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Relax. Drink some tea. — I'm A Real Boy [1]
Summary: Thanks to the Joker, Jason’s been stuck in a coma for four years. Thanks to Bruce, his mind has been downloaded into a computer and placed into a machine. And the only one who seems to give a crap is Dick. But how long will that last, when it starts to sink in that Jason’s not the real deal- just a copy of a boy long gone.

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pov:dick-grayson  trope:cruel-words  au:alternate-history  trope:resurrection  trope:bad-parents  char:jason-todd  au:scifi  relationship:pre-relationship  warning:dysphoria  kink:jason!whump  char:dick-grayson  trope:identity-issues  char:bruce-wayne  wc:1k5k  trope:creatures(robots&androids)  type:fic  trope:medical(coma)  pov:jason-todd  trope:clones  trope:self-loathing  trope:fights/arguments  series:I’m-a-Real-Boy  author:tictocrabbit  f:dcu  kink:body-horror  genre:angst  trope:cohabitation  pairing:dick/jason  trope:creatures  au:robot/android 
yesterday by toobufftorebuff
flying (but maybe i'm dying) - Chapter 1 - Mellaithwen - Titans (TV 2018) [Archive of Our Own]
Titans 2x07 remix/AU- because Bruce needs to come save his boys.

Jason’s been through a lot in the last couple days. He’s been kidnapped, tortured, thrown off of a building, and now he just wishes he knew how to stop falling.

(And he’s not the only one struggling)

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char:rachel-roth  char:koriand'r  trope:mental-health-issues(PTSD)  genre:angst  trope:protectiveness  char:bruce-wayne  trope:flashbacks  char:teen-titans  trope:near-death-experiences  char:slade-wilson  pov:dick-grayson  char:jason-todd  wc:10k20k  trope:gallant-rescues  trope:mental-health-issues(trauma)  trope:self-blame  warning:suicide-attempt  trope:medical(injury)  pov:bruce-wayne  kink:disassociation  char:dick-grayson  wc:wip  pairing:bruce+dick  trope:medical(hallucinations)  trope:robin!jason  author:Mellaithwen  warning:child-abuse  trope:mental-health-issues  trope:self-loathing  fav  warning:past-abuse  char:kon-el/conner-kent  trope:peril  kink:jason!whump  pairing:gen  trope:secrets  trope:secrets-revealed  trope:tending-to-sick/wounded  trope:insecurities  genre:h/c  pov:jason-todd  trope:panic-attacks  trope:batfamily-feels  trope:introspection  f:dcu  pairing:dick+jason  pov:multiple  trope:self-esteem-issues  warning:suicide  trope:trapped  trope:captured  type:fic  pairing:bruce+jason  trope:captivity  char:hank-hall  trope:guilt  pairing:ja 
5 days ago by toobufftorebuff
Bonds & Hardships - TheAngelofFate - Titans (TV 2018) [Archive of Our Own]
Ever since he was rescued from Deathstroke, nothings been the same. Everyone was blaming him for things he didn't do. His nightmares, the panic attacks, his own self hatred, it never stopped. He'd give anything for it to just stop.

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pairing:gen  genre:h/c  type:fic  warning:suicide-ideation  char:dick-grayson  pairing:dick+jason  f:dcu  pov:jason-todd  trope:self-loathing  warning:suicide  warning:suicide-attempt  char:bruce-wayne  genre:angst  char:jason-todd  trope:self-blame  trope:introspection  trope:robin!jason  wc:1k5k 
19 days ago by toobufftorebuff
Best Laid Plans Not Sober - Chapter 1 - EmeraldHeiress - Batman - All Media Types [Archive of Our Own]
The line opened. A sleepy voice answered, “Wayne.”

“Hi, Dad.” Jason greeted softly. A sharp intake of breath on the other side of the line. “Don’t be mad.” He pleaded, “I’m sorry, I know you didn’t want to hear from me until after Talia’s done training me.” His voice hitched. “I just miss you an’ the manor an’ Alfred. An’ I wanted to let you know that I get it now. I know why you sent me away after… after Ethiopia. I know I wasn’t a good Robin. Kinda hard to miss the point you were making after this whole Murder 101 tour T’s got me on.”

“Jay?” The voice on the other line sounded odd but Jason forged ahead.

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pairing:jason+kids  pairing:damian+jason  trope:reunions  char:cassandra-cain  trope:self-loathing  genre:angst  char:dick-grayson  genre:fluff  au:alternate-history  trope:secrets  trope:training  wc:5k10k  char:tim-drake  pairing:jason+talia  warning:manipulation  wc:wip  trope:unexpected-meetings/encounters  pov:jason-todd  f:dcu  char:damian-wayne  trope:misunderstandings  char:jason-todd  trope:self-esteem-issues  trope:death  pairing:bruce+jason  type:fic  trope:drugged  char:talia-al-ghul  trope:lies/deceit  trope:batfamily-feels  char:batfamily  pairing:gen  wc:1k5k  trope:grief/mourning  char:alfred-pennyworth  char:bruce-wayne  kink:jason!whump 
19 days ago by toobufftorebuff
Catch a Tiger by the Tail - BatsaboutBats (theboxedfox) - Multifandom [Archive of Our Own]
Jason's past sexual abuse and trauma is something he had thought he'd put behind him. He's no longer the vulnerable, touch starved child who repeatedly got hurt by twisted perverts. Now he's grown up, powerful and a goddamn beast who rules the Narrows with an iron clad fist. At least that's what he thinks until a recent case he takes on dredges up how much he's not-ok afterall.
Jason Todd needs therapy but a duffel bag and a knife is much cheaper.
genre:h/c  fav  trope:medical(chronic-illness/injury/pain)  pov:jason-todd  warning:human-trafficking  warning:referenced-noncon/dubcon  genre:angst  trope:tragic-backstories  char:jason-todd  char:alfred-pennyworth  trope:fights/arguments  char:batfamily  pairing:bruce+jason  char:bruce-wayne  char:tim-drake  trope:medical(illness:HIV/AIDS)  kink:jason!whump  warning:past-noncon  warning:manipulation  pairing:jason/other  warning:sexual-abuse  wc:wip  warning:abuse  trope:mental-health-issues  f:dcu  warning:child-abuse  genre:casefic  warning:child-abuse(grooming)  warning:past-underage  trope:self-loathing  warning:themes-of-noncon/abuse  trope:mental-health-issues(PTSD)  relationship:strained-family-relationships  warning:noncon  char:dick-grayson  warning:victim-blaming  pairing:alfred+jason  trope:prostitution  pairing:gen  trope:bad-parents  type:fic  trope:sex-work  genre:plot  trope:self-esteem-issues  warning:victim-blaming(self-victim-blaming)  trope:medical(illness)  char:damian-wayne  warning:past-abuse  trope:cruel-words  trope:secrets-reveale 
9 weeks ago by toobufftorebuff
Damaged goods - WHUMPBBY - Batman - All Media Types [Archive of Our Own]
“Sit down.” The alpha ordered and Jason listened only because he was too startled to protest. A plate of fresh toast slices and a jar of jam landed in front of him. “Eat.”
Should he argue and kick the kid out of his flat? Was it worth the emotional expense and a possible physical altercation he had no hope of winning right now? Damian wasn’t a four foot three shrimp anymore, he was determinedly chasing Bruce in both height and width, nowadays Jason didn't have to look down to meet his eye. He was also getting very good at channeling Talia’s cold facade and Bruce’s unmoved disposition – a real mix of traits to make up one perfect bastard that no one, apart from Grayson, could handle.
Jason decided that the effort wasn’t worth it and reached for a toast, slathered it generously with jam and stuffed his mouth full so he didn’t have to speak.

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trope:obliviousness  trope:self-loathing  trope:emotional-constipation  genre:h/c  setting:future  au:future  f:dcu  author:WHUMPBBY  kink:omega!jason  kink:heat  trope:breaking&entering  trope:confrontations  pairing:damian/jason  char:jason-todd  trope:medical(injury)  trope:abo-dynamics  au:abo  trope:insecurities  trope:tending-to-sick/wounded  trope:self-esteem-issues  char:damian-wayne  trope:pining  relationship:courting/wooing  pov:jason-todd  trope:UST  trope:gift-giving  type:fic  insp:omega!jason  wc:1k5k 
august 2019 by toobufftorebuff

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