Itsokaydean + post-hell!dean   32

andronicus; minviendha
They fed Dean human flesh in hell. Sometimes he gets the strongest cravings, looking at a girl walking down the street or a jogger on his afternoon run. Or Sam. Especially Sam.
supernatural  genre:angst  genre:horror  post-hell!dean  ptsd!dean  clueless!sam  dean!killssam  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  author:minviendha_(lise)  0-5k  challenge:sharp_teeth  ~ 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
I Feel it Way Down (way down); formalizing
Dean eventually gets out of hell, but angels have nothing to do with it. Sam is willing to make a lot of exceptions to his morals and principles in order to have his brother back. (AU after season 3)
supernatural  sam_dean  post-hell!dean  post-season3  demon!dean  dark!dean  abused!sam  sexuallyabused!sam  tw:dub-con  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  dysfunctional!boys  genre:angst  genre:canon_divergence  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:formalizing  0-5k  ~ 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Before you're lost between the notes; SinOfPride
“Dean, please, I’m sorry,” Sam whispered, voice a shaky whisper, but he still wasn’t moving away and Dean didn’t know what Sam expected from him. What the next step was.
supernatural  sam_dean  first-time  4.04!coda  boys!argue  determined!sam  exhausted!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  post-hell!dean  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:nc-17  5-10k  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  author:sinofpride  ~ 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
Hit the Ground Crawling; jonny_vrm (elmo_loves_me)
After Sam pulls Dean out of Hell, Dean stops talking. It takes a week for Sam to convince Dean to open his mouth so Sam can check that his tongue hasn't been cut out. It takes two weeks for Sam to accept that Dean really isn't talking. Then it takes a week of silence, the two of them sitting in the Impala like ventriloquist dummies, sitting in motel rooms like human taxidermy, before Sam decides to start talking for the both of them
supernatural  sam_dean  first-time  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  electivemutism!dean  post-hell!dean  sam!savesdean  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  genre:casefic  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:nc-17  sam!leaves  challenge:bigbang  author:jonny_vrm  25-30k  tissie  ~ 
march 2018 by Itsokaydean
Come Home in the Car You Love; sevenfists
It seems fucking stupid now—worse: naive—but Dean honest-to-God thought that everything would stop after he went to Hell. A big cosmic reset button. Like his death would settle the universe's score and Sam could make himself some kind of real life, one that didn't involve hitching his fate to Dean's inevitable demise.
supernatural  sam_dean  post-hell!dean  ptsd!dean  worried!dean  worried!sam  suicidal!sam_(past)  s4  boys!getbacktogether  author:sevenfists  archive:ao3  rating:nc-17  tissie  ~  5-10k  havepdf 
november 2017 by Itsokaydean
Cupid's Got A Gun; geckoholic
Fuck-or-die, set in early S4. But they've been fucking for years, so that shouldn't be a problem, right? Wrong. Ever since hell, Dean's in no hurry to get that show on the road again. They've tried, and it doesn't work, too many bad memories from what's been done to him downstairs. A case that involves a cursed cross and a vengeful witch takes that choice away from them, though...
supernatural  sam_dean  rating:nc-17  established!relationship  post-hell!dean  ptsd!dean  non-con  cursed!dean  worried!sam  rescuer!sam  caretaker!sam  s4  casefic  author:geckoholic  havepdf  archive:ao3  tissie  ~  kink:fuck-or-die 
february 2017 by Itsokaydean
In the Earth; badbastion
There's something under the ground, Dean can feel it. It had almost reached him when he pulled himself from his grave and now it's following him everywhere, just waiting for its chance to pull him back under the cold, dark earth and bury him forever.
supernatural  genre:gen  post-hell!dean  character!study  genre:horror  ptsd!dean  hallucinating!dean  post-season3  archive:lj  author:badbastion  havepdf  rating:pg-13  0-5k  tissie  ~ 
february 2017 by Itsokaydean
Light Mechanic; laurificus
It's a little stupid to keep being smacked around with joy like this, but there it is, anyway. Like a baseball bat that's always just one good hit away from bringing Sam to his knees.
supernatural  sam_dean  post-season3  post-hell!dean  recovering!dean  Protective!Sam  first-time  genre:schmoop  rating:pg  author:laurificus  archive:lj  havepdf  0-5k  tissie  ~ 
january 2017 by Itsokaydean
Me and the Devil Blues; britomart_is
It’s been nine months since the hellhounds dragged Dean into the Pit, and Sam drives along the coast highway with an empty passenger seat beside him. He hums along to Black Sabbath in the tape deck—Dean’s music, not his, but Sam learned to make concessions a long time ago.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  demon!dean  post-hell!dean  boys!shareabody  tw:dub-con  rating:nc-17  possessed!sam  author:britomart_is  havepdf  physicallyhurt!sam  devilblues_verse  archive:ao3  tissie  ~  5-10k  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort 
december 2016 by Itsokaydean
+ Two Steps to the Left; cards_slash
 Dean came back from hell (oh boy did he ever) a little different than he went. Now he’s got an angel after him and all he wants is for that stupid bitch to leave his brother alone.
supernatural  sam_dean  first-time  demon!dean  post-hell!dean  rating:r  author:cards_slash  s4  tissie  ~  +  archive:lj  havepdf  10-15k  genre:angst  genre:horror 
october 2016 by Itsokaydean
Holey Dinner; adrenalineshots
So it's Thanksgiving and Sam and Dean are eating at a restaurant. Dean doesn't just choke - he gets a mouthful of something that makes his throat start to swell shut. Naturally there are people staring, murmuring, maybe even a few screams. Of course, after Mystery Spot, Sam hit the books, and he's prepared to give his brother a tracheotomy right there with whatever equipment he can find. Unfortunately, Dean has been recently traumatized. He regains consciousness while Sam is doing the procedure. The only thing that matters is that Dean can tell that his throat has been cut and there is someone standing over him with a bloody knife. He fights, and the crowd has to help hold him down.”
supernatural  genre:au  genre:angst  sam&dean  physicallyhurt!dean  choking!dean  rescuer!sam  post-hell!dean  s4  author:adrenalineshots  archive:lj  needspdf  tissie  rating:pg  0-5k  ~ 
october 2016 by Itsokaydean
The wound; sandymg
"After Hell Dean's pain tolerance is ridiculously high. Sam is impressed, and disturbed by it."
supernatural  gen  hurt!dean  post-hell!dean  s4  guilty!sam  archive:lj  author:sandymg  rating:pg-13  needspdf 
june 2016 by Itsokaydean
Dimensions and Verticals; bellatemple
Sam accidentally gets Dean out of Hell. The results are something no one could have expected. . . .
supernatural  genre:gen  genre:humor  post-hell!dean  post-season3  sam!savesdean  rescuer!sam  drawing!dean  author:bellatemple  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  0-5k  ~ 
may 2016 by Itsokaydean
SPN FIC: Erase My Pain with Your Body: Vignettes from the Torture Chamber (Sam/Dean; NC-17) - ...
The summer is hotter than usual. Dean suffers; the intense heat reminds him of a time in his life he'd rather forget. Luckily Sam is with him. It isn't that Sam is doing anything, really, but he manages to help Dean cope with the torture he endured in Hell anyway.
sam_dean  traumatized!dean  ptsd!dean  post-hell!dean  protective!sam 
february 2016 by Itsokaydean
a summer themed Dean-focused h/c comment meme (themed comment meme #4) - like a fever that just won't break.
One thing about hell is that it was really hot and dry, and kinda, in some places, like the horror-version of a desert. Once Dean's back, it's not much of a problem; they happen to pick hunts in colder regions most of the time, and if they do end up somewhere summery, he can bottle it up well enough.

Until they stumble upon a hunt in New Mexico (or, you know, wherever) in the middle of summer, and get lost in the desert...
hurt!dean  protective!sam  post-hell!dean  sunstroke!dean 
february 2016 by Itsokaydean
Rip us out at the seams; fleshflutter
A heavy truck sweeps past on the road and the Impala rocks gently. Sam comes awake in the washed-out gray morning, which has just enough clear sky to promise brighter hours ahead. It's cold in the car and there's a wet fog of condensation along the bottom of the windows where their breath has gathered during the night. Sam's mouth tastes sour and stale. 
sam_dean  supernatural  hooker!dean  rating:nc-17  jealous!sam  oblivious!sam  s3  s4  powers!Sam  first-time  post-hell!dean  author:fleshflutter  archive:lj  havepdf  tissie  ~  genre:angst  5-10k 
october 2015 by Itsokaydean
Take a Good Look Around (The Seein' You Remix); dreamlittleyo
Dean's not the same person when he comes back from Hell, but Sam's not himself either. Dean is still determined to take care of his brother. He just goes about it a little differently than he used to.
supernatural  sam_dean  s4  post-hell!dean  powers!Sam  pining!sam  pining!dean  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:canon_divergence  sam_ruby  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:nc-17  author:dreamlittleyo  challenge:remix  5-10k  ~ 
september 2015 by Itsokaydean
dean-centric fic & art meme #8 - like a fever that just won't break.
He's in the middle of doing something totally mundane, like laundry or eating breakfast or getting gas, and Dean just stops. Stops moving, responding, talking. He goes catatonic, and Sam isn't around. Townsfolk are confused/mean/worried/helpful and someon
outsider!pov  post-hell!dean  hurt!dean  protective!sam  imported_delicious 
september 2015 by Itsokaydean
The Depths Of Your Mind; legoline
Sam watched his only brother die and fall into Hell. Even though he managed to save Dean from Hell, Sam still hasn't been able to forgive himself for the nightmare he put his brother through. Now, when Dean is abducted and returns with new abilities that threaten to kill him once more, Sam learns that his powers he thought died with the demon may be the only thing to save Dean.

First chapter on pdf.
supernatural  sam&dean  protective!sam  sick!dean  rating:r  kidnapped!dean  post-hell!dean  powers!dean  rescuer!sam  kidnappedbyscientists!dean  author:legoline  havepdf  genre:angst  genre:gen  *deleted_havepdf 
july 2015 by Itsokaydean
Down in Albion - Subterranean Homesick Blues (Supernatural, gen)
Unknown to Sam, Dean has been reliant on anti-anxiety medication since he got back from Hell. [...] One day he wakes up to find that Sam has thrown out all his pills, painkillers, tranqs and booze: he's decided it's time for his brother to sober up. Dean
hurt!dean  post-hell!dean  sam  winchester  imported_delicious 
april 2015 by Itsokaydean
like a fever that just won't break. - a Dean-focused hurt/comfort comment meme (#6)
Dean's struggling and it's so hard and so tiring to stay "on" all the time - to appear as normal as possible, to be who he used to be - all smartass and cracking jokes and flirting . But it's so so so hard to force himself to the simplest things in front
hurt!dean  post-hell!dean  protective!sam  hurt_comfort  imported_delicious 
april 2015 by Itsokaydean
like a fever that just won't break. - a Dean-focused hurt/comfort comment meme (#6)
In hell Dean spent a lot of time retreating into his mind as much as he could/separating himself from physical pain and damaging words/Alistair’s mind games. In season seven or beyond when he finally reaches his limit, he retreats back inside himself agai
post-hell!dean  protective!sam  catatonic!Dean  hurt_comfort  rating:pg  hurt!dean  imported_delicious 
march 2015 by Itsokaydean

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