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There's Beauty In the Broken; righteousbros
Jared works for his family's garden center as a landscape designer in Los Olivos, CA. He loves his job working alongside his sister Megan and his friend Stephen but at the end of the day he was no one to come home to other than his dog, Harley. One day, a young woman named Mackenzie walks into his shop and hires him to revive the grounds of the estate she just bought nearby. Jared then meets her brother Jensen, a reclusive former model and all around Hollywood bad boy who is now confined to a wheelchair and angry at the world after his losing his leg in a motorcycle accident. After taking the time to get to know him a little better, Jared realizes that there is something about this beautiful damaged man that he just can't get enough of.
rps  jared_jensen  gardner!jared  au:disability  au:famous_nonfamous  amputee!jensen  depressed!jensen  first-time  first-kiss  protective!Jared  angry!jensen  archive:ao3  rating:nc-17  author:righteousbros  havepdf  tissie  ~  genre:angst  genre:hurt_comfort  genre:au  25-30k  challenge:bigbang 
january 2018 by Itsokaydean
Begin to Begin Again
[Dugindeep] Years after Supernatural ends, Jensen realizes that his job isn’t the only thing missing. He’s divorced, a lame-duck father, and living alone. He wakes often from long-ago memories of the boots and leather jacket he filled out back when he had purpose, dreams of the connection he had with the one who stood beside him through it all. When Jensen finds a spark of himself while reconnecting with his daughter, he is determined to make this new feeling stick with a cross-country trek in the driver's seat of the Impala. Even as he’s weighted down by his own growing pains post-Supernatural, Jared meets Jensen in middle of Michigan, and they both dive into the same luxurious dream of seeing the country with nothing but time and pavement ahead of them. As Jensen and Jared rediscover themselves and their friendship, they uncover more between them that awakens buried feelings and lights a fire between them.
AU:Non-AU  pairing:Jensen/Jared  angst  bottom!Jensen  daddy/guardian!Jared  daddy/guardian!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  divorced!Jared  divorced!Jensen  trope:road-trip  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:25K-50K 
january 2017 by casey679
Pastoral in J-major by ashtraythief // MAINBLOGREC
Jensen is a lonely centaur who thinks he's never going to find true love until at the annual wine festival, his friends force convince him to take part in the mating ceremony. Words: 7,183.
ao3  oneshot  mythology  creature!jared  creature!jensen  centaur!jared  centaur!jensen  mating  bottom!jensen  top!jared  depressed!jensen  au  fluff  romance  slash  author:ashtraythief  size!kink  humor  jared/jensen  recced  P  haveread 
december 2016 by mountainstomove
The King of Pain and Hurt
Jared says he needs to let go, let loose his wolf. Embrace him, accept him – he talks about Jensen's beast as if it was a person, and Jensen can feel the need to change when it talks to him, begging him with feelings and emotions, howling lonely and sad in his mind. But Jensen remembers vividly what he did when the beast took charge just once. He remembers the taste of blood and guts, the noise of bones crunched between his teeth. It felt so good. (Four Paws 2)
AU:Weres-&-Shifters  pairing:Jensen/Jared  alpha!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jared  kidnapped!Jared  protective!Jensen  werewolf!Jared  werewolf!Jensen  verse:Four-Paws  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:5K-10K 
december 2016 by casey679
One Step Forward by etoile_etiolee
On his second night working as Jensen Ackles' caretaker, Jared is eager to suggest they take things further. He knows the man has issues -hell, the legs are just the tip of the iceberg- but he doesn't care: he's in love. The night is very different than the previous one. Jensen has a lot to say, and Jared a lot to give. Part 3 of Therapy. Words: 5,171
jared/jensen  rps  au  hurt!jensen  hurt/comfort  caretaker!jared  sextherapist!jared  hair-washing  author:etoile_etiolee  disability  leg-injury  verse  ao3  kink:fingering  oneshot  5to9k  kink:blowjob  kink:handjob  pot-smoking  cuddling  kink:jared's-hands  depressed!jensen  insecure!jensen  chronicpain!jensen  sad!jensen  emotional-hurt/comfort  getting-together  massage  O  haveread  place:bath  verse:therapy 
july 2016 by mountainstomove
All that Shimmers is Sure to Fade
"It was once said that fame means millions of people having the wrong idea of who you are. But the misconception works both ways. Supermodel Jared Padalecki has come to the cold realization that he's nothing like the down home, All-American boy whose visage adorns the pages of magazines and faces of billboards. Nothing in his life is real and the beautiful people that surround him are the ugliest part of it all. On the night he decides to run, a mysterious stranger kidnaps him under the cover of darkness. A man with a hatred of everything Jared represents, a man with a growling voice, a man with a name—Jensen." (20,800 words)
jared_padalecki  jensen_ackles  samantha_ferris  sandra_mccoy  chad_michael_murray  jared/jensen  model!jared  depressed!jared  kidnapped!jared  drugged!jared  top!jared  kidnapper!jensen  hurt!jensen  depressed!jensen  bottom!jensen  angst  depression  permanent!injury  self_loathing  selfharm  kidnapping  noncon/dubcon  drugs:nonconsensual  industry:fashion  clinic/hospital  first_time  fandom:rpf  author:lotrabc 
july 2016 by elwarre
More Than Words
"Scientists and statisticians have monitored falling birth rates for decades, helpless as declining fertility predicted possible human extinction. But a new ray of hope was discovered; boys are tested in their twelfth year, and the small percentage who are capable of conceiving are taken, separated for education and training in their new way of life. At eighteen, each is assigned to the man who will father the children he will bear. Jensen missed his testing; his status is discovered when he's an adult. Unprepared, untrained, and unwilling, he's assigned to Jared. Jared is conflicted by his desire to father children, his growing love for the man placed in his care, and sympathy for Jensen's difficulty adjusting to the changes in his life. Resentful and rebellious, Jensen finds unexpected strength and support from the man he should hate." (59,798 words) Part one of the More Than Words series.
jared_padalecki  jensen_ackles  steve_carlson  christian_kane  chad_michael_murray  jared/jensen  protective!jared  understanding!jared  hurt!jared  parent!jared  parent!jensen  musician!jensen  hurt!jensen  depressed!jensen  slave!jensen  pregnant!jensen  angst  hurt/comfort  domesticity  friendship  dystopia  slavery  noncon/dubcon  depression  clinic/hospital  music/dance  kink:mpreg  first_time  series/verse  fandom:rpf  author:fufaraw 
april 2016 by elwarre
✢ In a Mirror Distorted and Indistinct
"They keep calling him beautiful. Pretty. “Come on. Look this way. Give us a smile, Jensen.” He smiles and blinks against the flashes, fighting the urge to lower his eyes, to hide the blush burning under layers of makeup. Sweat runs down his back, his hands tremble. He’s not pretty, not beautiful. He’s small and weak and pathetic and one day they’re all gonna figure it out. One day…" (37,896 words plus timestamps)
  jared_padalecki  jensen_ackles  jared/jensen  actor!jared  protective!jared  bottom!jared  actor!jensen  hurt!jensen  bullied!jensen  bulimic!jensen  depressed!jensen  top!jensen  hurt/comfort  angst  depression  selfharm  eating_disorder  bullying  recovery  industry:film  on_set(spn)  first_time  fandom:rpf  author:felisblanco  have:pdf 
april 2016 by elwarre
A Mile in My Shoes, a Lifetime in My Head
One morning Jared and Jensen wake up and find they've been body-swapped. At first, it's pretty funny as they deal with being in each other's body! But things quickly get serious when Jared falls ill and Jensen can't seem to help him. Secrets can't be hidden when you're in your partner's head...
AU  angst  bottom!Jensen  depressed!Jared  depressed!Jensen  protective!Jared  suicidal!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
december 2015 by casey679
Fairytales Don’t Always Have a Happy Ending...
[envious_ema] Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles were America's sweethearts, the golden couple of Hollywood! Their love story was like something out of a Disney fairy tale, and every fairy tale always had a happy ending, right? WRONG! Now their career was in a slump, their relationship is torn apart by mistrust and jealousy and they are weeks away from signing their divorce papers when a surprise lands on their doorstep... literally.
AU:Hollywood  AU:Kid-fic  pairing:Jensen/Jared  actor!Jared  actor!Jensen  alcoholic!Jared  angst  asshole!JDM  bottom!Jared  cockslut!Jared  daddy/guardian!Jared  daddy/guardian!Jensen  depressed!Jared  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jared  possessive!Jensen  protective!Jared  protective!Jensen  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:20K-25K 
october 2015 by casey679
Jensen lives a reclusive life and acts like a jerk for a reason. Jared sees his chance in uncovering it when tutor sessions born of desperation give him the opportunity to talk to Jensen in private. When he falls for Jensen, though, secrets of the past don't seem all that important anymore. That is until life-altering news have Jared wondering if there's more to the proverbial skeleton in Jensen's closet than he ever thought. (Monster 1)
AU  abused!Jensen  angst  bottom!Jared  bottom!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  ex-con!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  mpreg!Jared  student!Jared  tutor!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  pairing:Jensen/Chris  verse:Monster  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  tw:prejudice/discrimination  tw:dub/non-con 
july 2015 by casey679
Forty-Three Days (and timestamps)
The stress of filming the last four episodes of season 3 have caught up with Jensen, who blames his hallucinations on Dean's emotional roller coaster and his own lack of sleep. But a short break between the season finale and the shooting of his new movie fails to improve his mental state. He abandons the movie and becomes a recluse in Vancouver, fearing for his own sanity. Once he realizes that the hallucinations are real, and there's more than just his sanity at stake, Jensen contacts Jared, who may be the only person able to understand what Jensen's going through. Jared arrives in Vancouver just in time to save Jensen's life, but the danger threatening Jensen remains. Their lives become a race against time, and the show has brought them more than they'd bargained for. Jared has to keep Jensen alive for 43 days. Can they make it?
angst  bottom!Jared  bottom!Jensen  cursed!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  protective!Jared  suicidal!Jensen  pairing:Jensen/Jared  AU:Magic  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
june 2015 by casey679
If You're Out There
[soclosetonight] How do you fight back when you can't seem to find your voice? Jensen is doing his best to get by in an abusive household while protecting his younger sister, but as the bruises continue to grow deeper, he doesn’t know how much more he can take. Jared is doing his best to hold them all together, until Jensen takes matters into his own hands. Suddenly thrust upon unexpected journeys, Jared and Jensen will both have to walk alone in order to discover themselves and a way back to one another. (Also archived at
AU:High-School  pairing:Jensen/Jared  A+parenting:Ackles  angst  deaf!Jensen  depressed!Jared  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  kink:drug-use  protective!Jared  protective!Jensen  student!Jared  student!Jensen  tw:dub/non-con  fandom:Supernatural-RPF  length:25K-50K 
may 2015 by casey679
A Mile in My Shoes, a Lifetime in My Head
One morning Jared and Jensen wake up and find they've been body-swapped. At first, it's pretty funny as they deal with being in each other's body! But things quickly get serious when Jared falls ill and Jensen can't seem to help him. Secrets can't be hidden when you're in your partner's head . . .

author: firesign10
j2  bodyswap  depressed!jensen  AO3  words:15000-20000  dld 
april 2015 by troubledwater
Choosing Happiness
Jared worked through his years as an awkward gay teen by always having a sketchbook with him, turning his love of drawing and story telling into a successful career as a graphic novelist. His love/hate relationship with Jensen Ackles, his brother's best friend, insinuates itself into every area of his life, even after years of not seeing each other. When Jared is asked to guest judge during San Antonio's Food and Wine festival, an event Jensen is hosting, their tumultuous relationship comes to a head. Between great food and wine, they are thrust out of the frying pan and into the fire, with emotions and feelings coming to a rolling boil. Question is, will either of them make it through to enjoy dessert?
AU  angst  artist!Jared  bottom!Jared  chef/baker!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  disabled!Jensen  golfer!Jensen  shy/insecure!Jared  pairing:Jensen/Jared  fandom:Supernatural-RPF 
april 2015 by casey679
Jensen Inside
Jared and Jensen have just about everything running smooth and perfect. But something inside Jensen is going to shatter, whether Jared acknowledges it or not. And when it does, there’s no telling how or when the fragments will be reassembled.
rps  non-au  pairing:Jared/Jensen  character:Jared  character:Jensen  character:Sandy  character:Chris  character:Ackles-family  character:Chad  character:Jeff  character:Padalecki-family  character:OMCs  character:OFCs  genre:angst  genre:hurt/comfort  sick!Jensen  depressed!Jensen  hurt!Jensen  hospitalized!Jensen  drugged!Jensen  vulnerable!Jensen  bottom!Jensen  protective!Jared  kink:spooning  mental-illness  160.000-170.000 
october 2014 by somersault1509

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