ptsd!bucky   19

We Leave Through the Fire
They called the soldier into a training room where he saw his son hanging upside down on the ceiling. “Hi Papa!” He cheered, waving with a big smile even though the soldier never gave one back. “Look, Soldat, your son is a miracle,” an agent cackled, yellow teeth shining in the fluorescent lights, “crawling the walls like a little spider!” The soldier doesn’t remember his son’s birth or how he came to be. He doesn’t remember bedding a woman and watching her belly swell, but they said the boy was his. He does know that he will protect and teach the boy within the confines of their cell walls. Even when the handlers berate him. Even when the good guys take him away. (41,392 words)
peter_parker  bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  may_parker  steve/bucky  bamf!peterparker  smart!peterparker  hurt!peterparker  protective!bucky  ptsd!bucky  parent!bucky  protective!steve  action  hurt/comfort  brainwashing/mindgames  fighting/sparring  abuse:emotional/psychological  abuse:child  escape/rescue  recovery  fandom:marvel  author:justanotherblond  have:pdf 
14 days ago by elwarre
Teumessian Fox
"Unstoppable force meets immovable object. Bucky Barnes meets Matt Murdock. Pretty much completely incompatible with anything after Daredevil S1." (16,722 words)
matt_murdock  bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  matt/bucky  undercover!matt  bottom!matt  ptsd!bucky  top!bucky  pov:matt  character_study  undercover  confession/secrets  ptsd  recovery  sex:shower  first_time  series/verse  crossover  fandom:daredevil  fandom:marvel  author:onvavoir 
february 2018 by elwarre
Between their Names (MCU) S/B, AU, Sproings
Extras series: http://archiveofourown.org/series/334783

What would a background check have turned up about Steven Grant Rogers?

Hopefully not the fact that Bucky could still remember the guy’s middle name. But certainly the fact that Steve and Bucky (and Jesus how their names still flowed together in his head) had spent three years living on the same street, going to the same school.

And now they were strangers.

AKA The one where Steve teaches a knitting class, and Bucky hides in a tree, and there's a cat named Peepers
Fic  Slash  MCU  Steve/Bucky  Sproings  AU  PTSD!Bucky  Knitting!Fic 
january 2018 by blissthisway
The Thing that Drives the Wolves Away
"The thing about Bucky these days is that, while he might be a semi-mythical assassin, he's also vulnerable—the kind of vulnerable that makes total strangers want to drape a blanket over his shoulders and take him to safety. The problem is, of course, that Bucky is already safe." (7876 words)
steve_rogers  bucky_barnes  sam_wilson  steve/bucky  protective!steve  understanding!steve  ptsd!bucky  pov:steve  misunderstanding  recovery  ptsd  previous!relationship  fandom:marvel  author:caughtinanocean 
may 2017 by elwarre
✢ Clint Barton's Super Secret Snipers' Club
Clint Barton's Super Secret Snipers' Club. (Invitation and pending mental health evaluation required.) "When Steve brings Bucky back to the tower for the first time, Clint’s first thought is that Tony Stark’s pride and joy is quickly becoming a less of a very tall and expensive ‘fuck you’ in the faces of investors who don’t believe in self-sustaining energy, and more of a superhero rehabilitation center." Boyfriends, compromises and learning to like oneself. (67,055 words)
  clint_barton  bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  tony_stark  natasha_romanov  nick_fury  clint/bucky  steve/tony  bamf!clint  understanding!clint  clueless!clint  protective!clint  ptsd!clint  deaf!clint  bamf!bucky  protective!bucky  ptsd!bucky  pining!bucky  jealous!bucky  pov:clint  angst  humor  schmoop  friendship  brainwashing/mindgames  ptsd  recovery  disability  jealousy  pining  first_time  fandom:marvel  author:sara_holmes  have:pdf 
march 2017 by elwarre
✢ Your Blue-Eyed Boys
"Steve has no plan. Not because he hadn't tried to make one. He'd tried to make lots of plans. Plan, adapt, plan again, tried to think of every contingency. And then he'd thrown them away, because there wasn't much point. What could you plan for? He couldn't guess the possible contingencies, the situations, the potentials. And he sure as sure hadn't figured on what's happened now, on coming back to his place and finding Bucky here. He hadn't even hoped for that. He hadn't realized he could." (123,233 words)
  steve_rogers  bucky_barnes  sam_wilson  tony_stark  pepper_potts  natasha_romanov  clint_barton  betty_ross  bruce_banner  steve/bucky  protective!steve  guilty!steve  understanding!steve  hurt!bucky  ptsd!bucky  pov:steve  pov:bucky  angst  character_study  hurt/comfort  ptsd  recovery  previous!relationship  series/verse  fandom:marvel  author:feather  need:pdf 
february 2017 by elwarre
Between Scylla and Charybdis
"Sam Wilson has been witness to a lot of things he wishes he could unsee. Civilian families shot dead in their cars because of miscommunications at checkpoints. Riley’s body spiralling to the ground in a smoke-plumed plummet. His own face in his bathroom mirror after waking up hung-over as hell at two in the afternoon, the day after the anniversary of Riley’s death, year after year after year. And now, in an abandoned bunker on the outskirts of Boston, a seemingly unremarkable manila folder at the bottom of a filing cabinet." (21,683 words) Check the warnings on this one
sam_wilson  bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  gen  understanding!samwilson  hurt!bucky  ptsd!bucky  clueless!steve  pov:samwilson  angst  hurt/comfort  friendship  confession/secrets  noncon/dubcon  ptsd  revenge  roadtrip  fandom:marvel  author:refusals  have:pdf 
january 2017 by elwarre
How it Adds Up
"When Bucky remembers that he used to turn tricks for money in the 1930s, he realizes the Bucky Barnes that Steve believes in is a lie. He's always been the worthless, degenerate creature Hydra told him he was. He just has to make Steve understand that." (6966 words)
bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  natasha_romanov  clint_barton  steve/bucky  bucky/omc  hurt!bucky  ptsd!bucky  raped!bucky  hooker!bucky  clueless!steve  understanding!steve  protective!natasha  understanding!natasha  protective!clint  pov:bucky  character_study  angst  hurt/comfort  prostitution  noncon/dubcon  ptsd  self_loathing  previous!relationship  fandom:marvel  author:brighteyedjill 
january 2017 by elwarre
Hard Wired
"After a few months of being on his own, his body deteriorating, Bucky knows he's got to go somewhere. He can only think of one place to go. Your basic post CA2 fix-it fic." (30,600 words)
bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  natasha_romanov  tony_stark  bruce_banner  sam_wilson  clint_barton  steve/bucky  hurt!bucky  ptsd!bucky  protective!steve  understanding!steve  pov:bucky  angst  action  friendship  hurt/comfort  recovery  ptsd  torture  noncon/dubcon  brainwashing/mindgames  kink:piercings  first_time  fandom:marvel  author:arsenic  have:pdf 
december 2016 by elwarre
✢ Give an Inch
"The Captain has a warm smile and clear, open eyes. The Soldier knows these are tricks. He's fallen for them before and he won't do it again." (5070 words) Dark and heartbreaking with a hint of hope at the end.
  bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  gen  hurt!bucky  ptsd!bucky  protective!steve  pov:bucky  angst  heartbreaking  ptsd  noncon/dubcon  torture  misunderstanding  brainwashing/mindgames  fandom:marvel  author:lauralot  have:pdf 
december 2016 by elwarre
Welcome to the Jungle
"What do you think about guy-guy scenes?" He was too self-conscious to act, modelling didn't pay enough, and time out of school for the medical trial that fixed his body had left him barely scraping a pass on his GED. He shared an apartment with a burlesque dancer, and she'd talked him into it over a weekend and way too much tequila. Three pictures and one embarrassingly short amateur jerk-off video later, and here he is. "Gay scenes?" His mom can never find out about this. (44,656 words) First in the One For My Baby series
bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  clint_barton  phil_coulson  natasha_romanov  sam_wilson  nick_fury  peggy_carter  pepper_potts  thor  darcy_lewis  tony_stark  bruce_banner  jasper_sitwell  alexander_pierce  steve/bucky  bucky/pierce  clint/phil  pornstar!bucky  hurt!bucky  addict!bucky  ptsd!bucky  abused!bucky  raped!bucky  bottom!bucky  pornstar!steve  protective!steve  understanding!steve  top!steve  protective!natasha  cameraman!clint  protective!clint  understanding!clint  angst  hurt/comfort  friendship  industry:porn  addiction  prostitution  stripping  noncon/dubcon  brainwashing/mindgames  abuse:emotional/psychological  abuse:domestic(past)  ptsd  selfharm  recovery  first_time  series/verse  marvel:au:no!supers  fandom:marvel  author:neversaydie 
october 2016 by elwarre
✢ Chasm
"Steve pulls his missing, presumed dead best friend into his circle of super heroes and starts working to undo the physical and mental damage Hydra has done. It’s not easy, and it’s not pleasant. But it would probably be a lot more effective if Bucky weren’t keeping secrets, and if he could figure out how to interpret Bucky’s mood swings." (77,288 words) Part 2 of Ipseity
  bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  sam_wilson  natasha_romanov  tony_stark  clint_barton  maria_hill  nick_fury  bruce_banner  thor  sharon_carter  steve/bucky  bamf!bucky  protective!bucky  sick!bucky  ptsd!bucky  interrogated!bucky  pining!bucky  protective!steve  understanding!steve  pining!steve  character_study  angst  friendship  action  languages:multiple  illness  illness:mental  mpd/did  ptsd  self_loathing  interrogation  clinic/hospital  confession/secrets  issues:gender/sexuality  pining  established!relationship  series/verse  fandom:marvel  author:skyisgray  have:pdf 
august 2016 by elwarre
✢ Ain't No Grave (Can Keep My Body Down)
"It's six in the morning, and Steve is heading out on a run when he nearly trips over a bouquet of sunflowers on the front steps of his brownstone. For a second paranoia takes over, and he kicks the flowers a little, waiting for them to explode. They don't. They also came with a card, which he picks up. The front of the card has a tasteful picture of the Brooklyn bridge at sunset. It's very nice and sedate, like the kind of card you would buy to give to your boss. On the inside someone has written a short message in big, shaky block letters. I AM SORRY FOR SHOOTING YOU. Steve sits down hard on the steps." (107,095 words) Second in the "Ain't No Grave" series - again, some of the best OC's I've seen in fanfic.
  bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  sam_wilson  natasha_romanov  tony_stark  clint_barton  phil_coulson  matt_murdock  foggy_nelson  claire_temple  pepper_potts  steve/bucky  samwilson/claire  bamf!bucky  homeless!bucky  hurt!bucky  ptsd!bucky  addict!bucky  hallucinating!bucky  musician!bucky  artist!steve  religious!steve  protective!steve  understanding!steve  pining!steve  protective!samwilson  character_study  friendship  angst  humor  pov:outsider  languages:multiple  homelessness  streetkids  addiction  drugs:recreational  abuse:child(past)  brainwashing/mindgames  ptsd  illness:mental  hallucinations  art/photography  text/email  slowburn  pining  sexual!dysfunction  first_time  series/verse  fandom:marvel  author:spitandvinegar  have:pdf 
august 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Needle and the Killing Drone
The asset wears blue jeans, a t-shirt, a denim jacket. The asset wears one glove. The asset walks around the city. It feels as if it remembers something. It doesn't know what it remembers. Perhaps it remembers everything. After two days the insects crawling over the asset's body become intolerable. The asset uses its metal arm to attempt to remove the insects from the meat arm. The results are not satisfactory. “What the fuck are you doing, man?” says a pile of refuse. (7549 words) First in the "Ain't No Grave" series

An excellent insight into Bucky before he reunites with Steve with some truly wonderful OC's. Heavy material, but not as dark as the tags make it sound
  bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  steve/bucky  bucky/omc  addict!bucky  ptsd!bucky  hurt!bucky  raped!bucky  homeless!bucky  pov:bucky  angst  character_study  friendship  ptsd  prostitution  addiction  drugs:recreational  noncon/dubcon  brainwashing/mindgames  illness:mental  homelessness  previous!relationship  series/verse  fandom:marvel  author:spitandvinegar  have:pdf 
august 2016 by elwarre
The Tones That Tremble Down Your Spine
"Tony tells him they’re planning a party for Steve’s birthday. He knows how parties are supposed to go." (13,889 words) The noncon and abuse are both in the past, but appear in a very vivid flashback. I've marked several things as kinks because that's how my tags work, but they are nonconsensual and abusive, not kinky, in this story. Please heed the author's warnings.
bucky_barnes  steve_rogers  tony_stark  steve/bucky  hurt!bucky  ptsd!bucky  raped!bucky  spanked!bucky  whipped!bucky  clueless!steve  protective!steve  guilty!steve  understanding!steve  angst  dark  misunderstanding  noncon/dubcon  ptsd  whipping  kink:spanking  kink:humiliation  kink:exhibitionism  kink:gangbang  kink:toys  established!relationship  fandom:marvel  author:luninosity 
june 2016 by elwarre

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