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Into Oblivion; cherie_morte
AU after 8x23: Sam dies before completing the last trial, leaving Dean alone and desperate. After a month of trying to bring Sam back, Dean gets a tip from the most unlikely of places: Metatron. Now reigning in Heaven, the angel is still looking for stories—one in particular. Sam and Dean broke destiny when they derailed the apocalypse, rewrote the book Metatron had penned himself thousands of years ago, and now theirs is the only history the Scribe of God can't access. Although he has Sam's soul captive in Heaven, no amount of torture has convinced Sam to give up his and Dean's life story. Metatron gives Dean a scroll and makes a bet: if Dean can follow the instructions and return Sam's soul to his body within three days, Heaven will relinquish its claim on Sam. If he can't, Dean will forget he ever had a brother and all of his memories of Sam will belong to Metatron. It sounds like a fair enough deal, but of course there's a catch. From the moment Dean reads the instructions, he begins to forget Sam and his quest, each memory disappearing faster the more clues he leaves himself. It's a race against the clock to decide Sam's life, and it's all or nothing. Dean will get his brother back—or lose him completely.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  post-season8  amnesiac!dean  cursed!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  abused!sam  characterdeath_(sam)  characterdeath_(temporary)  tortured!sam  8.23!coda  dean!savessam  archive:ao3  genre:angst  author:cherie_morte  havepdf  rating:nc-17  tissie  20-25k  challenge:reversebang  ~ 
june 2017 by Itsokaydean
Skin Like Fear; fantamae
Here's the thing: Sam comes back from Hell with a bubble of space around him. He doesn't want to be touched, especially by Dean, and he won't explain. He won't talk about Hell at all, and Dean's going crazy. It's going to take a strange case (and a little magic) in Michigan to break the floodgates, but when Dean finally learns the truth, he might wish that he hadn't...
supernatural  sam_dean  Sam_Lucifer  tw:non-con_(past)  postcage!Sam  sexuallyabused!sam(past)  tortured!sam  first-time  hallucinating!sam  worried!dean  Protective!Dean  rescuer!dean  author:fantamae  rating:nc-17  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  ~  genre:casefic  genre:angst  emotionallyhurt!sam  15-20k  challenge:samdean_otp 
april 2017 by Itsokaydean
Three Days on the Rack; keerawa
It’s been months, but Sam finally found a crossroads demon willing to Deal to get Dean’s soul out of Hell. The Deal sounded too good to be true. Sam took it anyway.
supernatural  sam_dean  tortured!sam  torturer!dean  sam!savesdean  open!ending  sam!makesadeal  hell!dean  tw:non-con  abused!sam  sexuallyabused!sam  author:keerawa  havepdf  rating:nc-17  archive:ao3  tissie  ~  genre:angst  0-5k 
april 2017 by Itsokaydean
The Holy Trinity; checkthemargins
Sam is compensating for having Lucifer in his head by going into hyperfunctional mode. I want to see touches of Mystery Spot OCD Sam: hospital corners, perfect efficiency, everything under control, everything in place. It works. He still hallucinates, but he can keep going through it, he can wall himself off from being affected by fear of his breaks with reality and by the trauma of the things he remembers and hallucinates. He just has to keep going further and further into his coping mechanism, because if it breaks it will all come crashing down and that will not be good.
supernatural  sam_dean  s7  hallucinating!sam  hallucifer  OCD!sam  worried!dean  Protective!Dean  supportive!dean  established!relationship  physicallyhurt!sam  tortured!sam  psychoticbreak!sam  genre:angst  brokenwall!sam  author:checkthemargins  rating:R  archive:lj  havepdf  tissie  ~  emotionallyhurt!sam  challenge:ohsam  10-15k 
january 2017 by Itsokaydean
Sacrament; riyku
In Seminary, Sam cultivated a love of knowledge and of God, in exactly that order. He was taught that vampires were real, that silver could take down a werewolf, and that belief could be a living, breathing thing. In Seminary, Dean learned how to fight. Most of all, Dean learned to have faith in his brother. They were both introduced to the true meaning of war. Now the war is finished and the church has disbanded their sect of elite warriors, leaving them to fend in an unfamiliar civilian society. They are ragtag refugees of a war everyone tries to forget. For Sam and Dean, however, the fight is far from over.
supernatural  sam_dean  genre:au  priest!dean  priest!sam  genre:dystopia  rebel!sam  rebel!dean  au:rebels  tortured!sam  rescuer!dean  Protective!Dean  author:riyku  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  ~  first-time  rating:R  physicallyhurt!sam  10-15k  challenge:samdean_otp  au:priests  genre:angst 
december 2016 by Itsokaydean
A Threefold Path to Redemption; rei_c
Sam finds a way to keep Dean from going to hell: he'll go in his brother's place. He knows it's going to be bad and that he'll emerge changed. He never knew how much.
sam_dean  demon!sam  boyking!sam  tw:dub-con  tw:non-con  sam!savesdean  author:rei_c  +100k  supernatural  Sam_OMC  sam_ofc  dean_omc  genre:angst  genre:horror  inhell!sam  archive:lj  rating:nc-17  ~  tortured!sam  sam!swapsplacew/dean  helpless!dean  havepdf  genre:canon_divergence 
december 2015 by Itsokaydean
Bearable; ancastar
Sam is strung up so tight, Dean doesn't know how his body still has the freedom to move with every blow. But it does.
rating:pg-13  sam&dean  Protective!Dean  supernatural  tortured!sam  author:ancastar  archive:lj  havepdf  tissie  ~  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  genre:gen  genre:angst  abused!sam  challenge:ohsam  0-5k 
october 2014 by Itsokaydean

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