Itsokaydean + emotionallyhurt!dean   82

six feet under; littlefairy78
Digging up graves is part of a hunter's daily life. Being buried in one - not so much. Especially since Dean doesn't fit the main prerequisite of burial: he's not dead. Not yet. But if Sam doesn't find him soon, that could change quickly.
sam&dean  genre:gen  genre:angst  rescuer!sam  panicked!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  s2  archive:ffnet  havepdf  author:littlefairy78  20-25k  ~  fandom:supernatural 
april 2019 by Itsokaydean
Father of the year; sarosefic
Maybe Sam's more right about John than Dean wants to admit. Or maybe they're both wrong.
Or:
Just why did John leave Dean at Sonny's for two months?
sam&dean  hardass!john  distracted!john  physicallyhurt!john  emotionallyhurt!dean  oblivious!sam  pre-series  rating:pg-13  archive:lj  havepdf  author:sarosefic  0-5k  ~  fandom:supernatural 
april 2019 by Itsokaydean
To Repair Broken Men; procrastin8or951
Pre-series: Dad and Sam keep fighting. Dean can't fix his family, so he fixes things around the crappy apartment they are staying in eg. shelves, washing machine, heater/air conditioner.
sam&dean  pre-series  genre:angst  genre:gen  stanford!fight  physicallyhurt!dean  sick!Dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  blindsided!john  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:procrastin8or951  0-5k  challenge:hoodie_time  ~  fandom:supernatural 
january 2019 by Itsokaydean
Family Man; KelpietheThundergod
"You’re just like him." In that moment, it had felt like nothing could be worse. But at least the pain of those words was sharp and quick, and got him out of his spiral. A punch that he couldn’t exactly roll with, as it cut to deep for that, but the hits stopped coming after "Michael hurt you. He hurt me too." He did get punched in the face a couple times right after. But he deserved that anyway. The pain at home is different. More like being submerged all over again, and every time he reaches the surface, spluttering and gasping, the next wave comes, powerful and acidic.
sam&dean  genre:angst  s14  14.03!coda  ptsd!dean  OCD!dean  worried!sam  worried!castiel  emotionallyhurt!dean  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:pg-13  genre:gen  0-5k  author:kelpiethethundergod  ~  fandom:supernatural 
december 2018 by Itsokaydean
a long hard day, a long hard night; deadlybride
When Dean’s body disappears from his bedroom after Metatron kills him, Sam nearly goes crazy looking for him—torturing demons, ruining relationships with other hunters, trying anything at all that will help. Digging through the Men of Letters archives, he finally finds a ritual that might bring Dean back. The cost isn’t something he worries about; when it comes to Dean, no cost is too high.
sam_dean  established!relationship  moc!dean  s10  boyking!sam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  genre:angst  genre:horror  sam!savesdean  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:nc-17  author:deadlybride  challenge:*bang  30-40k  ~  fandom:supernatural 
november 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ True Blue; nasri
It’s between the flicker of her silver plated lighter and Ellen’s first inhale that Dean sees him. His hair is long, longer than their father would have ever allowed it, styled back behind his ears and sun-streaked auburn. Adrenaline tunnels Dean’s vision with each inhale and dulls the sound of Ellen’s voice until all he can think is that Sammy’s childhood wish came true, because he has a solid few inches on Dean in each damn direction.
sam_dean  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:au  thief!dean  undercover!sam  movieremakes  pining!sam  pining!dean  boys!settledown  physicallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:nasri  25-30k  ~  +  fandom:supernatural 
november 2018 by Itsokaydean
Deprivation; ratherastory
One of the boys is losing a sense at a time. A taste of blood, then nothing. A horrible sound, a terrible sight ... you get the idea. Eventually, all that remains is the sense of touch and they're soon praying that it's gone too.
sam&dean  genre:angst  Protective!Dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  cursed!sam  losingsenses!sam  challenge:ohsam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:pg  author:ratherastory  genre:gen  0-5k  ~  fandom:supernatural 
september 2018 by Itsokaydean
A Life Less Lived; emmram
"When Death re-souls Sam it doesn't quite stick. Every once in a while his soul slips free (maybe after a seizure?), his body walking around being a dick and not sleeping, while he gets to do the vengeful spirit gig for a couple of hours/days/weeks—it can vary—though he's not so much vengeful as disoriented and crazy, given the wall doesn't extend to his spirit form. So you have Dean, who sees all this redrum-on-the-mirrors chaos randomly breaking out around them, and Sam looking unsettlingly determined to banish the completely anonymous—“its identity is really not important, Dean, promise”—spirit that's latched onto him for no apparent reason, while trying to look all souled and innocent and kind of sucking at it. Whether or not Dean figures it out is up to the author. As is the winner."
sam&dean  postcage!Sam  soulless!sam  hallucinating!dean  ghost!sam  s7  clueless!dean  genre:angst  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  seizure!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  clueless!bobby  author:emmram  0-5k  challenge:ohsam  genre:canon_divergence  ~  fandom:supernatural 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ Here at the End of All Things; ratherastory
Dean's constant drinking comes back to bite him in the ass when he does something he actually has good cause to feel guilty about for once: he drives under the influence and very nearly runs over a child. But the child is lucky: Sam pushed him/her out of the way.
sam&dean  characterdeath_(sam)  dean!killssam  dean!feelsguilty  Protective!Sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  alcoholic!dean  ghost!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:ratherastory  0-5k  challenge:sharp_teeth  genre:angst  genre:gen  ~  +  fandom:supernatural 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
Never done with killing time (I'd like it if you stayed); Trojie
Dean's life has a rhythm and it's counting down. His bucket list is pretty much done and it hasn't helped. Seventeen days to go, and Sam slides into his bed.
sam_dean  established!relationship  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  postdeal!dean  s3  scared!sam  scared!dean  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:nc-17  author:trojie  0-5k  challenge:hoodie_time  ~  fandom:supernatural 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Cross-country; zillah975
On their way back from a hunt, John and Dean discover worse things in the woods than a vengeful spirit.
pre-series  bamf!John  bamf!dean  scared!dean  determined!dean  violence  genre:angst  physicallyhurt!john  emotionallyhurt!dean  scared!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:zillah975  0-5k  ~  fandom:supernatural 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Beneath the Red Hills; sowell
Five years ago, Sam Winchester failed the final trial, sending both brothers to opposite sides of the country. When Dean vanishes without a trace, Sam must figure out how to find his estranged brother and save a small town from the serial killer that's been terrorizing it.
sam_dean  post-season8  boys!breakup  boys!getbacktogether  genre:angst  genre:casefic  rescuer!sam  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  trials!sam  post-trials!sam  angry!sam  angry!dean  resigned!dean  stubborn!sam  helping!castiel  jealous!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:nc-17  challenge:bigbang  author:sowell  20-25k  ~  fandom:supernatural 
june 2018 by Itsokaydean
For With The Heart; sowell
In life, Carolyn Cutter was probably a loving wife and mother. In death, she’s a gigantic pain in the ass, and Dean was sick of this job two days ago.

“The guns have rock salt, not bullets,” Sam says, all reasonable. Like you can reason with a ghost. “It won’t kill us.”

Carolyn just gives that crazy-ass spirit cackle and cocks the gun without lifting a finger.

“Sam,” Dean growls from the side of his mouth. “Not helping.”
sam_dean  cursed!dean  cursed!sam  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:angst  genre:casefic  boys!arechainedtogether  pining!dean  scared!dean  pining!sam  physicallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:nc-17  challenge:reversebang  author:sowell  10-15k  ~  fandom:supernatural 
june 2018 by Itsokaydean
Get Up Instead; viviansface
Poking around the Bunker, Dean should have learned two basic things: one, turn on the light, no matter what, and two, for Christ’s sake, don’t touch anything, double no matter what, it could be freaking possessed. Needless to say, he fails both.
sam&dean  s8  bodyswapped!dean  bodyswapped!sam  cursed!dean  trials!sam  trials!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  caretaker!sam  genre:angst  genre:gen  genre:hurt_comfort  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  0-5k  challenge:summergen  author:viviansface  *deleted_havepdf  ~  fandom:supernatural 
june 2018 by Itsokaydean
Before you're lost between the notes; SinOfPride
“Dean, please, I’m sorry,” Sam whispered, voice a shaky whisper, but he still wasn’t moving away and Dean didn’t know what Sam expected from him. What the next step was.
sam_dean  first-time  4.04!coda  boys!argue  determined!sam  exhausted!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  post-hell!dean  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:nc-17  5-10k  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  author:sinofpride  ~  fandom:supernatural 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
Your mouth was made to suck my kiss; fleshflutter
Time in the bathroom is about the only time Sam and Dean regularly don't have to be with each other. Sam likes it that way. It reminds him that they're still separate, distinct people – not some single entity with a split personality. Not that he doesn't like being around Dean. He's had enough experience of not being around Dean to make him pretty damn sure that, obnoxious, piggish behaviour aside, he'd take being with Dean than not any day of the week and twice on Sundays. 
sam_dean  genre:hurt_comfort  cursed!dean  witches!madeemdoit  genre:casefic  archive:lj  author:fleshflutter  rating:nc-17  5-10k  kink:blowjob  havepdf  emotionallyhurt!dean  uncomfortable!sam  ~  fandom:supernatural 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ Captured by the Game; rivkat
AU. Azazel has given his favorite son a task: worm his way into the confidence of a hunter. It sounds simple, but Dean Winchester just might be more than Sam can handle.
sam_dean  au:raisedseparately  evil!sam  oblivious!dean  pining!sam  pining!dean  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:canon_divergence  S1  archive:ao3  havepdf  author:rivkat  rating:nc-17  ~  +  physicallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  50-60k  fandom:supernatural 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
ten thousand miles; mimblexwimble
This isn’t a story with a deeper meaning. There is no moral at the end. On December 28th, 2007, Sam Winchester walked out of the motel room he was sharing with his brother and never came back. This is the story of what happened after.
sam&dean  genre:angst  genre:canon_divergence  genre:gen  s3  postdeal!dean  sam!goesmissing  desperate!dean  suicidal!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  s4  archive:lj  unhappy!ending  author:mimblexwimble  havepdf  challenge:bigbang  rating:pg-13  30-40k  tissie  ~  fandom:supernatural 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
This Far, No Further; nwspaprtaxis
Stabbing a Leviathan-filled angel isn't something someone can just recover from. Especially when he has a brain full of Hell before he even makes the attempt. Dean cares for his catatonic, insane little brother. And angsts. And barely copes.
sam&dean  genre:angst  genre:horror  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  boys!gotoheaven  s7  brokenwall!sam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  suicidal!dean  dean!killssam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:nwspaprtaxis  5-10k  challenge:*bang  ao3!collection  lilbrorec  tissie  ~  fandom:supernatural 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ The Night Goes By; BlueNeutrino
It's a long night when Sam and Dean first arrive at the prison, separated from each other to be strip searched, manhandled and humiliated before being thrown into cramped concrete cells. The nights that follow are longer.
sam&dean  12.09!coda  imprisoned!dean  imprisoned!sam  humiliated!dean  genre:angst  genre:gen  non-con_(attempted)  sexuallyabused!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  sick!Dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  worried!dean  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:blueneutrino  Protective!Dean  challenge:*bang  5-10k  s12  tissie  ~  +  fandom:supernatural 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
Smoke gets in my eyes; fleshflutter
The man with yellow eyes holds his hand as they leave the house. Sammy is crying and the fire is loud and scary but when Dean looks up at him, the man with yellow eyes gives him a nice smile and says, "You excited, Deano?" 
sam_dean  dean_omc  dean!saysyestoYED  dean_azazel  kidnapped!dean  au:raisedseparately  tw:non-con  sexuallyabused!dean  dean_meg  Possessed!Dean  rescuer!sam  exorcised!dean  suicidal!dean  characterdeath_(dean)  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  bleak!dean  oblivious!sam  characterdeath_(temporary)  genre:angst  archive:lj  havepdf  unhappy!ending  author:fleshflutter  rating:nc-17  0-5k  tissie  ~  fandom:supernatural 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
The Sky Will Fall, We Will Rise; esorlehcar
Eliot got it wrong, it turns out. The world ends with a bang after all.

***

Dad's neck snaps when the truck hits. Even through the noise and shock and fear and pain, Sam is always sure, afterwards, that he heard the sharp, dry crack.
sam_dean  s2  genre:angst  john!dies  grieving!sam  grieving!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:esorlehcar  5-10k  tissie  ~  downtotheend_verse  fandom:supernatural 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ Conversations With The Dead; Lennelle
Sometimes, a parent might tuck in their child at night and find an empty bed in the morning. In 1996, Sam Winchester vanished in an empty room. He reappeared two months later with missing hair, bruises and vacant eyes. By 2000, Dean Winchester is a hunter in his own right. He travels to Minnesota where his brother now lives with Pastor Jim, a long-time friend of their father's. The thing is, John Winchester recently went into the house that ruined his youngest son and he never came back out. Thing is, Sam is the only person who knows what's in the house. Thing is, Sam Winchester hasn't spoken in four years.
sam&dean  genre:gen  paula  genre:angst  genre:horror  traumatized!sam  mute!Sam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  kidnapped!sam  pre-series  john!disappears  sam!disappears  author:lennelle  rating:R  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  25-30k  ~  +  genre:casefic  fandom:supernatural 
march 2018 by Itsokaydean
Flagstaff; Nongpradu
One of Sam's 'greatest hits' in heaven was his two-week vacation from his family in Flagstaff. According to Dean, there were some consequences "when Dad came home" that Sam had no idea about. This is my take on those events. 
sam&dean  genre:angst  genre:gen  pre-series  sam!runsaway  hardass!john  mean!john  physicallyhurt!dean  clueless!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  angry!dean  angry!john  dean!feelsguilty  author:nong_pradu  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:pg-13  tissie  ~  5-10k  fandom:supernatural 
march 2018 by Itsokaydean
Behold, A Pale Horse; cherie_morte
AU after 8x23: When Sam fails to complete the third trial, a tear in the barrier between Earth and Hell is created and hellspawn called shadon are unleashed. The only way to bind these creatures and close the gates of Hell is for a sacrifice to be made by the man who chose his own life over completing the trials, and this time, the price is even greater. In order to correct the apocalypse he's released, Sam must kill his soulmate and live with the consequences. After years without Dean, Sam dies on a hunt and thinks he will finally be reunited with his brother in Heaven. But when his reaper appears, it's Dean himself, and he's not as willing to reap Sam as Sam is to be reaped
sam_dean  characterdeath_(temporary)  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  death!dean  sam!keepshunting  sam!keepsdying  reaper!dean  suicidal!sam  s8  Protective!Dean  sam!killsdean  post-trials!sam  rating:nc-17  author:cherie_morte  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  ~  physicallyhurt!dean  genre:angst  emotionallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  15-20k  challenge:*bang  fandom:supernatural 
january 2018 by Itsokaydean
Practical Men of the World; esorlehcar
Sam wakes slowly. His head is pounding and his stomach is churning, charming little reminders of last night's binge. It's been a long time since he was that drunk. Fucking Dean and his fucking trash-talking... Sam's almost 25, for god's sake, he shouldn't still react like a kid trying to prove himself when his older brother goads him. 
sam_dean  genre:angst  established!relationship  powers!sam  angry!sam  dean!leaves  sam!looksfordean  pining!dean  pining!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  cheating!dean  author:esorlehcar  rating:nc-17  archive:lj  havepdf  5-10k  downtotheend_verse  tissie  ~  fandom:supernatural 
november 2017 by Itsokaydean
Into Oblivion; cherie_morte
AU after 8x23: Sam dies before completing the last trial, leaving Dean alone and desperate. After a month of trying to bring Sam back, Dean gets a tip from the most unlikely of places: Metatron. Now reigning in Heaven, the angel is still looking for stories—one in particular. Sam and Dean broke destiny when they derailed the apocalypse, rewrote the book Metatron had penned himself thousands of years ago, and now theirs is the only history the Scribe of God can't access. Although he has Sam's soul captive in Heaven, no amount of torture has convinced Sam to give up his and Dean's life story. Metatron gives Dean a scroll and makes a bet: if Dean can follow the instructions and return Sam's soul to his body within three days, Heaven will relinquish its claim on Sam. If he can't, Dean will forget he ever had a brother and all of his memories of Sam will belong to Metatron. It sounds like a fair enough deal, but of course there's a catch. From the moment Dean reads the instructions, he begins to forget Sam and his quest, each memory disappearing faster the more clues he leaves himself. It's a race against the clock to decide Sam's life, and it's all or nothing. Dean will get his brother back—or lose him completely.
sam_dean  established!relationship  post-season8  amnesiac!dean  cursed!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  abused!sam  characterdeath_(sam)  characterdeath_(temporary)  tortured!sam  8.23!coda  dean!savessam  archive:ao3  genre:angst  author:cherie_morte  havepdf  rating:nc-17  tissie  20-25k  challenge:reversebang  ~  fandom:supernatural 
june 2017 by Itsokaydean
The Paper Asks Nothing; ameliacareful
When Dean is possessed, Sam is frantic that Dean not experience what he knows possession to be like. Dean's experience of possession means not only loosing bodily autonomy but being tortured with his own worst memories and fears.
sam&dean  s12  Possessed!Dean  ptsd!dean  ptsd!sam  hooker!dean  broken!sam  broken!dean  author:ameliacareful  rating:R  15-20k  havepdf  ~  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  genre:gen  genre:angst  fandom:supernatural 
march 2017 by Itsokaydean
Flying Weight; fleshflutter
Sam wakes after being soulless for three years to discover that Dean and his relationship with him have undergone some serious changes. Through traveling and hunting with Dean, Sam struggles to put his life back together after events he has only limited memory of. A season six wincest AU
sam_dean  tw:non-con_(past)  soulless!sam  vampire!dean  s6  genre:angst  angry!dean  clueless!sam  author:fleshflutter  havepdf  archive:ao3  rating:nc-17  kidnapped!sam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  40-50k  challenge:bigbang  tissie  ~  fandom:supernatural 
january 2017 by Itsokaydean
Rumspringa; july_july_july
I don’t know if you notice anything missing, like the leaves on the trees or my clothes all over the floor. I don’t know if you even notice at all. Cause I was real quiet when I closed the door. –Fink, “This Is The Thing” (Dean leaves, pre-series)
genre:gen  genre:angst  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  pre-series  dean!leaves  hardass!john  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  rating:pg  archive:lj  author:july_july_july  havepdf  0-5k  rumspringa_verse  fandom:supernatural 
november 2016 by Itsokaydean
Carouselambra; brihana25
Eight years after a hunt with John and Bobby that ended in disaster, Sam and Dean return to Johnston, Iowa for what looks to be a simple job. It isn't long before they realize that things are not always what they seem, and it's not so easy to escape a horror that refuses to stay dead. The reality of the situation flies in the face of everything they know about spirits and forces them to confront their biggest fears. With one Winchester struggling against a nightmare that keeps dragging him back under, and the other reeling from the knowledge of what his brother is willing to sacrifice to protect him, they will have to find the strength to stand together and defeat the ghost that haunts them both, once and for all.
sam&dean  sexuallyabused!dean  pre-series  S1  clueless!sam  abused!dean  Protective!Dean  bamf!John  author:brihana25  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  ~  genre:gen  genre:angst  Protective!Sam  tw:non-con_(past)  genre:casefic  tw:non-con  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  rating:R  40-50k  fandom:supernatural 
november 2016 by Itsokaydean
A Very Thin Wire Between Survival and Disaster; Xparrot - Supernatural (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
"So what did you take?" Sam asks. Because as it turns out, there are even worse things to think about than how your brother attempted suicide less than twenty-four hours ago.
genre:gen  s11  sam&dean  11.17!coda  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  suicideattempt!dean  worried!dean  worried!sam  scared!dean  scared!sam  havepdf  author:xparrot  archive:ao3  rating:pg-13  0-5k  tissie  ~  fandom:supernatural 
september 2016 by Itsokaydean
Phantom load; lovesrain44
Dean and Sam return to Boulder, CO, where they investigate a haunted school. The job seems simple enough to Sam, who has good, although vague, memories of living in Boulder back in 1992, when John Winchester rented a single-wide trailer, and the boys were able to walk home from school together. Dean, however, has altogether different memories, far less pleasant and far more damaging. It's during the investigation that Sam discovers the secret that Dean doesn't realize he's been hiding.
genre:gen  pre-series  abused!dean  sexuallyabused!dean  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  oblivious!sam  protective!sam  angry!sam  ptsd!dean  genre:casefic  archive:ao3  author:lovesrain44  50-60k  havepdf  rating:nc-17  tw:non-con  tw:non-con_(past)  challenge:bigbang  tissie  ~  fandom:supernatural 
july 2016 by Itsokaydean
Scorch marks; sirenprincess
October 22, 1993 Dean gets himself in over his head while taking care of Sammy alone. He has to call a very cranky John away from a job to help, which is sure to earn him a pretty severe punishment. Sammy finds a way of getting himself into deep trouble too.
sam&dean  mean!john  pre-series  genre:angst  genre:gen  needspdf  rating:pg-13  hardass!john  tissie  ~  abused!dean  archive:lj  emotionallyhurt!dean  fandom:supernatural 
april 2016 by Itsokaydean
Enough of its Glory Remains; balefully
Every war has casualties, and Sam and Dean are nothing if not warriors. Scarred both mentally and physically, they find themselves settling into civilian life in Berkeley Springs, West Virginia among the charming townspeople, local history, and peaceful mountain views. Sam finds work at an auto shop and Dean stumbles into a job at the occult bookstore on Main Street with a familiar grimmoire in the window. Things are deceptively quiet as they patch each other up and come to terms with domesticity, the only contact with their old life a quest to rebuild Bobby's library -- until a case crosses their path, the kind they thought they were done with forever. They find themselves once again fighting a vengeful spirit as well as their deeper feelings for each other. Only one is a battle they can win.
sam_dean  physicallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  genre:domestic  retired!fromhunting  ptsd!dean  mechanic!sam  bookstoreclerk!dean  rating:nc-17  archive:lj  havepdf  author:balefully  genre:casefic  tissie  ~  first-time  ptsd!sam  20-25k  challenge:bigbang  fandom:supernatural 
february 2016 by Itsokaydean
Pins and needles; selecasharp
A lot can change in an instant. Six months ago, Sam was injured in the course of a hunt that went terribly wrong. Now, there's something in the woods of Michigan's upper peninsula, stalking, beating, and killing people in the tiny town of Big Bay. A retired hunter calls Sam and Dean in to investigate, but they're also still dealing with the aftermath of that hunt-gone-wrong, and the effect it's had on their relationship.
sam_dean  genre:casefic  paralyzed!sam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  protective!dean  author:selecasharp  genre:hurt_comfort  challenge:bigbang  cursed!sam  rating:nc-17  havepdf  50-60k  tissie  ~  fandom:supernatural 
january 2016 by Itsokaydean
Don't Ask, Don't Tell; dodger_winslow
If we got in a wreck, and Sammy and I were both unconscious, and the Impala caught on fire so you only had time to save one of us, who would you save?
pre-series  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:gen  bamf!John  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!john  smart!sam  rating:pg-13  author:dodger_winslow  archive:lj  havepdf  5-10k  tissie  ~  fandom:supernatural 
november 2015 by Itsokaydean
Stumbling Across Its Bleak Ending; esorlehcar
Dean leaves on a Monday. It's cold in the gray pre-dawn light. The wind is sharp and damp, promising rain, and Dean shivers as he walks through the trash-strewn parking lot to the Impala. Last night's motel is behind him, and if he turned around he'd see
sam_dean  genre:angst  powers!sam  established!relationship  angry!sam  dean!leaves  sam!looksfordean  pining!dean  pining!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  cheating!dean  author:esorlehcar  rating:nc-17  archive:lj  havepdf  5-10k  tissie  ~  downtotheend_verse  fandom:supernatural 
november 2015 by Itsokaydean
+ Arrested Development; beth_summer
An AU story where Dean is at Stanford with Sam, relying on his brother to take care of him. Told from multiple outsider perspectives. A different take on the de-aging trope.
cursed!dean  Sam_Jess  StanfordEra  angry!dean  caretaker!sam  author:beth_summer  archive:lj  rating:pg-13  outsider!pov  tissie  +  ~  arresteddevelopment_verse  havepdf  emotionallyhurt!dean  genre:angst  genre:gen  5-10k  de-aged!dean  fandom:supernatural 
september 2015 by Itsokaydean
Moths on the Mirror; fleshflutter
There's something wrong in Red Haven Hospital for the Criminally Insane, but no one's going to listen to a psychopath like Dean Winchester.
sam_dean  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  sexuallyabused!dean  dean_omc  protective!sam  rating:nc-17  author:fleshflutter  istitutionalized!dean  havepdf  rescuer!sam  amnesiac!dean  genre:angst  genre:casefic  archive:lj  tissie  15-20k  ~  fandom:supernatural 
may 2015 by Itsokaydean
Shake, Rattle and Roll; roque_clasique
Stanford-era. Dean suffered some sort of moderate brain damage... gets really shaky, suffers from various forms of aphasia and stammering, and his hands won't always work the way they're supposed to (difficulty feeding himself or dressing himself). John has kept him by his side since the accident, but he knows he's getting close to the demon and he doesn't want Dean in the line of fire. Enter Sam.
sam&dean  john&dean  genre:angst  genre:gen  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  caretaker!sam  caretaker!john  Protective!Sam  protective!john  pre-series  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:roque_clasique  5-10k  challenge:hoodie_time  ~  StanfordEra  fandom:supernatural 
march 2015 by Itsokaydean
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