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Damage; dimeliora
Jensen Ackles has the perfect life. He's the governor of Texas, happily married, and has an incredible daughter. Everything is fine, until his little girl brings her new boyfriend home.
rps  jared_jensen  jensen_ofc  politician!jensen  artist!jared  married!jensen  boys!breakup  boys!getbacktogether  cheating!jensen  cheating!jared  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  suicidal!jensen  challenge:*minor  archive:ao3  havepdf  rating:nc-17  author:dimeliora  genre:au  politicians!au  20-25k  ~ 
july 2018 by Itsokaydean
Twists and Turns 'Verse by tcs1121
Jensen thought he was signing up for cartooning, but accidentally signed up for ceramics, a class that's pretty damn tough when you've only got one working arm. It's worth it to suffer through it, though, because damn the shaggy-haired wheel-throwing teacher is fine... Word count:58,972 in 4 separate fics.
ao3  jared/jensen  rps  au  teacher!jared  author:tcs1121  hurt!jensen  angst  romance  disability  arm-injury  permanent-injury  suicidal!jensen  artist!jared  verse  T  haveread 
february 2017 by mountainstomove
For You by keep_waking_up
Jensen is an omega who feels abandoned by his alpha mate, Jared. All he wants is to feel loved by the older wolf, but Jared seems too busy with the females of the pack to take notice. Cue Jensen's heat. Jensen, fearful that this would only seperate them further, tries to hold out on his own. However, if he doesn't mate during his heat, he'll die. He knows this and he's okay with that, because Jared doesn't love him. Jared then shows up and shows him how much he means to him before its too late.
livejournal  jared/jensen  rps  au  author:keep_waking_up  alpha/beta/omega  suicidal!jensen  misunderstanding  omega!jensen  alpha!jared  sad  meme:spnkinkmeme  heat!fic  werecreatures  bottom!jensen  top!jared  crying  insecure!jensen  caring!jared  neglected!jensen  mating-problems 
february 2017 by mountainstomove
One Kiss At A Time by sweet_lyri
Jensen, Jared's newest employee at Jay's Pad, has had a hard decade. Recently released from a rehab facility, Jensen's living at a shelter and just needs some help getting his life back on track, and Jared vows to be the one to do just that. Jensen is also an amazing guy and Jared finds himself falling hard after just a week, and he's delighted to find out that Jensen feels the same way. But Jensen still has demons he's fighting and secrets he's keeping and Jared knows that a relationship is the last thing Jensen needs right now. But his heart isn't listening, and when Jared's involved in a stomach churning ordeal, it brings up things from Jensen's past that are revealed to be the causes of all his problems. And Jared doesn't know if he can fix them all. ...70,033
ao3  jared/jensen  rps  au  past-tragedy  homeless!jensen  substance-abuse  bigbang  pining!jared  author:sweet_lyri  hurt/comfort  boss/employee  past-abuse  rape/noncon  raped!jensen  attempted-suicide  violence  place:coffeeshop  shopowner!jared  padalecki-family  asshole!padaleckifamily  addict!jensen  shy!jensen  bad-guy:tahmoh-penikett  attempted-rape  mugging  rich!jared  suicidal!jensen  asshole!acklesfamily  character:genevieve-cortese  character:danneel-harris  character:stephen-amell  bottom!jared  top!jensen  70k  recced  O  haveread  author:lyri  hurt!jensen  rich/poor  emotional-hurt/comfort  baker!jensen  caring!jared  first-kiss  character:chad-michael-murray  hurt!jared  sexual-harassment  therapy!jensen  place:hospital  hospital!jensen  place:shelter  family-drama  slurs  kink:frottage  first-time  moving-in-together  all-human 
january 2017 by mountainstomove
Worth The Fight by little-deaths69
After a car accident leaves 17-year-old Jared comatose, he is stuck in the middle of life and death with one other guy for company. The more time he spends with the other man, Jared realizes that he's starting to fall for him and is even more determined to recover so the two can start their life together. But how do you start a life with someone who's just waiting for the end?
livejournal  jared/jensen  rps  au  place:hospital  hospital!jared  car-accident  suicide-ideation  coma!jared  toread  suicidal!jensen  place:parallel-universe  all-human 
january 2017 by mountainstomove
The Velvet Room (Part 5/5)
J1 is a magical creature (dragon? naga? something else entirely?) who used to eat people but is now committed to eating only dead meat from non-sentient species, for ethical reasons. However, he really misses the sensation of something huge and alive shoving around in his stomach. He goes to the supernatural creatures kink club, hoping someone will be willing to let him swallow them for a while, possibly on a semi-regular basis. He has trouble finding anyone, though; everyone's afraid it's just a trick so J1 can get dinner. He almost gives up, but then J2 agrees, and a pleasant and very satisfying vore-ish afternoon is had before J1 coughs him back up.
livejournal  meme:spnkinkmeme  suicidal!jensen  jared/jensen  rps  au  dragon!jared  human!jensen  kink:vorarephilia 
december 2016 by mountainstomove
One Kiss At A Time
[Lyri] Jensen, Jared's newest employee at Jay's Pad, has had a hard decade. Recently released from a rehab facility, Jensen's living at a shelter and just needs some help getting his life back on track, and Jared vows to be the one to do just that. Jensen is also an amazing guy and Jared finds himself falling hard after just a week, and he's delighted to find out that Jensen feels the same way. But Jensen still has demons he's fighting and secrets he's keeping and Jared knows that a relationship is the last thing Jensen needs right now. But his heart isn't listening, and when Jared's involved in a stomach churning ordeal, it brings up things from Jensen's past that are revealed to be the causes of all his problems. And Jared doesn't know if he can fix them all. (One Kiss at a Time 1)
AU:Cafes-&-Coffeeshops  AU:Chefs-&-Restaurants  pairing:Jensen/Jared  A+parenting:Ackles  A+parenting:Padalecki  abused!Jensen  angst  barista!Jared  bottom!Jared  chef/baker!Jared  chef/baker!Jensen  homeless!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  protective!Chris  protective!Danneel  rehab!Jensen  restauranteur!Jared  romantic  suicidal!Jensen  verse:One-Kiss-at-a-Time  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:50K-75K 
december 2016 by casey679
Nothing Left of my Heart to Break by JillMarie
When they are in high school, Jared is hired to tutor the very ill Jensen. Their feelings for each other get lost in the struggle of Jensen's illness. When they meet again in college, Jared is out and Jensen is healthy but buried in insecurities. Jared brings out the best in Jensen. Warning: mentions of suicide attempt and description of attempt. Words: 25,964
ao3  jared/jensen  rps  sick!jensen  au  highschool!fic  pining!jared  friends-to-lovers  getting-together  first-time  homophobia  blowjob  handjob  no-character-death  attempted-suicide  suicidal!jensen  virgin!jensen  health-scare  frottage  schmoop  author:jillmariej  20k  neardeath  tutor!jared  all-human 
december 2016 by mountainstomove
Kiss Me With a Bullet by sinestrated
Notes: AU. Very, very loosely inspired by the Korean movie Daisy. Summary: Jared is a barista at a small coffee shop who promptly falls for Jensen, his newest customer. But Jensen is hiding something big, and it just might have something to do with the mob family across the street. Words: 8,821
livejournal  author:sinestrated  jared/jensen  rps  au  meet-as-strangers  customer!jensen  barista!jared  place:coffeeshop  secrets  criminals  bamf!jensen  violence  rating:pg-13  oneshot  5to9k  movie-remake  character:chad-michael-murray  place:chicago  pining!jared  escaping-from-home  first-kiss  murderer!jensen  suicidal!jensen  jared-to-the-rescue  attempted-suicide  past-tragedy  mobster!jared  mobster!jensen  rich!jared  family-drama  getting-together  revenge  minor-character-death  K  haveread  secret-identity  pre-slash 
november 2016 by mountainstomove
Empty Spaces by etoile_etiolee
Jared Padalecki doesn't really know where his life goes. Living alone, working for a customer's service, he feels like he's going through the motions of everyday life without enjoying it. Everything changes when a distressed young man makes a mistake and calls his service, asking for help. Jensen Ackles is a mystery to Jared but he can't help being fascinated. Gaining the man's trust will reveal how much help Jensen really needs, and Jared's life will never be the same again. Words: 38,162.
ao3  jared/jensen  rps  author:etoile_etiolee  customerservice!jared  domestic-violence  violence  abused!jensen  30k  meet-as-strangers  online-relationship  hurt!jensen  suicidal!jensen  character:genevieve-cortese  drugs  coffeeshop  younger!jensen  older!jared  loner!jensen  stutter  scared!jensen  rape/noncon  raped!jensen  bad-guy:omc  past-prostitution  homophobia  manipulation  getting-together  masturbation  handjob  no-sex  au  E  haveread 
august 2016 by mountainstomove
A Mile in My Shoes, a Lifetime in My Head
One morning Jared and Jensen wake up and find they've been body-swapped. At first, it's pretty funny as they deal with being in each other's body! But things quickly get serious when Jared falls ill and Jensen can't seem to help him. Secrets can't be hidden when you're in your partner's head...
AU  angst  bottom!Jensen  depressed!Jared  depressed!Jensen  protective!Jared  suicidal!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
december 2015 by casey679
The Last Light I See
When Jensen wakes up in the hospital, he wakes up confused and alone. There's no family or friends worrying over his bedside, no cards or flowers. The doctor quietly informs him of three things: his name, that he was beaten and mugged, and that he's tested positive for Super. On the long road of recovery from a brutal attack, Jensen slowly starts to piece together what kind of man he was, the kind he wants to be, and why the tall, ridiculously gorgeous gardener seems to hate his guts.
abused!Jensen  amnesia!Jensen  angst  asshole!Danneel  florist/landscaper!Jared  hurt!Jensen  powers!Jared  powers!Jensen  protective!Alona  protective!Chad  protective!Chris  PTSD!Jensen  suicidal!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Jensen/Danneel  AU:Crime-&-Police-Drama  AU:Superpowers  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  tw:dub/non-con 
october 2015 by casey679
All That Shimmers is Sure to Fade
It was once said that fame means millions of people having the wrong idea of who you are. But the misconception works both ways. Supermodel Jared Padalecki has come to the cold realization that he's nothing like the down home, All-American boy whose visage adorns the pages of magazines and faces of billboards. Nothing in his life is real and the beautiful people that surround him are the ugliest part of it all. On the night he decides to run, a mysterious stranger kidnaps him under the cover of darkness. A man with a hatred of everything Jared represents, a man with a growling voice, a man with a name — Jensen. (Note: Read the author's comments in the comments section for a glimpse of what might happen after end of story.)
amnesia!Jared  angst  asshole!Chad  asshole!Jared  asshole!Sandy  bartender!Jensen  bottom!Jensen  depressed!Jared  disabled!Jensen  hurt!Jared  kidnapped!Jared  model!Jared  suicidal!Jensen  writer!Jensen  pairing:Jared/Chad/Sandy  pairing:Jared/OMC(s)  pairing:Jensen/Jared  AU:Crime-&-Police-Drama  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  kink:rough-sex  kink:bondage  kink:drug-use  tw:dub/non-con 
september 2015 by casey679
Forty-Three Days (and timestamps)
The stress of filming the last four episodes of season 3 have caught up with Jensen, who blames his hallucinations on Dean's emotional roller coaster and his own lack of sleep. But a short break between the season finale and the shooting of his new movie fails to improve his mental state. He abandons the movie and becomes a recluse in Vancouver, fearing for his own sanity. Once he realizes that the hallucinations are real, and there's more than just his sanity at stake, Jensen contacts Jared, who may be the only person able to understand what Jensen's going through. Jared arrives in Vancouver just in time to save Jensen's life, but the danger threatening Jensen remains. Their lives become a race against time, and the show has brought them more than they'd bargained for. Jared has to keep Jensen alive for 43 days. Can they make it?
angst  bottom!Jared  bottom!Jensen  cursed!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  protective!Jared  suicidal!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  AU:Magic  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
june 2015 by casey679
No Matter What
Jensen has Dissociative Personality Disorder (multiple personalities) and Jared is his boyfriend. Jensen's other personalities come out on occasion but it's all right, because Jared loves every part of Jensen.
angst  bottom!Jared  MPD!Jensen  suicidal!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  kink:exhibitionism 
march 2015 by casey679
Who You Are
[screamer] Jensen's a bouncer with permanent memory issues. Jared's an amazing stripper with a lousy attitude and a reason for it. But Jensen's still determined to find a way behind Jared's defenses.
AU:Bars-&-Strip-Clubs  pairing:Jensen/Jared  abused!Jared  asshole!Jared  bouncer!Jensen  depressed!Jared  hurt!Jensen  mentally-impaired!Jensen  protective!Jensen  rich!Jensen  stripper!Chad  stripper!Jared  suicidal!Jensen  tw:child-abuse  tw:domestic-abuse  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:15K-20K 
march 2015 by casey679
One Kiss At A Time (Masterpost)
Jensen, Jared's newest employee at Jay's Pad, has had a hard decade. Recently released from a rehab facility, Jensen's living at a shelter and just needs some help getting his life back on track, and Jared vows to be the one to do just that. Jensen is also an amazing guy and Jared finds himself falling hard after just a week, and he's delighted to find out that Jensen feels the same way. But Jensen still has demons he's fighting and secrets he's keeping and Jared knows that a relationship is the last thing Jensen needs right now. But his heart isn't listening, and when Jared's involved in a stomach churning ordeal, it brings up things from Jensen's past that are revealed to be the causes of all his problems. And Jared doesn't know if he can fix them all.
AU:Cafes-&-Coffeeshops  AU:Chefs-&-Restaurants  pairing:Jensen/Jared  A+parenting:Ackles  A+parenting:Padalecki  abused!Jensen  angst  asshole!Tahmoh  barista!Jared  bottom!Jared  chef/baker!Jared  chef/baker!Jensen  homeless!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  protective!Chris  protective!Danneel  rehab!Jensen  restauranteur!Jared  restauranteur!Jensen  rich!Jared  romantic  suicidal!Jensen  verse:One-Kiss-at-a-Time  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:75K-100K 
february 2015 by casey679
Behind Your Glittered Eyes
Jensen works at a nightclub called Glitter, hiding from his past behind his job. But one night, he finds he can't hide forever. The past has a nasty habit of catching up with you in the end. (Glittered Eyes 1)
abused!Jensen  angst  artist!Jensen  bartender!Jensen  bottom!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  protective!Chris  protective!Jared  recovery!fic  student!Jared  suicidal!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  AU:Bars-&-Strip-Clubs  verse:Glittered-Eyes  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  tw:dub/non-con 
february 2015 by casey679

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