ptsd!kirk   23

Let Me Help
"The Narada incident has just been dealt with, and Kirk is realizing that he's in worse shape than he would like to admit." (111,306 words) Part 2 of Shades of Blue and Gold
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  kirk/mccoy  bamf!kirk  hurt!kirk  ptsd!kirk  guilty!spock  protective!spock  protective!mccoy  friendship  hurt/comfort  ptsd  abuse:child(past)  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  noncon/dubcon  recovery  slowburn  preslash  series/verse  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:maifai 
9 weeks ago by elwarre
Miles and Miles of Mountains
"Spock is standing outside of his quarters. Jim pauses. He wants to punch him, turns the idea over in his mind briefly before loosening his fist and keying in his access code instead. Spock follows him inside wordlessly. He eyes Jim like he’s a wild animal, something that needs to be monitored and contained. Jim has never felt less contained in his life." (3605 words)
james_kirk  spock  kirk/spock  ptsd!kirk  bottom!kirk  top!spock  pov:kirk  character_study  angst  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  hothothot  sex:rough  kink:manhandling  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:mombasas  have:pdf 
february 2018 by elwarre
Cardinal Rule
"The Enterprise is sent on a mission, one that is strikingly similar to Tarsus IV. Trapped on the warring planet, Kirk must struggle through his demons to keep Spock and his landing team safe. Meanwhile, Spock has recently found he has feelings for his captain and is determined to stay away. Can he when he sees Jim falling into the memories of his horrid past?" (117,960 words)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  kirk/spock  bamf!kirk  smart!kirk  hurt!kirk  ptsd!kirk  clueless!kirk  protective!spock  hurt!spock  tortured!spock  pining!spock  action  angst  hurt/comfort  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  noncon/dubcon  torture  ptsd  escape/rescue  slowburn  pining  first_time  st:fiveyearmission  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:sakuraminamio  have:pdf 
december 2016 by elwarre
Don't Tell Me You're Sorry
"Sometimes he meant it, sometimes he didn't, but she hoped beyond anything that he knew hers was genuine. Or, five times Jim Kirk owed Nyota Uhura an apology, and one time she owed him one in return." (5355 words) Third in the Sorry, Not Sorry series
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  gen  hurt!kirk  ptsd!kirk  protective!mccoy  clueless!uhura  guilty!uhura  angst  friendship  hurt/comfort  pranks  ptsd  tarsus_iv  series/verse  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:sadieyuki 
august 2016 by elwarre
All in Good Fun
"It's all in good fun until someone gets hurt. Or, five times the crew played a prank on their captain, and one time it went too far." (4306 words) Second in the Sorry, Not Sorry series
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  nyota_uhura  hikaru_sulu  gen  ptsd!kirk  understanding!mccoy  clueless!uhura  humor  angst  pranks  ptsd  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  series/verse  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:sadieyuki 
august 2016 by elwarre
The World May Never Know
"How many lies does it take to get to the center of a Jim Kirk? Or, five times Jim Kirk hid the truth from Leonard McCoy, and one time he finally opened up." (9558 words) First in the Sorry, Not Sorry series
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  kirk/mccoy  hurt!kirk  ptsd!kirk  clueless!mccoy  understanding!mccoy  angst  friendship  hurt/comfort  academy!fic  confession/secrets  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  torture  ptsd  preslash  series/verse  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:sadieyuki 
august 2016 by elwarre
Antithesis
"Kirk is given an assignment he isn't sure he'll ever be able to finish. "What would you have done differently in the situation on Tarsus IV?" His childhood nightmare double-spaced in twelve-point font." (shortish)
james_kirk  spock  leonard_mccoy  kirk/spock  ptsd!kirk  guilty!spock  understanding!spock  angst  hurt/comfort  academy!fic  tarsus_iv  ptsd  preslash  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:annenburg 
august 2016 by elwarre
Not in Our Stars
"Written for a prompt requesting a fic in which brilliant young medical student Leonard McCoy volunteers for a Doctors Without Borders-type organization and ends up helping with the rescue efforts on Tarsus IV, where he meets a teenage, traumatized Jim Kirk, who will, for whatever reason, allow only McCoy to treat him. I have played fast and loose with TOS information about Tarsus IV and its location, making it closer to Earth so that McCoy could feasibly make it there and back in one summer." (36,308 words)
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  thomas_leighton  gen  protective!kirk  bamf!kirk  hurt!kirk  abused!kirk  drugged!kirk  ptsd!kirk  protective!mccoy  angst  hurt/comfort  tarsus_iv  hunger/starvation  abuse:child  noncon/dubcon  drugs:nonconsensual  ptsd  escape/rescue  recovery  clinic/hospital  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:emluv 
august 2016 by elwarre
Solitary Confinement
"He calls this side of himself Spock. Kirk is entirely robotic and emotionless, claiming to be a -- an alien, actually. On his crew. Kirk goes into this mode when he's having his bad days, where every bad thing can be explained logically. He makes observations about other people without ever really caring how it affects them, pointing out flaws, and merely wrapping it up with a muttered 'fascinating...' as he wanders off. Bones hates Spock. Hates it when this side takes the life out of those pretty blue eyes." (oneshot, sort of an unfinished feel to it, but it's not posted as a WIP) The noncon is not explicit or between the main pairing.
james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  kirk/mccoy  ptsd!kirk  hallucinating!kirk  dark!mccoy  dark  mental_institution  hallucinations  ptsd  abuse:child(past)  noncon/dubcon  illness:mental  roommates  preslash  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:chasingthewinds 
july 2016 by elwarre
✢ Leave No Soul Behind
"If you're Starfleet, you spend your whole life wishing you never see an EPAS uniform right up until the moment they become your only hope. Whether you're dying a slow, cold death in space, or a long painful one on some godforsaken planet, they're going to come for you. So count your last breaths, son, and hold on tight. They leave no soul behind." (258,951 words)
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july 2016 by elwarre
✢ Death I Think is No Parenthesis
"Another battle/orgy prompt post for Team McSpirk for STXI Ship Wars on LJ. IDEK know how e.e. cummings turned into a backhanded homage to Keats and Sappho’s fragmented poems. It was what was caught my eye on my poetry shelves that afternoon. Warnings for elliptical references to torture, old TOS episodes, Tarsus and of course, broken!Jim." (4005 words)
  james_kirk  leonard_mccoy  spock  kirk/spock/mccoy  hurt!kirk  ptsd!kirk  protective!mccoy  protective!spock  angst  character_study  confession/secrets  ptsd  hunger/starvation  torture  tarsus_iv  recovery  polyamory  established!relationship  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:blcwriter 
july 2016 by elwarre
Looking for Shooting Stars
"Spock and his family have moved to Earth. He has accepted this. But when Jim Kirk moves in next door and Spock accidentally gets a glimpse of the younger boy's pain, Spock refuses to accept the fact that he cannot help. It may be illogical, but he will unravel the mystery that is Jim Kirk." (56,736 words) First in an ongoing series.
james_kirk  spock  winona_kirk  frank(startrek)  amanda_grayson  sarek  kirk/spock  kirk/ofc  student!kirk  hurt!kirk  abused!kirk  drugged!kirk  raped!kirk  bullied!kirk  ptsd!kirk  reluctant!kirk  student!spock  protective!spock  pining!spock  friendship  hurt/comfort  angst  drugs:nonconsensual  abuse:child  noncon/dubcon  hunger/starvation  eating_disorder  ptsd  bullying  homophobia  self_loathing  highschool  mindmeld  telepathy  bonding/soulmates  escape/rescue  clinic/hospital  first_time  series/verse  st:preseries(aos)  fandom:startrek(aos)  author:miss_meh 
july 2016 by elwarre

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