall from Heaven. He has a sneaking suspicion that something is not quite right.
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:hurt_comfort  bodyhorror!sam  Protective!Dean  dean!savessam  post-season8  physicallyhurt!sam  characterdeath_(sam)  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:askance  5-10k  ~ 
september 2018 by Itsokaydean
andronicus; minviendha
They fed Dean human flesh in hell. Sometimes he gets the strongest cravings, looking at a girl walking down the street or a jogger on his afternoon run. Or Sam. Especially Sam.
supernatural  genre:angst  genre:horror  post-hell!dean  ptsd!dean  clueless!sam  dean!killssam  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:minviendha_(lise)  0-5k  challenge:sharp_teeth  ~ 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
thickned summer blood; xxamlaxx
The people of Burkettsville, Indiana will stop at nothing to save their town, and the professor knows that they can bring the Scarecrow back to life in a new body. All they have to do is crucify the man who killed him.
supernatural  sam&dean  outsider!pov  1.11!coda  S1  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  god!dean  dean!killssam  dean!turnsintoamonster  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:xxamlaxx  0-5k  challenge:sharp_teeth  genre:horror  ~ 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
your p's and q's; i_speak_tongue
Which is the true evil? The brother who now survives on human flesh or the one who willingly supplies the meat?
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:angst  genre:horror  sick!Dean  caretaker!sam  rescuer!sam  physicallyhurt!dean  zombie!dean  sam!savesdean  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:i_speak_tongue  0-5k  challenge:sharp_teeth  ~ 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
Memory Foam; downjune
To leave
I would have to put clothes on,
and they’d have to fit better
than all of this skin.

or

Getting up in the morning is not easy.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  8.14!coda  s8  genre:schmoop  happy!dean  happy!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:downjune  challenge:salt_burn_porn  0-5k  ~ 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
Wolf in lamb's clothing; Zara_Zee
No-one has ever succeeded in ripping Dean off or taking anything he hadn’t agreed to give, because Dean has been trained by a Marine to fight monsters. Sometimes, putting a douchebag on his ass and making him genuinely fear for his life is the best part of Dean’s evening.
supernatural  pre-series  hooker!dean  genre:angst  oblivious!sam  oblivious!john  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:zara_zee  0-5k  challenge:hoodie_time  ~ 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
I Feel it Way Down (way down); formalizing
Dean eventually gets out of hell, but angels have nothing to do with it. Sam is willing to make a lot of exceptions to his morals and principles in order to have his brother back. (AU after season 3)
supernatural  sam_dean  post-hell!dean  post-season3  demon!dean  dark!dean  abused!sam  sexuallyabused!sam  tw:dub-con  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  dysfunctional!boys  genre:angst  genre:canon_divergence  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:formalizing  0-5k  ~ 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Home Front; destina
When the time came, Dean chose the house: a modest one-story fixer-upper with one bedroom, on the corner of an established street lined by tall old trees. After so many years of living out of duffel bags and the trunk of a car, they had very little of their own, but they hauled it all in anyway, a ten-minute job at best. 
supernatural  sam_dean  genre:schmoop  genre:domestic  boys!settledown  boys!buyahouse  retired!fromhunting  future!fic  archive:lj  rating:R  author:destina  0-5k  ~ 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Cross-country; zillah975
On their way back from a hunt, John and Dean discover worse things in the woods than a vengeful spirit.
supernatural  pre-series  bamf!John  bamf!dean  scared!dean  determined!dean  violence  genre:angst  physicallyhurt!john  emotionallyhurt!dean  scared!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:zillah975  0-5k  ~ 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Now I lay me down to sleep; fleshflutter
Sam knows the difference between dreams and nightmares and knows which Dean is having. He makes sure there's hot, black coffee waiting for Dean in the morning when he wakes, offers to drive and doesn't comment on the corpse-grey shadows beneath Dean's eyes.
supernatural  sam_dean  dream!dean  demon!dean  3.10!coda  genre:angst  tw:dub-con  scared!dean  scared!sam  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:fleshflutter  0-5k  ~ 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Strange Love; viviansface
It's not the strangest dream Dean has ever had. He's still in the Bunker, but he knows it is a dream: the air is more of a substance embracing him, and breathing feels like swimming, not like breathing.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  genre:hurt_comfort  s8  dream!dean  dream!sam  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:viviansface  0-5k  ~  challenge:springfling 
june 2018 by Itsokaydean
A Door, about to Open; elless18
 AU. Jensen really needs a date for his sister's wedding. Showing up dateless would mean facing his mom and ex-boyfriend alone, so Jensen's a little desperate. But just how desperate is he?
rps  jared_jensen  genre:au  genre:schmoop  au:fake!boyfriends  movieremakes  friendstolovers  baker!jensen  lawyer!jared  pining!jensen  pining!jared  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:elless18  5-10k  ~ 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
Aetos Dios; keep_waking_up
Canon AU after 8x06. Sam and Dean still weren’t speaking when they moved on to their next case.  Sam felt like someone was watching him and he kept seeing this strange eagle everywhere he went.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  boys!breakup  boys!getbacktogether  kidnapped!sam  angry!dean  sam!feelsguilty  8.06!coda  amnesiac!sam  rescuer!dean  Protective!Dean  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:keep_waking_up  10-15k  challenge:reversebang  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:angst  ~ 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
Miles to Go; raina_at
Dean's noticed in the past that everything looks different under moonlight. Colors give way to stark white or night-time black, settling dust looks a lot like snow, and the damage to the Impala doesn't look nearly as bad. His own reflection in the window looks colorless, a waxy mask, unfamiliar. 
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  s2  grieving!sam  grieving!dean  Sam_Jess(past)  worried!dean  pining!dean  angry!dean  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  5-10k  author:raina_at  ~ 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
This Far, No Further; nwspaprtaxis
Stabbing a Leviathan-filled angel isn't something someone can just recover from. Especially when he has a brain full of Hell before he even makes the attempt. Dean cares for his catatonic, insane little brother. And angsts. And barely copes.
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:angst  genre:horror  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  boys!gotoheaven  s7  brokenwall!sam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  suicidal!dean  dean!killssam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:nwspaprtaxis  5-10k  challenge:*bang  ao3!collection  lilbrorec  tissie  ~ 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
Look What They Made Author; longsufferingly
When a high-profile robotic rights lawyer is murdered, Detective Jared Padalecki is assigned a new partner--advanced robot Jensen Ackles. To say Jared isn't looking forward to working with a bot is a massive understatement, and he has no idea what he's in for.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/259204
rps  jared_jensen  genre:au  genre:hurt_comfort  robot!jensen  cop!jensen  cop!jared  rating:R  author:longsufferingly  archive:lj  havepdf  5-10k  tissie  ~  prejudiced!jared  enemiestolovers  first-kiss  au:cops  au:ai 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ The Night Goes By; BlueNeutrino
It's a long night when Sam and Dean first arrive at the prison, separated from each other to be strip searched, manhandled and humiliated before being thrown into cramped concrete cells. The nights that follow are longer.
supernatural  sam&dean  12.09!coda  imprisoned!dean  imprisoned!sam  humiliated!dean  genre:angst  genre:gen  non-con_(attempted)  sexuallyabused!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  sick!Dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  worried!dean  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:blueneutrino  Protective!Dean  challenge:*bang  5-10k  s12  tissie  ~  + 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
event horizon; deadlybride
Amara said, you gave me what I needed most. I want to do the same for you. Amara, who is defined as empty absence, recreated life. It goes as well as can be expected.
supernatural  sam&dean  dark!mary  s12  oblivious!sam  oblivious!dean  boys!killmary  genre:angst  genre:gen  genre:horror  rating:R  author:deadlybride  havepdf  archive:ao3  0-5k  mary!comesback  tissie  ~ 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
devil tips his hat (outtake); wheebubbles
"Blend in," Sam repeats slowly.

"Yeah," Dean says, stretching his arms above his head and hooking his fingers in the gap between headboard and wall. "I mean, every shitty little town's got at least a few whores, right?"

"What, now you want to pay the people we kill?"

"I gotta spell everything out for you, Sammy? How you got that scholarship..." Dean shakes his head. "Come on. Sun's down, and I'm hungry."
supernatural  sam_dean  vampire!dean  vampire!sam  rating:R  archive:lj  havepdf  author:wheebubbles  0-5k  tissie  ~  vampire_verse 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
devil tips his hat; wheebubbles
After. Well, after is pretty much the same as before.  They make pit stops more often, spending a lot more time around hospitals and get blood from butchers when they have to; the real blood lust can be lulled and quieted for a time.  Mostly, yeah, it's the same except the ways it's different.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  vampire!dean  vampire!sam  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  archive:lj  havepdf  author:wheebubbles  rating:R  0-5k  tissie  ~  vampire_verse 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
Council for the Defense; teand
Dean's expecting hellhounds.  Everyone else got hellhounds, right?  But they're on day 365 and no hellhounds.  
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  sam!savesdean  s3  genre:humor  powers!Sam  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  0-5k  author:teand  tissie  ~ 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
Tales of origin and apocalypse; fleshflutter
At dawn, they gather on the banks of the river. The sky is low and heavy, and ashen sunlight slips over the grey, bloated corpses bobbing on the surface of the water.
supernatural  genre:gen  genre:horror  bodyhorror!dean  inhell!dean  post-season3  rating:R  author:fleshflutter  archive:lj  havepdf  0-5k  genre:angst  tissie  ~ 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
Even Living Legends Need Eggs; belyste
Sam and Dean stop for the night in a random small town in Iowa, but it turns out Dean's been there before - and the townspeople have an interesting reaction to his return. 
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:gen  genre:casefic  genre:humor  scared!dean  rescuer!sam  amused!sam  dean!isalocalhero  rating:R  archive:lj  havepdf  author:belyste  5-10k  tissie  ~ 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
Incest Powers ACTIVATE; silverpenlight
So here's the thing. Apparently, psychic powers are contagious. And not only that, they're STDs.
supernatural  sam_dean  powers!Sam  powers!dean  genre:humor  archive:lj  havepdf  author:silverpenlight  rating:R  0-5k  tissie  ~ 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
The World About to Come; esorlehcar
There is no beginning. 

Not the first kiss, not the first fuck. Not the first time Sam slept in Dean's arms, when they were small enough that they still fit in Dean's narrow race-car bed. Not even when Dean carried him from the fire that robbed them of their mother and any semblance of a normal life. 

There is no beginning. There is Sam and there is Dean and there is Sam and Dean and there's never been anything else. Only the mechanics change.
supernatural  sam_dean  S1  genre:hurt_comfort  first-time  first-kiss  pining!sam  possessive!sam  rating:R  archive:lj  havepdf  author:esorlehcar  0-5k  tissie  ~  downtotheend_verse 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
Few and Far Between; sevenfists
In July, they drive the whole length of old Route 66, Chicago to LA. It's something Dean's always wanted to do. He buys a map and spreads it out on the bed one night, while they're eating pizza and watching Leno, and traces his finger along the crooked yellow line.
supernatural  sam_dean  first-time  genre:schmoop  postdeal!dean  determined!sam  roadtrip  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:sevenfists  0-5k  tissie  ~ 
march 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ Conversations With The Dead; Lennelle
Sometimes, a parent might tuck in their child at night and find an empty bed in the morning. In 1996, Sam Winchester vanished in an empty room. He reappeared two months later with missing hair, bruises and vacant eyes. By 2000, Dean Winchester is a hunter in his own right. He travels to Minnesota where his brother now lives with Pastor Jim, a long-time friend of their father's. The thing is, John Winchester recently went into the house that ruined his youngest son and he never came back out. Thing is, Sam is the only person who knows what's in the house. Thing is, Sam Winchester hasn't spoken in four years.
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:gen  paula  genre:angst  genre:horror  traumatized!sam  mute!Sam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  kidnapped!sam  pre-series  john!disappears  sam!disappears  author:lennelle  rating:R  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  25-30k  ~  +  genre:casefic 
march 2018 by Itsokaydean
Life is a banquet; chaopatties
Fucking redcaps.

Dean never liked anything that fell into the fairy folk category anyway, but
redcaps held a special place in the "go to Hell and die" section of his heart.
Unlike most of their kin, these damn things were immune to iron and thus the
usual fairy-trapping tricks didn't do jack to them. And of course they had to go
and rub it in, all running around like frigging cheetahs in
iron boots, waving their stupid little hats
around and slinging blood everywhere which, aside from being rude and gross, was
just plain unsanitary. Seriously, that was human blood there and Dean was pretty
sure redcaps didn't pre-screen their victims for blood-borne diseases.
supernatural  sam_dean  first-time  genre:humor  cursed!dean  cursed!sam  boys!cantstopeating  genre:schmoop  genre:casefic  archive:extsite  rating:R  5-10k  author:chaopatties  havepdf  tissie  ~ 
march 2018 by Itsokaydean
Summer's lease; sylvanwitch
Sam and Dean find themselves in the strangest deep Southern town and things get complicated when they meet siblings named Snopes.
supernatural  sam_dean  genre:casefic  first-time  altered!reality  genre:crossover  crossover:faulkner  genre:southerngothic  rating:R  author:sylvanwitch  5-10k  archive:lj  havepdf  tissie  ~ 
february 2018 by Itsokaydean
Irony, Not To Be Mistaken With Coincidence; fourfreedoms
It's Spring Break, 2002 and Sam and Dean find themselves the butt of the "brother fucking" curse.
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february 2018 by Itsokaydean
Can You Blame Me?; dragonspell
It’s nearing midnight and Sam is in a bit of a mood. Or rather, the man masquerading as Dean’s brother is in a mood.
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