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after that, the road; summerboysam
Sam can’t figure out whether he’s bound to his rotting flesh, his battered bones strewn among the arsenal in the trunk, or if he’s bound to this car (the leather of the seats, the rattling band of army men, the carvings in the walls). Or maybe it’s Dean. It’s probably Dean, in death as well as in life.


Sam dies and doesn't leave. Dean follows soon. The world keeps turning.
supernatural  sam_dean(implied)  ghost!sam  suicidal!dean  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  genre:angst  genre:horror  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:summerboysam  0-5k  ~ 
november 2018 by Itsokaydean
thickned summer blood; xxamlaxx
The people of Burkettsville, Indiana will stop at nothing to save their town, and the professor knows that they can bring the Scarecrow back to life in a new body. All they have to do is crucify the man who killed him.
supernatural  sam&dean  outsider!pov  1.11!coda  S1  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  god!dean  dean!killssam  dean!turnsintoamonster  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:xxamlaxx  0-5k  challenge:sharp_teeth  genre:horror  ~ 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
Negative Space; honeylocusttree
"Dean was born, Dean died at the age of three. So who/what carries Sam out of the house that night? And why does John keep insisting on calling it, Dean? Is Dean even there?"
supernatural  pre-series  S1  genre:angst  genre:horror  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(past)  djinn!dean  djinn!dream  john!losesit  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:honeylocusttree  0-5k  challenge:sharp_teeth 
august 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ Close Your Eyes; kcscribbler
Dean goes through with it and kills Sam, and Death puts him…not in outer space, exactly. Somewhere more like a cage. Meanwhile, Sam's up in Heaven trying to find Bobby and gather allies to break Dean out of wherever Death put him. (In other words: Silly Death. As if being dead will stop Sam Winchester from looking for his brother.)
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:gen  s10  moc!dean  pre-series  Protective!Dean  dean!killssam  characterdeath_(sam)  characterdeath_(dean)  rescuer!sam  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:kcscribbler  challenge:summergen  0-5k  ~  + 
june 2018 by Itsokaydean
This Far, No Further; nwspaprtaxis
Stabbing a Leviathan-filled angel isn't something someone can just recover from. Especially when he has a brain full of Hell before he even makes the attempt. Dean cares for his catatonic, insane little brother. And angsts. And barely copes.
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:angst  genre:horror  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  boys!gotoheaven  s7  brokenwall!sam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  suicidal!dean  dean!killssam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:nwspaprtaxis  5-10k  challenge:*bang  ao3!collection  lilbrorec  tissie  ~ 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
Smoke gets in my eyes; fleshflutter
The man with yellow eyes holds his hand as they leave the house. Sammy is crying and the fire is loud and scary but when Dean looks up at him, the man with yellow eyes gives him a nice smile and says, "You excited, Deano?" 
supernatural  sam_dean  dean_omc  dean!saysyestoYED  dean_azazel  kidnapped!dean  au:raisedseparately  tw:non-con  sexuallyabused!dean  dean_meg  Possessed!Dean  rescuer!sam  exorcised!dean  suicidal!dean  characterdeath_(dean)  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  bleak!dean  oblivious!sam  characterdeath_(temporary)  genre:angst  archive:lj  havepdf  unhappy!ending  author:fleshflutter  rating:nc-17  0-5k  tissie  ~ 
april 2018 by Itsokaydean
The Axe that Clears the Forest; riyku
No one knows how they died, but one man knows how to bring them back. One night a year he resurrects them, and uses them as a tool to exact revenge on the people who have betrayed him. Of course, it's almost impossible to control a Winchester.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  resurrected!sam  resurrected!dean  outsider!pov  genre:horror  genre:angst  archive:ao3  havepdf  author:riyku  rating:nc-17  10-15k  challenge:reversebang  tissie  ~ 
march 2018 by Itsokaydean
Behold, A Pale Horse; cherie_morte
AU after 8x23: When Sam fails to complete the third trial, a tear in the barrier between Earth and Hell is created and hellspawn called shadon are unleashed. The only way to bind these creatures and close the gates of Hell is for a sacrifice to be made by the man who chose his own life over completing the trials, and this time, the price is even greater. In order to correct the apocalypse he's released, Sam must kill his soulmate and live with the consequences. After years without Dean, Sam dies on a hunt and thinks he will finally be reunited with his brother in Heaven. But when his reaper appears, it's Dean himself, and he's not as willing to reap Sam as Sam is to be reaped
supernatural  sam_dean  characterdeath_(temporary)  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  death!dean  sam!keepshunting  sam!keepsdying  reaper!dean  suicidal!sam  s8  Protective!Dean  sam!killsdean  post-trials!sam  rating:nc-17  author:cherie_morte  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  ~  physicallyhurt!dean  genre:angst  emotionallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  15-20k  challenge:*bang 
january 2018 by Itsokaydean
And Number the Stars; minviendha (Lise)
AU S2. John lives and Dean dies. Sam and John go on the road together, still grieving for Dean, still uncomfortable with each other, harboring degrees of resentment and regret, and trying to make it work.
supernatural  john!lives  grieving!sam  characterdeath_(dean)  angry!sam  s2  archive:ao3  author:minviendha_(lise)  havepdf  rating:pg-13  tissie  ~ 
january 2018 by Itsokaydean
hello; Askance
There's a woman at the grocery store named Evelyn who always rings him up on the days he ventures out for food and she knows him, or likes to think she does. I hope you're not too lonely, she'll say. He chooses not to tell her that his dead brother sleeps at his feet every night. He'd rather not be the cause of her inevitable heart attack.
supernatural  sam_dean  characterdeath_(dean)  ghost!dean  established!relationship  genre:angst  archive:ao3  havepdf  author:askance  tattoed!sam  rating:pg-13  tissie  ~  0-5k 
july 2017 by Itsokaydean
I'd Gladly Lose Me To Find You; flawedamythyst
Sam takes a vow of silence in order to pull Dean out of Hell, but by the time Dean comes back, Sam's lost more of himself than just his voice. Splits off completely from canon after the season 3 finale.
supernatural  sam_dean  first-time  electivemutism!sam  sam!savesdean  retired!fromhunting  rating:nc-17  Protective!Sam  worried!sam  author:flawedamythyst  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  ~  s3  genre:canon_divergence  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(temporary)  genre:domestic  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  30-40k 
january 2017 by Itsokaydean
No Line on the Horizon; shtuff
It's the middle of May when Dean shows up at his door at six a.m. with a huge smile on his face and Sam knows something is wrong
supernatural  sam&dean  *deleted_havepdf  pre-series  sick!Dean  Protective!Sam  rating:pg-13  archive:ffnet  author:shtuff  tissie  ~  characterdeath_(dean)  havepdf  genre:gen  genre:angst  emotionallyhurt!sam  StanfordEra  5-10k 
november 2016 by Itsokaydean
+ From the Desk of Dantalion; buffyaddict13
Dantalion, a rather chatty demon, goes to earth on business. It seems those Winchester Boys are causing a bit of trouble for the Great Duke and his minions
supernatural  genre:gen  genre:humor  genre:angst  sam&dean  outsider!pov  characterdeath_(dean)  physicallyhurt!sam  characterdeath_(john)  +  author:buffyaddict13  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:pg-13  0-5k  challenge:*minor  ~ 
october 2016 by Itsokaydean
+ 491; Askance
The Rattlesnake 24-Hour Dine-In isn't in Rattlesnake or Shiprock or anywhere, really. It just sits on the highway, sinking on its far end, an oven in the daytime and a steel box at night, rarely-traveled and barely-loved. The food is just short of nothing special and the service about as slow as it comes. But Dean liked it the first time they drove through, so they keep coming back.
supernatural  genre:gen  genre:angst  sam&dean  characterdeath_(sam)  characterdeath_(implied)  characterdeath_(dean)  ghost!dean  suicidal!sam  depressed!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  +  rating:g  author:askance  ~  tissie  0-5k  challenge:summergen 
september 2016 by Itsokaydean
+ Promise me; sytaxia
Dean dies on a hunt while Sam is at Stanford. His unfinished business is taking care of Sam, and his ghost shows up at Stanford. Sam doesn't realize at first that Dean is dead, but in the end has to convince him to let him go.
supernatural  genre:gen  genre:angst  sam&dean  s1  ghost!dean  characterdeath_(dean)  protective!dean  haunted!sam  archive:lj  +  author:sytaxia  rating:pg-13  needspdf  0-5k  challenge:hoodie_time  ~ 
june 2016 by Itsokaydean
I will follow you into the dark; blackrabbit42
Sam grips the phone, silently willing Dean to answer, damnit. Dean should have been back from the hardware store over an hour ago, and Sam is starting to get frantic. Dean's "hello" does nothing to assuage his nerves. Something is wrong.
sam_dean  caretaker!sam  alzheimer!dean  supernatural  retired!fromhunting  future!fic  author:blackrabbit42  archive:lj  rating:r  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  sam!killsdean  sam!killshimself  tissie  ~  havepdf  genre:angst  challenge:springfling  0-5k 
march 2016 by Itsokaydean
Urban Legend; fools_game
"Scary stories and urban legends, and how to get them dead wrong.  Both an ending and a beginning. Sam and Dean and how it ends, and what comes after. "
supernatural  ghost!dean  ghost!sam  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  outsider!pov  genre:angst  genre:gen  archive:lj  havepdf  author:fools_game  rating:pg-13  0-5k  tissie  ~  lilbrorec 
january 2016 by Itsokaydean
A grieving Dean is pulled into an alternate universe where a much more hardened, cold Sam is working to get his Dean out of hell. Though Dean doesn’t want to go back to his lonely world, he aids Sam in his dark quest, a Sam torn between the brother he’s fighting to save and the one right in front of him.
sam_dean  supernatural  altuniverse  inhell!dean  bamf!sam  altuniverse!sam  altuniverse!dean  tw:dub-con  dark!sam  desperate!sam  bleak!dean  rating:nc-17  s4  author:nynxlynx  archive:lj  +  tissie  ~  characterdeath_(dean)  characterdeath_(sam)  havepdf  genre:angst  30-40k  challenge:bigbang 
december 2015 by Itsokaydean
At Night; pixel_0
I. At night, Sam manages their finances. He charged more than ten thousand dollars to the various credit cards he found in the Impala’s glove box in the first week after Dean’s accident. He paid for hospital visits, special doctors, and medications that he thought would help Dean.
angst  supernatural  sam&dean  genre:gen  genre:angst  1.12!coda  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  characterdeath_(dean)  S1  author:pixel_0  rating:pg-13  archive:lj  havepdf  0-5k  tissie  ~ 
november 2015 by Itsokaydean
Last Truce; rheasilvia
Dean never stops whining about his stupid car. "That car was a classic," he whines. "I loved that car. Seriously, man, you shouldn't have done that." Sam ignores him.
ghost!dean  supernatural  sam&dean  grieving!sam  characterdeath_(dean)  sam!smashesthecar  S1  archive:lj  havepdf  author:rheasilvia  rating:pg-13  tissie  ~  1.12!coda  genre:gen  genre:hurt_comfort  0-5k  ghost_verse 
november 2015 by Itsokaydean
We were twenty; elohvee
It's sunny the day he buries his brother. Winter sun, where the air's cold and everything is too bright, hard on his eyes and his lungs. These are the days made for hats and scarves and mittens in dozens of colors. The light washes the world out on its own.
supernatural  sam_dean  retired!fromhunting  author:elohvee  havepdf  emotionallyhurt!sam  physicallyhurt!sam  permanentlyinjured!sam  grieving!sam  rating:nc-17  archive:lj  characterdeath_(dean)  tissie  ~  genre:angst  boys!settledown  challenge:bigbang  30-40k 
october 2015 by Itsokaydean
Like a Fish Out of Water; nyxocity
AU after Plucky Pennywhistle's Magical Menagerie. During the final battle with the Leviathans, God finally makes an appearance and deigns to intervene. After granting Sam and Dean a few final requests, he 'packs his bags' and takes everything supernatural in existence with him. Left with nothing to hunt, Sam talks a reluctant Dean into settling down in a small town outside of Sioux Falls. Sam seems to want them live a normal kind of life, but between the ridiculous estate sale Sam bought to furnish the house, the arrival of a very human Castiel who's overwhelmed by human emotions, and their quirky, invasive neighbors, it's anything but. Dean's having a difficult time adjusting, convinced everything couldn't be more abnormal until Sam reveals exactly what kind of life he wants to have with Dean. Dean can't deny the part of him that wants it--but can he accept it?
supernatural  sam_dean  first-time  genre:slowburn  pining!sam  freakedout!dean  pining!dean  post-apocalypse  retired!fromhunting  author:nyxocity  kink:dirtytalk  kink:d/s_(undertones)  characterdeath_(temporary)  characterdeath_(dean)  rating:nc-17  archive:ao3  havepdf  tissie  ~  genre:domestic  genre:humor  genre:angst  human!Castiel  50-60k 
september 2015 by Itsokaydean

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