Itsokaydean + angry!dean   36

a history of violence; lyryk (s_k)
Sometimes the problem, Sam thinks, is that there are no rulebooks about how to be your brother’s ex.
supernatural  sam_dean  genre:angst  angry!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallytired!sam  s8  boys!breakup  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:pg-13  author:lyryk  0-5k  challenge:spn_j2_xmas  ~ 
9 days ago by Itsokaydean
Beneath the Red Hills; sowell
Five years ago, Sam Winchester failed the final trial, sending both brothers to opposite sides of the country. When Dean vanishes without a trace, Sam must figure out how to find his estranged brother and save a small town from the serial killer that's been terrorizing it.
supernatural  sam_dean  post-season8  boys!breakup  boys!getbacktogether  genre:angst  genre:casefic  rescuer!sam  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  physicallyhurt!sam  trials!sam  post-trials!sam  angry!sam  angry!dean  resigned!dean  stubborn!sam  helping!castiel  jealous!sam  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:nc-17  challenge:bigbang  author:sowell  20-25k  ~ 
june 2018 by Itsokaydean
Aetos Dios; keep_waking_up
Canon AU after 8x06. Sam and Dean still weren’t speaking when they moved on to their next case.  Sam felt like someone was watching him and he kept seeing this strange eagle everywhere he went.
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  boys!breakup  boys!getbacktogether  kidnapped!sam  angry!dean  sam!feelsguilty  8.06!coda  amnesiac!sam  rescuer!dean  Protective!Dean  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:R  author:keep_waking_up  10-15k  challenge:reversebang  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:angst  ~ 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
Miles to Go; raina_at
Dean's noticed in the past that everything looks different under moonlight. Colors give way to stark white or night-time black, settling dust looks a lot like snow, and the damage to the Impala doesn't look nearly as bad. His own reflection in the window looks colorless, a waxy mask, unfamiliar. 
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  s2  grieving!sam  grieving!dean  Sam_Jess(past)  worried!dean  pining!dean  angry!dean  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  archive:lj  havepdf  rating:R  5-10k  author:raina_at  ~ 
may 2018 by Itsokaydean
Flagstaff; Nongpradu
One of Sam's 'greatest hits' in heaven was his two-week vacation from his family in Flagstaff. According to Dean, there were some consequences "when Dad came home" that Sam had no idea about. This is my take on those events. 
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:angst  genre:gen  pre-series  sam!runsaway  hardass!john  mean!john  physicallyhurt!dean  clueless!sam  emotionallyhurt!dean  angry!dean  angry!john  dean!feelsguilty  author:nong_pradu  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:pg-13  tissie  ~  5-10k 
march 2018 by Itsokaydean
Can You Blame Me?; dragonspell
It’s nearing midnight and Sam is in a bit of a mood. Or rather, the man masquerading as Dean’s brother is in a mood.
supernatural  sam_dean  soulless!sam  genre:angst  angry!dean  non-con_(attempted)  s6  archive:ao3  havepdf  author:dragonspell  0-5k  rating:R  tissie  ~ 
february 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ Back Seat Driver; debbiel66
John Winchester is back from the dead, and he and the boys are finally on the road again, but they are a long way from knowing where they are going
supernatural  sam&dean  resurrected!john  angry!dean  guilty!dean  guilty!sam  guilty!John  Protective!Dean  greatwallofsam  sick!Dean  archive:lj  havepdf  author:debbiel66  rating:pg-13  5-10k  tissie  ~  +  resurrected!john_verse 
january 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ Killing Time; debbiel66
After his own unlikely resurrection, John desperately tries to find out what happened while he was gone, despite the fact that Sam and Dean have secrets they are determined to keep. But nobody is better at chipping away at a wall than John Winchester
supernatural  sam&dean  resurrected!john  angry!dean  greatwallofsam  seizure!sam  physicallyhurt!sam  pushy!john  rating:pg-13  author:debbiel66  archive:lj  havepdf  tissie  ~  +  5-10k  resurrected!john_verse  Protective!Dean  Protective!Sam 
january 2018 by Itsokaydean
+ Clean Slate; debbiel66
After his own unlikely resurrection, John Winchester is bound and determined to find his boys. But he soon finds that death isn’t the clean slate it pretends to be
supernatural  sam&dean  resurrected!john  genre:gen  angry!bobby  angry!dean  greatwallofsam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  archive:lj  havepdf  author:debbiel66  rating:pg-13  tissie  lilbrorec  5-10k  ~  +  resurrected!john_verse 
january 2018 by Itsokaydean
Innocence; mimblexwimble
One day Dad put Sam in charge, said he needed to talk to a few people, that maybe he had a lead on how to turn Dean back into a twenty-year-old. Then he left. And he didn't come back.
supernatural  sam&dean  genre:angst  genre:gen  de-aged!dean  cursed!dean  caretaker!sam  john!abandonsthem  angry!dean  angry!sam  sad!dean  guilty!John  archive:ao3  havepdf  author:mimblexwimble  rating:pg-13  pre-series  sam!stopshunting  5-10k  tissie  ~  innocence_verse 
january 2018 by Itsokaydean
[somewhere i have never travelled]; ephemerall
It's late October, and their breath-white clouds dissipate slowly, and Dean wonders when Sam preferred to be out here rather than in there.
supernatural  sam_dean  pre-series  S1  s2  emotionallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!sam  rough!dean  kink:rough!sex  established!relationship  genre:angst  angry!dean  grieving!sam  rating:nc-17  archive:ao3  author:ephemerall  havepdf  tissie  ~  0-5k  lilbrorec 
november 2017 by Itsokaydean
+ Gnaw; road_rhythm
Everything that happened before they got here has taken on an unreal quality, such that Sam's no longer really sure how much of it to trust. The Biography of Sam Winchester seems pretty dubious: born, mother killed by supernatural entity, raised in car, commenced fucking brother, locked in box by father. Like. What. So there's that.
supernatural  sam_dean  pre-series  sensorydeprived!sam  sensorydeprived!dean  neglectful!john  abused!sam  abused!dean  buriedalive!dean  buriedalive!sam  hardass!john  rating:nc-17  archive:ao3  angry!dean  angry!sam  author:road_rhythm  havepdf  tissie  ~  starved!dean  starved!sam  kink:bloodplay  genre:angst  +  tw:dub-con  25-30k 
june 2017 by Itsokaydean
Thy Brother's Blood Cries Out; LaughableLament
For a guy so smart Sam can be thick as bricks sometimes. Sam thinks Dean’s given up. Thinks he isn’t fighting anymore, isn’t fighting himself every nightmare second
supernatural  sam_dean  established!relationship  moc!dean  trusting!sam  worried!dean  angry!dean  archive:ao3  author:laughablelament  havepdf  rating:nc-17  10.21!coda  s10  0-5k  genre:angst  challenge:*minor  ~ 
may 2017 by Itsokaydean
Riot Gear; onlythisfic
Shortly before they ganked Dick Roman Sam became pregnant. He either knew and didn't tell Dean because he didn't want to give Dean any more pressure or he had no idea at all. The stress and trauma of seeing Dean and Cas disappear along with Crowley taking off with Kevin sends Sam into a downward spiral. The added stress from hitting Riot causes Sam to have a miscarriage. Sam spends time recovering physically, but not emotionally, with Amelia who knows not to ask about the baby. When Dean gets back and reams Sam out for not looking for him, Sam can't bring himself to tell Dean what happened. He thinks Dean will blame him for losing their kid and that it'll be the final straw. Maybe Sam sneaks out to visit the grave and Dean follows, but up to the author how Dean finds out. Cue guilty!Dean and hurt!Sam who has to relive the painful memories from the last year
supernatural  sam_dean  s8  Hurt!Sam  depressed!sam  suicidal!sam  sick!sam  mpreg!sam  miscarrying!sam  clueless!dean  angry!dean  psychoticbreak!sam  havepdf  guilty!dean  author:onlythisfic  rating:nc-17  tissie  ~ 
january 2017 by Itsokaydean
Flying Weight; fleshflutter
Sam wakes after being soulless for three years to discover that Dean and his relationship with him have undergone some serious changes. Through traveling and hunting with Dean, Sam struggles to put his life back together after events he has only limited memory of. A season six wincest AU
supernatural  sam_dean  tw:non-con_(past)  soulless!sam  vampire!dean  s6  genre:angst  angry!dean  clueless!sam  author:fleshflutter  havepdf  archive:ao3  rating:nc-17  kidnapped!sam  physicallyhurt!sam  emotionallyhurt!sam  physicallyhurt!dean  emotionallyhurt!dean  40-50k  challenge:bigbang  tissie  ~ 
january 2017 by Itsokaydean
Who are you (I really wanna know); eugara
Summary: Tag to It’s a Terrible Life (4x17). Ever since Sam Wesson moved to Ohio, he’s found himself in an exceedingly terrifying series of battles against his own brain—and the attractive man he keeps bumping into with the strikingly green eyes is Sam’s only clue as to why. Meanwhile, Dean Smith’s next promotion is practically in the bag until he starts stumbling over a succession of worrisomely inappropriate outbursts. The cute, but creepy IT guy who keeps leering at him really isn’t helping things either.
supernatural  s4  sam_dean  smith_wesson  genre:angst  pining!sam  angry!dean  pining!dean  archive:ao3  author:eugara  havepdf  rating:nc-17  4.17!coda  25-30k  tissie  ~ 
june 2016 by Itsokaydean
Unthinkable; Glass Shoe
After a week of riding shotgun inside his own body, Sam needs to know that he’s the one at the wheel. This story takes place following the episode Born Under a Bad Sign.
genre:angst  worried!dean  protective!dean  selfharm!sam  supernatural  sam&dean  sick!sam  genre:gen  physicallyhurt!sam  angry!dean  2.14!coda  author:glassshoe  archive:lj  rating:pg-13  havepdf  0-5k  tissie  s2  ~ 
april 2016 by Itsokaydean
somwhere i have never travelled - Supernaturalfic - Fic/Art/Vids
“Dad’s asleep,” Dean says, finally coming to sit down next to his brother. Sam doesn’t say anything, just glances sidelong at him, and Dean picks up a few rocks and chucks them across the street too. Sam’s silences are long lately, settling in the greens of his irises and the blacks of his pupils. Dean watches him push stones aside, slide his worn sneakers (more hand-me-downs) across the dirt. “Sam.”
sam_dean  angst  angry!dean  angry!sam  emotional!hurt 
february 2016 by Itsokaydean
+ Arrested Development; beth_summer
An AU story where Dean is at Stanford with Sam, relying on his brother to take care of him. Told from multiple outsider perspectives. A different take on the de-aging trope.
cursed!dean  Sam_Jess  supernatural  StanfordEra  angry!dean  caretaker!sam  author:beth_summer  archive:lj  rating:pg-13  outsider!pov  tissie  +  ~  arresteddevelopment_verse  havepdf  emotionallyhurt!dean  genre:angst  genre:gen  5-10k  de-aged!dean 
september 2015 by Itsokaydean
Robbing Peter; ginzai
John's attempt to catch a few stolen moments of peace wind up costing him far more than he can bear.
protective!sam  tw:non-con  pre-series  supernatural  angry!dean  angry!sam  clueless!john  sexuallyabused!dean  rating:R  author:ginzai  archive:lj  havepdf  tissie  ~  physicallyhurt!dean  genre:angst  genre:gen  5-10k 
june 2014 by Itsokaydean

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