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Ticks Like a Time Bomb; faequeentitania
Sam grew up with Dean's heavy breath as a lullaby. Every night, steady as clockwork. There are few things in the world that could frighten him the way the quiet from Dean's bed can. Coda for S01E12, "Faith."
supernatural  sam_dean(implied)  S1  1.12!coda  sick!Dean  physicallyhurt!dean  Protective!Sam  worried!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:faequeentitania  archive:ao3  0-5k  ~ 
march 2019 by Itsokaydean
after that, the road; summerboysam
Sam can’t figure out whether he’s bound to his rotting flesh, his battered bones strewn among the arsenal in the trunk, or if he’s bound to this car (the leather of the seats, the rattling band of army men, the carvings in the walls). Or maybe it’s Dean. It’s probably Dean, in death as well as in life.


Sam dies and doesn't leave. Dean follows soon. The world keeps turning.
supernatural  sam_dean(implied)  ghost!sam  suicidal!dean  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  genre:angst  genre:horror  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:summerboysam  0-5k  ~ 
november 2018 by Itsokaydean
see you when I see you; osmalic
He doesn't see Dean everywhere. It's not like Jessica, who was always a stray shadow at the corner of his eyes. Dean's absence is a gaping hole, something that Sam can never forget, seared in his brain. He doesn't see Dean everywhere but he wants to. He misses him, wants him back, wants-- He drinks a lot, tries to fool his brain into an inebriated state where he'll start thinking that guy shooting some pool, the idiot flirting with the waitress, the man sitting next to Sam and discreetly stealing his peanuts is just here-a-Dean-there-a-Dean-everywhere-a-Dean. It's not the same, and the alcohol doesn't work.
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november 2018 by Itsokaydean
Our life will never end; fleshflutter
After breakfast Dean tosses the motel room keys to Sam and heads out to the parking lot to pack up the Impala. They're planning on heading down to Jackson to follow up on some rumours of a poltergeist. It'll be a long drive but Sam doesn't mind. The sky is bruised and blue with banks of clouds but the glare of the sun burns atomic-white along the horizon. 
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july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Curse, Post-Curse; brokenlittleboy
Sam gets cursed by a witch and is left with vertigo, nausea, and migraines. In his condition, he goes out to fight the witch--but the end result is another curse, this time much worse. 
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may 2018 by Itsokaydean
Outside Your Coverage Zone; lazy_daze
It feels like days later when they're finally alone, but it's only a few hours - Castiel has freakishly good timing and they suddenly find themselves in a random motel somewhere north of Pittsburgh, blinking against the sudden lack of white light bleaching everything from the world.
supernatural  sam_dean(implied)  4.22!coda  voicemail!fix-it  anguished!dean  anguished!sam  hopeful!sam  s4  genre:hurt_comfort  challenge:commentfic  0-5k  archive:lj  havepdf  author:lazy_daze  rating:pg-13  ~ 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
Prayers to Summon the Destroying Angel; esorlehcar
It's been three days, four hours and six minutes since Dean woke up.

Three days, four hours and five minutes since Sam, looking haggard and pale, whispered, "I'm sorry," when Dean forced "Dad?" through his cracked, raw throat.

Three days, four hours and five minutes since Dean's world came crashing down.
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april 2018 by Itsokaydean
Run Run Riot; interflora
Turns out that Amelia isn't real - She was Sam's way of coping with Dean's "death". On Christmas, he and Dean stop by her to see her (and Riot), only to discover the truth. Sam goes into meltdown mode, and Dean has to calm him down. He also tries to figure out what really went down in the year he was gone
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march 2018 by Itsokaydean
Blindfold; fleshflutter
After the engine had gone quiet, Dean waited in the passenger seat for Sam to come and get him. There was the creak of the driver's door. That was the car rocking as Sam climbed out. That was Sam's boots biting gravel underfoot. 

It took Sam twelve steps to get around to the other side of the car, and while Dean waited, he studied the parts of his blindfold where there was no fold in the material, where the light could get through. Only the light. It could be anything out there, but only the light could get through.
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february 2018 by Itsokaydean
Fall For Nothing; belyste
John POV, implied Wincest, spans the events from Dead Man's Blood to In My Time of Dying.  In my head the boys started sleeping together sometime around the middle of season one, though it stopped when they met up with their father.  But John can't help but notice the way they are around each other, and it changes the way he sees everything.
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january 2018 by Itsokaydean
The Totally Clichéd Naked Cuddling Hypothermia Story; ignipes
The sleeping bags belonged to a couple of dead guys, but Sam was trying not to think about that. He shoved the gear aside and spread out the sleeping pads and bags. "Dean, get in here." He zipped the sleeping bags together and turned around, shoved back the tent flap and leaned out. "Hey, man, get your ass in here before you freeze to death.
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january 2018 by Itsokaydean
Glimpse; ygrawn
John figures Dean got the idea from that Dr. Seuss book about eggs and ham. When they tell Dean he’ll be getting a little brother or sister, Dean immediately says, “Oh, let’s call him Sam.”
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may 2016 by Itsokaydean
Many Worlds; wesleysgirl
Jensen has a raging headache when he wakes up. It's all he can do not to roll over and puke, but as soon as he groans there's a hand on his arm -- and he went to bed last night alone, didn't he? He'd swear he did -- squeezing, and an urgent voice talking way too fucking loud in his ear, and that's it. He pulls away, staggers toward a bathroom he doesn't remember either, and manages to get somewhere in the vicinity of the toilet before he hurls. "Jesus, Dean," someone says. If Jensen wasn't so busy throwing up stuff he ate so long ago he'd forgotten about it, he'd wonder about that being weird. By the time he's done puking, his sinuses burning and his eyes watering, he feels like dying."
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february 2016 by Itsokaydean
The Storyteller; toldthestars
You know, even when you were just a little kid, everyone said you weren’t right, that you were sick. They never said with what. You just were, and you had been since the fire.
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december 2015 by Itsokaydean
Of all the gin joints; lyra_wing
Sometimes Dean picks up prostitutes. It’s not something that either of them talks about, and it doesn’t happen a lot, but sometimes, when Dean has won a few extra hands of Hold ‘Em or the pool players in the local dive are extra stupid, he’ll drive down t
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october 2015 by Itsokaydean

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