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The Only Thing That's Real
Words: 27.000, 샘은 벽이 깨진 이후에 PTSD에 시달리고, 딘은 샘을 진정시키기 위해 최선을 다한다.
부드럽고 좋았다. 딘이 샘을 진정시키는 방법도 정말 좋았고, 샘의 반응도 애잔하면서도 괜찮았다. 딱하나 아쉬운 부분은 딘이랑 OMC랑 섹스하는 장면 하나? 그 상황에서 샘이 할만한 반응이라고 생각하지 않아서...그 부분 빼고는 처음부터 끝까지 만족스러웠다. 다른 사람의 POV 있는거 좋다.
runedgirl  S7  sam/dean  middle  H/C  awesome  bottom!dean  top!sam  dean/ofc  dean/omc  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  guilty!sam  jealous!sam  voyeur!sam  pining!sam  protective!dean  understanding!dean  pining!dean  angst  pov:outsider  ptsd  hallucinations  helltrauma  voyeurism  first-time  rating:NC17  fandom:SPN 
august 2018 by engfordean
✢ Skin Like Fear
"It's not that Dean doesn't get that Sam doesn't want to talk about whatever Hell did to him; Dean practically wrote the book on that particular brand of avoidance. Except that Sam doesn't do this. Dean is supposed to clam up and Sam is supposed to pry and bleat about how "communication is good for the soul" or some shit. Sam is supposed to cry on his shoulder and Dean is supposed to stoically hold him and let him get it out, maybe shedding a manful tear or two in solidarity. Here's the thing: Sam comes back from Hell with a bubble of space around him. He doesn't want to be touched, especially by Dean, and he won't explain. He won't talk about Hell at all, and Dean's going crazy. It's going to take a strange case (and a little magic) in Michigan to break the floodgates, but when Dean finally learns the truth, he might wish that he hadn't...." (18,762 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  lucifer(spn)  sam/dean  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  tortured!sam  hallucinating!sam  raped!sam  ptsd!sam  protective!dean  guilty!dean  clueless!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  dark  casefic  ptsd  hallucinations  noncon/dubcon  torture  lucifers_cage  helltrauma  boggarts  first_time  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:fantamae  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
His Heart Left the World
"Dean would do anything for his brother. When Sam jumps into the cage to save the world Dean keeps his promise and goes to Lisa and Ben. But months later a visit to Sam's grave reveals that his brother has somehow been freed from hell. Dean won't leave his brother alone to deal with the aftermath. But what has been saved from the cage is nothing like his brother, and Dean has to try to teach Sam how to be human again." (32,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  lisa_braeden  castiel  balthazar  sam/dean  feral!sam  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  possessive!sam  bottom!sam  protective!dean  guilty!dean  hurt!dean  top!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  ptsd  helltrauma  depression  established!relationship  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:taelynhawker  need:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Lead Us On
"The aftermath of Sam getting his soul back isn't at all like Dean thought it would be." (18,700 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  meg_masters  castiel  sam/dean  hurt!sam  guilty!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  top!sam  protective!dean  reluctant!dean  bottom!dean  angst  demons  ghosts  werewolves  ptsd  helltrauma  first_time  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:philalethia 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Fusion Verse
"Part of the Fusion 'verse. Sam walks out of hell and finds his way home. From a prompt at the First Time comment-fic meme by the lovely and talented de_nugis: The first time Sam gets that Dean does unreservedly trust him again, coupled with the first time Dean gets that Sam really does want nothing more than he wants to be with Dean." (100k+ words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  castiel  lisa_braeden  gen  protective!sam  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  ptsd!sam  protective!dean  hurt!dean  sick!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  domesticity  pov:outsider  hallucinations  ptsd  helltrauma  permanent!injury  illness  bakery/coffeeshop  bookstore/library  spn:season:6  spn:postseries  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:ratherastory 
may 2016 by elwarre
Living on Flood Tides
"AU after 5x22: Sam mysteriously returns from the cage and Dean thinks their problems are solved. Unfortunately, Sam is so shaken from his time in Hell that he can't—won't?—even talk to Dean, and when natural disasters begin to occur as frequently as they did when the Devil was walking the Earth, Dean realizes his brother may have acquired some of the angel's powers without picking up the ability to control them. In order to prevent Sam from hurting anyone, Dean finds a house as far from anything as he can manage and settles there to wait until the day Sam gets better—or until they both get killed by Sam's grace." (20,000 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  lucifer(spn)  castiel  sam/dean  powers!sam  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  hallucinating!sam  protective!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  domesticity  hallucinations  helltrauma  lucifers_cage  ptsd  recovery  established!relationship  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:cherie_morte  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Through the Seasons
"Sam is back from two thousand years in the Cage, in a bad mental state with no real conection to normalcy anymore, and Dean tries to help him cope." sequel to "The Long Calendar"
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  protective!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  domesticity  ptsd  helltrauma  lucifers_cage  recovery  spn:season:6  spn:postseries  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:foolscapper 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Long Calendar
"One time per month, every month on Earth, Sam visits Dean for a day from the Cage." Sequel: "Through the Seasons"
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  castiel  gen  hurt!sam  tortured!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  hurt!dean  angst  dark  heartbreaking  lucifers_cage  ptsd  helltrauma  torture  escape/rescue  spn:season:6  series/verse  fandom:spn  author:foolscapper 
may 2016 by elwarre
"'The only difference between you and a demon, Sam, is that your Hell is right here.' Over a year out of the Cage, and Sam's beginning to realize that Brady might be right. At least in Hell, he could pretend Dean still trusted him, still cared for him." (10,741 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  samuel_campbell  gwen_campbell  gen  hurt!sam  helltrauma!sam  ptsd!sam  asshole!dean  angst  heartbreaking  self_loathing  helltrauma  ptsd  misunderstanding  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:liron_aria 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Since Feeling Is First
"That he wants to think this is Dean yanking a leash should make his blood run cold, not aching hot. It should make him sick, angry, it should get his fucking hackles up and make him fight." (14,500 words) This is an AU version of how Sam gets back his soul, and it's just so, so marvelous (and hot).
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  castiel  sam/dean  soulless!sam  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  pining!sam  protective!dean  reluctant!dean  pining!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  domesticity  ptsd  helltrauma  recovery  pining  hothothot  kink:oralfixation  kink:d/s  first_time  spn:season:6  fandom:spn  author:queenklu  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
Sammy's Secret
"With Dean being so torn up by his time in hell, it's up to Sam to earn most of their money. The problem is that he isn't good at hustling pool so he earns the money by working in male strip clubs and doing...other things for clients. But one night, a client gets too rough and hurts Sam badly enough to land him in the hospital. Lots of hurting!Sam and angry!protective!Dean." (8850 words)
sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  protective!sam  hooker!sam  hurt!sam  raped!sam  protective!dean  hurt!dean  sick!dean  ptsd!dean  helltrauma!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  prostitution  noncon/dubcon  ptsd  helltrauma  illness  clinic/hospital  recovery  first_time  spn:season:4  fandom:spn  author:annie46  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ The Only Thing That's Real
"The destruction of the wall in Sam’s head leaves him veering dizzily back and forth between reality and vivid flashbacks of the Pit. Caught in the nightmare world, Sam’s terrified, desperate, and dangerous. Most people would walk away. But Dean Winchester’s not most people." (27,000 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  sam/dean  dean/ofc  dean/omc  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  guilty!sam  jealous!sam  voyeur!sam  pining!sam  top!sam  protective!dean  understanding!dean  pining!dean  bottom!dean  hurt/comfort  angst  pov:outsider  self_loathing  ptsd  hallucinations  helltrauma  lucifers_cage  pining  jealousy  hothothot  kink:oralfixation  kink:voyeurism  first_time  spn:season:7  author:runedgirl  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Stay the Distance
"Sam is dependent on Dean's touch and closeness after the wall falls - Dean's presence reminds him of why he chose to wake up, and keeps the memories at bay, allowing Sam to function. The brothers have to face up to what happens when their Winchester codependency becomes literal, and the physical, spatial and temporal boundaries of their bond blur the line between familiar and suffocating, comforting and limiting." (23,934 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  bobby_singer  sam/dean  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  top!sam  protective!dean  bottom!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  ptsd  helltrauma  hallucinations  homophobia  voodoo  ghosts  hothothot  first_time  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:lazy_daze  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre
✢ Room 3135
"There are a few things you know about the new guy. He is unreasonably tall, his arms are in bandages, and he doesn't talk much. Which isn't a rare thing in the psych ward. There seems to be a constant balance in here between people who will talk your ear off, and those who have run out of words altogether. But you do know his name is Sammy. That's what his brother calls him when he brings him in, and then when he visits. Every day." (1500 words)
  sam_winchester  dean_winchester  gen  hurt!sam  ptsd!sam  helltrauma!sam  hallucinating!sam  protective!dean  angst  hurt/comfort  heartbreaking  pov:outsider  illness:mental  hallucinations  ptsd  helltrauma  mental_institution  spn:season:7  fandom:spn  author:inheritedjeans  have:pdf 
may 2016 by elwarre

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