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All Our Tomorrows Thrown Away; teand
John discovers his sons are finding comfort in each other and while he almost understands why, he can't allow it to go on.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  genre:angst  john!findsout  bamf!John  pre-series  havepdf  archive:ao3  rating:R  author:teand  0-5k  challenge:*minor 
february 2019 by Itsokaydean
untitled; maryaminx
One day, right about in the middle of the minor emotional peak between the end-of-October-early-November angstorama and the oh-crap-it's-the-holiday-season pit of despair, the fourteen year old who climbs into the passenger seat of the Impala at the gas station isn't Dean.
supernatural  pre-series  genre:angst  genre:gen  not!dean  clueless!sam  bamf!John  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:maryaminx  0-5k  challenge:sharp_teeth  ~ 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
The Dumbest Thing Dean Ever Did; hiyacynth
"This is the dumbest thing you’ve ever done."
"I dunno about that. 'Member that waitress in Tampa?"
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:gen  genre:humor  pre-series  bamf!John  bamf!sam  rescuer!sam  rescuer!john  gleeful!sam  embarrassed!dean  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  0-5k  author:hiyacynth  ~ 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Cross-country; zillah975
On their way back from a hunt, John and Dean discover worse things in the woods than a vengeful spirit.
supernatural  pre-series  bamf!John  bamf!dean  scared!dean  determined!dean  violence  genre:angst  physicallyhurt!john  emotionallyhurt!dean  scared!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:zillah975  0-5k  ~ 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
I wonder as I wander; fleshflutter
The compass is a small, smooth silver thing. It has a pleasing weight in John's palm.
supernatural  genre:angst  genre:gen  pre-series  hooker!dean  oblivious!sam  angry!john  bamf!John  rating:pg  archive:lj  havepdf  author:fleshflutter  0-5k  tissie  ~ 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
Carouselambra; brihana25
Eight years after a hunt with John and Bobby that ended in disaster, Sam and Dean return to Johnston, Iowa for what looks to be a simple job. It isn't long before they realize that things are not always what they seem, and it's not so easy to escape a horror that refuses to stay dead. The reality of the situation flies in the face of everything they know about spirits and forces them to confront their biggest fears. With one Winchester struggling against a nightmare that keeps dragging him back under, and the other reeling from the knowledge of what his brother is willing to sacrifice to protect him, they will have to find the strength to stand together and defeat the ghost that haunts them both, once and for all.
supernatural  sam&dean  sexuallyabused!dean  pre-series  S1  clueless!sam  abused!dean  Protective!Dean  bamf!John  author:brihana25  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  ~  genre:gen  genre:angst  Protective!Sam  tw:non-con_(past)  genre:casefic  tw:non-con  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  rating:R  40-50k 
november 2016 by Itsokaydean
Man, I hate witches; nongpradu
Someone (the who and why is up to you) sticks a doll in Dean’s image full of pins/sets it on fire/whatever, leading to many days of Dean being in pain and feverish and epic h/c.
supernatural  genre:gen  genre:angst  pre-series  cursed!dean  bamf!John  outsider!pov  author:nong_pradu  archive:lj  physicallyhurt!dean  0-5k  havepdf  tissie  ~ 
october 2016 by Itsokaydean
The Truth About Lies; dodger_winslow
 "You don’t tell someone a lie that’s harder to believe than the truth is," John said. "You make your lies easier to believe … something they want to believe, even if believing it hurts them. That’s the truth about lies, son: they only work if you tell ones that sound like the truth. And for Sammy, the truth he’s going to hear—the truth he’s going to believe—is that I forgot him, not that I’m trying to protect him."
supernatural  pre-series  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:gen  bamf!John  caring!john  angry!sam  understanding!dean  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  physicallyhurt!john  lying!john  lying!dean  oblivious!sam  author:dodger_winslow  keepgoing_verse  5-10k  ~ 
november 2015 by Itsokaydean
Keep Going; dodger_winslow
He was too far off the road. No one would see him lying here in a ditch; and even if they did, they probably wouldn’t stop. If he didn’t get up again, he’d freeze to death right where he fell, and they wouldn’t find his body until the spring thaw.
supernatural  pre-series  genre:angst  hypothermic!john  worried!dean  worried!john  physicallyhurt!john  bamf!John  worried!sam  genre:gen  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:dodger_winslow  0-5k  keepgoing_verse  ~ 
november 2015 by Itsokaydean
Don't Ask, Don't Tell; dodger_winslow
If we got in a wreck, and Sammy and I were both unconscious, and the Impala caught on fire so you only had time to save one of us, who would you save?
supernatural  pre-series  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:gen  bamf!John  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!john  smart!sam  rating:pg-13  author:dodger_winslow  archive:lj  havepdf  5-10k  tissie  ~ 
november 2015 by Itsokaydean
Open Your Eyes; dodger_winslow
'I uh … I think I’m hit, Dad," Dean managed a little shakily. John stopped what he was doing. He came over, knelt down; all business, no emotion, when he asked, "Where?" Dean looked at him, blinked again to stay focused. "I’m a … not … not really sure."
supernatural  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  physicallyhurt!dean  pre-series  bamf!John  protective!john  rating:pg-13  john!savesdean  archive:lj  havepdf  author:dodger_winslow  challenge:*minor  5-10k  genre:gen  ~ 
june 2015 by Itsokaydean
Epiphany; janissa11
It’s summer, the summer of 1995, and they’re in eastern New Mexico, holing up for the moment at Eldon Joseph’s enclave on the Red River.
non-con  hurt!dean  protective!john  bamf!John  Protective!Sam  pre-series  supernatural  dean_omc  sexuallyabused!dean  angst  author:janissa11  archive:lj  havepdf  tissie  ~  rating:R 
may 2015 by Itsokaydean

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