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Request: Dean/Cas, domestic, amnesia, attempted suicide
Dean and Cas are settled into a domestic life. Dean gets amnesia and thinks he's stuck in a djinn fantasy so he tries to kill himself (not exactly suicidal but just because it's how to escape a djinn)
:spn  fps  pairing:dean/castiel  domesticity  amnesia  kink:suicide-attempt  djinn 
may 2017 by Mayalaen
The Wisdom of No Escape
In a world where both arranged marriages and domestic discipline are common. Omega Dean is given in marriage to (not related) Alpha Sam. John and Mary raised their boy in a progressive household, where spouses are equals and there is no head of the household or use of domestic discipline. Dean was never spanked. When they died though, Dean was given to the custody of one of John's Traditionalist relatives, who sees Dean only as a burden to be married off as soon as possible.

Less than three months after his parents' death, Dean is given to Sam, who is super Traditional, even among the traditionalists. John's relative figures Sam will shake some sense and discipline into Dean. Sam has super strict household rules he expects to be followed- what Dean can wear (panties) and not wear (anything else), how he can behave, when he can leave the house without Sam (never). How Dean is to talk to Sam (with permission only, use of Sir or Alpha). When Dean has sex (when and where Sam wants, even if that's in public or if Dean does not want it). What Dean can eat even is controlled. Infractions are punished with severe spankings, both by hand and with implements. Before long, Dean is cowering in fear of his new husband.

Sam sees himself as strict and harsh but fair. He's consistent and never spanks in anger. If Dean doesn't want to be spanked, he just needs to behave. It's not like Sam wants to spank him. It's not like the rules are impossible to follow. He just doesn't understand why Dean's behavior isn't improving. Sam is just trying to help Dean and doing this out of love. Sam doesn't understand why the beautiful Omega who came to his household months ago is fading and always sick. why Dean isn't talking or eating.

Then one night, after a particularly severe spanking after Dean wouldn't eat his dinner, Dean attempts suicide and nearly succeeds. Afterwards, Sam's family urges him to put Dean aside, maybe commit him to a mental facility for the rest of his life, but Sam doesn't want to do that. He's grown to love Dean and is frantic when he realizes that what he was always taught was loving discipline isn't working for him and Dean. then he meets hospital psychologist Castiel, a secret progressive, who encourages him to think about life in a different way and maybe he doesn't have to discipline Dean at all, just love him and care for him. But can Sam overcome a lifetime of traditionalist thinking and can Dean overcome months of trauma. For Dean, this marriage was never anything but abuse, even if Sam meant well.
fandom:supernatural  pairing:sam/dean  kink:underage  kink:non-con  kink:suicidal-ideation  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:alpha/beta/omega  kink:forced-marriage  kink:alpha!sam  kink:omega!dean  kink:age-flip  kink:age-difference  kink:discipline  kink:public-sex  kink:public-display  kink:bottom!dean  kink:top!sam  kink:virginity  kink:virgin!dean  kink:knotting  kink:claiming  kink:punishment  kink:spanking  kink:belt-whipping  kink:panties  kink:force-feeding  WIP 
may 2016 by spnkink_meme
Request: Dean/Sam discipline, broken Dean
In a world where both arranged marriages and domestic discipline are common. Omega Dean is given in marriage to (not related) Alpha Sam. John and Mary raised their boy in a progressive household, where spouses are equals and there is no head of the household or use of domestic discipline. Dean was never spanked. When they died though, Dean was given to the custody of one of John's Traditionalist relatives, who sees Dean only as a burden to be married off as soon as possible.

Less than three months after his parents' death, Dean is given to Sam, who is super Traditional, even among the traditionalists. John's relative figures Sam will shake some sense and discipline into Dean. Sam has super strict household rules he expects to be followed- what Dean can wear (panties) and not wear (anything else), how he can behave, when he can leave the house without Sam (never). How Dean is to talk to Sam (with permission only, use of Sir or Alpha). When Dean has sex (when and where Sam wants, even if that's in public or if Dean does not want it). What Dean can eat even is controlled. Infractions are punished with severe spankings, both by hand and with implements. Before long, Dean is cowering in fear of his new husband.

Sam sees himself as strict and harsh but fair. He's consistent and never spanks in anger. If Dean doesn't want to be spanked, he just needs to behave. It's not like Sam wants to spank him. It's not like the rules are impossible to follow. He just doesn't understand why Dean's behavior isn't improving. Sam is just trying to help Dean and doing this out of love. Sam doesn't understand why the beautiful Omega who came to his household months ago is fading and always sick. why Dean isn't talking or eating.

Then one night, after a particularly severe spanking after Dean wouldn't eat his dinner, Dean attempts suicide and nearly succeeds. Afterwards, Sam's family urges him to put Dean aside, maybe commit him to a mental facility for the rest of his life, but Sam doesn't want to do that. He's grown to love Dean and is frantic when he realizes that what he was always taught was loving discipline isn't working for him and Dean. then he meets hospital psychologist Castiel, a secret progressive, who encourages him to think about life in a different way and maybe he doesn't have to discipline Dean at all, just love him and care for him. But can Sam overcome a lifetime of traditionalist thinking and can Dean overcome months of trauma. For Dean, this marriage was never anything but abuse, even if Sam meant well.
!tofill  au  notrelated  spanking  fps  pairing:sam/dean  kink:suicidal-ideation  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:omega!dean  kink:public-display  kink:virgin!dean  kink:panties  WIP  agedifference  alpha!Sam  alpha/beta/omega  implement:belt  bottom!Dean  claiming  noncon  underage  knotting  :spn  top!Sam  virgin  discipline  publicsex  forcefeeding  forcedmarriage  punishment 
may 2016 by Mayalaen
Love, Cas
Sam and Dean expel Lucifer from Cas and they're finally ready to open their doors and take care of him and repair their relationship and their angel.

The problem is Cas is doing a lot worse than he lets on and the Winchesters think keeping their distance and giving Cas time is for the best. They're not great at the whole mental health thing.

Cas gets worse and starts seeing Lucifer. Lucifer ushers Cas's descend and eventually convinces him to kill himself. The Winchesters find him mid-attempt and they finally talk.
fandom:supernatural  pairing:none  kink:hurt/comfort  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:hurt!castiel 
april 2016 by spnkink_meme
Love, Cas
Sam and Dean expel Lucifer from Cas and they're finally ready to open their doors and take care of him and repair their relationship and their angel.

The problem is Cas is doing a lot worse than he lets on and the Winchesters think keeping their distance and giving Cas time is for the best. They're not great at the whole mental health thing.

Cas gets worse and starts seeing Lucifer. Lucifer ushers Cas's descend and eventually convinces him to kill himself. The Winchesters find him mid-attempt and they finally talk.
pairing:none  kink:suicide-attempt  hurt/comfort  :spn  hurt!Castiel 
april 2016 by Mayalaen
Darkest night
A lot of things about turning human were rough on Cas, but probably the worst was realizing that someday--probably someday soon, at that--he was going to die. He doubted he gained a soul when he lost his grace, and God only knows what became of Heaven when all the angels left and Hell when Lucifer took over anyway, so it seemed safe to assume that when the time came, he wouldn’t get an afterlife. As terrifying a prospect as his own non-existence was, after some time he found that with a steady stream of distractions (hence the drugs and orgies and whatnot) he could... not make peace with it exactly, but ignore it enough to sleep at night.

Then, one day, after a raid, he sees Dean shoot someone who got infected. (Same setup as the scene that freaked out past!Dean; didn’t wanna trouble a good man with bad news.) Cas is absolutely horrified. He’s barely coping with the fact that every raid he goes on could be his last, and it tears him apart to think that one day he might be feeling relieved and safe after a raid, cracking open a beer in the place he sort of thinks of as “home,” only for the lights to go out with no warning. After a couple of sleepless nights dwelling on it he begs Dean to swear that if Cas gets infected he’ll tell him before putting him down, let him see the bullet coming. Dean reluctantly promises.

Eventually a day comes when Cas gets infected, and true to his word Dean says he won’t shoot him until either he says he’s ready or starts showing symptoms. That means Cas gets a few hours before it’s time if he wants them. What does he do? Does he come to think that maybe the no-warning way might’ve been preferable after all? How does Dean deal with all this?

Feel free to throw in some mutual or one-sided (in either direction) Destiel if you want. Break my heart, anons!
fandom:supernatural  pairing:none  kink:character-death  kink:violence  kink:hurt!castiel  kink:protective!dean  kink:self-harm  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:hurt/comfort  kink:suicide  kink:suicidal-ideation  kink:human!castiel  WIP:finished 
april 2016 by spnkink_meme
Darkest night
A lot of things about turning human were rough on Cas, but probably the worst was realizing that someday--probably someday soon, at that--he was going to die. He doubted he gained a soul when he lost his grace, and God only knows what became of Heaven when all the angels left and Hell when Lucifer took over anyway, so it seemed safe to assume that when the time came, he wouldn’t get an afterlife. As terrifying a prospect as his own non-existence was, after some time he found that with a steady stream of distractions (hence the drugs and orgies and whatnot) he could... not make peace with it exactly, but ignore it enough to sleep at night.

Then, one day, after a raid, he sees Dean shoot someone who got infected. (Same setup as the scene that freaked out past!Dean; didn’t wanna trouble a good man with bad news.) Cas is absolutely horrified. He’s barely coping with the fact that every raid he goes on could be his last, and it tears him apart to think that one day he might be feeling relieved and safe after a raid, cracking open a beer in the place he sort of thinks of as “home,” only for the lights to go out with no warning. After a couple of sleepless nights dwelling on it he begs Dean to swear that if Cas gets infected he’ll tell him before putting him down, let him see the bullet coming. Dean reluctantly promises.

Eventually a day comes when Cas gets infected, and true to his word Dean says he won’t shoot him until either he says he’s ready or starts showing symptoms. That means Cas gets a few hours before it’s time if he wants them. What does he do? Does he come to think that maybe the no-warning way might’ve been preferable after all? How does Dean deal with all this?

Feel free to throw in some mutual or one-sided (in either direction) Destiel if you want. Break my heart, anons!
pairing:none  kink:protective!dean  kink:self-harm  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:suicide  kink:suicidal-ideation  kink:violence  WIP:finished  characterdeath  hurt/comfort  :spn  human  human!Castiel  hurt!Castiel 
april 2016 by Mayalaen
Novae Vitae
Theme: Appearances can be deceiving

23 yr. old Jared comes from a well off family wealthy enough to live the elite socialite life.
His friends consist of Chad, Stephen, Justin, Chace, Sofia, Sandy and Gen. The night clubs/ lounge called them the brat pack for obvious reasons. They are arrogant snobs who think they can always get what they want. When they walk into a club or place they like to make an entrance- Yes people stop and stare they are HOT to look at but half the people know its only shallow.

26 yr.old Jensen comes from old money billionaire status-but is totally the opposite of Jared in that regard, does not flaunt it and really is kind, generous, honorable and believes in helping the less fortunate ones- this is due to his family upbringing (awesome parents and grandparents too)

His friends consist of Christian Kane, Steve, Tom, Michael, Danneel, Adrienne,Alona and Aldis. When they walk in people are honestly genuine happy to see them They not only get awe but respect (something Jared secretly craves).

Both group are aware of each other, but Jensen group being older and wiser don't care they mind their own business and always have a good time and makes sure that people around too. In other words makes sure Jared's group does not cause trouble, bully or harass patrons.

Jared and his friends are pissed that Jensen and his friends are always interrupting their fun. And what worse Jared wonders how can Jensen who is pretty like an Omega is an Alpha leads and command respect . One night Jared flirts with a new bartender(beta) who is flatter at first but sees beneath the handsome packaging and turns him down. This pisses him off and gets aggressive until Jensen is next to him and tells to back off and walk away.

Jared friends are next to him and tease him a.) being rejected by a beta and b.)Jensen stopping him. This is the last straw and as Jensen walk away Jared grabs him and challenges him (causing a scene). Jensen is calm and collective and merely glances at Jared's hold on him " tells him to drop it" this enrages Jared more because he can see and sense Jensen does not see him as a threat. He growls dangerously at Jensen once again he calmly tells Jared to walk away. Jared this time knows what will set off a reaction from Jensen, he out loud calls him and Omega bitch. Jensen does stiffens at the loud remark but he turns around and tells Jared "last chance kid" and smiles, but the smile is cold and chilling that even Jared's friends back away with shivers.

I like this sentence to be use once Jensen Pounces on Jared and Holds him down whispers low but loud enough for all to hear "People always underestimate me Jared and that always proves fatal and their last mistake" right before he bites down hard on Jared's Neck/Shoulder.

KinK: Public humiliation truning an Alpha into an Omega, Claiming, scenting, rimming,Knotting, self-lube, body changes, crying, spanking.

now on AO3 here http://archiveofourown.org/works/11292123/chapters/25262853
2017/08-12, original meme WIP fill now completely reposted (AO3 ch 12)
fandom:spn-rps  pairing:jensen/jared  kink:non-con(attempted)  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:alpha/beta/omega  kink:alpha!jensen  kink:turning(alpha-to-omega)  kink:omega!jared  kink:masturbation  kink:restraints  kink:buttplugs  kink:cock-cage  kink:chastity  kink:fingering  kink:self-lubrication  kink:drugging  kink:spanking  kink:protective!jensen  kink:hurt!jared  kink:self-esteem  kink:depression  kink:therapy  kink:self-harm  kink:guilt  kink:hurt!jensen  kink:rimming  kink:heat  kink:angst  kink:hurt/comfort  kink:discipline  kink:prostate-milking  kink:body-horror  kink:ice-play  kink:anal-sex  kink:bottom!jared  kink:top!jensen  kink:riding  kink:knotting  kink:claiming  WIP:1710 
september 2015 by spnkink_meme
Novae Vitae
Theme: Appearances can be deceiving

23 yr. old Jared comes from a well off family wealthy enough to live the elite socialite life.
His friends consist of Chad, Stephen, Justin, Chace, Sofia, Sandy and Gen. The night clubs/ lounge called them the brat pack for obvious reasons. They are arrogant snobs who think they can always get what they want. When they walk into a club or place they like to make an entrance- Yes people stop and stare they are HOT to look at but half the people know its only shallow.

26 yr.old Jensen comes from old money billionaire status-but is totally the opposite of Jared in that regard, does not flaunt it and really is kind, generous, honorable and believes in helping the less fortunate ones- this is due to his family upbringing (awesome parents and grandparents too)

His friends consist of Christian Kane, Steve, Tom, Michael, Danneel, Adrienne,Alona and Aldis. When they walk in people are honestly genuine happy to see them They not only get awe but respect (something Jared secretly craves).

Both group are aware of each other, but Jensen group being older and wiser don't care they mind their own business and always have a good time and makes sure that people around too. In other words makes sure Jared's group does not cause trouble, bully or harass patrons.

Jared and his friends are pissed that Jensen and his friends are always interrupting their fun. And what worse Jared wonders how can Jensen who is pretty like an Omega is an Alpha leads and command respect . One night Jared flirts with a new bartender(beta) who is flatter at first but sees beneath the handsome packaging and turns him down. This pisses him off and gets aggressive until Jensen is next to him and tells to back off and walk away.

Jared friends are next to him and tease him a.) being rejected by a beta and b.)Jensen stopping him. This is the last straw and as Jensen walk away Jared grabs him and challenges him (causing a scene). Jensen is calm and collective and merely glances at Jared's hold on him " tells him to drop it" this enrages Jared more because he can see and sense Jensen does not see him as a threat. He growls dangerously at Jensen once again he calmly tells Jared to walk away. Jared this time knows what will set off a reaction from Jensen, he out loud calls him and Omega bitch. Jensen does stiffens at the loud remark but he turns around and tells Jared "last chance kid" and smiles, but the smile is cold and chilling that even Jared's friends back away with shivers.

I like this sentence to be use once Jensen Pounces on Jared and Holds him down whispers low but loud enough for all to hear "People always underestimate me Jared and that always proves fatal and their last mistake" right before he bites down hard on Jared's Neck/Shoulder.

KinK: Public humiliation truning an Alpha into an Omega, Claiming, scenting, rimming,Knotting, self-lube, body changes, crying, spanking.
kink:non-con(attempted)  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:turning(alpha-to-omega)  kink:omega!jared  kink:protective!jensen  kink:self-esteem  kink:therapy  kink:self-harm  WIP  rps  alpha!Jensen  buttplugs  chastity  fingering  cockcage  drugged  masturbation  restraints  spanking  :spn  pairing:jared/jensen  depression  hurt!Jared  selflubrication 
september 2015 by Mayalaen
At 2 AM
Jensen lives in a world where weres exist, and are known to humans. Most weres lives alongside humans peacefully, but there are still isolated packs that cling to more 'traditional' ways. While on a road trip, Jensen finds himself in a little, middle-of-nowhere town, not knowing that it's home to one such pack. While there, Jensen is attacked and forcibly mated by Jared. He fights as hard as he can, but is simple no match for an alpha were.

In Jared's world, there is nothing wrong with obtaining an omega in such a way (turned humans are always omegas). The humans often resist at first, but with love, time, and firm discipline, they always turn out as affectionate, submissive omegas. Jared hates hurting his to-be mate, but is reassured by the knowledge that it will all work out in the end - in just a year, Jensen will be completely in love with his alpha and never want to leave...

After the mating, Jared takes Jensen home with him and begins the process of helping him adjust to his new life. It doesn't go anywhere as smoothly as he imagined. Jensen tries to physically attack him frequently, and constantly swears and talks back (when talking to him at all). He resists every mating, and rejects all physical affection (ie, lying there stiffly when Jared tries to hold him). Worse still, he barely eats, if at all. Jared finds himself constantly having to punish Jensen, and fears things will never get better.

Then they find out the Jensen is pregnant. Jared is ecstatic; not only will Jensen have to calm down and start taking care of himself now that he's pregnant, Jared's sure pups will bring them closer together. And with pups tying him to the pack, he will never try to escape again... For Jensen, on the other hand, news of the pregnancy is the last straw. He waits, and the first chance he gets, he tries to kill himself (like breaking the mirror in the bathroom and using the glass to cut his wrists or neck).

Jared, however, finds him in time and saves his life, though the trauma causes a miscarriage. Devastated that his mate hates him and this life so much he would rather die, Jared realizes that Jensen will never be happy here / accept this life / etc. He also realizes he only has one option left and, secretly, since it goes against pack law, he helps Jensen escape... knowing that with weres, a mating bond is life long and unbreakable.

Years later, and with lots of therapy and support, Jensen has recovered from the experience and is starting to move on with his life. Jared, meanwhile, left his pack shortly after Jensen, having completely changed his world view, and has spent the years trying to atone for his sins. Someone tells this to Jensen, knowing that he still feels the mating bond, and encourages him to contact Jared. Slowly, the two get to know each other for the first time, and eventually become friends. Once trust has been established, Jensen agrees to let Jared properly woo him...

TL;DR Jared kidnaps, and rapes, Jensen who tries to commit suicide rather than succuming to stockholm syndrome.

Anything goes as long the human/victim/omega wins in the end (this can mean through death if you want to drop the 'attempt').

Feel free to switch Jensen and Jared!
fandom:spn-rps  pairing:jensen/jared  pairing:jensen/jdm  kink:non-con  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:mpreg  kink:pregnant!jensen  kink:miscarriage  kink:alpha/beta/omega  kink:alpha!jared  kink:omega!jensen  kink:werewolves  kink:bottom!jensen  kink:top!jared  kink:claiming  kink:knotting  kink:public-sex  kink:mating  kink:humiliation  kink:transformation  kink:body-horror  kink:captivity  kink:hurt!jensen  kink:discipline  kink:punishment  kink:spanking  kink:whipping  kink:whips  kink:paddles  kink:obedience  kink:scent-marking  kink:guilt  WIP:finished 
september 2015 by spnkink_meme
REQUEST: J2, ABO/weres, noncon, suicide attempt
Jensen lives in a world where weres exist, and are known to humans. Most weres lives alongside humans peacefully, but there are still isolated packs that cling to more 'traditional' ways. While on a road trip, Jensen finds himself in a little, middle-of-nowhere town, not knowing that it's home to one such pack. While there, Jensen is attacked and forcibly mated by Jared. He fights as hard as he can, but is simple no match for an alpha were.

In Jared's world, there is nothing wrong with obtaining an omega in such a way (turned humans are always omegas). The humans often resist at first, but with love, time, and firm discipline, they always turn out as affectionate, submissive omegas. Jared hates hurting his to-be mate, but is reassured by the knowledge that it will all work out in the end - in just a year, Jensen will be completely in love with his alpha and never want to leave. After the mating, Jared takes Jensen home with him and begins the process of helping him adjust to his new life. It doesn't go anywhere as smoothly as he imagined. Jensen tries to physically attack him frequently, and constantly swears and talks back (when talking to him at all). He resists every mating, and rejects all physical affection (ie, lying there stiffly when Jared tries to hold him). Worse still, he barely eats, if at all. Jared finds himself constantly having to punish Jensen, and fears things will never get better.

Then they find out the Jensen is pregnant. Jared is ecstatic; not only will Jensen have to calm down and start taking care of himself now that he's pregnant, Jared's sure pups will bring them closer together. And with pups tying him to the pack, he will never try to escape again... For Jensen, on the other hand, news of the pregnancy is the last straw. He waits, and the first chance he gets, he tries to kill himself (like breaking the mirror in the bathroom and using the glass to cut his wrists or neck). Jared, however, finds him in time and saves his life, though the trauma causes a miscarriage. Devastated that his mate hates him and this life so much he would rather die, Jared realizes that Jensen will never be happy here / accept this life / etc. He also realizes he only has one option left and, secretly, since it goes against pack law, he helps Jensen escape... knowing that with weres, a mating bond is life long and unbreakable.

Years later, and with lots of therapy and support, Jensen has recovered from the experience and is starting to move on with his life. Jared, meanwhile, left his pack shortly after Jensen, having completely changed his world view, and has spent the years trying to atone for his sins. Someone tells this to Jensen, knowing that he still feels the mating bond, and encourages him to contact Jared. Slowly, the two get to know each other for the first time, and eventually become friends. Once trust has been established, Jensen agrees to let Jared properly woo him. TL;DR Jared kidnaps, and rapes, Jensen who tries to commit suicide rather than succuming to stockholm syndrome. Anything goes as long the human/victim/omega wins in the end (this can mean through death if you want to drop the 'attempt'). Feel free to switch Jensen and Jared!
!tofill  rps  pairing:jensen/jdm  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:pregnant!jensen  kink:omega!jensen  kink:werewolves  kink:whipping  kink:whips  kink:paddles  kink:obedience  kink:scent-marking  WIP:finished  alpha!Jared  alpha/beta/omega  bottom!Jensen  captivity  claiming  noncon  mpreg  bodyhorror  humiliation  knotting  mating  spanking  :spn  pairing:jared/jensen  top!Jared  transformation  discipline  publicsex  guilt  hurt!Jensen  miscarriage  punishment 
august 2015 by Mayalaen
nobody talks about the giant elephant in the room.
Dean doesn't have much going on for him, he's pretty poor and not very well liked, he's lonely and for the most part, unremarkable. But Dean's not a dumb kid, no matter how many times John tells him he's stupid, or how many times his teachers don't even bother helping him saying he wouldn't understand anyway. Hell, even his little brother thinks he's a bit dim, but Dean knows he's not.

He tries really hard to prove everyone wrong, he studies hard and he asks for tutoring and he does everything he can to prove them wrong. He has to.

But he still fails. Not by as much, but he's still a failure. It's not enough to try his hardest, he's still a dumb, stupid, brainless idiot.

It's not an immediate thing, but Dean gets suicidally depressed in the wake of being humiliated. He tries a couple of times to kill himself, but he always wakes up vomiting if he takes pill, he never cuts deep enough, and when he tries to suffocate, he gets caught every time. And every time John has worse things to say about him, about how worthless he is if he can't even keep himself alive. Sam realizes just what he said to Dean and how it's lead him to where he is now, so he stops.

Dean doesn't get any better though. He stops eating, he gets sloppy enough on hunts to get himself hurt, and he sleeps through his classes which gets him called lazy and he keeps spiraling.

Eventually, he decides to stop playing. He grabs one of the many guns in his dad's trunk, cursing himself for not thinking of this earlier.

He's got the barrel in his mouth when he hears the door being unlocked.

Dean pulls the trigger and nothing happens. He pulls it again, and nothing happens, before he can finish his Russian roulette, John's hands are knocking the gun out of his mouth and he's yelling at Dean. Sam's behind him, they're all crying or close to it, and maybe John sees the error of his ways. Or maybe he just gets angrier at Dean for doing something like this.

Sam sees just how serious this is and tries to get Dean some help. He's only a kid, but he does his best. He tells the counselor, and before she could call Dean out of class John was there to pick them up, take them to some other place, and drop them alone in a motel.

Wash rinse and repeat, until Dean drops out of school, until Sam's going to college.

He tries one more time, the night Sam, his only real friend, the only person who's cared enough about him to help him, leaves him with their father, who whether or not he's 'changed', still sees Dean as weak, and isn't doing anything to help.

So Dean tries again to kill himself. whether or not he's successful is up to you.
fandom:supernatural  pairing:none  kink:underage  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:suicide  kink:depression  kink:self-harm  kink:abuse(verbal)  kink:hurt!dean 
november 2014 by spnkink_meme
nobody talks about the giant elephant in the room.
Dean doesn't have much going on for him, he's pretty poor and not very well liked, he's lonely and for the most part, unremarkable. But Dean's not a dumb kid, no matter how many times John tells him he's stupid, or how many times his teachers don't even bother helping him saying he wouldn't understand anyway. Hell, even his little brother thinks he's a bit dim, but Dean knows he's not.

He tries really hard to prove everyone wrong, he studies hard and he asks for tutoring and he does everything he can to prove them wrong. He has to.

But he still fails. Not by as much, but he's still a failure. It's not enough to try his hardest, he's still a dumb, stupid, brainless idiot.

It's not an immediate thing, but Dean gets suicidally depressed in the wake of being humiliated. He tries a couple of times to kill himself, but he always wakes up vomiting if he takes pill, he never cuts deep enough, and when he tries to suffocate, he gets caught every time. And every time John has worse things to say about him, about how worthless he is if he can't even keep himself alive. Sam realizes just what he said to Dean and how it's lead him to where he is now, so he stops.

Dean doesn't get any better though. He stops eating, he gets sloppy enough on hunts to get himself hurt, and he sleeps through his classes which gets him called lazy and he keeps spiraling.

Eventually, he decides to stop playing. He grabs one of the many guns in his dad's trunk, cursing himself for not thinking of this earlier.

He's got the barrel in his mouth when he hears the door being unlocked.

Dean pulls the trigger and nothing happens. He pulls it again, and nothing happens, before he can finish his Russian roulette, John's hands are knocking the gun out of his mouth and he's yelling at Dean. Sam's behind him, they're all crying or close to it, and maybe John sees the error of his ways. Or maybe he just gets angrier at Dean for doing something like this.

Sam sees just how serious this is and tries to get Dean some help. He's only a kid, but he does his best. He tells the counselor, and before she could call Dean out of class John was there to pick them up, take them to some other place, and drop them alone in a motel.

Wash rinse and repeat, until Dean drops out of school, until Sam's going to college.

He tries one more time, the night Sam, his only real friend, the only person who's cared enough about him to help him, leaves him with their father, who whether or not he's 'changed', still sees Dean as weak, and isn't doing anything to help.

So Dean tries again to kill himself. whether or not he's successful is up to you.
pairing:none  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:suicide  kink:self-harm  abuse  abuse(verbal)  underage  :spn  depression  hurt!Dean 
november 2014 by Mayalaen
Not Meant To Be
After Sam decides to keep their relationship professional, and stops seeing Dean as his lover and cuts the bond they share. Dean starts to eat less, sleep less and only focus all his effort on hunts as that is the only time he is able to get any kind of interaction time with Sam.

Since an omega's mental state of mind is dependent on the emotional love and care they receive from their Alpha through the bnd, Dean's starting to become mentally and emotionally drained. Dean is unable to bear this pain any longer, he is at the end of his rope. He understands that his Alpha doesn't trust him, doesn't want him as his lover anymore. Dean's certain that Sam couldn't care if he lived or died.

Dean decides that it would be better for Sam if he's out of the picture completely, since an Alpha is unable to take in another mate till the current is alive. Dean makes sure that he acts a normal as he possibly can and doesn't raise any doubt. He goes to a remote place without leaving any clues as to where it is, and decides to slit his wrists. Due to his emotional instability,Dean believes he's removing a bad influence, namely, himself from the world.

Cas, whom suddenly feels the pain that Dean due to their "profound bond" is suffering rushes to the bunker only to met with a frantic Sam whom has finally realized how much his words and actions has damaged Dean and feels the pain his Omega is going through the bond he reopen after being unable to locate Dean in the bunker.

They find Dean in the nick of time and Cas heals Dean and Cas gives Sam hell as they are driving back to the bunker for his attitude and tells him to take better care of his mate before Cas comes with some painful way to punish Sam.

Once back in the bunker, Sam tells Dean how much he still loves his mate and begs for forgiveness for all his past actions and shows Dean thorough tender loving how much Dean means to him and how much he will always love Dean.
fandom:supernatural  pairing:sam/dean  kink:alpha/beta/omega  kink:alpha!sam  kink:omega!dean  kink:angst  kink:self-esteem  kink:hurt!dean  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:cuddling  kink:marking  WIP:finished 
september 2014 by spnkink_meme
Not Meant To Be
After Sam decides to keep their relationship professional, and stops seeing Dean as his lover and cuts the bond they share. Dean starts to eat less, sleep less and only focus all his effort on hunts as that is the only time he is able to get any kind of interaction time with Sam.

Since an omega's mental state of mind is dependent on the emotional love and care they receive from their Alpha through the bnd, Dean's starting to become mentally and emotionally drained. Dean is unable to bear this pain any longer, he is at the end of his rope. He understands that his Alpha doesn't trust him, doesn't want him as his lover anymore. Dean's certain that Sam couldn't care if he lived or died.

Dean decides that it would be better for Sam if he's out of the picture completely, since an Alpha is unable to take in another mate till the current is alive. Dean makes sure that he acts a normal as he possibly can and doesn't raise any doubt. He goes to a remote place without leaving any clues as to where it is, and decides to slit his wrists. Due to his emotional instability,Dean believes he's removing a bad influence, namely, himself from the world.

Cas, whom suddenly feels the pain that Dean due to their "profound bond" is suffering rushes to the bunker only to met with a frantic Sam whom has finally realized how much his words and actions has damaged Dean and feels the pain his Omega is going through the bond he reopen after being unable to locate Dean in the bunker.

They find Dean in the nick of time and Cas heals Dean and Cas gives Sam hell as they are driving back to the bunker for his attitude and tells him to take better care of his mate before Cas comes with some painful way to punish Sam.

Once back in the bunker, Sam tells Dean how much he still loves his mate and begs for forgiveness for all his past actions and shows Dean thorough tender loving how much Dean means to him and how much he will always love Dean.
pairing:sam/dean  kink:omega!dean  kink:self-esteem  kink:suicide-attempt  WIP:finished  alpha!Sam  alpha/beta/omega  angst  cuddling  :spn  hurt!Dean  marking 
september 2014 by Mayalaen
Second Chances
Request: J2, Omega!Jared, Alpha!Jensen, h/c

Repost: http://spnkink-meme.livejournal.com/82592.html?thread=30474400#t30474400

Omega Jared loses both his mate and his unborn child in the same accident (writer's choice if Jared knew about the baby before or only finds out after). Falling into a deep depression from the loss, Jared tries to take his own life.

Alpha Jensen accidentally interrupts Jared's attempt and does his best to talk him down. Jensen finds himself drawn to the younger man and vows to do everything he can to show Jared that life is still worth living.
fandom:spn-rps  pairing:jensen/jared  pairing:jared/omc(s)  kink:au  kink:alpha/beta/omega  kink:heat  kink:hurt/comfort  kink:angst  kink:character-death(minor)  kink:mpreg  kink:miscarriage  kink:depression  kink:self-lubrication  kink:bottom!jared  kink:knotting  kink:coming-untouched  kink:schmoop  kink:mating  kink:omega!jared  kink:alpha!jensen  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:breeding 
august 2014 by spnkink_meme
Second Chances
Request: J2, Omega!Jared, Alpha!Jensen, h/c

Repost: http://spnkink-meme.livejournal.com/82592.html?thread=30474400#t30474400

Omega Jared loses both his mate and his unborn child in the same accident (writer's choice if Jared knew about the baby before or only finds out after). Falling into a deep depression from the loss, Jared tries to take his own life.

Alpha Jensen accidentally interrupts Jared's attempt and does his best to talk him down. Jensen finds himself drawn to the younger man and vows to do everything he can to show Jared that life is still worth living.
pairing:jared/omc(s)  kink:omega!jared  kink:suicide-attempt  rps  alpha!Jensen  alpha/beta/omega  angst  au  bottom!Jared  breeding  characterdeath(minor)  cominguntouched  hurt/comfort  mpreg  heat  knotting  mating  :spn  pairing:jared/jensen  depression  fluff  miscarriage  selflubrication 
august 2014 by Mayalaen
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Sam will save his brother. He will.
Now that Dean is a demon, the knight of hell. He became his own worst nightmare. You know what's worse? He can't even die.
Dean trying to kill himself with that blade (repeatedly out of despair) and Sam being all protective, promising they will figure this out.
fandom:supernatural  pairing:none  kink:suicide  kink:suicide-attempt  kink:depression  kink:death!fic  kink:demon!dean  kink:hurt/comfort  kink:angst 
june 2014 by spnkink_meme
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Sam will save his brother. He will.
Now that Dean is a demon, the knight of hell. He became his own worst nightmare. You know what's worse? He can't even die.
Dean trying to kill himself with that blade (repeatedly out of despair) and Sam being all protective, promising they will figure this out.
pairing:none  kink:suicide  kink:suicide-attempt  angst  hurt/comfort  deathfic  :spn  demon!Dean  depression 
june 2014 by Mayalaen
Not From This Anger - belial - Hawaii Five-0 (2010) [Archive of Our Own]
It’s 2010 at John F. Kennedy high school in Honolulu. School, football, growing up, and new student transfers make life interesting for a motley group of teens.
kink:suicide-attempt  kink:homophobia  kink:bullying  AU-highschool  hurt!danny  kink:abuse  kink:blowjob  kink:bottom!Danno  kink:first-time  kink:frottage  NC-17  pairing:Steve/Danno  10k+  kink:angst  kink:hurt-comfort  kink:fingering 
february 2014 by five0_recs

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