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a nice girl, slightly dilettanteish - transversely - Chihayafuru [Archive of Our Own]
“I am by nature given to flights of extreme perspicacity. It’s your turn to add a flavor, don’t make it messy. It has to retain this air of delicacy, since it’s a flavor expressing Snowmaru’s winter melancholy. Don’t think that simply because he is a snowman, he isn’t prone to winter melancholy, that is a rookie mistake.”

|| Parts of this are hard to follow, but I really enjoyed Shinobu--incisive, vain, insecure, aware of herself as a prodigy but turned-topsy by the ephemeral nature of that term. And weird. Which is IMPORTANT. I also really liked her interactions with the adults--that she takes herself totally seriously, but they can see how that seriousness is letting herself down, limiting her.
fandom:chihayafuru  author:transversely  pairing:chihaya/shinobu  type:gen  type:midtext  type:characterstudy  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:sillysillypeople  length:10k-15k 
may 2015 by blottingtheink
White Hats - Dira Sudis (dsudis) - Generation Kill, Curse Workers Series - Holly Black [Archive of Our Own]
"Every day's your lucky day when you work for the LMD, Ray," Brad said blandly.

|| Oh my god. The tension in this is palpable, nearly smothering, but finely wrought enough that reading it is never a chore, just heart-pounding. And then, it turns out to be something else entirely. Really, incredibly excellent. Can be read without knowledge of the Curse Worker Series (as I don't have any), but hot damn, I want to read it now.
fandom:generationkill  fandom:curseworkers  author:dira.sudis  pairing:brad/nate  type:fusion  type:thisishowwedevelop  type:ohwownorly  type:takeanideaandrun  type:jobfic  type:  type:justthisedgeofpainful  length:5-10k 
january 2013 by blottingtheink
Shades of Gray - a_mere_trifle - Homestuck [Archive of Our Own]
For the meme prompt: Dave makes the mistake of falling asleep and wakes up to find Rose has stolen his glasses for purely scientific purposes, of course. He has to resort to some pretty desperate (and surprising) methods to get them back.

|| Woah, woah, woah. Somehow I missed this? Easily the most excellent doomed!Derse I've seen, and I've seen a lot of doomed!Derse; Rose and Dave here are prickly and picking at each other, and full of so, so, so much love. Funny and edged with hurt, the way the comic is, the way the Derse kids are. Ugh. Highly, highly recommended.
fandom:homestuck  author:a_mere_trifle  pairing:rose/dave  type:doomedtimeline  type:pesterlogs  type:voice  type:characterization  type:banter  type:hilarifying  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:somethingperfect  length:1-5k 
august 2012 by blottingtheink
hso2012_collabs1 | Fic/Art: The Shadiest of Bars (Alpha!Dave<3Alpha!Rose)
Opening weekend of SBaHJ: Behidn the Scenes. Ten minutes into the first screening the Internet was already decoding it, as piranhas decode a capybara. An hour after the credits reached the key grip there came the first flash mob. Twenty-nine teenage girls had all linked hands on a subway platform and begun murmuring the opening lines one after another, a beat delayed, as though singing in a round. They had kept it up nearly four minutes. Someone had sent him a badly oscillating clip: red sweatshirts in the dimness, a felt-tip maze drawn on a plump arm, the blue sudden brightening of a screen through a pocket. The overlaid harmony in their recitation, unintelligible, implacable, a conduit carrying the world’s long current of voices of girls who warn rightly, and aren’t believed. At the margins he had seen passers-by shut up and stop. A chill had passed over his own shoulders, as they all drew out the last note. Attagirls.

|| Oh. Oh, oh, oh. Really picks up steam in the second section, where the politics mirroring life nearly took me apart (quoted above), and then just--the ending is phenomenal. All much, much sadder and more beautiful than I can really imagine the Homestuck world ever being--but how sad. How stunningly, gut-clenchingly wrought.
fandom:homestuck  author:lionpyh  author:cloudymew  author:madseason  pairing:alpha!derse  challenge:hso2012  type:collaboration  type:illustrated  type:beautiful  type:softly  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:characterization  type:insightful  type:endingiswhoa  length:notspecified 
august 2012 by blottingtheink
The Candy Pump - lantadyme - Homestuck [Archive of Our Own]
Calliope stops in front of a rack full of devil's horns and hums under her breath.

"Have you ever trick-or-treated, Dirk? My research seems to portray it as quite the American holiday."

You stop. You've got a bag of Doritos in one hand as you turn around and look at her. Her eyes glitter like a distant star, her smile nearly as bright. You are nineteen years old. You have lived fifteen of those years without seeing a single other person in the flesh. No, you've never trick-or-treated.

|| Very cute.
fandom:homestuck  author:lantadyme  character:dirkstrider  character:calliope  type:gen  type:posttext  type:postsburb  type:takeanideaandrun  type:friendship  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:birdsongsweet  length:1-5k 
august 2012 by blottingtheink
nice seeing you jade - dashery - Homestuck [Archive of Our Own]
DAVESPRITE: good one by the way
DAVESPRITE: no dave i dont want to leave you here im scared oh nooo
DAVESPRITE: got my goat like a fuckin swiss alp shepherd goat assassin

|| BAHHHHHHHH. Talk to me more about Davesprite, fandom. IDK what happened, but I love him. In the wake of "Cascade," jossed by A6I1, but lovely, lovely, lovely.
fandom:homestuck  author:dashery  pairing:davesprite/jade  type:ouchmyheart  type:comic  type:gen  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:just_yes  type:grief  type:friendship  type:criminallyadorable  length:notspecified 
august 2012 by blottingtheink
Dark and Light - makingtriangles (electricbloo) - Homestuck [Archive of Our Own]
Nobody ever interrupts each other when they exchange secrets like this at night. They can be nothing but soft voices, floating out of the dark.

This has a Mature rating for a couple of reasons; there is a little sex, yes, but there's also talk of kids having done bad things, kids having sexual thoughts/experiences, and kids having kinks. Mainly this is a story about doing the best you can with what you have, and loving people intensely because of their differences. It's also about three teenagers (well, two human teenagers and one sprite) being bored out of their minds on a battleship for three years.

|| Oh my god, my heart.
fandom:homestuck  author:makingtriangles  pairing:john/davesprite/jade  type:theyellowyard  type:threesome  type:bondage  type:a+forsexuality  type:workingitout  type:justthisedgeofpainful  length:5-10k 
february 2012 by blottingtheink
How You Survived The War - roachpatrol - Homestuck [Archive of Our Own]
The Novice Mode is... unsettling, to say the least. Perhaps if it had been installed sooner, before the face had taken on such a strikingly human aspect, you wouldn’t have found yourself in this position. Perhaps if it didn’t look so much like Dirk.


Roachroachroach, why you gotta do me like that. Amazing, amazing Jake character study, that is also just an excuse for pining and ... robot-fucking. Sometimes, I do not even know. :D
fandom:homestuck  author:roachpatrol  pairing:jake/dirk  type:pining!  type:sillysillyboys  type:whatwedotoeachother  type:goddamnwearefuckedup  type:emotionallyconstipated  type:smmmmmmmut  type:justthisedgeofpainful  length:1-5k 
january 2012 by blottingtheink
The Wise Man, Like the Fool - MacaroniSwirls - Homestuck [Archive of Our Own]
In which is recorded a detailed description of the omnisciently predetermined encounters between the Signless and Demoness of the moon. Pale Handmaid Sufferer if you squint.

:C :C :C

A number of distracting typos, but otherwise really haunting. Feels just a tad too short, in each scene, but overall, is satisfying.
fandom:homestuck  author:macaroniswirls  type:gen  character:thehandmaid  character:thesufferer  type:short  type:backstory  type:justthisedgeofpainful  length:1-5k 
january 2012 by blottingtheink
gyzym: good omens fic: build me a city, call it jerusalem [aziraphale/crowley, r]
They are collectors of things now, of flash cars and old scrolls, of decent wine they'll improve upon, of cell phones and old memories, of land deeds, just because. They are collectors of things, because they have learned better than to be collectors of people, know now that it will only speed it, the way they aggregate, the way they steal, are stolen, a thousand shades of piety in the weave of Aziraphale's tweeds, a watercolor in petty sins in the folds of Crowley's leathers.


On the eighth day, God wept. They don't really tell you that part.


Oh man--I wanted to quote every other line of this as I was reading it. It has a wonderful lyricism and an insight that continuously caught me off-guard. I love this Aziraphale and Crowley deeply. Warning: this fic uses and re-writes many Judeo-Christian stories and themes, and is a. MUCH easier to understand if you are familiar, and b. maybe give a miss if that is upsetting.
fandom:goodomens  author:gyzym  pairing:aziraphale/crowley  type:stylisticappreciation  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:beautiful  type:bibleretelling  type:insightful  length:1-5k 
january 2012 by blottingtheink
cephiedVariable — Five Weeks in May
It's a dumb idea like most of Terezi's ideas. For one, they don't tell anyone they're going. For another, they've got no destination.

"Dave Strider is man enough to admit that Terezi Pyrope is his favourite alien and he likes it when she’s smiling."

WAH! This has The Best Dave/Terezi pillow talk I have ever had the pleasure of reading. The last quarter is pitch-fucking perfect, but the whole thing is great. I also appreciate them driving out of Houston on the 59. The yellow grass isn't quite right. But I'll take what I can get.
fandom:homestuck  author:cephiedvariable  pairing:terezi/dave  type:posttext  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:characterization  type:voice  type:whatwedotoeachother  type:oopsi'minlovewithyou  type:roadtrip  length:5-10k  type:forc'estwhat 
december 2011 by blottingtheink
lock it up and leave - urbanAnchorite (t_ZM) - Homestuck [Archive of Our Own]
So John isn't mad when Dave says things like how's the Last Trollhican? because Dave Strider is also staggering under the weight of loss. Or when Rose says, John, you're spreading yourself too thin for nobody’s benefit, because Rose's first loyalty is always going to be to John. In another lifetime Rose Lalonde might have been sitting there calmly trying to fork Spaghetti-O's into Kanaya Maryam. But he's really grateful to Jade, sitting there hopefully with a bottle of Gatorade, ready to be tagged in when John tags out. John tries not to tag out too much.

No story should end like this. Every time he thinks about the unfairness of it, the unbelievable disgusting ugly unfairness, he wants to throw up.


I normally avoid angst like the plague--but all of the best fic in Homestuck is either AU or deals with the fact that it's, uh, actually about an Apocalypse, everybody's dying, and maybe it's the end.
fandom:homestuck  author:urbanAnchorite  pairing:john/karkat  type:ouchmyheart  type:apocalypse  type:angst  type:grief  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:softly  type:surviving  type:heavyheartedandlookingup  warningtype:depression  warningtype:disorderedeating  length:1-5k 
december 2011 by blottingtheink
kinnoth: (TSN RPS) i'll just be here, you know, hanging out on team asexual!jesse
It is only after that that Jesse knows what it was, and what had passed. He can put a name to it now that it is gone and there are other people and other things to see and do and be. <br />
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Not that it would have mattered, he suspects, if he’d known what love was when he'd had it so close. It probably would have made it worse.<br />
<br />
fandom:thesocialnetwork  author:kinnoth  pairing:jesse/andrew  type:posttext  type:ouchmyheart  type:knifeslidesin  type:characterization  type:unrequited  type:justthisedgeofpainful  from delicious
august 2011 by blottingtheink
etothepii: Seems So Easy for Everybody Else 1/2, PG-13, Sherlock
Warnings: trigger warnings for trans issues, brief mention of suicidal ideation

Summary: He signs his correspondences to the police as Sherlock H, as he always has, and he signs his letters to his parents as SH -- they can take what they will from the S. He signs his school assignments S. Holmes, and manages to get away with it because he is the only Holmes in his classes. FtM!Sherlock.

|| Oh, etothepii, I just want to roll around in everything you've ever written. This is gorgeous and heart-aching and perfect.
fandom:bbcsherlock  author:etothepii  type:gen  type:genderidentity  type:longandsatisfying  type:characterization  type:backstory  type:thisishowwedevelop  type:family  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:closetocanonau  type:somethingperfect  from delicious
july 2011 by blottingtheink
break through the cracks and bring me home - acetamide - X-Men: First Class (2011) [Archive of Our Own]
"Azazel takes them away in a whoosh of hot air and smoke, and he deposits them by the side of the road in the middle of a desert, the dry land stretching scorched on all sides for as far as the eye can see.

This is when Erik starts to run.

|| It's about running, and knowing what is and what isn't, it's about burnt skin, and the glowing pink that's underneath.
fandom:x-men(firstclass)  author:acetamide  pairing:erik/charles  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:posttext  type:characterization  type:whatwedotoeachother  type:slowburn  type:beautiful  type:endingiswhoa  type:stylisticappreciation  type:soaring  from delicious
june 2011 by blottingtheink
alexthegreat: TSN Big Bang: oriented towards the other, 1/2
Mark's empathy has been blocked off for years, for his own safety as well as comfort. But if he wants to win Eduardo back, he's going to have to embrace his ability and re-learn how to live with other people.<br />
<br />
(also, I stand by my earlier comment: alexthegreat makes me drop everything)
fandom:thesocialnetwork  author:alexthegreat  pairing:mark/eduardo  type:posttext  type:alternateuniverse  type:workingitout  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:noneofthisiseasy  type:oopsi'minlovewithyou  type:reconciliation  type:wewerealwaysinlove  type:superpowers  from delicious
may 2011 by blottingtheink
tsn_kinkmeme: Never Marry for Money (You Can Borrow it Cheaper)
Wow. I gasped out loud (twice), sighed (three times), said, "oh, you poor thing," and in general, had all the feelings. --In fact, I really enjoyed that the comment-trope for this fic was "I DON'T KNOW WHAT MY FEELINGS ARE DOING" <--yes. <br />
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The one where they wake-up-married (ridiculous)--but that is the only crack in the entire piece. Eduardo is painfully stupid and naive and in denial and in love and Mark is in love and stupid and doesn't know how to express himself and thinks he's right and desperate--AND THEN IT IS ALL WORKING OUT.<br />
<br />
(scurries off to read everything else Alex has ever written)
fandom:thesocialnetwork  author:alexthegreat  pairing:mark/eduardo  type:future  type:wokeupmarried  type:posttext  type:workingitout  type:whatwedotoeachother  type:characterization  type:thisishowwedevelop  type:fandomclassic  type:justthisedgeofpainful  from delicious
april 2011 by blottingtheink
enjambament: fic: In Our Line of Work [1/2]
Arthur wakes up and realizes the last ten years of his life have been a dream. He is nineteen, and he can barely remember where he is. What he can remember is the ghost of Eames’ hands pressed down on his chest trying frantically to stop the blood flooding up around his fingers as Arthur died (as he woke up).

|| I literally gave a great heaving sigh at the end. The best type of relief and satisfaction--seriously, how did I miss this one?
fandom:inception  author:enjambment  pairing:arthur/eames  type:ohwownorly  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:awesome  type:closetocanonau  type:dreamingfucksyouup  type:epic  type:plotty  from delicious
february 2011 by blottingtheink
wordstrings - A Thousand Threads of What-Might-Have-Beens I
When John does finally leave, Sherlock is the last one to be surprised by it. But so much leading up to the event was Good by their eccentric standards, even Immeasurably Good, that the timing does seem wrong. Well, mildly wrong. As wrong as any trivial detail can feel when one's bones have been removed, for example, or one's blood drained out of one's veins.

|| UNNNNNNNNNGHHHHHHHHHH. The author warns for "disturbingly possessive" and well, yes, that would be a line for me if this was anything else but Sherlock and John. As is, Sherlock is so beautiful and so shattering, and John is so good and it has so many feelings and oh, oh, oh.
fandom:bbcsherlock  author:wordstrings  pairing:sherlock/john  type:justthisedgeofpainful  type:characterization  type:soaring  type:a+forsexuality  type:myheart  type:noneofthisiseasy  type:ohwownorly  type:surviving  type:somethingperfect  from delicious
february 2011 by blottingtheink

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