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Though lovers be lost by panharmonium
"When they tell stories about his life, will they speak of loss or love? You cannot have one without the other, after all."
weeping forever
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september 2015 by Laria_Gwyn
Take my waking slow by panharmonium
"The elusiveness of sleep, and the practice of patience. Three very early mornings in the Kenobi-Skywalker quarters, once the droids have been dismantled and the pyres burnt down."
fandom:starwars  author:panharmonium  genfic 
september 2015 by Laria_Gwyn
buy a dog by panharmonium
"You ask of my companions. Hills, sir, and the sundown, and a dog as large as myself that my father bought me. They are better than human beings, because they know but do not tell. -Dickinson"
fandom:starwars  author:panharmonium  starwars:au  genfic  recommended 
august 2015 by Laria_Gwyn
The mathematics of repair by panharmonium
"For raw teachers and rough-edged students building in the rubble: tiny steps are enough, provided they carry you in the right direction."
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august 2015 by Laria_Gwyn
1. What I like about them

a) oh, the humanity

One of the things I find cool about Jedi Apprentice is that half the series is written from Qui-Gon’s point of view, so you get to see so much of what is going on in his mind, so much of his own growth and his own imperfection. Yeah, he’s a wise Jedi Master, but he’s just a man, in the end. He has flaws, lots of them. He struggles with anger, and loss, and insecurity, and grief. He doesn’t always deal with those things in good ways, not on the first try. He makes mistakes. He learns as much from Obi-Wan as Obi-Wan learns from him, and at the same time, he is humble enough to value this interchange, telling Obi-Wan that “When the Padawan teaches a master in turn, the partnership is right.”

I love that he feels so real to me – not so much an untouchable, unknowable dispenser of wisdom, but a real live person who changes over the course of the series just as much as Obi-Wan does.

b) Curse him and his empathy, Dooku thought.
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march 2015 by Harpijka
The Mathematics of Repair - panharmonium - Multifandom [Archive of Our Own]
Summary: For raw teachers and rough-edged students building in the rubble: tiny steps are enough, provided they carry you in the right direction. Immediately post TPM, in short snippets.

Escerpt: Everything is the same, mathematically speaking.

Mathematically speaking, there is no reason for these small quarters to feel any less full than ever they had. The simple, almost sparse interior has not grown or shrunk, the small rooms still governed by a kinder rule of two – two bodies, two Jedi, two signatures burning steadily in the Force. One teacher, one student, two vows – to teach and protect, to learn and obey; two luminous beings orbiting each other in slow circles of devotion.
fandom:starwars  character:obi-wan  character:anakin  post:phantommenace  author:panharmonium  length:<005000  characterstudy  !_good 
march 2015 by Harpijka
1. What I like about them

Where do you want me to start? Um…everything? Okay, honestly, it’s just I really, really respect him. So…

studiousness – he cares about learning, about always being and doing better; he doesn’t balk at criticism or at attempts to improve his form but rather listens and absorbs; he genuinely wants to be the best he can be and appreciates the wisdom of people around him.

perseverance – Never, ever, ever give up, that’s Obi-Wan; he never, ever, ever gives up; he is never, ever, ever broken. The Force loves Obi-Wan, yes, but it doesn’t smooth his path for him, and Obi-Wan is never resentful of that; he doesn’t spend time railing at the unfairness of it all. ‘Unfair’ isa word he banishes from his vocabulary, and so too ‘impossible,’ and so too ‘whyme’ – none of those things are Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan accepts both the Force’s love for him and the trials it places in front of him with the same grace, and the same gratitude – he knows the Force is not a nursemaid; that it is up to him – and so he pushes and pushes and never ever stops trying, even when ‘trying’ is supposed to be a figment of his imagination. Trying to be worthy of his titles, trying to find peace, trying to raise the child, trying to save the child, trying to protect his child’s child, to keep the Light burning, to keep the faith. He is the very definition of constant striving.

hope – Help me, Obi-Wan Kenobi; you’re my only hope. One thing I find fascinating about Obi-Wan is that he’s surrounded by people who have, at some point in their lives, lost hope, given up. Despaired. Yoda. Anakin. Padme (though god that was a terrible writing decision, I know, ugh). Qui-Gon, even, for years and years, before Obi-Wan came into the picture. Dooku, too, who taught his student that betrayal was the way of the world, and whose disillusionment eventually became too much for him to handle.

But not Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan is hope. He has been since he was a child; since he became the unwitting light that pulled his own future teacher out of a long, miserable darkness. He’s the one who carries the torch between the prequels and the OT; he’s the one who never gives up on the Light. He stays on Tatooine because he believes there’s hope in the galaxy for change. He knows it might be a long time coming, and that he might not live to see it, but he is patient. The fact that he can maintain that kind of hope and faith after everything that happened to him and his people – just. It’s powerful.

sith killer – and what I mean by this is the general sense of brilliance that is Obi-Wan. The Sith haven’t been seen in a millennia, sure, but neither has a Jedi like Obi-Wan Kenobi. I mean, mostly we think of Anakin as being Chosen, but remember that the Force chose Obi-Wan too, to play a different role. I love the sense of destiny hanging over everything he does, the idea that people in the Temple look at him and know he’s marked, in some way.

He bests a Sith when he is still a Padawan. His connection to the Unifying Force is so strong that he’s been sensing Palpatine’s subterfuge and the resurgence of the Dark since his very first line in TPM. He’s a holy terror with a lightsaber, but he could talk his way out of a sarlacc pit if he needed to. He’s sassy and brassy and showy and brilliant, but he tempers all that with a constant process of rigorous introspection, internal reflection, deep thinking, questioning and self-critique.

Obi-Wan becomes a legend at twenty-five, unintentionally, and he never stops living up to it, however distasteful he might find the idea.
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march 2015 by Harpijka

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