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Fic: If They Haven't Learned Your Name [steve/bucky, mcu au]
Steve gets out of the hospital in two days, but just barely. “I’m fine,” he tells Sam, Nurse Eunjung and the phalanx of doctors assigned to make sure Captain America didn’t bleed out and die and get bad PR all over their nice clean hospital. “I have an advanced healing factor. It’s fine. See? I’m standing.”

“That is not standing,” Sam tells him.

“You’re bending the IV stand,” Nurse Eunjung adds pointedly. “Let go and sit down, they don’t grow on trees.”

aka Steve and Bucky's Global Honeymoon Revenge World Tour.
mcu  captain.america  avengers  pairing:james."bucky".barnes/steve.rogers  author:silentwalrus  (au)  (content:ptsd)  (content:trauma)  (content:recovery)  (content:reunion)  [rating:no.pants]  (words:200001-300k) 
june 2018 by midnightbex
Fic: They Say Love Heals All Wounds - Deastar - Hockey RPF [Archive of Our Own]
“Geno? Are you okay? Physically,” Sid asks, which is good, because Zhenya doesn’t think he can put into words how he’s feeling emotionally. He imagines saying, The person I’ve loved for ten years finally took me to bed last night, but it turns out he didn’t want to, and now I can read his mind. No, thank you.

“Feel fine,” Zhenya answers. “Even head feel fine.” And suddenly he realizes how fucking odd that is: he was concussed, and the room is brightly lit – he should be hiding under a blanket right now. He narrows his eyes and asks, “Sid, why head feel fine? What happen to concussion?”

Sid takes a halting step closer to the bed and says, “Our bond, it’s—it’s a healing bond.”

“Holy mother of God,” Zhenya breathes. So. They’re definitely not breaking the bond, then.
hockey.rpf  pairing:sidney.crosby/evgeni.malkin  author:deastar  (genre:rpf)  (au)  (au:psychic/psionics)  (content:soul.bond)  (content:fuck.or.die)  (content:pining)  (content:oblivious.failboats)  (content:angst)  (content:slow.build)  (content:ptsd)  [rating:no.pants]  (words:100001-200k) 
june 2016 by midnightbex
Fic: you've got cracks right through (it's where the light shines out) [poe/finn/rey, the force awakens]
How everyone thinks it should work is, you're broken, and then you repair, and you go on. Poe knows it's not true, even as he sits at Finn's bedside, waits for him to knit back together and wake up.

How it works is: you break, and then you mend yourself, slowly, slowly, until you're almost the same as you were before.

You're not the same, Poe knows. There are always cracks along the seams.
starwars  theforceawakens  pairing:poe.dameron/finn/rey  author:notcaycepollard  (content:recovery)  (content:developing.relationship)  (content:ptsd)  [rating:no.pants]  (words:5001-10k) 
february 2016 by midnightbex
Fic: B-A-N-A-N-A [poe/finn/rey, the force awakens]
Five sleepless nights in the life of Poe Dameron: hotshot pilot, professional hand-holder, droid rescuer, hopeless romantic, and accidental insomniac.
starwars  theforceawakens  pairing:poe.dameron/finn/rey  author:hoosierbitch  (content:5things)  (content:developing.relationship)  (content:hurt/comfort)  (content:ptsd)  [rating:pants]  (words:10001-15k) 
february 2016 by midnightbex
Fic: Any Old Bed Of Nails [steve/bucky, captain america]
"Bucky looks at him, through him; doesn't meet his eyes. "I know you."

"Yeah," Steve says slowly, forcing words out through a throat that has just closed up. "You know me."

Bucky nods jerkily, and produces a gun from somewhere. He offers it to Steve, handle first. "Asset reporting for debrief," he says.

Steve doesn’t know what else to do. He takes it."

A couple of weeks after the events of Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Bucky surrenders to Steve. Then he starts the long road to recovery. Prepare for angst. Lots of angst.
mcu  captain.america  avengers  pairing:james."bucky".barnes/steve.rogers  author:clytaemnestra  !non-con  (content:recovery)  (content:trauma)  (content:amnesia)  (content:ptsd)  (content:angst)  (content:slow.build)  [rating:no.pants]  (words:25001-35k) 
november 2015 by midnightbex
Fic: too late to apologize [bucky/steve, captain america]
Bucky goes to the big Trader Joe's in Union Square for toilet paper and peanut butter cups. When he gets out, his minder is across the street, conspicuously reading a newspaper in the middle of the sidewalk. Bucky has to squint to make out the headline, which is CAPTAIN AMERICA ARRESTED IN ZUCCOTTI PARK.

"Oh, come on," he mutters beneath his breath.
mcu  captain.america  avengers  pairing:james."bucky".barnes/steve.rogers  author:verity  (content:ptsd)  (content:therapy)  (content:recovery)  [rating:pants]  (words:2501-5k)  via:midnightbex 
september 2015 by yarngeek
Fic: too late to apologize [bucky/steve, captain america]
Bucky goes to the big Trader Joe's in Union Square for toilet paper and peanut butter cups. When he gets out, his minder is across the street, conspicuously reading a newspaper in the middle of the sidewalk. Bucky has to squint to make out the headline, which is CAPTAIN AMERICA ARRESTED IN ZUCCOTTI PARK.

"Oh, come on," he mutters beneath his breath.
mcu  captain.america  avengers  pairing:james."bucky".barnes/steve.rogers  author:verity  (content:ptsd)  (content:therapy)  (content:recovery)  [rating:pants]  (words:2501-5k) 
september 2015 by midnightbex
Fic: blessing in your battles [claire/owen, jurassic world]
Karen waits until Owen's taken the boys out for ice cream before she asks. Elbow deep in cleaning out the crockpot Owen insisted on buying after they moved in and she looks like their mother from where Claire is standing, sounds like her, too, when she says: "Are you going to prison?"

Claire groans. "I thought you were going to ask something else."
jurassicworld  pairing:claire.dearing/owen.grady  author:weatheredlaw  (content:post.canon)  (content:ptsd)  [rating:no.pants]  (words:2501-5k) 
july 2015 by midnightbex
Fic: A Little Honey & A Little Sun [bucky/steve, captain america]
Are you offering to give me some honey, he sent back after a moment. He had scrawled a smiley face under the words, with a little tongue sticking out of it. He was used to emoticons, he supposed.


Steve thought for a while, in that sort of half-awake stupor where thoughts drifted like bumbling clouds through his brain. Okay, he sent back. If you'll let me. Always been a hard worker.

Ten hours later, he was calling to get directions, to find out how he could get there, when he could visit.
mcu  captain.america  avengers  pairing:james."bucky".barnes/steve.rogers  author:kvikindi  (content:ptsd)  (content:angst)  [rating:pants]  (words:5001-10k) 
june 2015 by midnightbex
Fic: Sparked Up Like a Book of Matches [bucky/steve, mcu]
It's just that his whole life it's never been the kind of truth that you told.

(Steve says, "I'm good." He doesn't say, Bucky asked if we had sex with and then murdered a prostitute in Toulouse. That's a memory they put in his head. Me and him just hanging out, being guys, murdering prostitutes. He doesn't say, I've been seeing Bucky around every corner, lately, and I thought I was losing my mind but it's really him. It's really him and he's there wherever I go and I know he's not my Bucky, not the one I lost, but I'm not the Steve I was, either.)
mcu  captain.america  avengers  pairing:james."bucky".barnes/steve.rogers  author:sena  (content:PTSD)  (content:angst)  (content:reunion)  (content:coming.out)  [rating:no.pants]  (words:25001-35k) 
june 2015 by midnightbex
Fic: Hard Wired [bucky/steve, captain america]
After a few months of being on his own, his body deteriorating, Bucky knows he's got to go somewhere. He can only think of one place to go.

!!!!This is a long detailed recovery fic that in part, touches on rape and torture during Bucky's time as the Winter Soldier. If either of those things are triggering to you, do not read this.!!!!
mcu  captain.america  avengers  pairing:james."bucky".barnes/steve.rogers  author:arsenic  (content:ptsd)  (content:recovery)  (content:hurt/comfort)  (content:therapy)  (content:non-consensual.body.modification)  !non-con  !torture  [rating:no.pants]  (words:25001-35k) 
may 2015 by midnightbex
Fic: Trust Fall [tony/steve, mcu au]
He watched Cap—Rogers—take in the gleaming armour on the floor, the outfit Tony had on, and the utilitarian but still fairly sophisticated interior of the medical bay. Watched as consternation gave way to creeping dread. “How long?” he asked, after a long moment. He sounded hoarse and far off. “Have we won?”

The door slammed open and both of them jumped. Tony turned to help him and put a hand tentatively on Cap’s wrist. Cap looked at him, watchful, but more trusting than Tony thought he deserved. He tried to keep his voice steady.

“We won,” he said. “We won seventy years ago. My name’s Tony Stark. I’m Howard’s son.”
mcu  captain.america  avengers  ironman  pairing:tony.stark/steve.rogers  author:alchemyalice  (au)  (au:canon)  (content:pre-slash)  (content:epistolary)  (content:ptsd)  [rating:pants]  (words:10001-15k) 
february 2015 by midnightbex
Fic: On The Other Side of a Downward Spiral [bucky/steve, captain america]
Bucky Barnes is barely functioning, let alone living, but when the Avengers find an abandoned baby girl, Bucky has to learn to look after himself, and keep the baby out of Hydra's hands. All while trying to work out exactly what kind of relationship he and Steve want from each other.
mcu  captain.america  avengers  pairing:james."bucky".barnes/steve.rogers  author:torakowalski  (content:kid.fic)  (content:recovery)  (content:ptsd)  [rating:no.pants]  (words:25001-35k) 
november 2014 by midnightbex
Fic: Aftermath, USA [brad/nate, generation kill]
The morning of the assassination, Patti Jankowski got up, took a long shower and towel dried her hair before braiding it into two long ropes that hung over her shoulders. She put on jeans, a t-shirt that showed Mickey Mouse saluting the American Flag, a light tan windbreaker and her comfortable blue SAS sneakers. In her shoulder bag she put a Smith and Wesson .22 caliber revolver, and an umbrella. The forecast was for a 62% chance of rain.
generation.kill  pairing:brad.colbert/nate.fick  author:traveller  (genre:future.fic)  (content:violence)  (content:ptsd)  (content:recovery)  (content:road.trip)  (content:kid.fic)  [rating:no.pants]  (words:15001-25k) 
july 2014 by midnightbex
Fic: I Didn't Know What Time It Was [bucky/steve, captain america]
It’s been two days now. He knows it would be logical to get out of the city, but he’s waiting for something. Against everything he knows about hiding, he went to the exhibit on Captain America at the Smithsonian and looked at a photo of a stranger who might have been his twin from seventy years ago. He’s not sure what he wanted. An epiphany of some kind, a feeling of doors opening and light flooding in; whatever it was, it never came.
mcu  captain.america  pairing:james."bucky".barnes/steve.rogers  author:cadignan  (content:recovery)  (content:ptsd)  (content:angst)  (content:pining)  [rating:no.pants]  (words:15001-25k) 
june 2014 by midnightbex

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